Friday The 13th [12 Oct 2008|06:01pm] inlanternlight  Micheal Bay is directing a remake of Friday The 13th??? WTF Are they going to have explosions and perhaps a boat chase in Crystal lake??? :p you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[12 Oct 2008|04:16pm] whateverlauren being a dog owner is amazing. Rosalita is her name. Rosie for short. last night we carved pumpkins! brent and i carved a black flag pumpkin, robin carved a toothless jack o'lantern and tatia spent three hours carving a skull into her pumpkin which ended up looking like the misfits skull. this morning i woke up at 9:30 am and i took rosie out. it was so beautiful outside! it still is. i ate breakfast with brent and we watched the first half of neverending story III, then he went back to winston salem. he passed the pumpkin carving test, however he HATES the beach boys and that's horrible news. matt came over and took robin and i to the new Trader Joe's. i bought two bottles of wine and a huge bag of dog food and it all cost only 11 dollars. harris teeter would have been $18 at least. we came back to the house and robin made lunch for everybody (me, tatia, matt, and blake). we ate potstickers, pita bread and hummus, rice, salad with tempeh and watermelon. it was a feast. this is the third sunday in a row that we've had feasts at this house and we are going to continue that trend. we are going to carve more pumpkins tonight. matt is going to come back over after he does perfect fill at american apparel (ha ha ha HA) and he better have some killer carving templates ready. i love my new house. i love my room. 01 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[12 Oct 2008|01:43pm] easy_funk [ mood | optimistic ] joe and i did the nascar event last night. we met tons of people and possibly got lots of work. everyone was lovin our shit. it was so invigorating to have all of that support. we are starting a business called BIG TROUBLE COLLECTIVE. we'll have the website up soon. it's basically me, joe, matt, and kenny offering work for whatever people may need. be it art, film, hot young studs posing for middle aged women...i'm excited though. i wanna make some money! the red bull team was fuckin awesome! all very nice people. i'm glad i had the experience. you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[12 Oct 2008|02:24am] wintering What is it it about a fistful of dudes that makes one want to just run off to the mountains and read some Woolf? It seems like this army of suitors only appears when I'm most content to be alone and charged with productivity. I suppose it's a good thing, really. I've gotten quite skilled at keeping my priorities straight and my nose to the grindstone, and it's almost a pleasure to have my resolve tested and pass with flying colors. I am seriously married to myself right now, and for once I actually like it that way. I wish I was able to capture the eloquence of happiness and fulfillment, but I can't. Dearest Internets, just take my word for it. 01 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[11 Oct 2008|08:54pm] kaylyssa I'm alive. Hi from normal guy world. 03 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[11 Oct 2008|04:54pm] evenflow3eb I'm officially sympathetic to supporters of John McCain. (Or at least the ones that aren't ignorant racists.) One thing that has become more apparent this week is that it's rough to be on his side of the fence this Fall. A lot of those voting Democratic this election are doing so because they believe in Barack Obama and are outwardly excited for that man to become their president. Of course there are also racists and people obsessed with hating Sarah Palin among his followers, but generally the feeling at his rallies is that of positive energy. On the flip side, a lot of those that are voting Republican are doing so not necessarily because they believe in John McCain, or even think he's a decent politician, but rather because they are scared of Barack Obama. Maybe because of loose associations with radical liberals 20 years ago, or maybe because they are confused about his religion or ethnicity. You are more likely to hear "Traitor" than "John McCain!" or "USA!" at a McCain rally lately. You know that XKCD comic where everyone is playing Rock Band for XBOX and the guy off to the side is like "Guys, you know you're not really in a rock band right? It's pretend. Guys? Guys? ...Stop having fun!"? Remember four years ago when everyone hated George Bush and John Kerry and everyone just voted for whoever sounded less like a tool when they were speaking? Simpler times. Fear is a powerful motivator of American people in the current era. Some guy once said "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself" -- This rings truer than ever for people like me who are afraid that on November 4th people are going to vote out of fear. you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[11 Oct 2008|06:01am] staticsexa well hi. I can't sleep. I woke up kind of almost on the verge of a panic attack, this hasn't happened in a long time. I'm worried I'm living my life wrong or something. Everything is whizzing by a dizzying speeds and I'm making all these enormous decisions right and left it feels reckless. WELL what can ya do besides roll with it. uh. I really miss Cyndi. but I think I was right about a puppy being just what I needed. Charlie follows me religiously everywhere I go. I turn around to see if he's following me, and I can't even spot him at first because he is so close to me right on the backs of my heels. We met with the private trainer today (yesterday?) and he said I needed to be careful and make sure NOT to take him with me everywhere I go at first because as a puppy he may become ADDICTED to me and OBSESSED with me, and could develop separation anxiety when I'm not there because he'd never had to deal with it at all. I hadn't thought of that but it sounds true. He already screams when I leave him locked alone in a room while I go to the bathroom. :( but what about me? i have separation anxiety too :( I debuted him tonight at Lauren and Robin's house. He was the bravest of his whole litter, SO brave but there were so many big dogs over that you could never have told. He hid in the corner at one point. Cmon lil man. I've only had him 1 day though, I am sure he will get better. you stink like stink on shit, whut?

RUSTY 08 [10 Oct 2008|03:45pm] inlanternlight I'm running for president!  Check me out on teh news!!!!! Video of me on the news!  http://www.tsgnet.com/pres.php?id=46832&altf=Svtuz&altl=Csjehft 01 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[10 Oct 2008|02:42pm] whateverlauren I'm feeling much better today. i have a darling dog. her name is Rosalita. she is the sweetest little girl i have ever met. she is mine and i am hers and perhaps she will help break my addiction to Relationships. my name is lauren and i am addicted to romance. 01 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[10 Oct 2008|01:18pm] keepmeguessing and am i born to die, to lay this body down, and must my trembling spirit fly into a world unknown? a land of deepest shade unpierced by human thought, the dreary regions of the dead where all things are forgot. soon as from earth i go, what will become of me? eternal happiness? or woe? must then my portion be. waked by the trumpets sound i from my grave shall rise to see the judge with glory crowned and see the flaming skies. i may not believe in god or anything, but traditional church music is fucking beautiful. and especially when sung by my boy. you stink like stink on shit, whut?

Nightmare about rabbits [10 Oct 2008|12:33pm] inlanternlight I had nightmares about evil rabbits last night. Here is a MS Paint illustration of it.   01 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[09 Oct 2008|11:08pm] robxburninator goodbye skateboard. see you in february... :( you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[09 Oct 2008|07:08pm] socialdarwinism im in new york its pretty awesome i went to the empire state building today my muscles on my shins hurt reall good i saw a group of black dudes do break dancing in front of the empire state building to michael jackson they all looked goofy as fuck and the leader was like"YO YARDWORK I LIKE THAT SHIRT MOVE IN A LITTLE CLOSER BROTHER" also a crazy haitian dude walked next to me and dustin for like 5 blocks screaming "WYCLEFF JEAN, WYCLEFF JEAN WHATS THE DIFFERENCE?" over and over and over for like 20 minutes till we parted ways i wanna go to the museum of sex im getting a place with brace when i get back 06 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

Well... [09 Oct 2008|05:32pm] staticsexa well the dog i got earlier um, sweetest thing in the world but too small not assertive not brave could provide me no physical protection did not appreciate car rides i talked to my mom, dad, sister, best friend, therapist, AND future dog trainer and after all that ran out and got one of the puppies i looked at earlier, a 11 wk old german shepherd/doberman mix his name is charlie brown and he is going to be huge :) don't worry about the sweet small dog, I know I could have given her more of a chance but she really didn't meet the basic criteria I started out with (baby puppy, large breed, confident, capacity for protection, and car ride partner) plus my sister loves her more than I do and she is taking her! ha my mom wants her too... she will be a Marentette dog no matter what. so, two lives rescued and everyone gets a dog! 07 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[09 Oct 2008|01:00pm] whateverlauren Two months ago, I posted this: "August 8th, 2008 08:58 am - i read a great book I feel really good about things right now. I'm learning a lot about being happy and there is a difference between internal and external happiness. At this point in my life, I'm focusing on internal happiness. That's why things like dudes and clothes and partying are a lot lower on my priority list than they have been in the past. Yeah, all of those things put me in a good mood at least for a little while, and that's fine, but I can't keep on relying on them to be my source of Happiness because, once they fade out (and they always do), I'm left feeling alone and empty and miserable. That means that "alone and empty and miserable" has been my default state of being this whole time. That's what I have always reverted back to whenever something I relied on goes away. You've all seen it. I don't want to be that way. I don't want anyone to be that way. And it goes both ways, too.. I don't want to let external things make me unhappy either. I want to see all of my friends smile more. Everyone I care about seems so upset. Everyone's always angry or annoyed or sad and the worst part is when I ask what's wrong, most of the time they don't even know. There isn't a specific reason. That's just their normal mode. That's not how it should be. If everyone would just focus a little harder on themselves and what really matters, everything would feel a lot better. Feeling good when there's nothing specific to feel good about feels really good. Bad things happen to everyone. It's okay to react. but move forward, don't sit still in a bad place when you've got two feet to take you anywhere you wanna go." there i have it: explicit proof that i know how to be happy. so why is it such a chore today? now i spend all day thinking about external things. letting them in, letting them fuck up entire days and weeks. the fact that matt could potentially start a romantic relationship with someone else makes me feel very extreme negative emotions. "despair" or "woe" or even "agony". this is pathetic and insane. GET AHOLD OF YOURSELF, L-MAN. GET A MOTHERFUCKING GRIP. look, the dog and i are the same dude: she doesn't normally look that unhappy. she was sleepy and about to take a nap. i, on the other hand, look like that all the time. 02 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[09 Oct 2008|11:19am] whateverlauren why do i feel so terrified? i don't know if i've ever felt this insecure. not being able to feel confident is the most uncomfortable feeling. it feels like everything is a competition and there's no use in competing at all because i am just going to lose. i'm not impressive enough. i only attract morons. and even the morons eventually kick me to the curb. i attracted one non-moron and i'm starting to think that it was just because i had a pool and it was summer. maybe i'll move to rutherfordton or some fucked up middle of nowhere place where i'll be the prettiest girl around. then i can have all the morons i want. for keeps. i'm jealous of every girl i see. i just want to get married and stop worrying 07 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

"new dog" [09 Oct 2008|08:44am] staticsexa well i got a new dog already its not a puppy per se its 6 months old. there was some divine intervention involved maybe. but i dont love it yet, big surprise she looks like a teacup chihuahua mated with a yellow lab even after a serious adult brainstorming session there is still no name everyone has their veto she might be too small and too shy i might give her back i might just be insane with grief over cyndi though last night i wanted to kill myself in the parking lot of harris teeter. i was on an errand with no cyndi in the back of the car. it killed me. this new dog is too small and scared to go for rides yet aaaahh 08 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

Honestly, [08 Oct 2008|03:04pm] whateverlauren Cyndi had to be put down yesterday morning. she died with her head in my sister's hands, listening to four people she's close to tell her how much we love her and appreciate the years she's spent with us. what a wonderful dog. kara and i spent the rest of the day looking at puppies. kara did not pick one. one picked her!! she's nameless right now. she's very sweet and adorable. i feel sick to my stomach right now. i feel like shit. i guess i drank too much last night. whatever. i got into an internet fight with ben compton today. he told me that i was nasty because i hooked up with one of his friends. i reminded him that he had sex with my best friend and he also was sleeping with that TURD of a human being, amanda, for months while he was in a relationship with me and that if anyone is nasty, it's him. he disagreed. i told him that he was only jealous. he only "hates" me when he hears about the fact that i like/talk to/touch boys that are not him. he admitted that he was jealous. i told him he has no right or reason to be jealous because he decided a very long time ago that he didn't want me and that i was expendable and unimportant to him. he ejected me from his life to make room for dance parties, turdy girls, homo-erotic touchings, etc. he has all these things, the things that make him happy, yet he still wants to bother me and make me miserable. it's sickening. i literally feel sick. i normally don't get offended or anything when he says things like "you're not dope" but today he told me that i'm average, not pretty enough to get so upset over, less hot than kate and amanda, among other things. i almost cried. it always sucks to have your ego bruised, but it's extra shitty when it's coming from a person who has already fucked you over a trillion times. and it's extra extra shitty when that person can't spell the word "bye." he really can't he kept saying "buy" i finally was just like "IT'S SPELLED 'BYE', YOU FUCKING MORON" and he said: "it all means the same thing." letting this bother me is wrong and stupid, i know. i shouldn't care what he thinks, i mean, i really don't care what he thinks. he's a piece of shit and he's obnoxious and i'm almost positive he's mentally retarded. i just don't need any of this thrown in my face. it starts my whole negative cycle up again. i'm not good enough blah blah blah blah blah. i hate that. i hate thinking that way. i don't FEEL that way, but i think that way. i've just gotta keep it together, man. snot easy. and then there's matt. oh. oh oh. youuuu i'm going to Florida very soon. two weeks from today! i'm so excited to see jeremy. i'm so grateful that he paid for my plane ticket. he's taking the week off work so we'll have time to go to universal studios and disney world! this is exactly what i want. i'm so glad he's my foreverfriend. 03 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

Francois Coquerel [08 Oct 2008|10:14am] echoeslocation [ music | Chances Are - Apostle of Hustle ] Francois Coquerel Francois Coquerel's Flickr One of my favorite flickr contacts has a portfolio site and both are worth any amount of time you spend in them. I tend to gravitate towards portraits anyways but without that bias these images are incredible. The subdued glances, the colors, the sets and locations are all key and they work beautifully together. Spend some time there and pick some favorites of your own. jeremy you stink like stink on shit, whut?

[08 Oct 2008|01:14pm] staticsexa cyndi died yesterday morning. we put her to sleep. an end to her pain. she went peacefully with her head in my hands. i really miss her 013 you stink like stink on shit, whut?

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