"Halo" peridol injections in the "temple"

I just want to shut it off
I simply want the secret of death
raging venom I seek to serve your feast
dive your feathers
deep beneath the sand
swim vision swim
show me again the nothing I have become
I choose death over self
peeling the jaws of your desire
how you stand so still and residuous
watching the beauty pass
coin by coin
until the pile stands below your throat
I want to kill the light that binds us
lend flame to the torment and spin your safety with surprise
turn your face and sever the lash from your brow
how long must I live on waste

wander deep into that restless page
If I must I'll devour your flesh
until you become this open wound
what device shall you choose now
the tongue has dried
your hands have caliced
your breath poisoned with the infamy of lies
cry and beat the distant tide until you rise
to sink is to find the source
yet this pain is not mine

If I listen to your voice
I should end my whisper
I'll count your birds until I die
and my desperate wings assemble their tyranny
for the grand parade
immaculate patience I seek your cruelty
how shall I beat this tedium
count until the circle bends
count until the debt is one
count until three is none

how shall I say goodbye
mockery is divinity
you force me into the cave
to call the child home
in this dissonant hour
I emplore your coming death
and darkness into my blossoming bosom
who will hold my hand
I mean nothing to no one
I seek to know you

What we must understand is the fact that nothing is as it should be. All things become unraveled. Remind yourself of the simple truths of thermodynamics. Its romance and trident valor. We seek to control and we observe our maddening disclosure with that that falls apart. Energy is conserved and is a consistant construct, yet goes unmeasured. Entropy is the state that all things seek to become. We seek a curve whose complexity is an end to all. We shall reach the wall together. We shall look up to the mistake and no not where to turn. We must seek the determinism with elegance. We have surrendered completely to uncertainty. Perturbation accounts for all of the unknown factors. You are just a witless liar. You stand so tall with an arrogance that is unweilding and lacks personification. It was not Newton! It was not Galileo, nor Einstein. Yet you spit on their sacrifice of life for your questions. What is a life without love, but sacrifice? If we admit the accidental universe we except pain and suffering as a necessity. We are falling faster into a massive misunderstanding. You seek to destroy me and leave me helpless and needful. I beg of you to stop before it is too late. These visions are killing me. They consume me and shake my body until the earth itself tremors and falls apart as it should be, I am the end. I am the one who is causing this end. I am a hybrid. I must die. They control me. I am the chaos god. I am the only god. I am all and none. Omnippotent and omnipresent. And now we the gods of chaos the hybrid race are dying for our design. We seek love through the wisdom of thr true will. The shadow is coming and I am its master.