The Socially Retarded

Wow what a bunch of corporate whores

2007-07-21T21:23:57Z

Yeah this call center where I do security..
Totaly soul sucking corporate love in.
This is what it says when you log in.
"UNAUTHORIZED ACCESS TO THIS SITEL NETWORK DEVICE IS PROHIBITED.
You must have explicit permission to access or configure this device,
and any activities performed on this device may be logged.
Any violation of this policy may result in disciplinary action,
and violators may be reported to law enforcement officials.
THERE IS NO RIGHT TO PRIVACY WHEN ACCESSING THIS DEVICE ."
Gotta love that little bit about giving up your right to privacy. I'm sure thats legal...
Another wonderful little thing i read in the lunchroom today..
LUNCH AND LEARN! :D
Lunch and learn is where you give up your lunch break to learn about exiting new career advancements within the corporation. (AKA not only are we not going to pay you to retain you, we want you to give up your lunchtime that we have to give you by law, not sure thats legal either)
Remeber if your lunch break doesn't fall at the same time as Lunch and Learn you may ask your teamleader to move your lunchbreak so you can attend, but they must aprove!

_social_retard_ @ 2007-07-06T03:56:00

2007-07-06T08:05:20Z

Life is big, real big. How's a kid supposed to figure shit out in this world of flashing screens and hot asphalt. All I ever wanted was to do the right thing, be a good person and I figured happyness would follow. Everything I knew as a boy has been turned on it's head. I guess that's what becoming a man is all about. The world isn't about happyness, goodness, badness or love. It's about paying bills on time and just going through another day without killing yourself. It's about lieing to yourself just enough so that you don't mind untill it's too late. It's about corporate drones, and small by the cooler. It's about drownign your sorrow in booze and sex till you don't know your unhappy let alone why you're unhappy. We keep fighting the unhappyness liek it's some kind of cancer. But maybe theres a good reason to be unhappy.
I'm rambling. I'm tired. I'm drunk on too much life and not enoguh substance.
They'res got to be something more though. Something more than this stainless steel distopia there offering me.
I can hear the birds singing.
The sun will be up soon.
There is still hope.

sigh

2007-07-02T02:42:09Z

Bad day.. bad feeling...
I've been on an emotional high lately (thats part of the reason why you havn't seen me posting much lately, I've been keeping buisy). Even when I had the lows they were relative. To be truthfull it is even now. But I lack something in my life. Companionship. I think. It's hard to say what's missing when that hole has never been filled by anything. Oh I've had plently of lovers, partners, friends, and all that Jazz, and I'm not in an abiss of lonelyness right now. But I feel like an unfinished puzzle. I feel like half of something. Like a child who's lost his imaginary friend and can't find it anymore. Or one of a kind. Alien. And while it is nice to feel unique...
It's nice to feel like you belong too. To feel like there is somewhere you can stop and catch your breath. To have someone you can confide in and wont be judged or manipulated. Someone to watch over me (to quote a cheezy song).
And I don't feel like I have those things. Like I have a home or a soul mate. Maybe my expectations are too high? But it would seem that others have found these feelings of comfort, belonging and love. Maybe I just havn't found the right place and person and such? But I'm 23, a grown man, many have settled down long before my age. Or maybe I'm just too broken? But the more I look at the world around me the more I realise that I am sane, adaptive and inteligent. The truth probably is a little bit of all those things. There are no story book endings in life, save for those who write them themselves and I'm too inteligent and sinical to beleave in a fairlytail anyways...
I just wish I had the content sence of self I had as a boy. This world took a chunk out of me somewhere along the way and I still don't have it back.
Getting there though...

Welcome to nineteen-eighty-four...

2007-06-30T16:19:43Z

Every day I read the news and every day I find our world becoming more and more like George Orwell's classic story of a distopia where mindless masses are controled by an intrusive and corupt government.
It's CCTV in in England one day. Today it's youth being hasseled in airports for sharing a name with a suposed criminal.
http://www.cbc.ca/canada/story/2007/06/29/nofly-kids.html
Two boys named Alistair Butt were stoped from boarding flights here in Canada and delayed in thier travels recently. Why? Because appearantly someone with that name is on a dreaded "no fly list". This is ridiculess. These no fly lists just had one more hassel to a traveling process already bogged down with too many hoops to jump through.
There are millions of people in Canada alone, it's a no-brainer that the names on that list are not unique to those it was intended to impeed. In this case the unitended victims were childen. Again it doesn't take a genious five minutes to realise that these are not the Alistair Butt you seek, yet they were detained none the less and delayed in a clear violation of so many freedoms protected in our constitution that I don't even know where to start. In fact an airline official had the nerve to even suggest that one familiy changes thier son's name. Another quote I find disturbing is this one. "We regret any inconvenience, but security must remain of paramount concern," from Air Canada. Since when have we as a free and democratic country sacraficed all else for the sake of 'security'. Our courts have repeated over and over again that freedom and NOT security has always been our paramount concern. Our very constitution is based on the ideal that it is better to let some criminals get away than to persecute the innocent. That is what separates a democracy from a facist state.
I find this disgusting, but these boys are lucky. What if young Alistair had been just a couple years older? What if he was traveling alone? What if the next person caught in this net off 1000 or so names isn't so innocent looking? Will he be delayed for more than a few hours? Will he be thrown into a cell and held overnight untill he can prove he is not infact this man with the same name as him he's never met? And how can one prove that? The airlines and government wont even tell us wich list Alistair Butt's name falls under, let alone how to get it off there or who these people are. They wont tell us what names are on the list, so that means that MY name could be on that list, and I wont know untill I go to fly and someone slaps a pair of cuffs on me for sharing a name with a suspected criminal. Chew on that next time you're waiting in line to dump the contense of your pockets into a tray and have your body scaned while some stranger goes through the contence of your bag.

Father's Day

2007-06-17T20:19:16Z

As Mother's day starts to become as tapped out as can be as a corperate holiday buisnesses are starting to focus more on Father's day, News and Media have caught on and are following suit. Add that to you're general yearly stuff all my friends do with thier fathers and I'm feeling pretty shitty right now. It's never seemed to bother me before but this year I really feel empty. I've never really known how to feel about the absence of my father. The absence itself makes me feel sad and inadequet. And while I'm not sure I miss him, due to the fact that I never knew him so well, this leads to feelings of confusion and guilt. Also there is the whole fact that if my dad were still around he would probably still be a deadbeat. Our relationship was always aucward at best. He didn't know what he was expected to do (his atempts at fathering were sporatic and steriotipical like trying to teach me to skate or taking me fishing) and he was overwhelmed by his own neative emotions wich often sprung from his own disfucntional relationship with his father. As i grew through my childhood he withdrew more and more both phyisicaly and mentaly/emotionaly, often through the use of drugs and alchol. He tried a couple times to rehabilitate himself, but as is the case with many drug users he slipped back into his old rutines because his rute problems were never adressed. Finaly near the end of our relationships I realized that I didn't recognize the man that was my father anymore and i was ashamed of him. Now I'm not sure how to feel. Theres an old unread letter from him sitting in my mom's drawer. I hope that he's gotten his life together a little since then because I'm not sure I could deal with seeing him anyworse than he was before. I'd much rather remember him smiling trying to teach me to skate.

"Exporting Democracy"

2007-06-16T18:34:41Z

http://www.cbc.ca/world/story/2007/06/16/gaza.html
The hipocracy is deafening.
Palestine has democratic elections, votes in the Hamas party. Western society doesn't like Hamas, they call them terrorists and signs a massive trade embargo and cut off aid to the wartorn country untill they get rid of said democraticaly elected government. The Fatah party (well known for being corupt) then proceeds to have a bunch of gunfights in the streets with the Hamas party and eventualy storm the parlament and take power in what would be generous to call a coup (so if Hamas are a bunch of terrorists what does that make Fatah?). It makes them U.S. backed lapdogs that's what. Why does the west INSIST on meddling in the afairs of other countries? Stirring up strife, violence and death as they go? Is this part of the roadmap to peace? Is this exporting deocracy? This is a sick joke is what it is. The middle east would have been so much better off if countries like the U.S. and Briton never started sticking thier noses where they dont belong. But we can't change the past. So what can be done? Should the coalition pull out of Iraq? Should western countries wash thier hands of the midle east and leave them to do as they please? Or can some plan of action be implimented to make the region more peacfull and democratic? I'm not sure, but I do know this. Untill Administrations like that of Bush's stop pouring bullshit all over everything and calling it apple pie nothing we will keep seeing more violence abroad, specificaly more violence and anger directed at western society, and soon enough we will see more violence at home because of this too. Our governments have to come clean about thier policies and thier intentions behind them if they are to properly represent and serve us. We cannot allow our elected representatives to make decisions that we ourselves would feel shamefull of. As long as we continue to vote in yes men, morons, and self serving villians the blood will be on our hands as well and thiers.

But he spat on me first!

2007-05-08T21:57:00Z

http://www.cbc.ca/canada/british-columbia/story/2007/05/08/bc-spitting.html?ref=rss
Read this today. Priceless. Just wonderful. The guy gets spit on so he chases the other guy and yells and spits back at him. Fucking childish. Disgracefull even. What does his company do? They defend it.

"You've got a long-term employee who was spit on by somebody and reacted to it. It's maybe not what everybody would want, but in society, being spit on is not something someone should be expected to take and not react to it at all."

Spitting back at people is what children do, not eployees who work in thew customer service industry.
The problem with this is that there are so many low brow retards workign as bus drivers. YES it's a stressfull job, YES you have to deal with a public who spit, yell, threaten and do everything else under the sun. But you can't just retaliate. That's stooping to their level and altough I don't want to have to live inthe same city as a bunch of monkey's I SURE as hell do now want to have to be driven around by a bunch of monkies. God how can they defend that sort of behavior?

"If you went into a Canadian Tire and you didn't have enough money to buy something, and the clerk said, 'You can't have it because you didn't pay for it,' you spit on them, you'd expect the security guard to grab them and have them arrested."

This is another nice little quote. gotta love this "Well he did it to me first" mentality. What are we FIVE? And NO security guards DO NOT "grab and arrest" people for spitting. Well trained security guard do not grab PERIOD. Why? Because it's uncouth and potentialy illigal.

Look a fact of life is that when you are providing a service like busses you are going to deal with all the unwashed, crackhead, trained monkies in the city. It's a given, you're offering the cheapest form of moterized trasportation. So you're going to get dumbasses who try to sneak onto the bus for free and then spit on you when you don't let them. Is it right? NO of course not. But is it right to man your busses with the same fucking knee-jerk monkies? No! And fuck if the busses are too dangerous up the security. Impliment procedures to deal with the situation. Don't go spitting on eachother like a couple of fucking animals. What's next? arming your drivers with clubs? Hey you know it would probably be cheaper to man your busses with REAL trained monkies. They might spit less too.

This kinda shit pisses me off. Have some fucking human dignity people. Don't spit on people. Even if they spit on you first.

If it's not working change it.

2007-05-02T21:12:22Z

You know it's no secret that I'm constantly pulling my hair out about everything. Work, roommates, sex, school, relationships, just life in general. I seem to stress out about everything and I'm always looking on the dark side of things, and then when I do I get angry at myself for being stressed or negative and things spiral out of control. I think it's pretty ovbious I need to make some lifestyle changes. I think I've made some good starts, moving was a good idea. Already i'm sleeping better. I sleep for shorter periods of time and I feel more refreshed when I wake. I think going to school is going to be a mixed blessing. Some things will be posative and may help me relax and find peace like the setting, though some things like exams will stress me out more. Right now it's just extra stress because I need to save up a lot of money and I know i'm not gonig to be ableto save all that so I'm going to need to take out another loan and that stresses me out more. Speaking of saving money I think I need to change my work scedual. Right now I got layed off from one of my sites wich means less hours for a little bit. I should take advantage of that and relax a little. Then in a bit I'm supposed to have a meeting with a manager and union rep to find myself a new site. I think I should push for someplace quiet and close to where i'm living now. I think on the whole I need to detach a little and take a simpler more "laisser faire" aproach to life. I need to stop stresing so mcuh. im just not sure how to do that. Maybe I should take up yoga or something? I dunno. Anyways...

_social_retard_ @ 2007-05-01T17:24:00

2007-05-01T21:35:58Z

I wish i didn't feel so shitty all the time.
I just.. can't seem to stop focusing on all the negative stuff. *Sigh*
All the "what ifs" and "I wish that was me." and "Why does this happen to me?" shit.
There are plenty of things to be happy about. Lots of good stuff in the world too, I just don't seem to care about it.
I guess that's what a personality disorder is?
Also even when I DO try and focus on the enjoyable stuff I just seem to be wasting time untill I feel bad again. I can't win. And it seems like every day I find new reasons to feel like shit. Anyways maybe Im just exausted. This move, and before that the school stuff, and being dicked around by work. I was at Richard and Ginny's wedding on saterday and it was great but kinda tiring. I never slept properly at the other place. I would "sleep" for like 11 hours and get up and still feel exausted liek i could go back to bed and sleep another 11. Then yesterday I had to clean the whole place top to bottom and my roommates didn't help anymore than take their stuff out and throw out some trash. I washed 2 bathrooms and a kitchen and they were nasty. I hope I feel better soon. I feel like i've been unhappy for so long. I know it comes and gos but it just feels so overwhelming...

Sorrow by Bad Religion

2007-05-01T15:36:47Z

Father can you hear me?
How have I let you down?
I curse the day that I was born
and all the sorrow in this world

Let me take you to the herding ground
where all good men are trampled down
Just to settle a bet that could not be won
between a prideful father and his son

Will you guide me now for I can't see a reason
for the suffering and this long misery
What if every living soul could be upright and strong?
Well then I do imagine

There will be (sorrow)
Yeah there will be (sorrow)
And there will be sorrow no more

When all soldiers lay their weapons down
or when all kings and all queens relinquish their crowns
Or when the only true messiah rescues us
from ourselves it's easy to imagine

There will be (sorrow)
Yeah there will be (sorrow)
And there will be sorrow no more

There will be (sorrow)
Yeah there will be (sorrow)
And there will be sorrow no more

Yeah there will be (sorrow)
Yeah there will be (sorrow)
And there will be sorrow no more

Coffee is bad for ferrets (thats me)

2007-04-26T22:08:34Z

Erf I am like *ZING!*
I feel like there is a ball bouncing around my insides.
I feel stressed.
Bad coffee BAD!
Uhm... I'm settling in okay at my mom's (for those of you not in the know I moved in there to save up some money for school and get away from my messy pothead roommates)
Sleeping way better. Got more energy. LIKE WAY MORE. I feel better but not great. They still haven't packed their stuff... God WTF? They have... 4 days. 4 days to move. I don't get it. Nick has like no posessions and isn't used to living on his own or anything but Stafen... Hes got a living room set, a dinning room set, bedroom stuff. No boxes and no truck. And I know hes lived on his own before and moved and stuff. He wanted me to move some of his stuff when I was moving the other day but when I was done moving my stuff he wasn't home. *bangs head on desk*
Man.. life is tuff.
Why couldn't I have been born a tree or something? Or a fictional character? That would be cool. Maybe a housecat, but not nuetered that would suck.

_social_retard_ @ 2007-04-21T16:11:00

2007-04-21T20:14:37Z

I updated my schools. Yes I AM that bored. I wassn't posative on the dates though so im leaving that blank for now. Also I couldn't find one of my elementary schools. *shrugs* Oh and I added Bishop's even though im not actualy technicaly a student there. But i'm pumped about going so i added it anyways. *Sigh* I feel really ugly. What the fuck is wrong with me? I never used to think shit like this. I've turned into a teenage girl. Oh sure I was teribly anti-social and unhappy as a teenager but I wassn't all like woe and emo and shit. I mean I drink fuckign diet soda now. Uhg. Someone hit me over the head with a shovel.

I'm afraid of myself

2007-04-17T22:30:25Z

I feel pretty yucky right now. My tummy is all a rumble and my mind feels dull and hazy. Strange thoughts drift in and back out of my mind again like will-o-wisps, leaving just a memory of a memory in their wake. I feel strange as if i am not myself but a show of myself, a memory, or unfinished copy. The real me is trapped deep inside, behind bars, under water, in a casim, deep, deep underground. His screams slowly bubble up to the surface, distorted and crypted, the words come slowly. Painfully slowly. Theres a message he wants me to hear. I don't want to though. I'm scared, scared of him, scared of the truth, scared of what I might become. What is this thruth? You might ask. It is wholey unpleasant and Lovecraftian in nature, the kind of horror only an athiest could dream up. Can it be that I am only dreaming? Am I awake? Are you? Are you sure? Or maybe I am dead and only remembering, struggling to put the peices together so I can move on. Make sence of it all, and move on. Can one make sence of it all? Should one try? For the things that bubble up from inside me are so dreadful I cannot bare to face them at times. If the beast seeks to devour the child, how will the child protect himself? How has he survived thus far? 22 years of the two traped inside my mind. What is going on in there?

_social_retard_ @ 2007-04-11T14:43:00

2007-04-11T18:46:35Z

Words cannot describe how posativly shitty i feel right now. I hate everything.

Gallstones?

2007-04-07T18:52:08Z

So some of you might know I had a really bad stomach flu friday. As the day progressed I got worse and worse. I went from feeling sick to in lots of pain. Long story short I tought my apendix was going to burst so I went to the emerge. I guess I spent a good 6-7 hours overnight going from one waiting room to another and back again. I peed in a jar and I had blood drawn (probably one of my least favorite things in the world) and in the end the doctor didn't sound too sure but he thought it was gallstones. God I thought i was going to die or something. Anyways I got 4 days off and I need to go for an ultrasound. Poor mom stayed the whole time with me and got no sleep ither. I feel like shit right now. You know what the kicker is though? My work keeps dicking me around about calling in sick. I called in sick for saterday on friday afternoon. THey didn't write anything down (i don't know why, I think maybe some wires got crossed and they thought i was just CONSIDERING calling in sick) then before I go to the emerge I call to update them on whats ging on with me and the guy throws a hissy fit because i tell him i called about this earlier that day and no one told him about anything. He thinks im fucking faking it and tells me if i want to call in i need to get him a note BEFORE the START of my next shift (saterday afternoon). WTF? Why is this asshole being such a dick? Anyways I say no problem. Then when i get BACK from the emerge 8 hours later i call again to update them on the situation. Its some girl now and hes confused because no one told HER about anything. No wrecord that i called in sick nothing. That asshole the night before was trying to get me in shit for not showing up to a shift without calling. Anyways I got stuff straitened out with the girl and have 4 days off now.

China White

2007-03-31T21:19:40Z

Oh fucking kill me!
My roommate thuoght it would be funny to drug me last night. Stafen took some fentanil patch or something and cut it open and smeared it on my arm when I wasn't paying attention. This shit is like a nicotine patch only instead of nicotine its this crazy painkiller that they give to really sick people when morphine isn't enough. Needless to say I felt very very sick. Nevermind the fact that I had been drinking. Im a guy who can take a joke. Easter eggs in my shower? That was funny. Slipping me hard core drugs? Thats not cool. My arm went numb pertty instantly, and trying to whipe it off probably just rubed it in worse. My arm STILL feels a little fucking tingly. God i feel sick just thinking about it. I don't know why I came into work. I felt dizzy as all fuck and I thought I was going to throw up but I didn't. I ended up going to bed after a bit and fell asleep pretty easily but then woke up shivering cold hand having to run to the washroom at like 7am. I still feel nautious.. FUCKING HELL. Who does that?

FUCK!

2007-03-30T16:07:39Z

God!
Look I am a security guard at the front desk of a rather large tech support company that does tech support for multiple companies' mutilple products and we have many levels of support and managmentnes, supervisioral status, and HR staff all that goodness.
Do not ask for Carlos.
Do not ask for Jennifer.
I need a LAST fucking name. If you KNOW the last name, know how to spell it. If I look for Smith with an 'I' and your friend is Smyth with a 'Y' I will not be able to find their contact info.
Also please note when I pick up the phone I always specify this is the FRONT desk, not the HELP desk. So if you are a customer looking for help with his laptop or a field technitian out working on somethnig and you need backup, why the hell are you calling me? Why don't you callt he fucking janitor and ask him? I don't know why Im not given the help desk number to put you through to but yuo'er goign to have to look it up yourself.
Oh.. and an aside to the shithead who just walked up to me while takling on his cellphone and handed me his swipecard expecting me to know what the hell he wanted.. Don't just DON'T. Don't even think about it (lord knows you didn't). Don't look at me all angry like when I have no clue what you want me to do because i can't read minds. Go fuck yourself. Human interaction is highly dependant on vocalization, you know, the shit you are doing right now with your overpriced talkbox?
I hope you get a brain tumor.

Teh bored!

2007-03-30T15:46:51Z

Meh.. where to start? My supervisor isa duche and a suckup. He brings the client coffee all the time and the man just loves to follow him around like a lost puppy. Its fucking patetic. On top of that he treats anyone else like a shitwad. e jsut loves to come up with new rules, every couple days he comes up with some nwe rule thats more important than the last. None of them make sence of course. The newest is that now ex-employees have to be signed in by a member of HR if they come to visit, but in the same memo he says they are to be treated as any other guest. Wouldn't that mean that they can be signed in by any employee? God i was really hoping my email would have got him canned. I guess not. At least I havn't cought any flack. I guess thats because i was pointing out how he was treating someone else liek shit and not me? I dunno.
Money is tight. This sucks. Life sucks. Blah Blah Blah... rinse wash repeat.
Anyone want to give me money for my schoolbooks? ;D

_social_retard_ @ 2007-03-28T12:27:00

2007-03-28T16:34:00Z

Today is not a good day.
I feel sick to my stomach. Personal demons I thought I slew long ago torture and mock me. All my goals seem so far away and so vague. It's so cold and I have half a mind just to curl up in bed untill something forces me to get out again. Am I a fool? Can I ever make it? I'm tired of feeling like i am working hard and putting up with so much bullshit for nothing. Im so tired of life. Nothing is as it seems. If people had told me things were this shitty when I was a kid... Well.. I don't know but i feel disilusioned. anywas, nuff of that.

To Toronto Hydro:

2007-03-22T22:55:51Z

FUCK YOU!
http://www.cbc.ca/consumer/story/2007/03/22/toronto-hydro-conservation.html
Check this out guys, especialy if you live in Toronto. These fat cats are sad that people are trying to reduce their power bills and give mother earth a break while their at it. Now because so many people have decided they can do without using so much electricity Tonroto Hydro has decided to boost their prices. So Now you save nothing! You get no thanks for switching to those new energy effient appliances! And if you didn't well you're fucked apperantly. Arn't the prices of things like thies supposed to go DOWN when consumer use goes down? What a bunch of ass licking motherfuckers. This is just low low shit in my books. This is a kick in the nads to consumers and the environment. These people are just trying to do their part, trying to take some of the strain off the grid durring those hot peak days and put a few less coal fumes into the air while maybe saving some well earned money. But nope you get a boot to the head insead! Thanks for nothing Toronto Hydro.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

2007-03-16T13:00:40Z

"What do you want to be when you grow up?" Thats the question everybody allways asks you. When you'er young they expect you to say shit like "A fireman" or "A doctor" or something, and as you grow up they start askign in a more serious tone and expect you to start thinking about the question more seriously and answering more inteligently. My answer has allways been "What the fuck? Im just a kid what do I know?" Even now as I have been accepted into a university I still don't know what feild I want to go into. But the more I think about it the more I think i want to do SOMETHING with exploring other worlds and the like. I hear they've found ice on Mars and that maybe there is liquid water on Europa. I find this stuff really facinating. I don't claim to want to be an astronaught, I know thats like saying i want to be a rock star. You have to be the best of the best to do that and even then they are jsut the glamorous PR side of thing really. A lot of the real work is done by probes and robots and the scientists controling them back home.
Anyways I think you should all take a look at this comunity apod Some of the pictuers are really something to look at. When I look at the alien surface of Mars taken from our rovers on the ground it sends shivers down my spine and gives me some kind of wanderlust I don't quite understand.

Someone else want to give it a try?

2007-03-13T21:39:40Z

Go ahead and post a question if you like.

Please?

2007-03-06T22:36:51Z

Aww common guys, go take a look at my comunity. I ralize it's not for everyone but im sure some of you will find it rather interesting. Its sort of like a social expiriment. See how people open up without worring about exposing who they are. I found it turned nasty on _postsecret_ because peopel jsut took advantage of the anonymity to be assholes but I think this could actualy form some kind of sence of community so go take a look at blindmetropolis. We have 4 members so far and once we start to get soem more it will actualy start working and some word of mouth will spread.

New community!

2007-03-04T22:03:07Z

Come join my community if you like!
blindmetropolis
Its kind of like _postsecret_ but better cuz its modded by me. ;)
The one catch is you have to make a new journal to join because everyone has to be a stranger.

I got into school!

2007-02-28T22:27:20Z

Bishop's accepted me! :D