_sivanra_

oh lord. i've done. the "boys" post.

2008-10-10T22:51:30Z

So.

Basically, I have people in college, who I've met just recently, who have been giving me troubles.

Of the 'crush' kind.

First there's this guy. Who we shall call GUY A. Strangely cute. Chatty. Pianist.

Two years older than me.

My crush on him has lasted since the good ol' school days. That's 4 years.

He's only just beginning to notice I exist. O.o

Me really would like chance with GUY A.

Then comes GUY B. Good friend. Sweet. Friendly.
But me is not interested. However, he shows one too many signs of liking me. So I'm weirded out here.

My friends have somehow become his friends. Now he's always around.

He's always asking me to hug him. He always tells me I look nice.
I ignore the signs. Try to pretend they are not there.

When I first met him he talked constantly about his g/f. Now she's dumped him. He has made a point of telling me. O__o

I've never met her. Never even seen her.

She seems somewhat of a mythological personage to me.

So anyway, freaking out he might ask me. And I might...freak out some more and have to say no.

Then, there is GUY C. Shows casual, not desperate, signs of what might be crushing (or what might be just my friends' over active imaginations). He's seems sweet, fairly cute. Nice. Funny. 'Cept when he shows a lack of enthusiasm towards anything education related and a friend told me he brought a machete into his school once. O.o

Is it just me or am I choosey and whiney?

Ugh. Life is evil. Life in college is evil.

THE DIARY OF YOSHIKI

2008-10-04T21:50:34Z

Dear Diary,

Today I gots up out of my bed and there was a woman there. I dunno how she got there but she looked like a model or some shit. Ellipses. Then I went downstairs and drank some rank herbal tea crap, tis supposed to make my skin glow and shit.

Then I played the piano for four hours.

Then I picked up the phone and swore at all my employees.

It was fun. Exclamation mark.

I went on t.v and felt pretty and the center of the world. It was like the sun and the planets. With me as the sun. And Toshi as Pluto.

Cuz he's short.

Then I wents back home and my nutritionist came over and she was talking about my health and my dieting and it was liek; "Affhuheu4n53uyg7m8mny**($G4w5j34@#%Bsbh"

Because all I could think about was....

McDonalds.

When back upstairs and realized I wanted mah beds back so I kicked that ho-bag out and she was like "Eff yoo mutha effer!"

Watev. I can get another in liek two secs. I have fame and money.

Word.

Then Miyavi showed up with a tub of ice cream and a leather jacket.

Exclamation mark.

He travels fast.

Then things happened and I still don't have my bed to myself. It's occupied.

Eff you. Get your own beds. What's wrong with you pplz?

love,
YOSHIKI

I AM BORED. I'M SORRY. :O

GUESS WAT?

2008-10-02T22:12:55Z

LACEY ARM WARMERS

GOTHIC-TIIIIMMMEEEE

W/ QUIFF FOR BONUS POINTS. HARHAR

IM JUST SOO....STUPID YES?

TEHHEEEEE

lo...

2008-10-01T20:20:43Z

I was sifting through my old stoof.

and it should be known that laurenzorz has a fan-girl capacity of

ME.

rofl.

OLD ASS icons I made of the beautiful laurenzorz I'm not sure if they were requested or not. But hey...

hello all

2008-10-01T18:04:14Z

I got artsy with my cameraz (with its timer) and my photoshops.

</div>

Outside the sky waits. Beckoning, beckoning
Just beyond the bars

'Green Finch and Linnet Bird'

That is all. xD

The Confessions Game

2008-09-23T19:23:20Z

The Confessions Game --
Think of 10 people and write something to each of them.

Don't give any names.

These can be LIKED and HATED people.

These are in no particular order, just the order you thought of them in:

1) I wish you could just give me a chance. I really do like you but I'm too chicken-shit to tell you.

2) You're so adorable. Huggable too. xD

3) You seriously need to get professional help.

4) You're amazing but you're becoming so shallow. And I wish you could tell that controlling person in your life to just fuck off for once.

5) I don't like how you've become. You were nice before =(

6) I think you like me but I'd feel more than just stupid if I asked and I was wrong.

7) Your only flaw is that you're stubborn and lazy. Also, when will you realize that its not okay for you talk to me the way you do?

8) I think if I got to know you, we wouldn't get along at all. So I'm keeping my distance.

9) I miss you. =(

10) You're cuddly but I'm always paranoid about it because of what once was.

photo meme

2008-09-19T20:03:04Z

Take a picture of yourself right now.

Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair...just take a picture.

Post that picture with NO editing. (Except maybe to get the image size down to something reasonable.)

Post these instructions with your picture.

EYEBAGS. ;______________;
Earphones.
BRA STRAP!! LULULULULUL. O.o

An amusin' conversation between my mother and myself

2008-09-15T08:29:37Z

Yeah...my mother has a tendency to treat people I idolize like my friends. It's odd. Next she'll be asking me when Meeves is coming over for tea....

*is making icons*

Mother: *hobbles in* ellooo salah (Hello, Sarah)

Me: Heya...

Mother: *blinks* What is dis?

Me: O___o icons...lil avatars to go on websties...

Mother: oohh...

Me: Yeah people use the-

Mother: How is your Oshkee?! (How is Yoshiki?)

Me: O__o He's fine...

Mother: did he break his neck again?

Me: :O good god no!

Mother: Ooo...okay....

*silence*

Mother: how is his wife? (Julia)

Me: that's not his wife mum...

Mother: oh...really?

Me: ...yeah...

Mother: usually man like dis...they too emotionally stunted to marry.... (Too emotionally cut off to settle down....)

Me: mum!

Mother: its troo! men...all the same...

Me: meaning?

Mother: they tink with dey dick (They think with their penises)

Me: *traumatized*

Mother: *smiles sweetly and hobbles out*

FIN.

AHAHAHaahahaa.....

2008-09-14T18:04:07Z

Let it load and skip to 6:26! NAOOO!

MASS JROCK ICON POST

2008-09-14T12:46:49Z

below the cut:
-TOTAL: [86]
-Chacha [2]
-Gackt [2]
-Hyde [10]
-Yoshiki [11]
-Toshi [9]
-Pata [20]
-Heath [2]
-hide [6]
-Yoshiki + hide [5] (open to interpretation)
-Misc X Japan [3]
-Miyavi [6]
-Sugizo [6]
-hide (animated) [4]

teasers:

ChaCha
1. 2.
(for aniffa )

Gackt
3. 4.

Hyde
5. 6. 7. 8.
9. 10. 11. 12.
13. 14.

Yoshiki
15. 16. 17. 18.
19. 20. 21. 22.
23. 24. 25.

Toshi
26. 27. 28. 29.
30. 31. 32. 33.
34.
(dedicated to hideincarnate, awesome Toshi blog translator + friend)

Pata
35. 36. 37. 38.
39. 40. 41. 42.
43. 44. 45. 46.
47. 48. 49. 50.
51. 52. 53. 54.
</lj></lj>
Heath
55. 56.

hide
57. 58. 59. 60.
61. 62.
(in loving memory of hide)

Yoshiki + hide
63. 64. 65. 66.
67.
(these icons are not strictly shipping icons, they have been left open to interpretation)

Misc X-Japan
68. 69. 70.

Miyavi
71. 72. 73. 74.
75. 76.

Sugizo
77. 78. 79. 80.
81. 82.

hide (animated)
83. 84. 85. 86.

I got tagged....damn you saanrio....DAAAMN YOOU SAAANRIIOOO! j/k

2008-09-13T16:22:25Z

* Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about him/herself.
* Bloggers whom are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
* At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

1. I like to decorate my walls. It's like the scrapbook of me when you step into my room. Posters, drawings, painting, photos, opera tickets, plane tickets, items of sentimental value, mini-letters, short thank you notes, drawing how-tos, items of religious importance etc etc etc. If I can somehow attach it to my wall, its on there.

2. I can't wear certain kinds of shoes without getting major blisters.

3. I'm very paranoid when around boys that haven't been out with me but are still very friendly with me. I always assume they're crushing.

4. I loathe fan girls who can not see the wrong in their fandoms. e.g I myself am I huge X fan and even bigger YOSHIKI fan. But there are things about that man that I despise. I think its only normal...in fact its better if you do see the bad in people. Like my father once said, "It is not a matter of what you love someone for...but what you love them in spite of..."

5. I get annoyed with people who crowd around me when I'm drawing and go; "OMG UR SUCH A GOOD DRAWER!" First off, a drawer? Yeah thanks love, I feel like a peice of carpentry. Second off, even though I appreciate and love such comments...you have no idea how annoying it gets whilst I'm working. I don't mind it when the finished work is on display...but srsly...that's like standing behind J.K Rowling whilst she's working and going; "OMGZ I LUFF UR STORIES!!!! WRITE MOAR!!"

6. I has fugly birth marks...on ma tummy.

7. I seriously did not notice that my mother had an accent until I got to like...13...when people started pointing it out. Now, I like love it. *basks in her sense of foreigness*

8. I LOVE ABBA. stfu. My parents love ABBA. Its liek a family thing.

9. If you are nice to me once I will love you till you die. But if you yell at me...YOUR TIME WILL COME. Yelling ish evil.

10. I am obsessed with taking black-heads out. ITS ADDICTIVE.

I tag:
laurenzorz alittlebitcool pretentioustfu hideincarnate aniffa vandigo jackie8_8 mutatedpuffin larylara therapydotai

Meme of fandomness.

2008-09-12T21:37:56Z

1/ Who is your favourite J Rocker?
YOSHIKI
2/ Now state three things you don't like about them. Yes DON'T like, we're all tired of hearing why you love them.
    1. He's a bit of a prima donna
    2. He smokes. (I'm sorry. But it is disgusting. You simply can not justify smoking)
    3. He acts a lil too desperate for western fame/attention
3/ Name something you never want to see them wearing OR post a picture of them looking so awful you can't imagine them wearing anything worse.
A KNITTED SWEATER.
4/ Name somebody who's friendly with said J rocker
....Julia Voth?   *gets shot, dismembered and shot again*
5/ Do you like that person?
Julia? I dunno anything about her.
6/ What is your least favourite song by your fave J rocker?
O____________O       Nothing.....well....the Violet UK stuff is a bit....its good. But not as good as X.
7/ Post a picture of your favourite J rocker here:

8/ And make fun of it!
HE WANTS TO KILL TEH WORLDZ. Evil genius pose!!!   Veiny hands!!!! LULZ.    *washes his hair*
9/ Is there anything your fave j rocker could do that would put you off him/her?
Yell at me. I will hate him then. I don'tz like teh yelling.    T___T
10/ Who's your fave j rocker now ________ has let you down
MEEVES?
11/ Post a picture if you want.

12/ Now rant about how great your favourite J rocker is (as in your answer to number 1) :)
Buts I don't want to. I'm not a ranting fan girl. >___________>   Most of the time...

NAO. Bye.

Quiz thing.

2008-09-05T20:22:40Z

STOLEN from laurenzorz MySpace.

Open up your music player and find:    (iTunes)
How many songs total: 1059
How many hours or days of music: 2.9 days
Most recently played: Walk This Way - Aerosmith & Run DMC
Most played: Your Star - Evanescence
Most recently added: Holly Dolly - Dolly Song

Sort by Song Title
First song: ABBA - Mamma Mia
Last song: 7gatsu 8ka - the GazettE

Sort by Time
Shortest song: Lightwing_music - Sound TeMP   (I have NO idea what that is...)
Longest song: ART OF LIFE - X Japan

Sort by Album
First album: S.O.S - ABBA
Last album: Unchained Melody - 80's Movie Hits   (AHAHAHAHA. Shup.)

First song to come up on shuffle: Weekend - X Japan

Search the following and state how many songs come up:
death: 7
life: 36   (LOL)
love: 74   (....whut?)
hate: 3
you: 115    (....holy...WHUT?)
sex: 9      (I swear that just...HAPPENED....)

eheheheh...

nightmarez.

2008-09-03T18:18:08Z

Oh gawd.

College was going to be a blast. Now its going to suck. I'm going to be so busy when it starts next week. Seriously.

At first it was my plan to take AS Art and Design, Drama and Fine Art. Then when I went to go in an meet my tutor she was all; "You need to change your subjects because Fine Art and Art and Design will clash...blah-blah-blah"

So now I'm taking Fine Art, Drama and Film Studies as well as retaking Maths at because I'm...liek..retarded. So to make up for that I'm also doing a enrichment thing on the side that's like 'Media Make-up' or whatnot. I also plan on doing some volunteering work outside of school, this coupled with my vocal lessons and my want to learn the sight-read music and play the guitar, ALL BY THE TIME I'm done with college, makes my head want to explode. But I'm so stubborn. Even with myself. >_____<

So now I'm going to UBER-BUSY. And probably really really stressed most of time.

Oh! I almost forgot. They took a look at my grades and went all 'do an extra A-Level'!!

So now I'm also doing Photography. -______________-

I don't even like Photography. Whut. The. Hell.

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.
.

WHY?

I know. "'Cos it will look good on a C.V" THAT'S FRICKEN WHY!!!!!

Okay. I chill now, yes?
Bai~

First evar macro...

2008-09-01T00:20:13Z

...you know it will suck.

*hides*

...Kioshi drawings...

2008-08-25T00:50:24Z

Decided to show Kioshi love for a second time. After a few talks with aniffa on who I should use as a ref. (previous drawing of Kisohi was straight from my head...)

I'm still thinking he looks to young but in this drawing he strikes me as being older looking than the previous drawing that was done of him.
You can read the fic featuring him over at selfish_extasy if you so wish. It entitled 'The Witness.' ^__________^

Meme....

2008-08-22T21:03:10Z

Okay so...mini-meme thingy. I gots tagged by laurenzorz

Write three facts, two quirks, and two habits about you, then tag 3 people to do it too.

Fact : It is my birthday today.
Fact : I am mathematically retarded.
Fact : There are red bean paste dumplings in my fridge.
Habit : Walking too close to people
Habit : Pacing around and sorta "talking to myself" when I have ideas (for fics, drawings etc.)
Quirk : I am 5'0 and LOVING IT! (most of the time)
Quirk : My accent changes from native British, to American (I stayed there for two years...I picked it up in a heartbeat) to slightly Singaporean around Singaporean relatives (mainly my mother) ROFL. I'm weird.
I tag:
pretentioustfu vandigo hideincarnate

Now do itz. ><

_sivanra_ @ 2008-08-21T15:23:00

2008-08-21T14:24:37Z

Got my exam results today. I fucking tanked.

I officially hate life. -.-

DUDESRSLYPWN

2008-08-12T23:57:41Z

I''M GUNNA HAFTA STEAL HER....

...put her in a box. Keep her. :3

JROCK CHIBI ADOPTIONS Wave 1

2008-08-10T14:45:19Z

NOTE: Didn't include 'Hyde' chibis

Rules

Please read the descriptions under each set to check availability.
PM me (with your email address) in order to receive an individual watermark free chibi. Please don't expect an instant reply.
When displaying in journal/user info page you must put this form below it.
I don't care how big or small the text is as long as it is readable.
Please upload the images I send you into your own image hosting site. Please and thankyou.
Have fun. :)

REMEMBER: Choose carefully. You can only have one.

YOSHIKI

Kawaii: TAKEN Femme: TAKEN    Shirtless: TAKEN    "Sunglasses": TAKEN

TOSHI

Kawaii: available    Stage: TAKEN    "Sunglasses": TAKEN    "X": available

PATA

Kawaii: available    Confused: available    Smiley: TAKEN    "X": Available

hide

Kawaii: TAKEN    Stage: available    Angel: available   "X": TAKEN

HEATH

Kawaii: available   Sleepy: available   "Pirate": available    "X": available

SUGIZO

Kawaii: TAKEN    Pink-Haired: available    "Cigarette": TAKEN    S.K.I.N: TAKEN

MIYAVI

Kawaii: TAKEN    Beanie: TAKEN    Cheeky: TAKEN    Kitty: TAKEN

tally ho....

Hey looks icons....

2008-08-08T20:06:10Z

ICONAGE (19 in Total)
1-13 Yoshiki
14-19 Miyavi

O__O

1. 2. 3. 4. 5.
6. 7. 8. 7. 8.
9. 10. 11. 12. 13.
14. 15. 16. 17. 18.
19.

YOSHIKI...swings both ways...

2008-08-07T00:36:00Z

Oh yes. I'm being very serious. (well...no...I'm joking in quite a few parts.... xD)

I have to start by saying I think about this whenever I see the "OMG is yoshiki gay??" comments on YouTube clips of him at an interview or something. No, children. Yoshiki is not gay.
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OBVIOUSLY BI-SEXUAL. xD

The mannerisms alone do suggest homosexuality to the common viewer. But let's remember he's had GIRLFRIENDS. And groupies. And pretty cling-ons that no one ever sees again after a month or so.

A completely straight man could not possibly behave the way he does from time to time. Or feel comfortable cross-dressing in front of millions (which he did really really well...) or having national symbols of homosexuality (within Japan) in vases in his house (the roses).

But a completely gay would not ever.....now I say would not, not could not....ever play the drums like he does. Or you know...kiss women...which he has done...several times....I can assure you.

Personally. I'd be glad if he was. It means he gets the best of both worlds.
I mean...it means he gets to feel MANLY. And hold some fragile pretty thing in his MANLY drummer arms. And light a fire for her in the cold of the night with his MANLY fire lighting skills.
But then....turn around and be the one being held. Enjoy the comfort of being with someone who isn't so...feminine ('cause that has to be awkward when you were...are...feminine from time to time). YA KNOW. Take a break from being so MANLY. Let someone else be MANLY.
(I'm going to stop capitalizing 'manly' now...)

And I'm glad for his occasional 'gay' mannerisms....no matter how many stupid YouTube comments are born because of them...

At least he's not overly masculine.

Who seriously likes that?

As a straight female..yes...I appreciate masculinity within a man.
But people leaving such YouTube comments are obviously looking for him to be extremely masculine.

As in "I-hunt-my-own-dinner" masculine.
(Honestly. Can you see Yoshiki hunting a deer in the middle of the night....? ....nevermind that there's probably one living in his bathroom somewhere....within the wilderness...)

So Yoshiki as a bisexual would work. He is in his own way fragile and would need the strength of someone who is MA- manly. But at the same time he obviously enjoys being around women.

I think he likes both.

:3

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MANLY.

...okay...
I'm done..

Ciao

Holiday

2008-07-28T13:31:38Z

I'll gone in a few hours.

OFF TO WALES!!!!
I'll back on the forth.

xD

love ya guys.
ciao

_sivanra_ @ 2008-07-22T23:59:00

2008-07-22T23:00:26Z

Well. I just had a monotonous day...

gawd.
MSN people?

Someone come talk to me.

death_kitty333@hotmail.com

MULTI POST: Forum drama, new hair, jrock chibi adoptions

2008-07-17T23:35:05Z

Multi topic post..

I've been hearing about all this stuff about the Forum admins over at X-Freaks.

I went over there to read around the posts and see the commotion for myself. Seriously now.

Why is there so much drama?

Rules were randomly introduced, people obviously don't like them. Who are they to start telling people what rules are good for them? If people don't like rules, don't force them to obey. It's JUST A FORUM. Rules are good. But strict ones? Is this a convent school suddenly? WTH.

Ugh...

But, moving on from that.
(Sorry, I had to rant. So many people I know are complaining...)

I have new hair. :3

Cheyeah....

I've chopped off my infamous length (my god those dry ends were bad), got layers and added a little more warmth to my brown by adding some copper tones.

PICCIES:

YESH. Well.....by Christmas it will be long again. Last time I got it cut this short it just GREW.
SUPA GROWTH HAIR. >___________>

....and...

I'm not sure if you remember the Jrock Chibi Adoption project. But...

I'm still working on it and trying to establish how to do it....

Here's a template of rules I could possibly be using...

Rules

Please read the descriptions under each set to check availability.
PM me in order to receive an individual watermark free chibi. Please don't expect an instant reply.
When displaying in journal/user info page you must put this form below it.
I don't care how big or small the text is as long as it is readable.
Please upload the images I send you into your own image hosting site. Please and thankyou.
Have fun. :)

And I'll be posting them in sets like so...

(NOTE: THIS IS JUST AN EXAMPLE. They will all be available when I'm finished...)

DESCRIPTION

Chibi: YOSHIKI

Kawaii: taken

Shirtless: available

“Sunglasses”: available

Femme: taken

...so???

What do think?
A first come-first serve thing seems to be the only way to do it. O__O

Just thought I'd give you people an update.

Ohh...and speaking of updates.

Progress:
Yoshiki set: COMPLETED
Miyavi set: COMPLETED
Sugizo set: COMPLETED
Toshi set: COMPLETED
Heath set: COMPLETED
Pata set: in progress
hide set: pre-production
Hyde set: pre-production

bLEH..
>____________<

ehehhehe....

LOVE YA.
CiaoCiao...