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It's been a long time since I posted anything...mostly because of that fact that my life was devoted for the most of this past year to my CCA, and it wasn't working out very well, so I didn't want to post anything (knowing how online journals are open for all eyes to see). Most of those memories I'd rather burn, but yesterday...well, the past week, has marked times when I actually enjoyed doing what I do for the society. Yesterday, my VP and Treasurer and Publications rep and I sat down in Coffee Bean to plan out the main activity of this year's camp - the Amazing Race (in Sentosa, of course - our new campsite now that PA Chalets has become a quarantine centre). We spent 4 hours working out the details and coming up with ideas, which was incredibly taxing, and really FUN. For the first time in my leadership with KH and Ivan, I felt like we were really a team. I mean, I've always seen us as the core team in the exco (seeing how we were the only ones left from the previous exco, and in all our meetings we were usually the ones throwing out ideas and conversational exchanges until the exco members slowly warmed up to each other), but it's often felt like they were the real team and I was the one trying to catch on. They're like Twiddledum and Twiddledee - you can always safely assume that one is always with the other. Even their family structure is the same -_-;; Their height is pretty similar too. I've often run into conflicting ideas with either one of them, but we've always managed to come to a point of concensus through some give and take. We don't really share our thoughts alot...well, at least I don't really share mine with them and vice-versa. (I assume that the two good friends know just about everything about each other :/) So we're not exactly the typical close-knit main core of the exco. Meetings with the exco usually leave me wondering if I said things right, did things right, made the right decisions, used the right tone, gave my exco any sort of confidence, settled things properly...and most of the time, I've come to the conclusion that I could've done something better or in a different way. And because of their position within the exco and also because I've come to rely a lot on the two of them, I tend to watch out for their reactions. I don't worry so much about my Treasurer, since he would speak his mind on a matter. I worry alot more about my VP because I know that if he's unhappy with something, he will hesitate to say anything about it...if he says anything at all. But it'll show on his face or in his attitude. Yet, yesterday's meeting didn't leave me with the usual self-assessment. I actually went home feeling really excited about the camp without feeling self-conscious about the way the meeting went. It also feels great to know that we can be a team like that. My Publications rep didn't speak up much during the meeting, as is usually the case, but I hope that watching the three of us as a team inspired her in some way yesterday. I hope we were a good picture of what co-leadership looks like. I don't know how I'll face the next year without them, if I'm still in leadership. But wherever they go, or whoever they become, I know that the both of them will be awesome leaders.
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This week's challenge: Fitness: 50 push-ups a day (EJ)
Lifestyle: Wake up by 7 everyday (me) Fitness is a new category. So diet got left out this week... Well, waking up at 7 was only fulfilled today :/ Maybe I should carry it on to next week. Shuuz! Did you join a group? Shall we start a group called Lemonz or something? TIP: Apparently, green apples are really great for losing weight! Well, I've heard 2 things, but I'm not sure if they're totally true, but worth a try (since fruits are always good) - Smelling green apples helps you lose weight. (I read this somewhere...I can't remember where. But anyways, it's because of this that DJ and I bought the green apple scented candles from IKEA). This is most likely linked to the next point:
- Eating green apples helps to reduce binging. Before a tempting dinner appointment or dinner with friends, eat a green apple or two. It apparently helps curb the desire for food.
On other beauty tips, almonds are good for the hair. They're rich in the one vitamin all good shampoo (like pantene pro-v) claim to be full of - Vitamin E. Almonds are also said to help prevent coronary diseases, and are rich in calcium, magnesium, phosporous, folic acid, zinc, iron and many more minerals. To read about all the benefits of this amazing nut, check out this article. ...why is my eljay turning into a health corner?
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So...after 14 weeks of not posting anything on eljay... There have been interesting things happening in life. For starters, EJ and I have started on a lifestyle and diet change regime. Since last week, we've made decisions on a few things, the first being gymming 3 times a week. There's a mini gym in the void deck of the neighbouring block that has a membership of $20 a month, which is really affordable for a poor university student like me.
Apart from that, I now have 3 new changes to my lifestyle/diet: - One cup of milk a day (goes great when we have cereal at home)
- At least 1 serving of fruit a day
- Walking up the stairs to my house (on the 4th floor, so I really have no excuse)
And we also installed weekly challenges. ^_^ Last week, EJ made a rule that we have to walk up stairs instead of taking the escalator (if the stairs are readily available), or walk up the escalator if we have no choice but to take it. (On a special note, while walking up the stairs is really good exercise for your legs - and burns quite a bit of calorie - walking down may put lots of pressure on your knee joint...so be careful) This week, we've instituted two rules - lifestyle and diet. - Lifestyle (EJ): Posture. Whether standing or sitting, we have to have our backs straight.
- Diet (me): Water. Eight cups a day, no less.
We take turns on setting the weekly challenges, and will swap next week (meaning I'll set lifestyle changes, and she'll set diet changes). To add on to that, both of us joined PEERtrainer. It's a website which uses accountability to others as a means to help people keep their focus on living healthier (and losing weight, o'course). Basically, you log everything you eat and all the exercise you do each day. On top of that, you set goals for yourself and accomplishment dates. By creating/joining a group (max 4 people), you will be able to see each others logs and encourage each other to press on toward the goals each person has set for themselves. EJ and I are in one group (we're trying to persuade DJ to join us)...and it's basically really fun. Somehow, being real and open and honest about the things we want to achieve and being able to be accountable to another person for it really helps. I'm really glad that EJ started me on this ^_^. Otherwise, I'll be living life day to day, not taking any notice of what I'm doing and then realising that without noticing, I've picked up some real terrible habits (which I already have) I only dread the weekly challenge (which I'm sure she's already planning) of keeping my table neat all the time :/
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Only a fool would think that time and tide - although not caring much to wait for man - may just spare a little thought for the gentler of the sexes. Evidently, then, I am a fool. And that shall soon be officiated if I don't sit down with le' old buddies - 'em, lecture notes & readings & tutorials - stare at them for a good long while, and engage some sort of activity in the nether cranium parts. You know, it seems I always have some sort of eljay entry to comemmorate my pre-exam reading week. It CAN'T be a good sign. AUGH. |
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When it seems like life is waaay too messy. I dunno how anyone handles it...I'm not wired to handle it, but I have to. Even if I don't want to, or I try to run away, I'll still have to deal with it. With homework, with running a society, with project and workmates and trying to do the stuff that I really really really like doing (most of which have nothing to do with school). Life's supposed to be easier, not easy (it's never easy, I came to realise). So, why does it seem to get more difficult? I'd really like to speak with the Manager (whom I have absolute trust knows what's going on...well, well enough to have saved my grades for all my tests this sem, all of which I didn't/wouldn't/couldn't study for). But while I've sunk my nose into schoolwork, there's a few relationships that I've been neglecting, unfortunately... Round-the-bush entry. Majoring in Japanese Studies must make one evasive like this... |
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Hey guys! Gomen >_< I wanted to update everyday (if interesting things happened) and eljay them, but it's been rather busy here in Fukuoka... We went into the rice fields yesterday to pull out the weeds. It was altogether an interesting and fun experience. The sun wasn't at it's usual full blast. It was cloudy over so none of us got burnt out in the fields. Well, I'll give more details when I kope the pictures from my friends :D Anyways, it's Sunday! Last week, a couple of the people in dorm and myself attended a nearby church for Sunday service. It was altogether very different from what I'm used to at home. They're really formal and use keigo (polite and honorific Japanese ) all the way. Plus, we kept having to stand up and sit down to sing hymns and other stuff. But somehow, we managed to follow what the pastor was saying. Hopefully, today's message isn't too cheem to understand :/ Oh! Here's a peek into dorm life over here:  Doing my own laundry! I came here with 3 other girls - MingHui, Michelle, Evon - and we've decided to do our laundry together. It probably costs about the same as if we did our laundry individually, but at least we get to separate the light and dark clothes this way :) Anyways, this place is the best for doing laundry. We hang stuff overnight, and they are completely dry in the morning. I always feel very happy bringing in my clean clothes. Those hangars and clothes pegs are from Daiso. Daiso is really the exchange student's best friend. Everything is 105 yen (about 1.30 Sing? Waaaay cheaper than the 2.00 we pay back home), and all their things are so nice. I've also purchased a pair of personal chopsticks (under MH's persuasion), some towels to keep my room clean and many many letter sets.  This is the sunrise from my balcony. The sun rises at like 5am over here. School starts at 9.30 for me, but I'm always awake at about 6am. I don't even need to set my alarm clock because the sun wakes me up. I used to think - while watching PoT - that it was crazy that they had CCA before school and after school. How could the sun be out at that time!? But looking at how early the sun's risen, I guess PoT wasn't wrong when they portrayed Echizen and the rest playing tennis, before school hours, in bright daylight. I actually like it much better this way - compared to how I've always had to drag myself out of bed when morning looked exactly like night-time. I mean, if the sun rose this early in Singapore, I'm sure we won't have too much trouble waking up. Anyways, this has been Jade and the view from the balcony.
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Now to Him who is able to to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think.... Ephesians 3:20a And we know that all things work together for good
to those who love God, to those who are the called
according to His purpose.
Romans 8:28 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,
says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of
evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me,
and I will listen to you.
And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search
for me with all your heart.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 5 years ago, in the first peak of my love for all things Japanese and the beginning of me seriously learning the language, I had longed to go to Japan. In less than a week, I'll be going there for the third time since then. I'm still pretty amazed. The first time, Mom promised to bring me there on the condition that I get good grades for O'levels - but we went before my results came out! If I had gone for first three months JC, I would probably not have been able to go and experience snow (for the very first time in my life too), and witness God fulfilling a little girl's desire to experience snow. It was really funny. After she expressed a wish to experience snow, it snowed lightly just as we were exiting a kimono exhibition. I told her "Well, seems like God answered your prayer." And then she insitsts that she was hoping for the kind of snowfall that left at least a foot deep of snow on the ground. She didn't have to wait long, after we got on the bus, it started snowing like crazy, and we even got to build a snowman at the next rest stop. Two things: this was in the end of winter, and the weather was only about 5 degrees C...I dunno about snow, but they said it wasn't even cold enough for snow to fall. Well. The second time was just a little over a year ago, when I went with ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) astellecia <3 Fully paid with our own hard-earned money. Okay, well, I borrowed a bit from Mom. But still. And the conditions were just right. They reduced the operations of the wing I was in charge in February, which left me with less than half the work I used to do. astellecia had won a pair of tickets to the Special Nana live. brandonheato was living there and was on holidays so we managed to receive very gracious hospitality and were guided around Tokyo. And this time, I'm on a full blown scholarship, going the full journey with four of my classmates from the semester just past - and we all get along just great. More unexpectedly, people have been giving me money for my trip - which is completely unexpected, and making it difficult for me to calculate how much to tithe. My only regret is that I won't be able to go for the JSS camp. But, between that and Japan...やっぱり日本へ行くほうはいいんじゃない？ God is really good...I've been seeing how He fixes situations together so that things happen at just the right time. It's not just my life, but also for EJ and DJ and Kor. There are so many times to which we can look back and say "God was there with me, and it came out well." Things that I needed, but I asked no one for, came naturally, like the money I've been receiving. Things that I had hoped for, like being able to get the scholarship together with MH (one of the girls going with me) and go with her for this summer programme came to pass too. Plus, things I would never have been able to imagine - like losing my phone in February, resulting in me getting a 3G phone which I can use in Japan. Writing this makes me think that it's really easy to seek the gift and not the Giver. A lot of I want, I hope, I wish. It's so easy to say "God, I love you" when you're just receiving blessing after blessing. And in the hard times, it's also easier to say "God, where are you? Don't You love me?" than to say "Hey, I know You're there, and that You love me, and everything is going to turn out well because of that." Lol, okay, that's going off on a bit of a philosophical/theological track. Well, for a bit of a heads up, I'll be flying off on Thursday morning, back on National Day. This time, I'll do my Japan updates properly :D
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Things I discovered/realised today: Kor left this morning for his mission trip. He won't be back till the end of May. I'm really going to miss him. It was really sweet when he came in this morning just to say bye to a very sleepy me. And I won't see EJ until after I get back from Japan. I hope it isn't as hot there as it has been here. The nights are so warm that it's so hard to sleep! |
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So ends my 8-year affair. I might turn back and regret doing this. But for now, it makes logical sense. PS: No, I don't mean with a person. |
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So I spend the last two minutes of my first day as a non-teen recounting today. Suanne and Grace graciously accompanied me for lunch at Anatolie's Turkish Restaurant at Far East Plaza. The food was quite okay...just that I added too much lemon to mine and made my food too savoury. We walked around FEP, window shopping then went to Borders to check out books and (finally!) sit down. I was kinda stoned the whole day long, no thanks to re-watching the whole Gundam SEED Destiny series till 5am. Sorry Suanne and Grace! Went out later with my family. We had dinner at Ichiban Sushi in Parkway. I really enjoyed it since we were talking more than usual...and we rarely get to sit at the table as a whole family nowadays, what with everyone having very different schedules. Now that EJ's going to be gone for three months and then another six, this may well be the last time the 6 of us sit at the same dinner table for the rest of this year...well, maybe except for this sunday. Since my birthday is the earliest, this will also be the only time in the year where one of our birthdays is celebrated with the entire family present. My brother was sweet enough to pay the bill (sneakily!), but he got found out later. Thanks for the many smses that came in <3 It also rained today. (: Yay <edit> THANKS FOR ALL THE FACEBOOK MESSAGES! *overjoyed!*</edit> |
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It's finally over. After two weeks of vacillating between books and com, the exams are finally gone, leaving behind a big puddle of regret. *sigh* I'll study harder next sem. On a lighter note, I'll finally be able to get down to doing all the things I've been wanting to do since the exams started. EJ was recently in China for her module's business trip, so she brought back as many exotic pocky as she could find. Well...pocky and associates (all under Glico). There's Matcha Pocky, Mango-milk Pocky, Honey Pomelo Pretz, Mushroom (i think) Pretz, and Red Wine Pejoy which has the inscription: "When chocolate falls in love with red wine, the sweet flavor melts my heart, and makes me forget the passing of time." Gotta love the Japanese's artistic use of English. The grammar is fine (for once), but the concept is still hard to grasp. I mean, chocolate falling in love with red wine? They're not even the same kind of matter! Well, maybe except when chocolate is melted. I haven't tried the Pejoy yet, but it looks like a chocolate coated pretz with red wine flavoured filling in the middle. Hmmm.... Can anyone tell me what 八珍菌菇 is? And I never knew that Glico (which I've always thought was Qlico) had a running man until I found him on the boxes: I thought at first that it had something to do with the Beijing Olympics... ...I guess you learn something new every day. <edit> WOAH! Pocky is 42 years old this year! And apparently, the president of Glico was kidnapped (for three days) in 1984 O_o This was the beginning of a huge case known was the Glico Morinaga case which involved many other confectionary companies and (according to Wiki) marked a turning point in post-war Japanese crime history. O_o </edit> <edit2> The Pocky EJ brought back is Mousse Pocky - a new brand of Pocky introduced in 2000. Also, 11 November has been designated as "Pocky and Pretz Day" since 1999. double O_o ...I can't believe I'm spending my first afternoon of freedom researching on Pocky...</edit2>
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TAIHEN DESU!!! I've got a paper in a little over 24 hours and I want to do EVERYTHING BUT STUDY >_< It doesn't help that I missed half his lectures and fell asleep for all the rest of them....which explains why I have unintelligible scrawls on my lectures notes >_< It really doesn't sound too soon to sigh over my cap :/ Unless I S/U this....because I can sense a C coming. Maybe two Cs. But I've only 3 S/Us in my quiver. Dare I assume I won't get worse grades in the coming semester? I only hope my JS modules have a nice A-something on them, and my language module will be at least a B+. Fat hope, though it is. Stupid weather isn't helping in the least >\ ...why do grades have to matter so much?
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Augh! I've spent the past FOUR days doing nothing but reading manga....and it's not even manga that's related to my paper! It's amazing how people's eljays suddenly come alive during the exam period. *sigh* I guess I should go to school and find my prof and talk to him about my paper. It'll only tell him that I'm being really last minute since it's due on FRIDAY. But... I should go find him... ...and more research. |
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Yukiru Sugisaki is finally making a comeback for DNAngel!!! Kyaa~~ \(^o^)/ I'm so excited!!! I can't wait to see the resolution to all the mess that's been going on in the manga. >_< Hopefully, I'll get my Satoshi/Risa ending that I've been predicting since the beach scene (see userpic). Wooh~ Of course, I know that only maybe three people reading this will know what on earth I'm talking about, but I'm really happy anyway. Okay, time to stop slacking and finish writing my paper. On other news, I'm going to Kyuushu University for my Summer Programme :D It's been confirmed!! *excited* Me and the other scholars (all 5 of us from the class) have been so excited about it that we can hardly concentrate on studying aproper for the exams. Praise God :D I would never have gotten this opportunity otherwise.
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Why I love Japanese classes... 
We had to come up with our own interviews for this semester's project, so I'm going as Haruhi to advertise an invented Ouran Host Club event. It's alliteration :D 「５月の５、午後にGO!」 gogatsu no go, gogo ni GO. Literally, "on the afternoon of the 5th of May, GO!" The Japanese Children's Day is held on the 5th of May. (: Gab and Gail's birthday (: So basically, the idea behind this event is for every one to return to their carefree childhood days and play games from our nostalgic past. "On the 5th of May, from 1 to 5pm, let's have fun in the Peach Garden of Ouran's High School Division!
Bring along your favourite teddy or bunny! (...why does everything in Japanese sound so lame in English?)
If you call at 4678-8628, we will come immediately in a limousine to pick you up." I'm sure there's a mistake or two in there somewhere... I wish there was such an event. I would so go. Kyaa~ Chibi Tamaki is so cute! Btw, 4678-8628 is, of course, HOSU-TOBU > hosuto bu > ホスト部 > Host Club
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...by the names of essays, papers, exams, grades and everything else that purportedly shapes your future. I feel bad about handing in badly done work, which is exactly what I've been doing this entire semester. Badly done reports, badly done essays (in a rush and on the day of submission, no less), badly written papers, poor presentations...augh. I don't know why...this is such a bad semester for me. My hope for an A grade somewhere on my report card is all but non-existent...or by some miracle. I'm glad I got the scholarship this time around...because the likelihood of me getting one after this semester is over, is really really small. Oh well. |
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Short entries... ...make the world go round and my head spin less. Week 7 of 2 sem with 5 weeks left to prove myself capable of forming nice, smooth-flowing sentences in Japanese class, and coming up with rock solid arguments for every other arts modules there is. It always feels like there's too much to do, too little time; too many expectations, too hard to meet. .... I think I know who's my eyecandy in school. |
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Today, for the first time since I ended my jc days, I visited the gym. Kyaa~ The feeling of having gotten a workout is so good :D:D Although since the gym was really small (the neighbourhood gym, sorta), there weren't many machines, so I ended up running for the most bit. It was kinda awkward although there was no one else there...but people who passed by (since it's in the void deck) would look in. I mean, I do that too whenever I come back around this time and find people in the gym. Guess they feel awkward too. Athletic people, if there's a gym routine that you find particularly effective, please let me in the know :D *hint yes mandy, this is you...and grace...and shuuuy* Too bad Yani (my house-helper) couldn't come with me. Yani is really great :D You guys should come over to my place and meet her...and practise your chinese! Yani worked in Taiwan for years, so while her english isn't that great, her chinese is pretty good. Plus, she's a great cook! She's always talking about losing weight, and then cooks so much for dinner while not eating any herself. It's definitely some secret plan to have us gain weight while she loses some! I mean, she loves pisang goreng (goreng pisang...I'm not sure which it's supposed to be) and bought TWELVE pieces from the pasar malam, ate only one and insisted that we eat the rest. >_> Anyway, here's the fourth opening for Prince of Tennis: The series of tennis play from 0.40 seconds onwards never fails to make me gush at the awesome tennis. Especially Kikumaru's serve near the end. Throw. Stretch. Whack. That's one inspirational anime clip. I'm all psyched to do my work now. On other notes, I went to watch L: Change the World with the JSS people yesterday. L is awesome coolness! <3
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4Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
5It is not rude,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects,
always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
The Bible (NIV)
Fifteen characteristics of love.
Recently, my sisters and I have really been challenged to love someone...and it's difficult.
It's always difficult to love when those whom you show kindness to don't respond with kindness, or just don't respond the way you want them to. It's difficult to not complain, to not get upset, to keep silent in fear of blowing up and just letting anger and frustration get the upper hand. It's also difficult to bite down that pride and that judgemental attitude.
The promise of love is this:
Love never fails
1 Corinthians 13:8
Never fails to make the world go round. Never fails put a smile on somebody's face. Never fails to fix a broken person. Never fails to comfort. Never fails to meet a need. Never fails to make complete.
Okay, before I go off on a philosophical track.
But really, it's always easier to love friends whom are affectionate back and give gifts and offer smiles and have shared months or years with you than it is to love a total stranger who seems constantly grouchy and unhappy. Sometimes it's also very hard to love your parents, in whom you see all flaws despite the fact that they've provided for your upbringing, given you money to buy things you want and never thrown you out of the house for all the trouble you've been to them.
I guess families are a test of the quality of love. Parents are proof of the quality of love...especially mothers who have to tolerate indifferent, insolent brats (of which I confess I sometimes am), and fathers who punish and admonish their kids.
The test of the quality of love lies in when a person is being as unlovely as unlovely gets (rude, proud, spiteful, rebellious etc etc), and that you never stop trying to help, reaching out and just persevering until the day comes when that person finally gets up and responds gratefully for the things you've done...or sometimes they may not even respond gratefully.
Sacrifice. Perseverance. Hope.
Love's been represented by the valiant one coming to save his beloved, gaining some bruises and scars in a fight perhaps...or sometimes it's portrayed as inseparable from romance and the physical acts that ensures thereafter...
But maybe love lies in that figure washing the dishes and ironing out the clothes, or that figure sending the kids to school, or that figure holding up the cane, wondering when the last stroke will save the child from doing something more terrible in the future, or that figure crying tears in desperate prayer for another.
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