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[May. 19th, 2013|03:06 pm]
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awkward dreams
yesterday & today
i really know
my head got knocked.
its a star marked on my skull.
yesterday
we went out for breakfast, then
we headed over to the next county
I was avoiding the rebirth and burial
of my sisters cat... that's been living with mom.
doesn't mean i didn't cry for her all week
the cat not the sister.
bought white bleeding hearts
for spots grave. spots new name is star.
& she dances across the cosmos
free from her body slowly becoming
paralyzed into falling over.
I wanted one day free of them.
we have a family dinner today.
the brother is trying to have a tradition
so its not them free
but i get to come home to sleep.
he and they got to work on taxes yesterday.
I was so glad to not be there.
got home it seemed normal
but as i went to bed
i found some one peed on our bed!
they're not supposed to be in the bedroom at all.
so mikes off washing bedding.
he'll be late I saw the emergency van go by
so he'll be late-er... I hear him now.
the bark alarm is greeting him.
a guy was having stroke symptoms.
mike got there just in time to
help him relax.
I'm listening to
"the girl with no shadow"
its the 2nd time thru.
here's what I've been working on
looks like one primrose
my yellow iris's and some coral bells
made it thru winter.
all my roses in the front are dead.
the wild roses are doing good.
its hot & humid outside,
over cast with tornado warnings.
I'm not going to eat much at the folks.
I've had a hard time to eat tomato based food.
it makes my tummy burn.
mikes gone down where its cooler
i prefer it up here where its not as cool.
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| Wondering |
[May. 19th, 2013|01:53 pm]
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I wonder if I wil ever get out of my present home.
I am making $$ for rent, food, utilities, and a small sub-set of vitamins/supplements. But I cannot seem to save adime to pay for depost/rent on a new home.
I make a bit less than $100/day, and I do not have the strength to work 7 nine hour days (or even 5 days) most weeks. And May is far far better than summer usually is.
Rosie, my landlady is very patient. but the great unknown looms ahead of me.
I am neither depressed nor overly worried. Just concerned. I know what needs to get done, but that does not help me to make it happen.
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| Getting Back into Avocados |
[May. 18th, 2013|03:48 pm]
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Kelleigh gave me an avocado the other day. I have no paper bags so it did not ripen well. Near skin, the avocado is black & gushy. Near pit it is hard and unripe.
However, it goes well with my chili. I need to procure a paper bag and ripen them properly.
Looking on a website, they say a "Serving" is 1/5 of an avocado. Idiots! I eat half an avocado a day.
How to Ripen or Speed up the Ripening Process for Avocados
"Avocados do not ripen on the tree, they ripen or “soften” after they have been harvested. To speed up the avocado ripening process we recommend placing unripe avocados in a brown paper bag with an apple or banana for two to three days until they are ripe. We do not recommend any other method of ripening."
https://www.avocadocentral.com/how-to/how-to-store-how-to-ripen-avocados
I may buy an apple or banana, ripen some avocados then give the fruit to Porkchop.
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| Big Gay Al Cogitations |
[May. 18th, 2013|02:33 pm]
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This post is an outgrowth of my cogitations on the material I posted in International Day Against Homophobia and Transphobia Bad News List
It relates to Big Gay Al. I has e known Al for about 15 years now. Al's heath is miserable, as are his choices on lovers. Al has some of most severe misfortunes of anyone I know. I keep trying to "educate him" about making beter health and lifestyle choices, but things always go awry for him.
When I read of all the worldwide brutality, murders, discrimination against gay people around the world ---- which has been continuing non-stop over many many centuries ---- I am jarred out of my complacency that things have improved in big ways in my lifetime.
Fuck! It took me over 5 years before I could take a bus past the convention center where I holed-up in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina. Zorp, who had a far far worse post-Katrina experience than I did, is still very twitchy and less in touch than his old pre-Katrina self.
So, I am going to stop giving Al any advice he does not specifically ask for, and I shall assist Al in any way I can to smooth his journey to San Francisco in June.
I seriously doubt moving to SF will cure his "bad luck" but out in California he has a much better change of getting a monthly check to ease his way because of his C.O.P.D.
I am making one exception to my not giving advice rule. I did some research on COPD just now. Stopping smoking *NOW* is imperative.
Spraying vitamin C solution into the back of the throat every time someone craves a smoke will reduce the craving.
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| Very Strange Indeed! |
[May. 18th, 2013|05:31 am]
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For many many years, I never liked being touched unless I was being touched by a lover, or by someone I wanted to have sex with.
Tonight, I discovered that there is at least one exception. My brain is still trying to figure out that situation.
Sky is a fellow reader. Sky is a pre-op transsexual who is a heavy smoker. And a heavy drinker. I have no sexual interest in Sky. Even if she did not smoke, and did not have a boyfriend, I would not be interested. Sky has no pussy and people without pussies are of no interest to me.
Sky walked behind me while I was sitting at my work set-up. She began scritching the back and top of my head. I zoned right out. I felt like a dog being scratched on the head. It felt amazing!
Later, she again walked behind me and again scritched my head. It was bliss! I had no gross-out because her hands smelled strongly of tobacco. Not an erotic feeling. Just bliss.
Later, I was attempting to figure out why this had felt so good, and what did it mean. A drunk gal who smokes came by and touched me. I was utterly repulsed and grossed out.
So my anti-touch and anti-smoker repulsion is still mainly in place.
I am very very perplexed.
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| Phone Will Say On! |
[May. 18th, 2013|05:06 am]
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MyVanilla chargecard is finally showing the transaction I made several days ago.
My mind still boggles that two virgin mobile internet accounts (WiFi and Cellphone) behave so differently.
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| happy fried day |
[May. 17th, 2013|06:41 pm]
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the alarm on the radio clock
didn't work but a bird?thrush?
woke me up at 6:30.
and I got mom to the clinic in time.
I've a card frequent flyer card
at the coffee/beverage bar in the waiting room
so my reward for bringing the folks there
is coffee(oh boy)I've not been making it at their house
left the computer home and no coffee =B^[
no wonder i'm a bitch.
the psychologist mom is seeing
is a dr. Bailey she's southern
and does cognitive therapy-
told mom she should help with problems now
and not bother with the Freud stuff and its better
over the long run and more effective .
she asked mom to invite dad to come too.
she'll give them both help
and we won't have to wait for dad to get help
another month after
(when his neurologist finally sees him)
I'm sure she's aware of the movie Harvey
and George Bailey. BUT I wonder about her Pooka.
What form her guardian is..
I broke dad's computer because dad insisted he'd
rearrange it and i grabbed it and the dvd/rw drive popped out
and i think i broke it Austin says he don't use it-no big deal NBD
of course dad focused on me yelling at him for fussing with it
they Both fuss CONSTANTLY (ocd) with crap
and he did not have his hearing aids in
of course i yelled [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<dam f*****r>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] the alarm on the radio clock
didn't work but a bird?thrush?
woke me up at 6:30.
and I got mom to the clinic in time.
I've a card frequent flyer card
at the coffee/beverage bar in the waiting room
so my reward for bringing the folks there
is coffee(oh boy)I've not been making it at their house
left the computer home and no coffee =B^[
no wonder i'm a bitch.
the psychologist mom is seeing
is a dr. Bailey she's southern
and does cognitive therapy-
told mom she should help with problems now
and not bother with the Freud stuff and its better
over the long run and more effective .
she asked mom to invite dad to come too.
she'll give them both help
and we won't have to wait for dad to get help
another month after
(when his neurologist finally sees him)
I'm sure she's aware of the movie Harvey
and George Bailey. BUT I wonder about her Pooka.
What form her guardian is..
I broke dad's computer because dad insisted he'd
rearrange it and i grabbed it and the dvd/rw drive popped out
and i think i broke it Austin says he don't use it-no big deal NBD
of course dad focused on me yelling at him for fussing with it
they Both fuss CONSTANTLY (ocd) with crap
and he did not have his hearing aids in
of course i yelled <dam F*****r>
panicking and freaking about wrecking his
computer didn't have anything to do with it
nope he's the injured party(grumble)
i finished making them a great dinner
and told them you are on your own till
austin gets here you'll be fine
put the food i had made for me in the fridge
and came home.
before the last fiasco
as we were getting ready to go to courage center
i tried opening my car door and it ricocheted back
and nailed me in my right ear.(the drive is at an angle)
drove to forest lake with frozen peas on my ear
got there only 10 minutes early
and tried putting them in the freezer for an hour
but they peed on me so they stayed there in the trash
about an hour after getting there
my head burped ? sideways IT WAS THE WEIRDEST THING
but i feel ok now
other than being irritated with my dad the brat
and running away.
called the brother and told i had run away,
and the reasons.
also told him Spot(the cat) need to pass on
she can't stand up , and i couldn't bring her to the vet.
it was more than i could handle
the sister told me he was thinking
about doing it so that will probably will happen tomorrow.
but for now
i'm not part of the circus
don't know what else i'll do
this weekend
but i'll do it slowly
hugs to you all
just Is me
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| Phone On or Off Real Soon |
[May. 17th, 2013|04:30 pm]
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MyVanilla is *STILL* not showing $$ taken out by Virgin phone account. No idea why. So my phone may stop working soon.
The Virgin mobile phone account shows my debit card info and that things are set for automatic payments
Time will tell, I suppose.
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| Moringa Leaf |
[May. 17th, 2013|04:02 pm]
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Moringa leaf powder has been recommended by Jim on Coconut oil list.
I can't keep up with buying my present gamut of supplements these days. So this i simply a reminder for me to check into Moringa when my cash flow is much better.
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 Containing over 90 nutrients and 46 antioxidants, Moringa (Moringa Oleifera) is one of nature's most nutritious foods. Ideal for helping our bodies maintain optimum health and balance.
Moringa leaves are highly nutritious and are rich in vitamins D, K, A, C, B6, Manganese, Magnesium, Lysine, Riboflavin, Calcium, Thiamin, Potassium, Iron, Protein and Niacin. Ounce for ounce, Moringa contains seven times the Vitamin C found in oranges, four times the beta carotene of carrots, three times the iron of spinach, four times as much calcium as milk, three times the potassium of bananas and more fiber than oats. Moringa also contains all 8 essential amino acids and is rich in flavonoids, including Quercetin, Kaempferol, Beta-Sitosterol, Caffeoylquinic acid and Zeatin.
Moringa is sometimes referred to as the "Miracle Tree" because all parts of the plant are edible and healthy. It can also thrive in tough climates and poor soil. Its combination of high nutrition, sustainability and hardiness has caused it to be promoted widely in Africa to help fight hunger and malnutrition.
Our Moringa is grown organically (certification pending) without the use of pesticides or chemicals.
Suggested Use: Mix 1 teaspoon with juice, yogurt, add to your favorite smoothie, or infuse into a tea.
Botanical Name: Moringa oleifera, Moringa pterygosperma
Other Names: Drumstick Tree, Horseradish Tree, Malunggay, Sahijan, Benzolive, Kelor, Marango, Mlonge, Mulangay, Ben oil tree, Saijhan, Clarifier tree, Shevaga, Mother's best friend, Malungay, Sajna, Kamungay, benzolive tree, nebeday, saijhan, West Indian ben, sajna, Coatli, Bridal veil
Origin: India - Organic Certification Pending
http://www.znaturalfoods.com/Moringa-Leaf-Powder-1-lb
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