fading into your arms...

good bye.

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 03:33:58 GMT

it was great why it lasted, i dont see why it had to be so short.

but i've moved on.

VERS!ON: _o7 released.

good bye.

im dun.

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 19:04:15 GMT

w00t w00t.

11:55pm :// 11_26_o4. FiNiSHED APPs.

o yes im good. and now senior year will become EVEN MORE STRESSFUL. -_-;;

blessed be your name.

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 00:28:12 GMT

So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

i [heart] that song.. haha i even made travis stay in the disney store so we could listen too it!! :D

soo dun with my ap fys and comp sci tests. eng got cancelled. jess gov. to study fer. did math hw in class. mm and listening to my CD makes me happy.

i feel soo happy rite now. i wish i always felt like this...

soo thankful for my family, friends, and travis. but most importantly god.
the billy graham crusade was fun, but his speech was short. we missed kutless. a lot of ppl were sad. i was tired and slept on the way home frm the rose bowl.

thanksgiving is coming up. and so is chrismawanznacah.

ahhhh and can not forget about UC APPLiCATiONs.

and SAT II//WRiTiNG_M IC.

ok i dunt want to stress myself out anymore. -_-;;

if yr cool, yu'll dL DRAGOSTEA DiN TEi//o-zone. i love european artists. :)

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 23:55:48 GMT

under soo much pressure, i just started crying todaii.

math test tomorrow.

ap fys test tuesdaii.

ap english, ap computer science AND government test next wednesdaii.

dammit, just kill me now.

i HATE senior year.

i love you, yr the only one who helps me forget my problems, i just wish i could tawk to you more...

btw. happy birfdaii ikuta.

i hope you get better travis.

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 17:53:04 GMT

but im not supposed to be as worried as you rite, khuz you would NEVER do that to me....

but you think i would.

im sorry.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 02:08:48 GMT

HAPPY o5 MONTHs TRAViS !!

://hectic-ness the past few weeks. but we survived. if you DO ever question this again, dunt tell me, i get really scared, then list all the reasons y im not worth yr time...and i cry for the times wen i mite not have you ne more.

only god knows how much i LOVE you.

i wish that this relationship was stable and wonderful 24/7 but its not, relationships are supposed to be a rollercoaster and all we can do is hope for the best, bkhuz only the strong survive...

im sorry for wat i did to you today, i wish i could change it, it not hurting you, me not caring ne thing to make you feel better, to make you all fuzzy inside.

i love you soo much. i cant wait to see you. [wenever that will be...]

bleh i dunt feel lyke tell you kids about waht i've been doing with my life, school, tennis, hw. yea. dance @ riverside. i still think high school dances are better :P haha [ well except the fact that stoopid soph and freshies kan go to WF]

i miss you travis.

.brain freeze.

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 06:14:21 GMT

wow i dont kno what it is.

mayb its khuz im having mood swings.

mayb im pmsing.

im sick of this drama shiet.

mayb im just fed-up.

its stoopid and im tired.

watever. we're even.

a sigh of relief.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 23:42:24 GMT

wowee. its been a week since an update. many things happening. but still didn't seem very busy.

oct_14//THURSDAii: had sku. pep assembly. it was purdy good. jeff walked with allie and michelle it was cute. altho his quotes were NOT funny. haha sorry jeff. :P took first comp sci test. i got a 39/4o on it khuz i forgot one thing. poop. and then....WE LOST TO EDiSON. poop on edison. so now we're tied for first with huntington and fountain valley. edison lost to both of them but beat us, so their in 2nd. [and of course esperanza and marina just suck, sorry thats mean.] now we ahve to win the rest of our games to win sunset league...-_-;;
://afterwards. went home showered. grace ate @ my house. picked up alex and stacy. [omg tammy is soo weird]. went to gahr. deng their statium is soo freaking small. haha and we had LiTERALLY 4x as many ppl there. [we played marina]. but it was our homecoming so of course we did. 57-7 [we won, thank god]. lindsey peck and john hale won. lindsey is soo purdy im soo jealous. left with seema_nicole_alex_stacy_meeh to go get boba during 3rd quarter. jeff wanted boba frm upperhouse but wen we got there it was closed so we went to guppy's instead. haha crazy gangstas there [as usual]. but saw allen yi and evan lee and sum other azn kid [i think they were ditching game too]. saw brian chen there too. i haven't seen that boii and FOREVER. haha it was cool catching up with him. stacy kept bothering him askin if he knew all these azn kids. he seemed a lil confused. o_O. went bak to the game and haha apperently we missed the rest of the game. matt haya[ga]shi got mad @ me khuz they put him in 4th quarter and i missed it. o wellie. then us + kaelin_megan_cam'ron_jeff_andy_fong debated what to do. basically if we should go to devin's house or not. [even tho we hadn't tawked to him about it at all] but we just ended up going home instead.

oct_15//FRiDAii: woke up round 1o-ish. [khuz of jocy] then stuff. then went driving. picked up jeff and hung out there khuz cam'ron didn't want us @ his house yet. he cooked us food. haha boiis + cooking = sexii. :P yes that means i must think gavin is the sexii-est man alive but i think travis is. :P [dunt worry travis]. then we tawked to cam'ron then we left but realized half waii to cam'ron's that both jeff and i forgot our fones @ his house so we turned around. then cam'ron kalled jocy and said not to go AT ALL now. so we just went to kaelin's house got costumes. the went to target. dropped off jeff @ home round 2:3opm. then went home. ate food. tried to do hw. then i started getting ready for HOMECOMiNG. kept kalling travis to see how close he was frm his drive bak frm RiVERSiDE. he ended up getting home sum tiem after 5:3o. [we were supposed to b @ claim jumpers before 5:3opm] o wellie we got there round o6pm. JEFF_CAM'RON_KEViN_ANDY_NiCOLE_STACY_SEEMA_ROGER were already there. and wen we got there they got there food. then seema and stacy thot they were being sneeky by trying to tell the waitress it was nicole's b-daii w/o nicole noticing. so we got a free cake. it was yummy. then we raced bak to cam'ron's house [of course we won..iTS TRAViS] and jeff_andy_cam'ron got dressed. megan_irene_bonnie_kaelin met us @ cam'ron's. took pix. then raced to sku. bouncy house + cam'ron = disaster. so cam'ron, asb boii, collapsed the bouncy house. it was funny seeing him try to get out. then we stood around//danced waiting for everyone else to get there frm phuket thai. then wen we had all 31 of us we took pictures. danced. it was colded afterwards. party @ devin's. home before o2am. tired.

oct_16//SATURDAii: jocy woke me up @ 7:3o askin me sumthin but i forgot, just that she woke me up EARLY. woke up again @ 1oam. then jocy got home frm psat. then we ate lunch and i showered then kalled travis. then we went to tustin market place to meet up with joe and josh. got there before o2pm got ripped off @ red robin for onion rings. ate in-n-out. saw vanity fair. [2 1/2 hours. SORRY TRAViS !!] walked around. went to coffee bean. then left @ o7pm. got home round o8pm. jocy packed. drove her to bridget's house. went home. travis left. essayed. left for bridgets. [our varsity tennis sleepover!1] everyone went except the freshies. katie's car got sah-ran wrapped. [sp?] haha. it was funny. played ten fingers. watched mean girls. tp-ed the slavitt's house. it was raining they were in palm springs. haha sux0rs for them. came home. ate junk food. watched dirty dancing: havana nights. watched love actually. sleeped @ 3am.

oct_17//SUNDAii: got to church before 11am. had a lunch-in. came home did hw. wanted to sleep. travis came by to say bye. dinner. more hw. sleep.

MONDAii_tuesdaii_WEDNESDAii: RAiN + RAiN + RAiN = NO TENNiS. wahoo!! actually we had tennis practice on mondaii. but it ended with rain. no game yesterdaii. to practice todaii. iono bout tomorrie. fys was rilly sad. no comment. o2 more daiis till the end of the month for fone bill. travis has no minutes = kan onlii tawk to him after 9pm todaii and tomorrie. and hes not coming down this weekend. i cry.

hopefully i'll get to go visit TRAViS with sum los al kids on the 29th since we have no sku. 29th @ nite = seema's party. 3oth @ nite = cooper's and devin's party. 31th @ church = cam'ron's and krista's party. o_O. o man. aren't i just the party animal.

love you.

hrm.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 00:49:37 GMT

senior year isn't as bad a junior year. but its a lot lyke poop. ya ya its still the same ol' same ol' gotten better in a few aspects.

as of tomorrie we are half way thru season. [we need to beat edison. we have beaten everyone else (well except santa margarita but that doesn't count)] btw. i suck at tennis. :P

homecoming 'o4//HEROsandViLLiANs. mmm i am taking mr. sexyman as my date. imma b SHEGO frm kim possible. [taht green villian lady who works with drakken]. haha. seema is gonna b kim possible and ikuta is gonna b ron stoppable. we still need to figure out whose going and such and hopefully get a group together. TOMORRiE iS ALREADY THURSDAii !!

HC game tomorrie @ gahr vs. marina. [we better win this year] or imma hurt sum one. haha prolly matthew haGashi. [bkhuz that is what it still says on his jersey//even tho they TRiED to fix it]

i still dunt kno waht happened to tha math tests. -_-;; i hope it wasn't THAT bad. first CS test tomorrie. first fizzex test next wednesdaii. tha onlii class i still haven't had a test in is english. hrm but we DO have an essay due on mondaii. poop.

:P eating too many salty crackers on tuesdaii made me want to throw up. it was gross. but i got better. i finally burned the ashlee simpson CD. 'you make me want to la la.' but i still need both hilary duff CDs and the ryan cabrera CD also. haha and of coure MORE TRANCE//TECHNO. for tha azn-ness in me.

megan king said todaii that the otehr day she supposedly was doing sumthin 'azn' and an azn grl frm jv said 'wow megan you act so AzN!!' then she was lyke 'DO YOU HANG OUT WiTH MELiSSA LiU?! khuz after i started hanging out with her i became more azn' o man i almost died. haha i ahve no idea who would say that. o wellie it made my daii.

i am half way thru my minutes. which is better than last month. and i have onlii o8 more daiis. tahts good. :D i wont run over this month!!

bridget and celeste's pasta party//sleepoever is this saturdaii nite @ 7. mmm it shoudl b fun//exciting. too bad i NEED to finish my english essay before i go + hang out with travis before the party + take jocy shopping. poop. i have church the next morning + cooper has a date with my math book + editing my essay + start studing for fys. deng imma b soo exhausted frm this weekend. rAwR.

i want my senior pictures. 'how bigs yr head?' mines a 7. and i think i should say im 6'2" and have a rilly long gown. haha.

15 more daiis till i [hopefully] get a new fone. mine is dying.

be my mr. sexyman. [superman's evil twin]. this love was meant for onlii you.

:D

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 23:24:39 GMT

happy o4 months travis.

with a lil luck and magic, i believe i can beat you on this one bkhuz im internet savvy lyke that.

i love you, mr. sexyman.

have a sugar daii.

always on my mind...

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 01:24:29 GMT

travis comes bak home tomorrie!! im soo happy//excited!! i hope i get to see him.

we beat FV 11-7 go griffins!! :D

UC//CSU APPLiCATiONS COME OWTz TOMORRiE!!

soo stressed. college apps + SATs + keeping up with sku + tennis = very stressful senior year. dammit y hasn't seniorites [sp?] kicked in yet!? then i wouldn't b stressing!

yay for the opera with all the ap english kids. [nov. 7] :D

to my one and only. bkhuz yr always on my mind.

KiLL ME.

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 00:18:03 GMT

i f-ing hate mondays.

dammit im going to get killed [if not yelled at and disowned]. moody + bitchy + a horrible monday = you dunt to mess with melissa. gawd, i know im going to take it out on travis which is stoopid, and a bad ending. bkhuz im not going to let myself tawk to him for the rest of the week. i've been soo stressed i seriously dont care if i die rite now. i hate everything that is going on rite now. the only time i feel free is wen im with my friends just having fun..too bad thats not very often. im sick of this all.

im dun with this [____].

im sorry.

oh how i miss you.

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 18:30:39 GMT

hrm..second week of sku. still havn't dun much:

://english: still discussing bel canto [characters//quotes//theme] we're prolly gonna finish early next week. we're planning to see Carmen [the oprea] on sundaii,november 7th [my daddy's birfdaii] it should b fun..even tho im still debating whether or not to wear stilettos. [bkhuz of past experiences...] :P

://fizzex: uhh..iono its ok so far..buh im still wondering HOW HARD iT WiLL GET. -_-;;

://comp sci: yea we're still doing ABSOLUTLEY NOTHiNG in that class...oh well im almost dun with the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy. i want to read the da vinci code..buh iono if im gonna have time too..

://government: yea this class is a waste of time. but whats worse is that even tho i feel its a waste of time, i dunt feel lyke im learning ne thing..and i have a test on tuesdaii..oh no.

://math: uhh..i hate it. we had a test. iono wat grade i got. if i get worse than a B. its my [butt]. holy crap. yea my dad will KiLL ME. poop.

:_we had two back-to-back matches on tues and wed fer tennis. we beat LB wilson 12-6 and lost to santa margarita 9-9 [71-81] it was poopy. we had a pep assembly on fridaii and we got to walk and miss 3rd it was tyte. :P even tho i had to do the relay. yea and waterpolo cheated. :P [but the pep assembly was MUCH better than last year.]

[ x ] minimum daii on thursdaii bkhuz of open house. so fong n i got lunch @ pho 57. i haven't been there in a hella long time :P we then went to tastea. i finally got to try straw nah nah. [khuz wen i went with john they didn't have ne more strawberries]. then we went to super autobacs. yea we're soo gonna apply for a summer job there//khuz we ahve to b 18. [even tho i kant do much more than work @ the register :P] dropped him off @ home. then tried to do hw. stoopid ap fys site wasn't working so i spent lyke o2 hours with cooper trying to copy the fys asnwers frm his comp on to a floppy. then just resorted to getting his hw frm sku so i could check my work. parents went to back-to-school nite did hw. picked up the stuff i was going to take to travis frm his house. hung out with gavin and evan for a lil bit. went home and finished hw and went to bed.

://since it was pep assembly schedule i didn't get out of 5th until 1:4o checked in with coach, then took jocy and chelsea to target, bought travis a dry-erase white board and pens. went bak home loaded up the car, then @ 3 left for ikuta's house. i got there before him and just hung out in my car, he pulled up and scare the crap out of me. [i literally jumped] haha. loaded travis's stuff into his car, then he went inside to get money [+ a lecture which he didn't bargin for]. it was bout 3:3opm wen we left. we took the 6o5-6o. the 6o5 was a bad idea. i supposedly was jinxing it the ENTiRE way. :P didn't get lost tho. just bumper to bumper traffic. we got to UCR @ 5:3opm [o2 effin hours of ikuta driving]. block party=no where to go. we got a o5 dollar parking pass, and parked near their dorm. snuck in with our superb sneeking skills. props to ikuta for his subtle-ness :P. so we got to travis's dorm room before he did. :P then we went to travis's car to drive up to ikuta's car to get travis's stuff. yes. drove back down and moved his stuff into his dorm. spent a least an hour trying to get a hold of neil. eating. neil's dorm. travis's dorm. haning out. foozball. yes. o4 hours was NOT long enuf. travis got me coach 'azn' sunglasses :P haha and he got von dutch ones. o man. left a lil after 1opm. ikuta and i drove to starbucks and go coffee for the long trip back. [travis kalled me to tell me he loved me and that he missed me already rite after we left. :(] ikuta drove on the 6o, we missed the 91 offramp then got on it and go rite off of it again [bkhuz apparently the lane we entered on exited rite away]. but getting lost in riverside is scary bkhuz the freaking residental areas have no signal lights and you cant get bak to where you were unless you turn around -_-; so then we got bak on the 91 and we were set. on the 91 ikuta said he was starting to daze out so wen we got to the 55 we got off and we switched drivers. a left : u-turn : u-turn : right : left got us back on to the 55. yea so know i know how to drive ikuta's car. im pro. :D. but i got all jittery frm the caffine and taht was bad khuz my leg was midly spazing out it was kinda of freaky... 55 -> 22 = less than 2o minutes @ 73 mph. so we got ikuta home @ 11:3opm [half an hour after he was supposed to be home -_-'' then i drove home. car stalled for lyke o2 seconds...TWiCE. on the way home. yea it was scary. but i got home ok. and called travis so say good nite and tell him about hour lil adventure. went to bed round 12:3o. even tho it was hard to sleep khuz the caffine was keeping me awake, but at the same time making me tired. and my legs were sore. frm iono what...spazing i guess. woke up @ 3:3o for sum odd reason then woke up again @ 9am.

[ x ] brennan's party is tonite @ the beach. iono im kinda getting sick of the beach but whatever. i need to finish hw and get him a present still. bleh. welp that was my week and a rather large nutshell. much love.

i love and miss you travis.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 01:24:38 GMT

://its been o2 daiis since i left travis @ riverside, gawd and its been soo trying. all this crying and missing him its gotten me soo exhausted. but by trying not to think about it has made me very studious. did lyke o4 straight hours of hw on sundaii @ church. i was soo happy i got so much done. i've got all my classes down now. but its still stressful if i sit and think bout it. english is scary khuz i dunt kno what to expect. fizzex is good [for now as i hear]. we'll see how this week goes. i know these next few weeks are going to be hard. [with travis starting sku, trying to tawk to him with the cell fone minutes running out, it being impossible to catch him online (hey, i haven't tawked to him online except once for lyke o2 minutes then he went to neil's dorm), classes, and hanging out this his friends]. its been frustrating for me. since im a jealous whore but its okay i guess. :P as long as i keep my self occupied its ok.

[ x ]i've been soo moody lately, i always feel lyke i want to snap at everyone if they piss me off. its been mostly with my family tho. its ok i should go bak to normal sumtime soon, i hope.

:_ ikuta and i were planning to visit the UCR kids on fridaii, altho we initially discussed thursdaii since we have a minimum daii, but katie mite have soccer practice and i mite have tennis pictures//practice. but yea, so we just decided on fridaii, my mom said i cant drive there, so if i ever want to visit travis, i need to take other ppl with me, but i rily dunt think i'll b able to do it very often, since college apps start in less than o2 weeks. -_-;; its gonna b soo stressful.i am NOT looking forward to it, altho im onlii applying to UCs and CSUs.
://i think im gonna apply to:
>>UCSD [+55]
>>UCi ["]
>>UCSB ["]
>>UCR ["]
>>cal poly SLO. ["]
>>cal state LB. ["]
=$330

[ x ] i was gonna apply to sum private christian colleges but my dad said it would b too expensive so o wellie, i rilly was considering pepperdine, its soo beautiful over there...

:_ tennis season is picking up, from now on we ahve two matches a week for o6 weeks then + 1 last match against edison + CiF, altho i dunt think we'll get very far :P. but imma b soo drained for this whole semester. bleh. kant wait for winter break :P haha.

i believe tahts all for now, nothing real exciting or new, just missing travis and trying to tawk to him wenever i/he gets the chance.

i love you.

falling into memories of you...

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 04:45:21 GMT

:tosses confetti: i finished my first FULL WEEK OF SENiOR YEAR. o man. haha.

its rilly long click if you care..
it was purdy bad i must say. not the hw load that was very nice. but falling asleep starting in the middle of 4th period?! tahts bad. at least i dunt fall asleep in 1st period...haha last year i started to fall asleep in both 1st and 5th period taht was bad. :P and we still have not started doing ne thing in comp sci khuz the server is still down so i've been reading travis' the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy quite amusing i must say, altho jess sum things are a lil profound to me.

[ x ] we had no practice for tennis on fridaii so that was nice, after sku i dropped jocy off @ her hair appointment, picked up travis, went to target, bought him thee kyutest stuffed animal cow [yau-mei]. dropped him off @ home. went home. picked up jocy frm her hair appointment. dropped her off @ home, went to my optometrist appointment. came home. went to travis'...twice, he wasn't home the first time bkhuz he had gone underwear shopping with his mommy [aww how kyute], and failed to kall me. :P so then after complaining to him, he kalled me wen he got bak and came and picked me up and we drove bak to his house. we packed up a lil, then went out to sango sushi with his parents. i saw sum churchies there. then travis n i left fer erin's house fer a going away par-tay fer tha UCR kids [even tho hulbert failed to show up]. played lots of pool. i suck at it, bkhuz i kant always hit it good, therefore i suck :P. but cam'ron n i beat travis n ikuta khuz travis scratched on the eight ball muahaha. :P. got home round midnight khuz travis had to finish packing.

://woke up this morning @ 5:4oam got ready and got to travis' a lil before 6:3o. haha of course no one was awake yet, even tho they wanted to leave @ 6:3o, we ended up leaving @ 7:3o :P. made it to riverside in 45 minutes but we got lost in locating the dorm. we finally found it after stopping twice. and we found neil!! well we moved in travis, took lots of pictures and videos, hung out with neil, got refreshments, went to buy textbooks, finished moving in travis/cleaning up his dorm, went to neil's dorm, went to lynn's dorm [?] <--one of travis' friends, came bak, tried to fix theh fone fer a good half hour, then went to the cars and drove home[4pm]. came home to an empty house, tried kalling EVERYONE, no one picks up there fone >:O tawked to travis, did hw ate food, watched sum of bourne identity, and now lj-ing.

:_i cried soo much today, i tried to take as many pictures as possible, but it still wont be anything near the real thing. if i just sit longer than 2o seconds, i start thinking about how much i miss travis and i start crying. o gawd, its soo bad. my left eye was having a reaction to the klennex and got puffy and had lil hive-like bumps : / not good. and travis kalled at least o5 times, and i cried everytime he kalled me + the times i just sat in my room and thot about it. i've cried AT LEAST 13 times since i got home, not to mention in the dorm wen we were just sitting there and i was holding him and driving home in the car. :( its been a very trying day. less than o5 hours of sleep + crying a whole bunch = tired and exhausted melissa. i want to tawk to travis as much as possible, but i know i will cry just seeing his caller id on my fone wen ever he kalls me in the next week or so. bkhuz im guessing that is how long it will take for me to ACCEPT the fact that i kant always be so close by to him. gawd i love him soo much.

im glad i got to move travis in todaii bkhuz i got to 1)see the campus 2)see his dorm and the residence halls 3) see where he will b for the next nine months 4) see him as long as possible.

i love you, travis.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 04:30:12 GMT

WAHOO!! i got a new chair for my desk. mmm very sexii. got my off campus pass yesterdaii and went off campus todaii. uhhh nothing rilly interesting todaii happened.

i got the hitch hiker's guide to the galaxy frm travis last nite, so i read that todaii in ap cs. its funny//good.

we ahve oral presentations tomorrie in english. iono how bad its gonna b buh i'll prolly stress over it ne waiis. speaking of which, pray for karen khuz she started having an anxiety attack yesterdaii. i hope you feel better karen! i love you!!

see you at the pole was this morning. too bad we got to sku @ lyk3 7:4oam. :P and i didnt realize it was this morning till after 1st.

bleh. tennis is gay but i lyke games. but i hate losing. fall sports pep assembly is sept. 24th. yay we get to walk down that lil walkway tha cheerleaders make fer tha sports players. i hope i dunt get announced as a captain. khuz they always make the team captains do crazy/stoopid stuff in front of the assembly. oh poop.

*sigh* o2 more daiis until travis moves into his dorm. its gonna b painful. </3

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 06:26:22 GMT

hmm for sum reason we dont get WARNGiNGz ne more. so i got a detention for my dress code violation. it wasn't taht bad i guess, the lunch detention taht is. but i couldn't do hw in there so i couldn't do ne government hw [bkhuz im an overachiever] so i jess sat there and ate my lunch. [but if i get another one its o2 saturdaii skus and another one i get suspended o_O]

we beat villa park 13-5 i was playing sucky tha second half of our first set, but play fairly well my second set. meh.

text msging frm aim is stoopid khuz you get part of it, then the rest of it lyek o4 hour later. haha.

i had a better day todaii. server is stil down in comp sci but yea well laturr daiiz.

wow this sux0rz.

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 01:12:03 GMT

[edit] if you noticed i enabled my comments, i guess jess to see how many ppl actually read this stoopid thing :P so feel free to leave comments. (note: you dunt need to b a lj member to leave comments)[/edit]

first of all i hate mondays. second of all this is an monday to be hated more than most other mondays.

[ x ] o1://ap english: went to get our portfoilos frm our english teachers frm last year and i was walking with my friend for lyke 2o feet, then they just ditched me, lyke they always do. y am i such a loner.

o2:// ap fys: well fizzex was fine, actually so far harmon's purdy funny but scares the crap out of meeh khuz he sounds EXACTLY lyke minh-tri. o gawd. except he doesn't hit on tha grls in my class. haha.

nutrition://o gawd i hate this sku. i got a f-ing dress code. i was lyke WTF!? o_O i was walking a eating my wheat thins n f-ing VG was lyke "STOP EATiNG, your violating the dress code, GiVE ME YOUR iD." she had lyke taktn these other grl's iDs lyke rite in front of me with lyke o3 inches of midriff showing, mine lyke what 1 1/2 inches?! gRrRr..

o3://ap cs: wow haha this class is cool bkhuz we dunt do ne thing in there. :P but i think we mite start making our account tomorrie. so since we didn't do ne thing in that class [+ i had nothing to do bkhuz travis didn't give me hitch hikers guide to the galaxy ] i did my hw for government tahts due SEPT. 23. bleh.

o4:// government: stoopid class. almost fell asleep todaii. total waste of time. iono why we have to even take this class. we are seriously the onlii f-ing sku that doesn't have ap for taht class.

o5://math: iono what to say bout it. its brucc sumtimes its ok sumtimes its lyke pulling teeth. i was jess rilly out of it by fifth.

o6://tennis: wow mrs. flemming anonys me sumtimes. but shes ok. lots of tennis. it was hot. gordon : paul : ryan stopped by bkhuz they were bored. got home lil after four. showered. to my dismay, my travis left me for the block with sum grl, who still remains unnamed while i was showering. :P paul said i should hang out with 'sexy ryan' to make him jealous. but im not cruel lyke that *wink.

i have math n sum other stuff due later in the week. not too bad i guess. cried lyke o6 times last nite so i had puffy eyes this morning. gawd i hate puffy eyes, but even more i hate being moody and emotional at the same time. i almost cried o2 times todaii, i guess jess khuz i was emotional and jealous/mad. but whatever not lyke it matters.

travis leaves in o5 daiis. and i miss him already.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 21:58:43 GMT

[ x ] sku has offically started, 'o5 SENiORz. wow we've come far.

:_i had a fantastic summer [except tha europe trip was too long]. i loved spending a lot of my time with my boyfriend, but now hes leaving in a week for college. its gonna be hard and stressful, but i trust that if its meant to happen, iT WiLL HAPPEN.

://i guess to update my livejournal i dunt feel bad if i dont write a long entry, lyke in my xanga i feel i need to write a long entry, here i just dunt care.

:// [my cousin]dennis n nancy's wedding was last week, it was lots of fun. haha the pastor was a real ham. but he had a strong krn accent so my sister was complaining she couldnt' understand him. they hired a DJ for their reseption [in LA] and so we all got to get our grove on. but a lot of tha ppl there were lyke hard core clubbers so it was funny. it was fun dressing up and of course i got to wear my sexii rampage dress taht i was in love with, with of course killer heals, that killed my feet literally after tha dancing too. we got home @ 11 and i was soo tired.

[ x ] travis n my o3 months was on thursday [detail on my xanga] but since it was a sku nite, we're going out tonite. mmm im excited. but every minute i spend with him, i miss him even more. but i get to move him into his dorm, then i KNOW i'll cry.

"this is for you, love."

Wed, 04 Aug 2004 17:12:25 GMT

wow with less than one month of summer left. its all gone by soo fast. :(

having the azn parents that i have, i am forced to start my college applications NOW.

but on the bright side, i got to go to disneyland yesterdaii!! but i went with the family. but it was still fun in itself. went on tower of terror, screamin [x2], soarin, and FiNALLY saw the aladdin show. =P i think its my first or second time going this summer..which is RiLLY bad. khuz we bought these passes in january, n hardly use them. well we went to ariel's grotto for dinner. and low and behold, i KNEW ARiEL! haha. it was lindsey peck as ariel! [senior @ los al] she was lyke, 'dont i kno you?!' we onlii tawked for a lil khuz there were other kids that wanted to take a picture with here. and of course now melissa is inspired to try out for mulan, but too bad she is lyke onlii in the parade of characters and SUMTiMES walking around. but we'll see. mayb next summer...

that was the high-lite of my daii [[well except tawking to travis, who left me for vegas with his family, even tho he HATEz it there, but hes coming bak tonite so im happy]].

i wonder if ne one ACTUALLY READz THiS, but im afraid of turning on the comments, bkhuz i KNOW i will always b comment-less.

i am offically additced to myspace, even tho there is rilly not much you can do on it..o wellie.

OMG i FOUND THEE CUTEST DRESS @ MACY*S. it was rampage and onlii 3o bucks!! :D i was soo happy. bkhuz i need dresses for my cousins' weddings. both guys. haha. ones getting married on labor day weekend in LA and the other in mid-april in chicago. it should b fun. and i have about o5 more cousins that are DUE to marry within the next..o5 years or so? haha but we'll see bkhuz i have lyke o7 cousins all ranging in age frm 22-28 years old. haha. mmm lots of dress shopping. yay! :D

name: melissa.
gender: grl.
height: 5'2"
hair color: black//faded hi-lites.
eye color: dark brown.
fears: rejection.

[ARE YOU]
single or taken: taken. <3.
simple or complicated: COMPLiCATED.
mtv or bet: bet. wattup cuh?!
7th heaven or dawsons creek: 7th heaven.
sugar or salt: suga.
silver or gold: white gold.
tongue or belly button ring: belly button.
chocolate or flowers: flowers.
color or black: color.
stay late or sleep in: both.
hot or cold: hot.
taller members of the opposite sex or shorter: taller.
sun or moon: sun.
left or right: rite.
10 acquaintances or one best friend: one best friend.
kids or no kids: kidz.
newspaper or magazine: magazine.
spring or fall: spring.
rain or snow: snow.
a year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship: friendship.
happy or sad: happy.
mexican or italian food: mexican.
lights on or off: off. :P

[FIRSTS]

First best friend: sara.
First car: 'o3 convertible solara. bite me.
First real kiss: :P
First date: mmm..travis?
First break-up: jon.
First screen name: mlspluto12
First self purchased album: SPiCE GRLz!
First funeral: uncle's mom.
First pets: benjamin bunny.
First piercing/tattoo: ears.
First credit card: last christmas.
First enemy: middle sku.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: dad's guitar.

[LASTS]

Last car ride: shopping with travis this afternoon.
Last kiss: todaii//travis.
Last good cry: mmm..a few weeks ago.
Last library book checked out: cliffs notes//hamlet.
Last movie seen: monty python.
Last beverage drank: orange juice.
Last food consumed: island grill.
Last crush: travis.
Last phone call: sister.
Last time showered: yesterdaii morning.
Last shoes worn: my 'tall' shoes.
Last cd played: avril's under my skin. [burned of course]
Last item bought: birfdaii hollister gift card for sister.
Last annoyance: hmm..lee brothers fighting in the back seat.
Last disappointment: ummm...iono. last week's bonfire?
Last time wanting to die: hmmm...NOT RiLLY. buh kinda? a while ago just being frustrated.
Last shirt worn: HOT import NiTEz shirt.
Last website visited: mysapce.com
Last word you said: :haha:
youre Last song you sang: dont tell me.

[WHATS]

What is in your cd player?: under my skin // avril
What color socks are you wearing?: none
What color of underwear are you wearing?: pink!
What's under your bed?: the boogie monster? and a box.
What time did you wake up today?: 9 ish
What do you want to be when you grow up: mmm famous. not infamous.
What was the worst day of your life: mmm i dunt kno.
What you usually think about before going to bed: what im going to wear the next daii.

[WHOS]

who is your best friend: vi
who is the loudest: prolly brando.
who makes you laugh: everyone.
who is the shyest: mmm..amanda?
who is most entertaining: brando
who is the hottest: definitly brennan. :P
who laughs the most: elise.
who have you known the longest: cam'ron.
who have you known the shortest: uhh..torres?
do you hang out with a certain type: mmm hot ppl.
do you hang out with the opposite sex: yes.
do you trust your friends: most of them.
are you a good friend:i hope so
can you keep a secret: most of the time :P

well i think thats long enuf. imma go take a LONG STEAMY SHOWER. mmmm.

i miss travis.

:D

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 03:18:03 GMT

mmmm..daii one of recovery.

my face as expanded. i look lyke a chipmunk. (o'.'o).

warm rice bags on my cheeks [altho they are still rilly sore] : jello // ice cream // ramen noodle diet. i have lost 5 pounds aready.

my sweet sweet travis made me peach jello. ^_^.

onlii a lil vicodin left. :( i am no druggy.

tha veins in my hand and arm are turning black and blue. kinda gross looking.

verii tired.

i want travis.

im bak.

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 02:37:39 GMT

way too lazy, check the xanga [xanga.com/xsensazntionx] for europe in a nutshell

also check for details bout this morning and having my wisdom pulled out of me.

but i shall update in here about my current state regarding the recuperation of melissa frm surgery.

i love vicodin and travis.

::cires::

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 19:42:50 GMT

today i leave fore europe [ london, england and paris, france]

FOR o2 WEEKS.

b bak july 17th.

[ i love travis ]

jess bkhuz...

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 23:26:58 GMT

*sigh* i miss travis. ONE MORE DAY.

i am soo sore frm tennis. i KANT EVEN WALK DOWN THA FLiPPiN STAiRz. [let alone lift up my arms to serve a stoopid tennis ball].

i should b packing for europe, reading Bel Canto..or anything else? but im fililng out a survey, o gawd. :P

|| ME; ME; ME ||
--What is your name? meLissa.
--Nicknames? meLLie, MeL, smellie mellie? : /
--Age: one 7.
--Sex: a LaDee.
--Where do you live? tha OC.
--What school do you attend? Los AL.
--Pets: goldfish//beta.
--Righty or Lefty: rightie.

|| LOOKS; LOOKS; LOOKS ||
--Hair color: brownish blak wit hi-lites.
--Eye color: dark brown.
--height: 5'2" [almost 3!!]
--Do u wear contacts or glasses? both. usually contactz.
--Do you have any piercings? jess ears.
--Do you want more, if you do where? another set in tha ears, mayb bellie button?
--Do you have a tattoo? nope.
--If so what and where?
--Do you wear any rings? yea.
--Do you have a certain fashion you follow? not rilly.

|| LATELY; LATELY; LATELY ||
--How are you today? meh. i miss travis.
--What pants are you wearing right now? 2o buck volcom jeans. [so azn.]
--What shirt are you wearing right now? pink AE shirt.
--What does your hair look like at the moment? wet and in a towel.
--What song are you listening to right now? streaming trance frm [www.di.fm].
--What was the last thing you ate? subway.
--How is the weather right now? 75°F [evening time.]
--Last person you talked to on the phone: LoTey.
--Last Dream you can remember? that one scary dream with mike tran in it..but travis was in it so i guess it was OKAY...
--Who are you talking to right now? LoTey, jay, jason...

|| MORE ABOUT ME; ME; ME ||
--What are the last four digits of your phone number? 1718
--If you were a crayon, what color would u want to be? purple.
--Have you ever almost died? probably.
--What makes you happy? TRaViS.
--What's the next CD you are going to buy? iono. [i dunt buy CDz. :P]
--What's the best advice ever given to you? LiFE goes on.
--Have you ever won any special awards? uhh..iono?
--What are your future goals? get into college and get a DECENT SAT score.
--Do you like to dance? uh huh.
--What's the stupidest thing you ever done? not studying. and many others.
--What's your favorite memory? too many...
--Where do you shop the most? uhh...hollister, ae, forever 21..
--How many kids do you want to have? two? [a boii n a grl]
--Son's name? Jason?
--Daughter's name? uhh..iono.
--What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use? herbal essanse and pantene pro-v.
--What sport do you hate the most? uhh...iono?
--What are you most scared of? rejection.
--How many TV's do you have in your house? o2.
--Do you have your own? nah.
--Do you have your own phone line? nope. onlii a cellie.
--Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yep
--Have you ever broken/sprained/fractered a bone? nope.
--Who do you dream about? travis. [daydream?]
--Who do you tell your dreams to? depends.
--Who's the loudest friend you have? sandy?
--Who's the quietest friend you have? prolly travis//tiff tiff.
--Is cheerleading a sport? i guess.
--How many licks does it take to get to the center? 453452345.
--Which came first, the chicken or the egg? tu madre!

|| ME ON LOVE; LOVE; LOVE ||
--Do you believe in Love? yes.
--Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? yeh.
--Do you believe in Love at first sight? no.
--Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? hawaii?
--What song do you want played at your wedding? nice songs.
--What's the first physical thing you notice about the opposite sex? smile.
--Longest crush: [sumone]
--Are you too shy to ask someone out? depends.
--Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? sumone who loves me unconditionally.

|| HAVE I; I; I; EVER EVER??? ||
--Loved someone soo much it makes you cry? yes.
--Ever gotten dumped? no.
--Broke the law? yes.
--Ran from the cops? uhh..mayb? [but not run tho.]
--Stole something? maybe..
--Been in love? i am.
--Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? kinda did unintentionally...
--Do you like filling these out: uhh..iono im bored.

|| HAVE I; I; I; EVER EVER EVER?? ||
--Fallen for your best friend? i dunt..think so?
--Made out with JUST a friend? no.
--Been rejected? yes.
--Been in lust? iono.
--Used someone? uhh..lyke fer money n *ehem* rides. jk. <3.
--Ever been used? maybe.
--Cheated? on a test.
--Been cheated on? i sure hope not.
--Done something you regret? yea.

|| LAST PERSON; PERSON; PERSON ||
--You touched? my mom.
--You talked to? alaina.
--You hugged? travis.
--You instant messaged? travis.
--You kissed? travis.
--You yelled at? myself. [hey, i was playing tennis]
--You laughed with? trisha.
--You had a crush on? travis. *wink.

|| DO I; I; I; ||
--Color your hair? hi-liting.
--Have tattoos? nope.
--Have Piercing(s)? yes.
--Have a boy/girl friend? yes.
--Floss daily? no.
--Like to groove to the music? haha i suppose.
--Think you are cultured? i suppose, my relatives are fobs.
--Like to drive fast? haha duh.
--Believe in God or Devil? yes.
--Believe in The Closet Monster? sumtimes.
--What should you be doing right now? packing for europe.
--What are you listening to? trance.
--Can you do anything freakish with your body? uhh...
--Chicken or fish? azn style fish.
--Favorite Season? mmm..not sure. over all spring [but i hate all season if your relating it to sku except summer *wink]
--Is ice cream the best thing in the world? one of them, after travis.
--What would your dream date be? mm...any where with travis.
--Single flower or a dozen? either or.
--Silver, gold or platinum? platinum.
--Candle lit dinner in a restaurant or at home? restaurant.
--Roses or wild flowers? roses.
--Silly or serious romance? depends.
--What CD is in your CD player right now? trance.
--Who was your favourite Spice Girl? uhh..i dunt lyke spice grls.
--Favorite Disney Characters? MULAN!!
--Favorite book? i lyked east of eden.
--Favorite Sports teams? uhh..iono.
--What room is your computer in? my room.
--What is your shoe size? 6 1/2.
--What will you be when you grow up? an older version of myself?
--Who do you consider your best friend? vi.
--Comments? i love travis. :P

i love travis.

.·:PoOf:·.

if the only way i can be with you is in my dreams...

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 01:19:31 GMT

i'll sleep f o r e v e r . . .

gawd i miss travis. he left for UCR yesterdaii for a week. i went to say bye to him [and skipped 2nd service]. he kalled me 9pm then again @ 11pm frm riverside.

i had tennis today so he kalled me on my cell and left me a sweet msg. and also texted meeh too. ::cries::

he comes back on fridaii round 3pm. [ i have tennis all day ] then i leave for europe the next day round 3pm for o2 weeks. :(

:( melissa is gettin her wisdom teeth pulled on july 19th. [the monday after i get bak frm europe (o7/17) ] so i'll b jet lagged AND on vicodin. wow.

i love travis.