Paint a tomorrow so bright and perfect

Wow, it's been a while! Let's see... It's May now, and my life is going to get crazy, starting this past Friday.

Friday my family left for La Quinta/Indio for STAGECOACH FESTIVAL~~~!!!!! WOOOOHHHH!! XD Many of you probably have no idea what I'm talking about... It's a HUGE Country music festival. It was 3 days, but my family only really got to go to 2 days... We still heard part of the Friday night concert from where we were staying, 4mi+ away.

A little background... or info rather. This concert is a huge thing. We bought our tickets, for Reserved seating ($200 each DAY), a few months ago. Now, for those fans of you who have been to an Arashi Dome concert, or even any other type of concert... My family and I were about 50 rows back from the stage. There were another 30 rows behind us. Then there was a chain link fence keeping everyone else out... I would say about 45,000+ people out. No exaggeration. In fact, I may be too low.  Sadly our seats didn't give us pit access, but my mom and I had a lot of fun dancing at our seats ^_^ I'm also a bit deeper voiced today cause my throat is sore from all the screaming I did (During one artist, I think it was Gretchen Wilson, she kept waving in our direction cause we were so loud ^^;; ). And so... onto the Artist List!

The artists I saw were:

(Saturday, May 3)
-Crystal Shawanda << Awesome, I really really enjoyed her! She did a really cool, country-ish version of "Big Girls Don't Cry" ^_^ The song she started out with was "My Roots are Showing", and her other song that kinda made an impression was "You Can Let Go Now"

- Jypsi << Didn't really care for them... the lead singer was good, but I just didn't get the whole feel of them.

-Luke Bryan << He was a ton of fun. My dad and I left our seats to get food, and it was during one of the main songs I knew by him. It's a fun song, called "All My Friends Say" and I think it was the most moving part of the weekend for me, cause people, in line to get beer, talking with friends (I was going through the beer garden), they all stopped, turned towards the stage, and sang. It was awesome! :D

-Bucky Covington << My favorite part about him was that his twin was on stage too ^^

-Taylor Swift << ... I think she's not all that pretty and her songs are repetative... But that's just me ^^;;

-Dierks Bentley << I had been looking forward to him... sadly he didn't exceed my expectations :-/

-The Judds << OMG. OMG, I saw them! They were awesome and amazing and fkdla;fjdkaghie;fjdkl ^_____^ Yes I just fangirled/keyboard smashed for two older women. But they are SOOO worth it I swear. They were the whole reason I even wanted to go to this ^_^ "Mama He's Crazy" (<< they're so young! It's to be expected though, it's been 17 years since they were together.)

-Rascal Flatts << They sound exactly like the sound on the radio. I was all that impressed. :-/ We also left half way through their act to get out of the rush at the end and cause I had to go to the bathroom really bad and I didn't want to go in the public restrooms/portapoties anymore.

(Sunday, May 4)

-Halfway to Hazard << Ok, I didn't really feel it. My dad really liked it though.

-Chuck Wicks << He sings "Stealing Cinderella" which is an absolutely amazing song. I <3 it ^_^

-Trace Adkins << If you ever get the chance to see him, do it. His voice alone is to die for... It's raspy and DEEP. God, it's great. And yeah, I think he's kinda hot for a ... old guy--he's only a couple years older than my mom ^^;; A sample of one of his songs "Ladies Love Country Boys" (as much as I love Japanese music, you can't really find a voice like that--which is sooo much better live BTW) or "Songs About Me"

-Gretchen Wilson << She was fun, pretty much what I expected.

- BIG & RICH (and Cowboy Troy) << THEY ROCK.  Seriously, I don't know how I had any voice left after them. And my body is still sore from how much I was jumping and dancing. I sang along to every song I knew (which as pretty much all but 2 or so) and I even know a lot of the raps... Their whole thing is a "Freak Show" or "Musak Mafia", which I've realized kinda reminds me of what MYV's doing now. Just gathering up people who interest them and then have fun on the stage. A song you must have seen referenced at least once if you live in the US "Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy"

I missed:
-Carrie Underwood
-Tim McGraw.
 Why? My sister was sick (1) and (2) we didn't really care all that much about them... Of course who we would've rather seen we didn't have tickets for... the Eagles and John Fogerty. But like I said, we heard part of Fogerty, so we're all good ^_^



In other news, my iPod died, so I'm getting it replaced in a day or two. The guy said that the HD died, and even if they could somehow fix it, I'd be back within the week with the same problem. So I get a brand  new one. ^_^ Of course, I've already got about 20gb of music to put on it. But to live some more without my iPod??? I've already been without it for half a week (it died Friday ><)
In 11 days, I'll be seeing MYV!! I'm so ready for a shot of Japanese concert. I be needing it oooooh so bad. ><
This upcoming weekend my family and I are doing a walking tour of Little Tokyo on Sat (gomen ne Iza!! ><) and Sunday... not really sure what's going on other than Mother's day.
Yeah... so that's all that's going on. ^______^

Just a quick post letting people know about the fact that I have started up keikarou as my fanfic journal... :D go visit and check it out! I've got to fix the layout being as it's been used for someone else and is currently set up for their journal... it will be fixed! Gomen ne~

Okay, so morning again in Japan. And awake that early again... ::sigh::

I haven’t been able to fully realize that I’m in Tokyo. I mean, I constantly remember that I’m here, but it just hasn’t sunk in. I got a little blip of it yesterday at lunch when I saw this guy that for some reason reminded me of Ryuhei. I just looked at him, and then started to mentally shake my head telling myself that it couldn’t be him because he’s Japanese, and this guy... this guy was Japanese. “OMG, I’M IN JAPAN.” is what occured to me for about 10 seconds, then that feeling went away... yeah, I know it was kinda like “duh” but at my home school the Asians there are usually Taiwanese, so I have to correct myself usually.

I think that I’m slightly beginning to adjust because I managed to sleep for quite a bit longer last night than I did the night before. I really need to go shopping, I want an easier bag to carry, like a sling bag, and a new wallet.

Oh, yesterday, they kinda had a cheerleader/choir thing going on for the graduation. I got a picture of it. But it was pretty cool I would have stayed longer, but I was hungry, and the leader was facing where we were standing, and I didn’t feel like gawking too much... a little is fine, but not too much. I’m seriously too loud for the Japanese I think. I can’t help it though I also gesture too much... I see people thinking I’m either pointing at them or at something behind them, so they look... it’s kinda funny, but I’ve got to stop.

Oh Yesterday while in the cafeteria I saw this guy that kinda reminded me of Shun. He had that really frizzy hair that Shun once had, and then he was wearing the traditional male japanese outfit. It was really awesome He wasn’t all that cute, but still, he was awesome cause he was really tall, and pretty much the only guy who wore that outfit. Everyone else wore suits and ties. Cho Kakkoi~~

mata ne~~!!

I'm in Japan!! :DDD Kyaaa~~~

I swear, I'm like a child. If I'd had the energy when the plane pulled in, I would have been bouncing in my seat. I saw the building that Ryo stood on when he was brooding about the girl. Kawaii, na? lol. It made me so excited! But then I didn't get to take a picture cause I wanted to make it to where I needed to be. ::sigh:: But once I got on the bus, I made sure to take some pics. I'll be updating with them in a while.

We went out to eat for dinner (I wasn't all that hungry though >.>) and it was neat. We went to this little Yakitori place that you grilled your own meat in... it was fun! Although as we were cooking the food, we started to get a little concerned because our meat would make the fire go really high, and then we were using wooden chopsticks o.O;; lol. But it was pretty cool. Had this one type of green tea that was disgusting >< bleh. Tasted like coffee. I asked for Mizu, and the lady started to give me ice for some reason... but then she was like "Oh, Mizu mizu" and I so I just responded "Yeah. I mean, Hai. Kudasai." lol.

I've got my host family assignment! It should be cool. They're an older couple, and no kids (at least none that are listed), the husband is a company executive and the wife is a music instructor in Japanese Harp and more. Sugoi, na? Now if the company is one that I am fond of, I'd be more than happy, lol. I live about 30 min. away from school!! So much better than what I first expected!! :DDD The host mother provided a map for me of the area, and there's a park right near my house :D so I'm really excited about that. I'll be living off of Shibuya by about 2 exits. kyaa... it's so awesome!

On our way to eat dinner last night, we walked past the train exit we needed to take to get to our school... and our school is right across the street. I think we have to walk around the block to get to the entrance though. It should be cool! :DD

Okay, so I'm still kinda tired (4 hours of sleep? Maybe? Iono. But being as I'm still on CA time, it's 2:00 pm for me now rather than 6:00AM. Jaa... gonna update shigatsu.vox.com.

so I just remembered that I took pics a couple of days ago, and wanted to share them...

my kitty "sitting up" to get his treats... kawaii na??







My kitty in the yard... he's handsome, right? :D



And part of my backyard... just thought I should add it, lol.

I'm at the depressed stage of the month again... somehow things aren't going quite how I imagined... and i'm not sure I ever imagined them in the first place, but somehow I feel things aren't going quite how they should.

I ran into a lot of people today... Even Wellie and Friend (Still don't know his name >.>) Although I didn't say hi to them, but i swear, it was because I didn't even realize that wellie was standing right behind me until I was throwing away my trash, and then I realized the guy standing in the blue hat was actually "BLUE HAT" (as Michael and I know him)... Michael was also part of the reason because he was making snarky comments (in a "OMG HE'S SO HOT SHIGATSU!! GO SAY HI!! SHIGATSU-CHAN!! SAY HI!! COME ON, HE'S HOT!! way) and I had to make sure he stayed far away from the before he embarrassed me more than he did before. Sylvia and I realized that the best method to use when walking with michael is to be ready to cover his mouth and drag him away at any given moment. The next thing I know, I'm looking across the park, and up walks Friend (a.k.a. GREY SWEATER) and Wellie goes to talk to him... we walked Sylvia to her class, which was right next to the class with Wellie in it, so that's why we were standing in front of it. And we just randomly stopped there... yeah. Anyway, I also saw Sensei... he requests I send him an e-mail at some point. がんばります！

I think I'm just going to aim to start over at the beginner status. That's all I can ask for. Only problem is, is that I doubt I'll be able to get credit it back at the home uni, cause I already took it, and they can't make it something else... mou~ Maa, I'll just take a test with sensei when I get back or something.

I discovered something I really want to do, but I highly highly doubt it will happen, because even though I could probably talk my dad into it, the rest of my family (my uncle specifically) is very conservative about money and such, and so most likely... ::Sigh::

My cat has some sort of friend... they were talking. Yes, cat's talk. I think the other cat was asking Gyp for sex, but I'm not sure... it seemed like that. I tried telling the other cat that GYP is male, just in case toc was male also, but somehow the cat seemed female, and so I also tried to explain that Gyp doesn't have those functions really anymore... ... the cat still didn't listen. So I grabbed Gyp and went inside, but he escaped out the back door... I got him again, arguing with the other cat, and so now he's sleeping next to me...
I'm gonna miss him so much!

I keep thinking is it worth it, but I'm not even sure what I'm thinking about. Hormones play with emotions too much. I have 0 (zero) reason to be sad/depressed, and yet I am... fjkd;aghio;ekl;djfi

I'm off.

Um... This journal is Friends Only from now on... ^_^

Okay... need to go to bed. damn. But I've started writing another story. I think I've realized my problem. I can't share the story with anyone until I've finished writing it. If I do, I'll lose the motivation to continue it. So, no Liz, I'm not going to tell you. My muse, whoever it might be, will run away, because the story has gotten out to someone, so what's the point in continuing?? ::sigh::

"Ano ko mo kono ko mo minna odori odo ... te iru yo.."

tehehe. ^_^

Money... I'm not good with it. I'll be broke soon if I keep spending the way i'm spending. I was gonna be ahead, but then I went and had my bike cleaned up and fixed and all that jazz... $150. But I figure it'll be a good investment. Clean up my helmet, and goodbye extra pounds... darn Freshman fifteen that was really only 10 for me, but that 10 pushed me over the boundary of 8/10 to 10/12. And a lot of my clothes don't fit right anymore. ::sigh:: But I can't buy anymore until Japan. Then I'll buy tons and be rid of all the old clothes I have... yay!! Now, I can't spend anymore money until HYDE's concert... and after that, only on school >.<

Oyasumi... for reals. I'm sleepy.

Arashi is distracting me. I'm working on my hw (For reals!! I swear!!) and every now and then I'll hear a voice... and it's a voice i know... and so far it's been Jun and Sho... so then I'll start to listen to the music... and I can't stop. Dammit... Arashi, I love you to bits and pieces, but how the hell am I supposed to finish my hw at a decent hour if I'm constantly distracted by your sexy voices?? Gah >.<

I'm sooo full... and my tummy hurts. It's been hurting all day. It feels like I've been doing crunches or sit ups or something... but I haven't. I ate to much for breakfast, and since then I've kept on eating... dammit, I'm gonna gain more weight.

I really really wanna start riding my bike. I miss it... I need to get the tires fixed though. ::sigh::

That's it for now... back to hw... song is over.

Wow... so I made my resume today... thank you Iza!! And then... and then... I started to watch Mars... after I cleaned up some of my HD, cause it got very full... yeah, 154 gigs, completely full... but I still have more space on my other hd, and my other other one... and now I've got 8 on the one that filled up, but I'll have more when I finally get around to bringing my other other hd in to my room... I'm lazy like that.

I am crazy about fanfics, as ya'll know. And I've been reading them at Arashian.com, and damn... there's this angst one, and I read it, and it made me soooo sad... and then, and then, she updated it with songs to go with it... damn. It hurts... I can't beleive it... it's so sad. Arashi now has to live in a bubble so they won't get hurt ever!!! >.

Nino is back!! Omg... I had missed waaaay to much. lol. I love how he styled his hair in the performance.... so hot! I'm gonna get the whole thing, cause I want to see Orange Range too... and that other guy looked hot... ^_^

I need more new books to read... stayed up too late reading the one I got yesterday... finished it at 12:30.

Oh, I got the new Kurosagi!! Yay for Clubbox. I just need to find one for everything. Cause it works really well... ^_^

<3

Man... I turned off my compy for a couple of hours (I think it was that long) cause I just wanted it to rest cause it was going so slow. And it's going faster now.

I was supposed to go to the plays tonight... but I have a horrible horrible headache, and then earlier, I kept getting dizzy, and my tummy hurt... so I just decided to come home instead. And it took forever for the Kitto Daijoobu PV to dl, and I still haven't seen the other one cause it froze (dammit!! >.<) and then I watched the first quarter of the PV and then it started skipping... and my head hurt, so I thought, now isn't the time for me to watch the PV, cause I didn't want it to be like the Itoshii Hito PV (still haven't re-watched that...), so I was like, I'll wait.

I didn't. I just watched it... and I think I need to re-watch it so I can make this the proper genki post that it needs to be. brb...

~~*~~ 4 min and 50 sec later ~~*~~

OMG>>> I love these guys so much. They are the only ones who can make my pain go away... damn, if they could bottle Arashi... they'd make soooo much money!! >.< Man... two Aiba's... playing with the hat... The threesome... man, I'm glad I picked the picture I did for my layout... lol. Jun is soooo gorgeous. I mean... it's not fair. Totally not fair. I got distracted in the PV while looking at him, imagining walking down a street in Shibuya, and seeing him... and being very polite while asking for his signature on the cd which I always carry around with me... *sidenote*Needtostartcarryingacdaroundwithme*/sidenote* then I was pulled back into it by riida... damn, these guys look good.

Okay... right now, I only want a bf so I can have someone to makeout with and play around with... seriously. Being surrounded by romance novels and beautiful boys that I can look at and not touch is not good for my present H state. Especially not at this time of the month. And with all the Chocolate I've been eating?? I finished those brownies... okay... enough of this... my headache is coming back, must go for the cure, and the romance book is also calling my name. I think this might also call for a dose of Ha Ha... <3

::edit:: if it wasn't enough that I have sooo many screen names, I just signed up with a forum with another one... this time it's::::: Arashii51337

Mwahahaha... I think this can be the one I share... I'll re-sign up with other places for you Iza-chan... <3

So... I just printed out a map of Tokyo... it's pretty neat. I also found a website that you can put in any two destination points, and it'll give you how much it'll cost, how every you plan to travel. One thing that I found that I'm very excited about, but probably won't happen, cause it's more expensive, is reserved seats on the trains. There are also Green seats. These are offered on all the lines, and they're about double the price, but if it helps me avoid the claustrophobia that I have in crowds, I will definitely take advantage of it. Now all I need to do is print out a map with the Kanji (or buy one), so I can memorize all the locations I want to go to... hehe. Shinjuku, Harajuku, Shibuya, Chiba, Kisarazu, Ueno, and any other awesome place I feel like going to... ^_^

So my plan for next week is studying... cause I have the math test, which I'm positive I'm not going to do well on. I need to review everything, cause I think the final is all the stuff we've covered... damn, I need to talk to someone who was in the class, so I can know what I missed. ::sigh::

Maybe on Monday, I can work more on my room... but after that, all school... cause I need to work on my essay too. wait, that'll be later. Okay, so Monday is going to be room day, cause we only have conferences for that week for English. So I need to work on the essay tomorrow... and then I'll turn in an updated rough draft on Monday, along with the CRP's. Damn, I'm so freaking behind on those... -_-;; Then I study for Math. I really don't know how long that'll last, cause even if I look at the book for a couple minutes (even thinking about math) gives me a headache. We're doing second semester calculus right now... I want to go back to algebra!! >.<

okay... time to take a shower then work on the posters... hopefully they'll turn out how Liz kinda wants them to...

My eyes are tired from wearing makeup... -_-;;

I think that I'm going to have fun this summer, even if it does get kinda boring. People, expect random phone calls from me when I get bored, k?

Um... some news you'll Claremontians might be interested in... Ben Harper will be touring Japan. I never really got into him, but I still think that's awesome. What I have heard of him, it's awesome. I want more~~!!

Um... that's it for now... gonna go get the make-up gunk off my eyes... oyasumi!

bored. I'm bored. Just sitting here at work... with nothing to do. Looking pretty. lol. Yay, happy with the whole dressing up part of today... but I found it makes me rather nervous. really... cause people look at me... and it's odd. yeah.

Hmm... nothing really is going on... kinda hungry. And bored. yep, I'm bored. I forgot to bring a book and my music. No tours today... and boss as going to give us a project, but he decided to be nice. I would totally rather have a tour or a project than sit around and do nothing. Does anyone know any story I can read or something? cause I'm really in the mood to read one. Maybe I'll start to write another one. Damn, I'm becoming like Penny from "You Can't Take It With You", where I just write a bunch of stories and never finish. I wanna write a story with somebody... writing-round-robin I believe it's called. Someone wanna join me??

I miss the outragous story we were writing in HS. Man, that was hilarious... I dunno what happened to it... I hope where ever it is, it is being cherished. Cause it totally deserves that... I hope it's not someplace in my room... -_-;; lol.

Hmm.. I feel like taking pictures. But I think all the people I work with would be rather scared or weirded out that I break out the camera... but Liz, let's take pictures!! yeah... and we'll have to take a pic of the evil jackass guy... mmhmm.

Wow... I just started wanting to listen to... which song was it?? damn. This one song came on this girls ipod that she has hooked up to the speakers... and it made me want to listen to a song... but I can't remember which one. Right now, it's No Doubt.

OOh... now it's Gwen single. It's the one song about Harajuku... "What you waiting for" song... lol. They're talking about they don't like it. oh well.

I'm bored. taisukete!!

Ne, Liz... no more late nights like that... esp. not on Mon. or Weds. K?

Man, I'm a bit tired... and I tried to sleep for the last hour or so, from 8-9, but I just laid there awake, well, semi-awake. I had some odd dreams. This guy that looked like Nagase... with the curly hair and all... he made me win an award, then we got married... that was only one of the dreams... there were more bits and pieces. Last night, well, early early this morning, I was trying to fall asleep, and my body was tired, as was my brain, but for some reason I couldn't fall asleep, and I had this odd dream type thing with Nino involved and I giggled, and... I heard myself sleep giggle... it was very odd. I wonder how often I do something like that.

Yay for room being half clean!! Yay!! Now for closet/bed side of the room. Cleaning room is good for the body... esp. when it's so hot in your room, your sweat drips off you... -_-;; I had the window open too!! bleh. OH, Iza, I got your money, and I have Brittany's too. Oh, and also, I found a check for the same amount of money I withdrew... how awesome is that??

All I need now is my next check, which came out yesterday, to cover the rest of what I spent yesterday on food and gas. I really hope I get the waitressing job, so I can have lots of money to have fun with in Japan. Okay, time to grab breakfast, get dressed, and out the door before 9:40. Jaa!!

Soo... I applied for Shoguns Restaurant today ^_^ Let's see how that works out. I'll have to mention to my boss that I've applied for another part time job. Hmm... I forgot to mention the part time part on the app... it'll come out in the interview. I'm fairly positive that if I do get hired, I"ll be the only white girl there... yep yep. But they seem really nice, so I'm looking foward to seeing how it goes!

Sweets. Right now, I'm craving sweets... Liz, help me decide!! >.<

Gotta find sweets and then do hw...

so... I've begun to go over gacktisgod's journal... yeah, I'm the type that will read people's personal rants... and as coarse as it may be... she makes a very very good point.

I dream. I have my personal fantasies (that I share, lol) about Japan, and how wonderful it may be. But I am more than aware that there is the real world out there and it's not pretty. People are rude, and for all that they pretend that they care, they don't really. I want to know as much about Japan as possible, the good and the bad. Reading her journal is an eye opener. She's probably one of the few truly honest people out there... Then again, she's one of the only people I know that has lived there for that amount of time.

Okay, I do know some other people that have lived there, but they gloss over the bad things, and just go straight to "You're gonna have such a good time, you're gonna love it!" And I don't doubt it... but I figure as hard as I try to be respectable, I will step on some people's toes and they will hate that freaking gaijin. That's life. Not everyone is going to love you, no matter how hard you try.

I miss being all Genki. I don't know why it's gone... but it is. I miss all my peppy entries... maa ne

So, I've decided that I am going to talk to my boss and sign on for fulltime work this summer... cause I really need the money. Desperately...

I want to redo my compy. To some extent. I want it to run smoothly, and not to be as loud (although I can't sleep without the humming...), and I just want it to be top of the line. I'm so scared it's gonna crash on me and I'll lose everything.

I need to make awesome connections. Not famous connections, but people connections. I really just want to know people from all over the world. Hopefully it'll work out kinda like that with the International student place.

Am I bad for being happy being a nerd and average? I don't really care if I get bad grades, as long as I pass the class. Most people I come in contact with, outside of my group of friends, are busting their butts to be at the top. I could care less if I'm at the top. And I have a very select mode of conversation. Anything and everything can relate back to my obsessions, and if people have a problem with that, then so what. But... I feel like I should have more to me than just that obsession... I need to learn about other things... and then I do... just more Japanese boybands... lol. What else can I get into that would spread myself out? I don't do anything fun. People have such interesting adventures and talk about their days, what they've done... but I don't have that advantage. I can't go futher than about a 20 min drive from my house... and I don't have tons of friends to hang out with. Maybe this is why I want out so bad. Not that I have anything against my friends that I do have... but I just want to be able to experience something new. My dad doesn't want me to want to leave... but it's more than him just telling me to do my hw... I would change even more if I didn't live at home.

Why am i feeling so bleh?? When did this happen?? Is it just the weekend?? I don't enjoy the weekend very much... but now that summer's here, maybe I will. I want to do two different dress up now... one G@ME illegal... and one total goth. And I think maybe I'll start wearing make-up again... once my skin clears up. Damn skin... >|

I hate these pity me posts... the next post will be happy... and to leave off with happy... I'll... RAINBOWS!!! >.< kyaaa!!! <3

I really hope I'm not allergic to anything... cause I have a rash on my neck. Maybe it's not a real rash, but it itches and stings... and hurts!!

I am supposed to be doing hw, but I can't focus on it... I just want to go to sleep and make this rash thing go away. It's around my neck... like, just my neck... it's kinda odd, but it hurts. I've had something like this once before. I even took a lukewarm shower so it wouldn't come out any further, but that didn't really help. Dammit. it hurts!!



okay... gotta do hw now.. um... yeah... so did I mention my neck hurts?? cause it does... and if something touches it, it tickles... well, when my hair touches it... oh, and in the pic above, I just took a shower... ^_^ <3

Hi ya'll!! Um... yeah, felt like writing that. Maybe too much of Minna de Wahahaha?? lol. Such an awesome PV. And song... tehehehe... ^_^

I just finished Spin Kick, a Korean movie... it was cute. But sadly, none of the guys were cuter than Tim... who's Korean... -_-;; lol

So... I got chinese food for dinner with the whole fortune cookie thing... yah, so my fortune was:

"You will soon be the guest of a person you admire"

Does that not play into the fantasies I"ve been having?? Omg... for that, i'll eat the cookie... lol. If only it could come true... unless it's someone else I admire... don't think like that April!!! >.<

Um... now off to watch one of the movies I borrowed from Iza. Well, some V6 Pv's first though... ^_^

So, I've registered for classes!! yay!!

I have:

Intermediate Japanese I - This class is directed study, so I'll have to set something up with Ko Sensei.

Modern Asian Literature in Translation - MWF, 11:30-12:40 - This class is also with Ko Sensei... but it's gonna be pretty cool... so far there are 7 people in the class (including me!)

Principles of Management- MW, 2:00-3:50 - This should be fun... I hope... bleh. lol

Principles of Marketing- W, 6:30-9:50 - Again... not sure how to take this class...

Electric Bass- Hopefully it'll be okay to take this again. They don't have "Advanced Electric Bass" but if they did, I couldn't take it anyway... so Hopefully this'll work out.


If everything works out now, I shouldn't have anything to do Tues & Thurs... ^_^ Well, I'll work it out so I have work then or something. We'll see...

Final Schedule:

this year:

Tues (May 23): 10:00-1:00 Math

Weds (May 24): 1:00-4:00 English

Fri (May 26): 10:00-1:00 Japanese

Not sure about Bass... dunno if I"ll even have one.

This info is good to know, ne? I wonder if it'll be the same next semster... I'm not sure how it's gonna work, cause I have, like 3 classes that don't have a real schedule... yet anyway. Hmm... Japanese... <3

Well, gotta get ready for school... jaa

Okay, so in response to last night's post I shall now explain.

Aiba will be in a new drama called Triple Kitchen. So far all I know is that he is not a main character, but some odd relation, the sister-in-law's husband I believe it is. Yes, he will be married in this show. I guess I can handle it... we'll see how that goes. All I ask for is him in about half of every episode... onegaishimasu!!

Tim. I truely hope that is not his real name. I mean... please let him have another name. If all works out, we will be completely using this guy... and for some odd reason, I feel no remorse.

Waahh!! I'm going to see HYDE twice!!! kyaaa!!! >.< This is going to be totally awesome... beyond awesome... subarashi!! rippa!! saiko!!

Yesterday, I was awarded Student Intern Of The Month... for March. I got a cute little thing (I can't figure out how to spell the word for it... and I"m too lazy to look it up) which is on the wall in the student work room. They used cute stickers, so it's got a kimono and a sakura tree. Totemo kawaii >.<

Oh, I will also be working there over the summer. I'm not really sure how much I"m looking foward to it, but at least I"ll be making good money. Mwahahaha!!

Damn... school is ending soon... what am I going to do with out all of this?? without Liz?? Really, Liz, what are we?? I mean... it's rather odd... lol. I shall figure out where you live (I can access your records >) if you won't tell me... ^_^) and come and visit... You know, this is all going to have to be in it's own post... cause I can't really focus on this right now.

Last night, I was reading before bed, and I all of a sudden had this realization that this time next year, I won't be at home. I'll be in a foreign place... and it kinda scared me. I mean... going away from home always scares me, but for that amount of time... Oh well. I'm going, there's no question about it.

I forgot to go to give the evaluation letter to Rita. Damn. I need to get that... I was hoping to be able to turn it in by the end of next week... hopefully I'll still be able to.

half an hour before I register my classes for next year... I wonder if I should continue with Bass, or move to something new... I think I'll stick with bass... cause I didn't see archery.

Some things to post before I go to bed... just as a reminder, and I'll add more info later:

1. Aiba's new dorama: Triple Kitchen
2. Tim
3. Going to see HYDE
4. Work
5. school ending

Um... I'll probably have more in the morning... but for now, that's about it. jaa. Oyasumi nasai

News of what is going on... My day has been pretty good. I'm getting into Alice Nine, and NewS (well, NewS a bit more at the moment). I might be seeing HYDE twice... I read a book last night... as soon as I'm done with this update, I'll go back to reading. Oh, TOKIO is awesome too. They have really awesome PV's. I might see HYDE twice. I need something new to focus on... The always going to Japan thing is killing me. I've still got like, nine months or something. I need something new... Maybe a new Arashi PV, or some new fanfics to get into... I might see HYDE twice... I'm feeling tired. I can't wait for this school year to be over. Hopefully I'll have a fun summer... Oh, I remember! I should be getting into the International student thing... Oh, I hope so!! Did I mention I might see HYDE twice?? Hopefully she'll get the tickets... <3

jaa.

Excuse the... bragging I'd guess you'd call it. I can't help being excited... ^_^

I just watched "Cherish", from NewS. It was really cute!! They have too many guys... seriously... but they're kinda broken up now... They say it's not the end of them, and for their sakes, I hope it isn't. They really are rather awesome. The PV is so cute... there's this one part, where this girl is walking, and not really looking where she's going, cause of all the YamaPi posters on the wall, and she bumps into this guy... and it's YamaPi... ::sigh:: if only that were really possible -_-

I was gonna write a really long, serious post... about me, and how I'm insecure, and all that stuff... but I'll resist. It wouldn't have been a "pity me" post, but more of me writing to get my thoughts out in the open... My serious thoughts, not just my "OMG Japan/HYDE/Arashi/MYV/everythingelseIgushabout" thoughts.

This morning was horrible... I was counting on the fact that I never wake up late the first time, and so I'd be able to sleep longer, cause I am tired... but noooo cause it counted that one time I woke up briefly at 5:50 as my "oh, I can go back to sleep for a while" and then I woke up at 8:30 thinking the same thing... ::sigh:: I need to work on my internal clock. Although I am trying to get it used to Japan time too... like it's about 01:00 there right now...

My pressing question for the day... What the hell do Aiba and Ohno do in their spare time?? I mean, Sho and Jun and Nino are all busy with shows and movies and etc. but what about Aiba and Ohno?? I know they've been doing a lot of Mago Mago and Gno, and yeah, Aiba also has his other show, Dobutsuen, but then he has tons of extra time, cause Jun has pretty much the same schedule, with a play on top of that... and is he still filming the movie?? Hmm... ??

HYDE is pretty... and awesome... and I'm gonna see him live >.< kyaa!!!!!!!!

Yay, tonight was fun!! Fangirling is the best thing ever... hehe. Wow... I'm losing all that energy I had while Liz was here... it's slowly draining out of me, and soon it shall all be just a memory.

Totemo subarashii Haido-san desu nee!!! >.<

And I'm gonna see him live... anytime I hear his voice, and it floors me, I remember that I'm gonna see him live... Wife, how are we gonna survive that night?? How...??????

Hopefully soon, everything will come together. Everything needs to come together... right now, my wish list:

1. Kurosagi -- more!!!
2. PoT -- more!!!
3. Arashi -- all of them... !!
4. Japan -- to go there!!

Ohh... more Season Call performances... later ya'll





P.S. The wish list is not nearly finished... it's only begun... "~~This is only the beginning~~"

<3

After much research (video watching) I have determined the main difference between the two camera whores, Jin and Jun.

Jin - whore.

Jun - after the camera.

I mean that in the nicest way possible... I really do. I adore them both soooo much, and I would be very sad if either of them decided to stop their camera whoring ways, but that's the main difference (to me at least). I mean... Jun, he just knows where the camera is at all times (I'm so surprised that the fan cam girls don't get caught with his skills...) and... well, Jin does too, but then he turns into a whore for the camera... I mean, have you seen... *melts* .... I don't complain... there is a difference though.

You Should Be An Aries

What's good about you: you're fearless about taking charge and grabbing the spotlight What's bad about you: if you're annoyed, you're not going to hide it! In love: you jump in quickly and don't mind risking your heart In friendship, you're: likely to have a new best friend each month Your ideal job: detective, butcher, or surgeon Your sense of fashion: ultra trendy and sexy You like to pig out on: appetizers, especially buffalo wings

Yeah... so... no. Well, I am an Aries... but the whole Ideal job thing... not happening. I mean, I probably could make a good detective (I had wanted to be one for a while, you know, and my dad keeps mentioning police work to me... that's besides the point) but... a butcher or a surgeon?? Goodness... think of all the blood!!! ><
That's all I have to say on that.

Okay... So I just saw Into the Woods for the second time. And I really like this version of it more than the first one I saw. It's such a good story. And... I really hope that I get to see Jun perform on stage... or Ohno... speaking of Ohno. Have you see the beginning of the most recent Mago Mago?? Omg... the Grandma grabs his crotch... I wish I was daring enough to do that on TV... wait, no I don't. I don't want a restraining order pulled out on me. I love the fact they left that in though... Ohno seemed to take it fairly well too. ... going back to the topic of plays. I want to see any of the guys in a play... how much would that rock?

I finished Penny Arcade. I really do prefer Mega Tokyo though.

I just watched the new ep of PoT... omg... I love it soooooooo much!! >.< Echizen is awesome... I can't wait to see more of Fuji... hehe. Okay... back to hw... but I don't remember all of the Japanese... -_-;;

Taisukete!!!

So... I just thought I'd post to say... I've still got it ^_^. Yes, yes I do. Oh yeah~~

Hehe to explain:

I just started watching the movie Liz so kindly sent me, Advent Children, and as it was beginning, only about 10 minutes into it, what do I hear, but a voice I recognize... Of course I can't say exactly what from, but it's generally Prince of Tennis, and I got an immediate picture of the character... so I looked it up, and it was ^_^

That seems to be my special skill... I can recognize voice actors, and they always seem to be in PoT. Which I need to re-watch... goal for the summer... ^_^ Plus, I need to get the new OVA's... OAV? bleh. But there's a new one coming soon!!! >.<

Um... back to the movie... it's so pretty *_*

so... I've been reading way too many of the online comics. I finished Mega Tokyo, and now I've moved onto Penny Arcade... They've invaded my brain!! Last night, I don't remember all of my dream (and that had been my goal too, dammit) but I do remember the zombie. Yes, there was a zombie. Thanks to Gabe, Tycho, Piro, and Largo. Especially Largo. So far, over all, I prefer Mega Tokyo... I guess I just relate more >.> ^^ hehe.

Omg.. the special for ISWK is sooo funny... I love the romance between the father of the lead guy and the director.. it's hilarious. Oh goodness... my parents and my sister kept coming to see what was wrong, cause all I could do was laugh.

I'm really avoiding thinking about school right now... I'm pretty sure I've screwed up my English class... but I blame it on stress!! Okay, it totally got to me, and that's why I"ve been really honest, and... why I gave those responses on my paper... -_-;;

My dad is trying to get tickets to see Ben Harper. It'll be awesome if we can. Even though I grew up in Claremont, I've never really heard his music, and I never really knew who he was. ::sigh:: Sometimes I wish I wasn't into certain pop culture... cause that's how it happens in Mangas, and how some of the best romances go, when you meet this great person, and you have no idea they are some superstar... maybe I'll make a really awesome friend who turns out to be a superstar (it'd be a girl of course, cause I never really pay attention to them... ^_^)

Okay... that's enough for now. Off to avoid hw and to watch Final Fantasy... or play the game... dunno which would be better. ::sigh:: there are too many options

Oh oh, I finished Oyaji... great show!! That girl is awesome, and she's so pretty!! Sumiko is her name i think... damn, I'm bad with names, so I shouldn't even try. okay... well... jaa ne ^_^

So... today... nothing really happened. Pretty boys all over... I hate when people are behind you, but then you don't know, and then the person in front of you, walking toward you, who you don't know, is waving... so you are like "wow, they're being friendly" and then you wave back... only to realize that it was the person behind you that you hadn't realized was there. Or... yeah. Many situations like that. My heart kinda skipped a beat, cause one of the guys looked like he was waving at me... but I'm pretty sure it was someone behind me... and I may have been gesturing my hands so it looked like I was waving, but if I was, it was unconciously... cause I do that with my hands you know... move them about without realizing... I keep repeating this, but I'm actually kinda scared that when I get to Japan, the Valley-girlness in me will jump out and eat the surrounding people, and all the Japanese who learn from me will end up with "Like" and "totally" as part of their everyday speach, outside of what is considered normal.

I was in an odd mood when I was doing the timed write today in my english class... I kinda started giving odd answers like, to the question "what changed?" >> answer: well, the fact that I wasn't able to complete the essay means that you get to use your imagination, and thoughts from my rough draft to conclude this paper for your self. << I seriously wrote something similar to that... hopefully she'll take it the right way... -_-;; lol. I made some other remarks like that.

And then, I ran to the florist shop to pick up some flowers for my parents, who are celebrating their 21st wedding anniversary today. Omedetoo!!! >.< I almost got hit... maa ne... I find I don't really care.

Oh oh!! I got my passport!! hehe, I"m happy... even though it's not a very good picture, but at least i can say, yeah my dad took this picture... ^_^ it's all shiney...

Kyaa... Japan.... RikkyouDaigaku... omg, that sounds so much better than Sophia!!! >.<

Rikkyou... hehe... can't wait!! Sigh... Arashi...

Rikkyou Daigaku.

I hate never getting anything done.

People ask me to get things done, and then I already have a list for myself to do, and then my dad comes in and pretty much repeats my list to me (at least 10 times... okay, 5, but seriously, 5) plus more... and then he figures out a few more things to do... and so I put it all off, cause it makes me tired. And so right now, I feel tired and bad, cause I feel like my dad is disappointed in me... but I think it's more me being disappointed in myself.

Why can't I live my life the way I want to? Why do I have to talk everything through with my dad? He just makes me do it his way. I know that he is older, and has experienced stuff I never have, but I'm tired of listening to everything he says... I go with it (usually) cause I know that he's usually right, but still... I wanna find out for myself. I want to fail once in my life, fuck how other people see me later in my life, when I'm trying to get a job. Okay, I don't but I almost do just to prove to my dad that it isn't such a big deal. All they care about is that I've graduated college. Dammit, now I'm crying.

I'm going to Japan in Spring 07. That's final.

This post wasn't meant to be like this...

Arashi is Love.

Damn, I'm in this odd teary type mood, and all sorts of stuff is making me cry. I just watched Kitto Daijoobu... and I for some odd reason find myself crying. I guess it's part of the after effects of keeping my squeals inside... DAMN. They are so freaking hot and sexy and everything... Although I got kinda freaked out at one part, but that's okay, lol. I'm pretty sure they came up with the moves for this song... I can see who made which one, lol... Esp. Aiba's part. This is the first time that Aiba's looked this hot with his short hair...

Okay... enough of that. back to hw... not really, but it's a nice thought, lol.

<3

How do you turn down a guy without coming off as horrible?? dammit, I still haven't managed to turn him down... -_-;; And I realized I have some sort of strange thought process going on... cause my dad asked me if he was gonna be at In's event, and I was like "Eww, no."... -_-;;

In's event was fun by the way. She's an awesome person. I mean, I talk to her about different things than what I talk to other people about, and I go to her for advice, cause she's like, the good conscience. I've realize she's probably one of the best to go to at times when my dad is getting on my nerves (like now) cause she just reinforces what I already know, but what I just wanna ignore. And she has my Brother Bear cd... don't let me forget, cause we both eventually will... so don't let me lose contact with her, cause that's one of my fav. cd's... again, yea, I'm a geek.

Kisarazu is one of the best shows ever!! >.< I need the movies now... And you know what's odd... by the last ep, I wasn't watching for Sho anymore, I was watching for Okada. And Oyaji, also a great show. I love that one girl in it... she just makes me incredibly happy. Going back to Cat's Eye, it's the one show that has made me cry multiple times. Liz, I know you think that's strange, but it just takes me through so many emotions. I think it's hilarious, but all of a sudden, it gets sad, and that range of emotions just does me in. I guess part of it is that I know that they aren't just acting as friends, they really are behind the scenes too. They have to have been, with all the shows they've all acted in together. It's odd, but I kinda get this strange idea that when actors aren't singers too in Japan, they must be small fries... lol, reminds me of another conversation... -_-;; back to the subject. Like, Shindo, he's an incredible actor, and he's been the lead, and he's gonna be in FandF 3, and I just <3 him soooo much, but somehow it never occured to me that he was all that big of an actor.

Okay, I'm getting really tired, and i wanna finish the last ep of Orange Days (again). <3 minna

I feel better today... I hope. Right now I do, but I have to go to work and give 2 tours... so who knows how that'll go. My throat still hurts though.

Yeah, so I'm a horrible person... again. I still haven't replied to that guy... and so he's messaged me again... and now I'm scared to see what he wrote... -_-;; I've just been sick the past couple of days, you know? and so I wasn't in the mood to type... and then yesterday, he sat next to me in class... well, kinda, as close as he could get... feeling like crap, I didn't really pay any attention to him. I was so happy when sensei had all the rest of the class say something about going to the movies, but left him out... I feel very honored that he'd ask me out (the first guy in college to do so ^_^) but the fact that he's gone after 2 other girls in my class (and there are only 5 of us, 4 that show up regularly), and I see him with other girls a lot... not that he can't have friends who are girls, but I don't get that vibe from him... he's just desperate. But he's still a nice guy. It's rather sad, cause he reminds me of my brother that way. Which I have been told to never mention to him... and so I won't, lol.

This is me avoiding getting ready for work, and avoiding reading his message...

I guess I'm a person people can talk to. Cause I learn things about people I never really expect to. I mean, I know a lot about the guy I work with... stuff many people would be weirded out to hear, but I'm just kinda like "Oh, is that so? Well, that's nice" to him... well, to anyone. I try not to let things get to me. Like, they gave a presentation on a play called "How I learned to Drive" which is kinda a Lolita type play (the author actually admitted to basing it on Lolita), and the girls who gave the performance had a really hard time talking about the stuff that happened in it (I'm sorry, not avoiding talking about it, but I can't actually remember, b/c I haven't read it yet.) Which reminds me I need to read Vagina Monolouges. I can't wait... seriously, I have to find to book, and then I"ll read it (It's somewhere in my room, I swear!!)

I talk to my dad about a lot of stuff... I mean, he was one of the first people I told about the guy... and so he gave me some advice. I haven't even told my mom, although he probably has. I'm always surprised when I find out they actually talk to eachother... for some reason, I feel they never have time to actually do so. They used to discuss things in the car, cause they used to think (for some reason, don't ask me why) that the front seat had some sort of sound barrier and you couldn't hear what they were saying in the front seat... do any of your parent's do that? Now that I respond to stuff they say, and butt in on their conversations, they don't really do that anymore...

I have a request for people I speak to who don't speak Japanese... If I ever end up speaking in Japanese to you, just say to me "English" b/c sometimes I speak in Japanese w/out realizing it. Esp. cause the friends I hang out in school with all know about the same about of Japanese I do, and so I forget to make sure I don't speak in Japanese sometimes. I did it to In, when she came over the other time... She asked me what this one sign language thing meant in a show I watch (which is in Japanese) and I kept saying "gomen" over and over, to which she'd say "huh?" over and over... finally I realized I was talking in Japanese, and was like "oh, sorry, it means sorry." -_-;; and so I still do it to her sometimes... I finally told her that if I do it too many times, for her to just say "English" cause I don't always realize it.

In is awesome!! She doesnt' really have any interest in Japanese boy bands (her fav boyband is still BSB, kawaii, ne?) but she's willing to try to learn their names for me. Jun is the only one she has down square... the rest, it's a mass jumble, lol. Nino is her fav, which is cute, lol.

I hope that whatever family I get in Japan, they are total obessive fangirls too (the females in it at least, lol). I want a host mother I can go to concerts with. That'd be awesome!! Okay, yes, I'm a geek, and I shall stop now.

<3

^_^Y

My fingers are tired. My body is tired... I hope I'm not coming down with anything too bad, cause I still feel bad from yesterday. Hopefully it's only something like mild dehydration or something... cause of the heat, and me having to give all these damn tours. I'll get over them. I'm not in the mood to be typing. Truthfully... I'm not in the mood to be on the computer... all I wanna do is curl up in bed with my MP3 player... I guess I am sick... -_-;;

I <3 Arashi's new song!! I hope they become even more involved in thier music... I can't wait to see the new PV either.

this is it for now... tour should be coming soon... I want work study so I can work in ISC...

I am sooo tired... damn. and I think I'm getting sick... I really hope not, but my nose feels stuffy, and my throat hurts... please let this be a false alarm!! I've gotta work this weekend... -_-;;

I wanna get workstudy again... cause I was totally not interested in it, I mean, I need it, but I didn't get it again... so my boss is kinda trying to get it for me, cause I should have, but they just didn't give it to me. And I was offered a job at the International Student center, but... I can't accept it, cause I don't get the work study... dammit!! And that's the job I really wanted!! damn... ::sigh:: I feel bad, cause my boss is kinda working on getting me the work study, and then if he does manage to get it for me, yeah, I'll be moving to ISO.. maa ne. OMG, next year is gonna be fun!!

I desperately need a job for next year... I mean, seriously, cause to do the application, it's $400 and then I have to put in a deposit once I get accepted of $1300. I have the money... maa ne.

Gotta give a tour... anyone wanna make it fun?

Um... wow. I knew my grandparents were hardcore christians... but to go that far... geeze. I wonder if I'm on their list too... lol.

I wanna dress up. And have a place to go to dress up. I should become famous in Japan so I can wear the pretty clothes on TV... that's what some of the singer do. I want to too~~!!

Selling HYDE tickets to San Francisco on Ebay... go check it out!!

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Um... I've forgotten how to do the link thing, so let me know so I can put that someplace else...

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OMG... I"m a horrible horrible person!!!

I forgot about GacktJOB, I was so busy looking at God... and then, when I saw You singing along, I was like "who the hell is that guy, singing along to Gackt?? I mean, seriously, he's just in the band"... and then I looked over and I saw Chacha... and I remembered... I"m soooo horrible!! I can't believe that I did that!! >.<;;

Hmm... Still don't really like KATTUN... Jin is getting on my nerves some... but he has such an amazing voice, and such a sexy body and those eyes... damn. Okay... but Kame, yeah, he's awesome.

I'm too Americanized. It's horrible. I can't wait to go to Japan where I can accept the stuff on TV easier... I hate watching stuff from any other country with close-minded people, and so many people in America are... it's horrible!!

I'm beginning to realize that I really don't care to be touched... I mean, I knew that I was uncomfortable with it... it's just that now, it seems like it's gotten worse -_-;; My sister likes to loop arms with me, and I'll let her, but it's like I hold the left side of my body stiff, cause someone is touching me... The only people I'm okay with touching me is my mom and dad... I need to get used to it... ::sigh::

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It's fun to read this stuff...

So... today was fun!! And it'll be fun later too, lol. But lets see... this morning, I went to Ontario Mills with my family and I got 3 pairs of pants (Jeans from Lucky and Levi, and these other pants from the JCPenny Outlet) A shirt at the Lucky store, and also two pairs of shoes at the JCPenny store. Then we saw Ice Age: The Melt Down which was ultra cute!! My fav quotes: "Pwi!?" and "Let's say there were 50 of them... and that they were rattlesnakes"... So cute!! Goodness... I keep walking around going "Pwi?!"... hehe.

Tomorrow I've got to work... Thurs. too. But that shouldn't take up all the time... Tomorrow night I"ll watch G@ME with my parents... such an awesome movie... I was even happy with the ending... ^_^

Friday I'm going to Paramount Studios for a tour... how sugoi is that?? Hehe, I'm still looking for Nino everywhere... but so far, no luck. -_-;; lol

Tonight In is coming over, and so we'll hang out... don't really know what we're gonna do, but I guess we'll work together and make dinner first, lol.

Gonna go put a new chair together... have fun everyone!!

Ganbatte, ne?

^_^Y

Feel like updating again... lol.

I need to get started on my app for Tokyo... well, I have, but I have to give the people I want to recommend me the forms for it... I was thinking my Japanese teacher and my boss... is that good? And then I need to go over the scholarship paper with Phil... and then I need to get my passport... well, that one I have no control over... Hurry up gov!! I need it!! kya... I also have to write a personal statement... hmm... I don't know how I'm gonna answer the second part to this: "What aspects of your personal experience--for instance, relevant coursework, job experiences, previous travel or study in the host country-- have prepared you to live and study in a foreign coutnry? Pleas specify any particular experience with the culture of the host country."... that would have to do with my classes, yeah? hmm... I'll write it, then let Phil look it over.

My cat is sleeping on my dirty clothes... um... O.o??

I just watched Jin's song... Ha Ha... damn, I love it for all that it's incredibly dirty. Just watching him like that makes me want to... I'll stop there... this is no place to be writing about my personal fantasies... for all that I adore Arashi, watching them dance has never made me feel like this... not repeatedly, like Jin can. Sex Eyes!!! >.< "Go club get drunk you stupid shit"

Um. Yeah

^_^Y

::edit:: wow... I hadn't realized how much I really don't like KATTUN... I mean, I just tried to figure out their names and faces (from my mags) and I had a really hard time breathing... I felt sooo bad... FORGIVE ME ARASHI!! m(_ _)m I won't do it again, I swear!! I'll forget what I learned, and I'll stick to Akame... hontoni gomen nasai!! >.< m(_ _)m

hmmm... what happened today? Hmm... Well, I went to the Renaissance Fair, and had my hair braided... Apparently I have bad hair to braid or something, and the lady kept complaining about my layers, but I got it done... I"ll post a pic later, if you want... remind me... ^_^ Um... Oh... lol, BIG NEWS!!!!!! Seraphina got us tickets to go to see HYDE!!! >.< omg.. I can't wait!! kyaa... and my parents are totally cooperating, and they're gonna drive us up there just so we can go see him, and so my dad won't worry to much, and so hopefully Seraphina's parents will let her go easier... they'll drop us off at the place for the concert, then my dad will probably give me money for a taxi to the hotel (if it's far away)... he's letting me dedicate as much money as possible to souvenirs ^_^... kyaa.. so excited!! the next day, we'll drive back, and of course, Iza and I will probably sleep... but I can't wait!! Kyaaa.... >.<

Later, I went out on a chocolate date with Alison... it's so great to just visit with her. I don't tell her as much about me... there's only one person I tell all to... but it's still nice to talk about semi-private things with her. She reminds me how much I want a boyfriend... bleh. Whatever. I'll find the right guy someday, that I just click with... I don't really expect anything romantic with the guy at first, I just wanna be friends with this future guy, and then move into something more intimate... but I am getting imapatient... lol. Also, I think whoever this person I go out with needs to actually know who I am before he decides to date me... I might end up scaring him away if he doesn't get to know me... -_-;; lol.

Kyaa, HYDE!! Can't wait... omg... it's so exciting!!

Tomorrow is a HW day... oh, We're making the Ebay room into a game type room!! Well, the Ebay stuff will still be there, but we're moving the PS2 into there so we can all use it... Yay!! Lol, my dad may even end up getting DDR... hahaha... that'd be awesome... ^_^

Um... I had soemthing else to say I think... hmm... I'm in a mood to listen to KATTUN... how weird is that?? I can't stand them most of the time... craziness... I wanna watch Jin's dance again... I love how he shakes his hips... *swoon*... lol. "Take off your clothes, cum in my room"... hahaha.

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You Are a Henna Gaijin!

You're not Japanese, but you wish you were! You can use chopsticks with your eyes closed, and you've memorized hundreds of Kanji. You even answer your phone "moshi moshi." While the number of anime videos you've seen is way higher than the number of dates you've been on, there's hope. Play the sexy, mysterous gaijin, and you'll have plenty of Japanese meat.

lol.

So... I guess last night was more tired than I thought I was. I went to bed at about 11:30, and woke up at 7:20... went to the bathroom, decided that I'd rest a little longer, maybe till 7:40... woke up at 8:30...

We may not be going to Utah... my brother is an idiot. So, instead, I'm trying to see if I can still go to Yosemite with ISO, International Student Organization. I may have mentioned this before, but my mentor is the head of it, and I'm trying to get involved in it, so he invited me, cause they had an open spot or something... But I don't know if they still do. I called him last night, and he'll hopefully get back to me today.

I got the book that was dedicated to God... I mean Gackt. It was good, I enjoyed it. It was even hotter, cause I finally could picture an Asian guy for the main character, and not be totally making it up.

So, HYDE is going to San Fransisco... I wanna get tickets, but my dad says I shouldn't, cause how well can I rely on other people?? Nothing against you guys who'd go, but more against your parents, who may not let you go up there for a night... My dad is weird in thinking that things like that are important for me to experience, cause he's done it before when he was around my age, and so he just wishes me luck... lol.

But I wanna go!! >.< So you guys have to get permission by Sunday, so I can somehow get tickets... Onegaishimasu m(_ _)m

That's about it for now...

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Wow. So, Sat. was my b-day... I"m now 19 ^_^. It'll be crazy, but hopefully I"ll be turning 20 in Japan... ^_^

For my birthday, from my parents, it was pretty much a "music" theme. I got an MP3 player, a CD player, and a V-Cast phone with music capability. I'm not complaining or anything... but I've got sooo many musical options now, who knows what I"m gonna do with them?? And the phone, yeah, the camera on it is almost better than my digital one. We went into the Verizon store yesterday to get a charger for the car, and a pack so I can put my music onto my phone, and I saw the phone there. It was the most expensive V-Cast they had... ^_^ But I"m not signed up for V-Cast... I don't mind really, I"m just happy to have music on my phone. Sucky part about it though, is you can't set it so you could use it for your ringtones. They have to be .mid files. But, i found a couple sites that have .mid files in Arashi and Jrock (I have L'Arc, Arashi, and X Japan ringtones!! ^_^ I think I'll add hide later...)

Hmm... The presents from everyone else make me quite happy to. Liz, the purse is perfect!! ^_^ And Brit, I've almost finished the book (what, with all my distractions, it's an amazing feat, lol). Seraphina, ^_^ Can't wait to watch the movie!! (I just re-read what it's about, and I'm excited, but I have to find the time... probably tonight!). Thanks also, to all the people who wished me a happy birthday... most of them won't be reading this, so I'll also be getting around to posting individual thanks.

Happy news... I got an A on my Japanese Midterm... I think Japanese may be the only class I'll get an A in. I guess it's cause it's the only one I really wanna do anything with. Who cares about math and English?? I may get an A in Bass, but it'll be entirely a fluke, and I really need to practice more.

Sigh, I'm up now cause I've got to reserve a spot for my parents at the Claremont City-Wide yardsale. bleh. SOoooo Sleepy!! Hopefully I'll manage to get some sleep when I get back.

Gah, gotta get a magazine for Michael... Sho's on the cover. I owe sooo much to Michael... He always buys me things. But no more... wait, can't say that. lol. I just figure I"ll treat him when we get to Japan (if he's gonna be going with me...) If He's not gonna be there, then I'll just buy him stuff while I"m there, and then bring it back with me. 2 empty suitcases... I still don't think that'll be enough... not with all that Arashi merchandise close at hand. And clothes... so getting new clothes... all my clothes are getting worn down... I'm not even sure when the last time I went clothes shopping was... I got a Jacket a while ago.. but that doesn't really count.. Oh, my skirt and that one shirt. That's the last clothing item I bought. Wow, and that was around Christmas time. Before that, I think it was before the beginning of school... I don't wanna think about it. I"ll get better clothes soon. I need to go get some Lucky Jeans... I <3 Lucky pants... My cords are dying. I've had them for quite a while... But no more Brown. I have too much brown in my life I've realized. I'll get jean jeans.

That's it for now, I guess... gotta start getting ready... hopefully it won't take to long... **fingers-crossed**

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What is this?? Every night, no matter what happens in the day, I get a bad headache. Why?? Gah!! >.<

I need happy Jun. I need to see him acting silly. Other than the clips that Fybabe uploads... I think I'll watch some of HYD... he gets silly in that... and KWP. I like the Sumire part...

What the hell is with this weather??? GAHHHH!!! Go away heat.. or just stay hot, and not suddenly decide to rain, okay?? Or Rain and stay chilly, and don't go hot!!

I'm being really lazy lately... I mean, I go around the house so I won't have to open my parents doors to get into the bathroom... and I haven't been in the mood to dl files, so I don't really have anything new to watch.

I miss Arashi. Why does Nino have to be here?? I bet if he wasn't here, they'd release a single sooner. I need to walk into a store and see them staring back at me. I'm tired of seeing KATTUN everywhere.

I've decided that I'm going to Tokyo... and i found where I'm gonna be... it's really really close to the Imperial Palace!! ^_^ that makes me happy... >.> I've read to many shoujo, lol. Somehow, I couldn't come to this decision until I had decided that I wasn't going to there, and then I looked back on the real reasons I wanted to go (besides the fact that I"ll be closer to my boys) and everything seemed to click for me to go.

My head hurts.