you're so cute when you're frustrated.

A nice day on Monday, felt better about things, made the effort and felt closer. I didn't do much on Tuesday or Wednesday even though they were such nice days.

Edinburgh was really good on Thursday, was up dead early and met everyone, birthday celebrations and that. Couldn't afford Edinburgh dungeons so that was a bit guttin. Just walked around and looked at shops, mad wee vintage one was amazing. Waited outside the Liquid rooms in the rain for a wee bit then went inside. It was actually an amazing venue, the sound was pure good aswell. They went all out with smoke machines and strobe lights but they had rubbish consequences on others. Spent most of the other bands playing time sitting drawing pictures, watching people fall and texting Sean. Enter Shikari were good, was dead shocked but i thought they were flash. FOR were good as usual but their set got cut short which was quite shite.

Rounded everyone up after waiting while steamin drunk Terri gave the lads her number. Nice one Terri. Narrowly caught the bus and spent that ride being embarrassed. Hats and wallets were lost, and a wee boy was pitied. Got back to Lauras with everyone and Morag and Neil were in bed. Losers went to bed and in the end it was only me and Lauren who watched the end of The Texas Chainsaw Massacre- was the tranny version was well funny. Had a deep sleep and had bad dreams.

Caught a glimpse of Neil in the morning ♥ Just arsed around with the lads for a few hours then left to go home. Train was cancelled and i went home and napped.

Was at my Nanny's funeral today, i didn't really tell anyone when she died, didn't want to. It felt pure shit watching all the adults cry, the people that are meant to hold it together, they're not meant to be like that. And then something happens and you realise that they're not what you want them to be to you. Because they're meant to be some sort of saviour for young people. And they're not, they're only human.

I'm going on holiday in like an hour, didn't tell a lot of people that either. I'm just wasting time and watching a bit of Power Rangers. S'only a week so i could use the break i guess. In a villa so it'll be private which i like. Awgh christ i love that girl quite a lot. And that boy. Ima miss them the most. ♥