___certified spasticated.

RIP.

2006-01-02T15:15:58Z

R.I.P _spasticated

Hello tsubaki_
Comment to be added to my new journal.

_spasticated @ 2006-01-02T07:02:00

2006-01-01T23:09:16Z

2005 started great
and it ended horribly.

i`m probably the only one that actually had a bad year.

this would be my last and final entry in this journal.
it`s time to move on to a new journal
and to stop brooding over things now.

working on my new journal template now.
and deciding whether it should be friends-only or not.
don`t know.

i don`t like people now.
i hate crowds too.
i`m sensitive to light as well.
if i could suck blood, i`ll probably pass off as a vampire.

all i can say is,
FUCK 2005, THE MEOMORIES, THE PEOPLE, THE POINTLESS TEARS.
not that i see any future in 2006,
but i hope it`s better.

Oh yes, resolutions.

1. Ace every single subject. i`m planning to be a workaholic no lifer now.
2. Not fall in love. yeap.
3. Talking lesser, and working more. Enough of words.

Think it`s enough.
Okay, bye people.

rawr.

2005-12-25T15:49:17Z

merry xmas.

had family gathering at my house.
loads of relative came over.
for once i was with such a huge group of people.
i been isolating myself lately from huge crowds
for some strange reason.

but i guess the spirit of christmas melts even the coldest of hearts.
it`s time to move on for me.
school`s starting and i`m ready to hit it on a high note.

love to talk but i`m planning to change journal.
most likely shifting to a new account
will only add those i know.

time to wipe this slate clean.

cheers.

2005-12-24T17:49:18Z

merry xmas.

i finally decided to stop waiting.
like a fool.

time to move on.
note to self-
never buy a dog that has 2 owners.

happy birthday.

2005-12-19T15:32:45Z

to my best friend of six years,
happy birthday you asshole.
finally you`re 18.
hahahah.

_spasticated @ 2005-12-15T21:44:00

2005-12-15T13:44:26Z

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are negative, fearful, resistant, doubtful, and/or selfish.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

o.0 how true.

king kong.

2005-12-15T09:08:34Z

watched king kong today.
initially i wasn`t too interested because i always
felt king kong was stupid.
but hell, the director`s from LOTR.
blasphemy if i don`t watch. lol.

watched at my favorite cinema, the one at sun plaza.
why sun plaza?
because i get to pay 6.50 and then have the whole theater to myself.
hahahaha. sun plaza doesn`t really have a crowd.

but, unfortunately there was.
suprise suprise. theater was filled.
with kids and old ah peks.

there was this fucking kid that kept screaming
and screaming through out the whole movie.
i wanted to stab that fucking whore up.
because i didn`t pay to hear her scream
thru out the damn movie man.
3 fucking hours worth of screaming.
hell, how the hell she do it.

then the ah peks got restless because the movie was long
they started talking in the movie.

I CANNOT STAND PEOPLE WHO HAVE LONG CONVERSTATIONS WHILE WATCHING A MOVIE.
YOU CAN TALK ALITTLE, BUT NOT LIKE ON AND ON.
YOU WANNA TALK LONG, GO BUY THE VCD AND FUCK OFF.

i really hate singaporeans.
they spoilt king kong for me.
otherwise it would have been a really good movie.
go watch it peeps =D

_spasticated @ 2005-12-12T06:13:00

2005-12-11T22:13:57Z

if you really cared about me,
you would have at least called me.
and i wouldn`t turn it down.

but you didn`t and left me waiting.

uh docs.

2005-12-11T22:12:52Z

something`s wrong with me again.
i found myself breaking down and hating everything once again.
it`s that familar feeling once more.
that empty, meaningless feeling.

and i hope my brother recovers from his illness.
he`s sick for quite awhile.
hurts me to see him all fucked up like that.

anyway, i`m really really sick and tired of everything.
and i don`t know why.
and i`m stopping this entry now before it becomes
another one of my long winded pointless post
which everyone skips anyway.

TAEGUKI.

2005-12-11T17:20:19Z

watched the korean war movie, TAEGUKGI
or also known as BROTHERHOOD at vincent`s place today.
i watched it when it first screened at the theaters
and i loved it.
i cried like shit when i watched it.
god, it was that good.

the actors were excellent, the soundtrack was good.
hell, the director was also the same dude that did SHIRI.
all AI members know SHIRI is fantastic.

so anyway, we watched it since vincent never saw it before.
we as in, me,zq and vincent.
and i cried again when i watch this movie.
omfg, it`s so heartwrenching.
i`m becoming a puss now.
no, but honestly if you watch this and you don`t cry
then you`re pretty much a block of stone.

go rent, buy borrow it.
i swear it`s worth it.
i borrow it from zq and i`m gonna watch it again.
lol. omfg, i`m gonna become a korean junkie like my mum.

Luis Notes

2005-12-09T14:52:41Z

This is for all Class 1M Lasalle students.

Luis notes is avaliable for download at:
http://s4.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=230190QWAON2E0GH7FLQ6CYOP8

it be hosted for only 7 days, starting from today.
Please download it, and distribute to everyone in the class.

Note: You will need Winzip or any archiver programs to extract the files.

2 things came by the letter box today.

2005-12-06T21:20:13Z

i finally got my semester results.

Drawing - Class II i
Visual Studies - Class III
Critical Studies - Class II i
Studio Practice - Class II i

Something`s wrong with my visual studies mark. it`s impossible i can get a class 3 for that!
i been doing well for mary`s lesson. like wtf lor.

and i was short of one more mark for my Studio Practice to be a class 1.
chaocheebye.

Art, cannot be graded. It`s sooo subjective to the person marking it.
If he/she hates it, he/she hates it. Unfortunate for you.
Well, the bottom line is that i didn`t fail any subjects.
So that`s okay.

Also, my paycheck came today.
i hate cpf. Deduct until so much, don`t need to buy ipod video already.
kanniabeichaocheebye.
Don`t tell me it`s good for my future.
I don`t need to buy a house at the moment and would appreciate if you give me the cut amount.
And why bother about the future when we can die any day?

Hell.

Right now, i am in perment lockdown mode.
I don`t feel like talking to anybody aside from zq or vincent.
i don`t want to see anybody, nor go out with anybody.
i`m sorry, don`t ask me out for soccer or outings.
i don`t know why.
I just need to get these all sorted out.

However i`m free to talk on the phone.
Just give me a ring.

the annoying season.

2005-12-05T20:25:12Z

watched Aeon Flux today with inez.
it`s dope stuff.
charlie theron is hot stuff.
go watch it people.

i heard the the exam results are out already,
and everyone should get them by post now.
i haven gotten mine yet, and i`m a little worried about that.
maybe i`ll get it tomorrow.
*cross fingers*

christmas is coming, but i don`t feel the spirit.
i hate all those stupid christmas songs being overplayed at malls and shops.
i hate all those stupid christmans decorations.
i hate that stupid christmas carlsberg advertisement.
i basically hate everything.

and stop poking into my life.
i mean it.
it`s annoying, and i don`t care whether you`re just being concern.
just stop asking.
i`ll tell when i feel like telling,
and i ain`t telling you nothing.

what`s it like to take things for granted
and then regret when shit happens?
what`s it like to feel that shit wouldn`t happen
because you have always been healthy, and it happens?
what`s it like to feel to accept that shit and then start moving in life?
and what`s it like to bite the dust, and know that that shit has taken you over?

you wouldn`t know the answer, otherwise you wouldn`t be here.
neither do i.
that`s probably why i can`t sleep at night.

what`s it like to worry about that shit acutally becomes real?
what`s it like to give up everything just for that shit?
what`s it like to die the same way that shit took a life of someone else you loved?

you probably would know, you probably lost a loved one.
but i have never felt that before.
and that`s probably why i can`t sleep at night.

what`s it like to feel empty inside,
feel baren and cold, yet burning with anger
with something you cannot understand and yet refuse to understand?

what`s it like waiting for someone
and then realized you`re gonna die anyway
and then start fading off slowly?

what`s it like?

i`ll never know, so i`ll never sleep.

The Phrase That Pays.

2005-12-03T22:55:00Z

My eyes can't believe what they have seen.
In the corner of your room you've stockpiled millions of my memories.
Oh Doctor, Doctor, I must have gotten this sick somehow.
I'm going to ask you a series of questions,
And I want them answered on the spot, right now.
Is it serious?
I'm afraid it is.
Am I gonna die?
Well son, death is gonna catch up to all one day,
But yours is coming quicker then ours, then ours.

i love the academy is.
i want them to play at my funeral.

that`s all.

2005-11-29T15:59:01Z

my life revolves around silkroad online now.
i wake up at 4pm, and sleep at 7am everyday.
yay it`s unhealthy but who cares.

i just got diagnosed with something serious,
so i`m probably gonna die anyway.

better waste my life away now while i`m at it.
ps, don`t bother asking.
i`m not telling.

random.

2005-11-26T15:56:07Z

it`s been ages since i updated.

went to sentosa today.
a horrible attempt to get a tan.
but like all previous attempts, it failed no thanks to the rain.

inez and isaac`s flying off to china today.
their flight`s at 1am.
sigh. i`m gonna be so bored now.
those 2 buggers.
YOU GUYS BETTER BUY ME SOMETHING FROM CHINA HOR. HAHAHA.

busy playing this online game call Silkroad Online.
http://www.silkroadonline.net
it`s free, and extremely addictive.
but the server`s always full so if u`re lucky u can play it.
i`m on the first server, Xian.

ah well, that`s all for today`s random entry.

oh wait.
i watched the goblet of fire a few days back,
and i hated cho chang and the whole movie.
if not for emma watson, i`ll fucking kill the director.
but i guess we can`t blame him for trying to squeeze 636pages worth
into 2hours and a half.
this movie should be made 4-5hours.
and i would glady sit thru it because HP:TGOF
is one of my fave books among the series.

ah well, i`m sure everyone`s slamming it
so i shall spare the details.
but, i love emma watson and i wish i was victor krum.
and fuck ron weasley.
how can a dork like him be with heromine.
gesububusususus.

end.

the xmas wishlist.

2005-11-20T19:47:13Z

Since Christmas it`s coming, it`s time to start compiling a wishlist.
if any of you wants to play santa and give dear old nic here a pressie,
read on. heh.

and oh yeah, i save a huge sliced of my mother`s cheese cake in teh fridge.
anybody gets me what i want shall have it. =\

nic`s xmas wish list
- 5th Gen Ipod aka Ipod Video
- Levis Square Cut Jeans
- Levis 501 High Cut Button Fly Jeans, 1st washed demin
- Comme De Garcon Tees
- Obey Tees
- Surrender Tees
- Vintage Tees
- 7mind Tote Bag
- People of Asia Slip-on Bag
- Nike Jedi Dunk
- Tommy Hilfiger Blazer
- Loreal Kerastase Shampoo, Conditioner, Hairmask

that`s all.
if you start saving now, i`m sure i`ll get it by christmas.
hahahahaha.
just realized my taste for things are getting relatively expensive these days.
i need my retail therapy.

cheese cakes.

2005-11-18T20:17:57Z

My mother`s cheese cakes are the best.

It cures any form of unhappiness.
if you try her cheese cake, you`ll swear off eating other cheese cakes.
that`s how good it is.

sicky and sucky.

2005-11-18T18:59:40Z

it`s a long day today.
entry today will be mindless and droning.
it will be for once, like a diary.

didn`t sleep well last night.
as a result, lack of sleep and had a killer headache.
younger brother woke me up so i could go down to sim lim square
with him to get his new computer.
something i promised him.

took the train down to sim lim with my brother
and went and got all the parts and stuff.
got the person to assemble for me because i wasn`t feeling to well.

when it was done, collected it and went to the taxi stand.
started to rain. then got heavily.
i never like taking cars because they give me motion sickness.
ironic because i never had problems with roller coasters and all,
only buses and cars.

traffic jam as soon as we hit the expressway all the way till braddell.
taxi was starting and stopping, halting every few seconds.
traffic condition was coming to a crawl
and i started getting even dizzy.

on top of that, i was running late.
suppose to meet isaac, von and nez for dinner at joquims today.
but the fucking traffic jam delayed me from getting home quick.
and it didn`t help by making me even more sick.
dude, i`m suppose to go for a buffet.
how to eat when i`m like super sick now.

finally had to cancel with him my meeting because of my condition.
hated the feeling because already wen jie pang seh us
and he`s been looking forward to this dinner for a long time.
also, promised nez that i would be there tomorrow.
rain or shine. can`t believe i actually said that.
and then back out of it.

sucky and all.

had a tiff with a friend today.
got ugly.
but nevermind.

my head`s spinning now.
and i`m hungry. shouldn`t have missed it.

nez told me they went nydc instead
and i`m like triple guilty now.
and i was supposed to treat isaac as well.

had to squeeze my dad`s arm to get my pay early
only to have today wasted.
gah i hate it. hate hate hate it.

once upon a time..

2005-11-17T19:22:08Z

you know the my previous post?
the one with the match stick joke?

if you didn`t catch it, here it is once more:

There was once a matchstick who scratched its head.

Then it died.

*pauses, before bursting into a fit of laughter*
i say it`s as funny as shit when i first saw it.
i just kept on laughing and laughing like some mental retard.

But i was thinking,
wouldn`t it be funnier if i said:

There was once a matchstick who scratched its head.

Then it caught fire.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
*dies of laughter*
omg, i`m so bimbotic now.
wait, i`m himbotic now. hahahAHAHAHAHAHAHa.
hahahahahaha. mentally unsound.

Let me tell you a story...

2005-11-16T22:20:18Z

There was once a matchstick who scratched its head.

Then it died.

Never trust a woman when she says BRB.

2005-11-16T18:55:38Z

watch this mtv

http://www.bobricci.com/sbm.htm

I died laughing.

random.

2005-11-15T19:02:55Z

haven updated in a while.
things are pretty much bad.
i`m kinda messed up now.
don`t know why, but i well i just feel so messed up.

that explains why lately i haven been able to update
despite having shitloads of stuff to write about.

love life`s pretty much chaotic and in a wreck now.
well, i think the word is was.
not sure whether the storm`s over,
but as far as i`m concern-
i don`t see any island. yet.

brought my ipod mini down to the care centre today
to get my battery fixed/replaced.
the thing about ipods is that they have sucky batteries.
but, we get to replace them for free.
and we get a totally new one.
so i`m planning to take this new ipod mini and sell it
and buy myself the 5th generation ipod.
the latest one, color, plays videos, pictures, songs and slimmer.
basically a larger nano. with more space of cause.

anybody interested in buying a new ipod mini?
i`ll give you a good price.

also went to the driving centre today
to enquire about taking a licence in motocycles.
yeah, class 2b.
i know i always wanted to get my own vespar,
but ever since i met isaac,
he`s been influencing me with chopper bikes
and well, i`m probably gonna get those chopper-like bikes instead.
minus the box at the back though,
because i honestly feel that the box makes all motorcyles
fucking ugly. without it, they look so much meaner and cooler.
with it, they look like uncles from malaysia.
no offense to my malaysian friends.
i love malaysia. truely asia.
haha.

been wasting my life away at my computer.
am dying to do something else before my goddamn hols end.
which, ends in about 45 days time. a month and a half more.
which is scary, because i realized i haven actually done much yet.
yet.

it`s like there`s this huge void in my life now.
something`s really missing, and i`m trying to piece it together.
don`t seem to know why i`m getting all emo-ish again,
when i thought i have already passed that phrase.
sucky.
it`s like i`m having male pms now.
thanks god i don`t bleed.
okay, gross.

so this is a pretty much random post.
shoot me.

ps- i been getting quite a lot of injury recently.
my body`s getting weaker too.
my knee caps hurt like shit when i walk.
my body hurts when i sneeze.
and because so many people are thinking about me,
i keep sneezing 345254 times every day,
so my body hurts like shit now.
thank you for your love people,
but i did appreciate you stop thinking about me for one day.
hahaha, just kidding.

Gay boyfriend.

2005-11-11T17:44:26Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=E0SNS5-yRvA&search=Gay

please spend some time and watch this mtv.
it will make you reconsider guys.
hahahahahahahahaha.
oh my god.

special thanks to graphic_miffy for this crazy song.

I bet you didn`t know hate.

2005-11-11T17:40:56Z

i abhor, abominate, allergic to, anathematize, loath,
be reluctant, be sorry, can't stand, contemn, curse, deprecate,
deride, despise, detest, disapprove, disdain, disfavor, dislike,
disparage, down on, execrate, loathe, nauseate, object to,
recoil from, scorn, shudder at, shun, spit upon, spurn moments like this.

sometimes it`s time like this that just want
to make me pack my bags and leave this fucking planet.

everything was going on as usual,
but i had to open my big fat mouth to blow it all up.
i realized that i`m getting a hell lot of emotional now these days.
it`s like i`m lacking attention and i`m behaving like an
attention-starved kid.

i have no fucking idea why, because all this while
i`m perfect with being myself, flying solo and single and all.
but once i get muddled up with that word which scares me all the time-
i go haywire. i get uber sensitive and shit happens.

i wish i wasn`t like that.
because i`m only destroying things.
i`m a destroyer.
as much as i try to mend things, i break then apart again.
just for kicks. oh yes, just for kicks.
hate me, sue me, whatever me.
just don`t say you like me because it breaks me down.

i want to go on ranting and saying things without giving
a fucking consideration whether i`m hurting people`s feelings or not.
i have always been frank and forthcoming, and i shall be.
so fuck everyone and i hope you all are hoping i die.

drank a lot of wine today at work.
am not tipsy, but there`s still that a bucket of red wine burning in my stomach.
oh don`t tell me i`m drunk you stupid fucks.
blah blah blah blah blah. whatever. like fuck you.

and don`t even go, awww. he`s going emo all over again.
*pats shoulder* good job! keep it up ya?
emo kids are coolio!!!1111!!11.
whatever. i`m yellow remember?
and i can`t jam for nuts.
i don`t even spread jam for bread for christ sake.
oh shit wait, i don`t even eat bread.

wahahahahahahaha.
i just love talking crap and all. if you sat thru this bullshit,
then it`s just your luck!

and while i`m at annoyance,
i hate MRT PEOPLE. they all fucking should die.
and don`t tell me that`s a grammer error there. shutup.
i will write, the way i want it to be.
if yoda can speak yoda-ish, or whatever that green fart speaks
then i can speak nic-ish, or whatever that yellow gas speaks.

one day, i will become president
president you hear me! i will become president of...
wait. i don`t want to be president of you know what.
i`m just a fucking puppet only.
people pull strings in my pants.
my balls will just go up and down.
nor do i want my face printed on every fucking dollar.
you know what people do with notes right?
they sit on them.

YES THEY SIT ON THEM.
they put them in their smelly butt sweat laden wallets
and then sit on it.

i don`t wanna smell those.
i want to be something else.
like.. like.. something else. quick. think for me.

*snap fingers*

i want to be a toilet bowl.
this way, i can talk shit. and still flush away my shit.
once in awhile, shit gets stuck on me
but that`s fine, because i`m a toilet bowl.
blah blah blah.
don`t tell me what to fucking do!

and i`m not a criminal. i`m just a rebel.
and don`t you dare compare me with anyone.
a rebel, is a rebel. we are alone.
wait, did i just said we?
fuck hell no, i mean i.
i, are alone.
i, are baboon.

now fuck off, you actually wasted time reading this trash.
while i wasted time typing this trash.

who loses out more? the eye or the hand?
can an eye masturbate?
no. so the hand wins.

yay, fuck off.