Sat, 12 Jun 2004 03:51:40 GMT

maybe this will be a journal of all the things i wish i could tell people (or even admit to myself) but cant. maybe that would make for a better explanation of my choice of username (_spineless) rather than i-just-like-the-word. anyway, i need to sleep soon because im starting to think alot again (how perks of me) & thats when i let things get to me that shouldnt. at least, i think they shouldnt. i worry about people too much & i say "people" impartially only because thats how they treat me. i mean "my friends" though sometimes im not sure of it. i just feel this need for a change, i feel like things are starting to weigh me down again. & i cant let go of certain things (& people) that i sometimes wish i could. long days will do this to you. night. <3.

i woke up to my cold sheets & the smell of new jersey.