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It’s not worth much to give your all
When no one knows you’ve hit the wall
There for you through thick and thin
Always there to let you in
Make sure I always take the blame
The bad guy in my deadly game
But I can’t quit, I have to play
Sunrise is my countdown to the end of the day
Use me, abuse me, I’ll never flinch
Tightening the knot in my own lynch
Cause inside I feel very weak
Screaming, flailing, but I just can’t speak
At least not with words- I’m not going to talk
Scribbling it furiously with my sidewalk chalk
Label me as a victim of fashion
This is just my twisted passion
Every day I want to scream and shout
But I starve until what’s inside is out
Cause trusting people leads to tears
I’ve finally learned after all these years
I like to act all bad and strong
I was hiding my inside all along
You’d never know I only live to make you smile
In my shoes you’d like to walk a mile
Always on top, always the best
Barely open the book yet ace the test
This is my cry, don’t walk a mile in my shoes
Just sit back as my skin begins to bruise
My spirit is what’s really hurt
Scars covered carefully by my mini-skirt
A heartfelt thanks is all I need
But I was never one to plead
I need you, I love you to the bones
In a room full of people yet standing alone
To keep the tears in, I head to the bar
Guzzle them down, after three I’m a star
Could you be the first one to see
That your love alone could rescue me?
I don't want to mean anything to you
I can't handle it, it's sad but true
So until you notice me, see my pain
I’ll just waste away standing outside in the rain
And just as I think I am on the mend
You gently pull one thread’s loose end
Watch my whole life begin to unravel
Run to the playground and collapse in the gravel
Carrying unbearable weight without crying
Slow passionate walk in the shoes of the dying
Searching for answers wherever they may lie
Someday I'll find them or while trying I'll die