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_seven- December 2nd, 2007
- Writer's Block: Bump In The Night
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- _seven
- July 23rd, 2007
What are you afraid of?
Failure. In my opinion, there is nothing scarier than doing all you can and not have any of it work. It applies to everything -- family, love life, video games, windows troubleshooting, friendships.
That last one is definitely underscored to me in my book. To this day, I still think that I've failed at a lot of the friendships that I thought were tight-knit. Even though sometimes it probably wasn't my fault that there was a falling-out, I feel upset to my stomach to know that I can't even be friends correctly with people. That something I unknowingly did has swayed someone's opinion of me for the worse. It hurts to know that someone hates me or just decides to not talk to me on the level that we once did. And I reach out only to pull back a few broken fingers.
It's hard to just let it go like I left that emotional front back in high school. I was always "that guy people knew" in high school, not necessarily a go-to-guy, but just some dude that everyone knew of. With the exception of two or three people, I didn't have a stable of friends that I could kick it with on an hourly basis. I thought I could shed that as I got older, but I feel it now with a different set of people in my life and it sucks and there's nothing I can do about it.
...I never know where I go when I write like this. I just end up typing a whole bunch of stuff and half the time I erase it and cancel the entry, the other half I save onto Notepad and never publish. I just know that I wish that it was a couple years ago where all my good friends were still my good friends, and not just "people that know of me".
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- _seven
- May 19th, 2003
Unless you're too stupid to have figured it out yet, this is a Friends-Only journal. Call it some strange form of Agoraphobia or whatever, but I don't like too many unknown people to see this thing and I'm more comfortable letting only people who know me see it. So if you're not one of those people, sucks to be you. And if I just plain out don't like you, I'm deleting your request.
Nutshell: if I dig you, I'll add you and I'll let you know. *shrug*
EDIT 08/28/2003: I cleaned out my friends list. I'm in the mood for cleaning.
- musical genius
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- _seven
- March 2nd, 2003
Over time, I've been building my castle of love
Just for two, though you never knew you were my reason
I've gone much too far for you now to say
That I've got to throw my castle away
Over dreams, I have picked out a perfect come true
Though you never knew it was of you I've been dreaming
The sandman has come from too far away
For you to say come back some other day
And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me
Over hearts, I have painfully turned every stone
Just to find, I had found what I've searched to discover
I've come much too far for me now to find
The love that I've sought can never be mine
And though you don't believe that they do
They do come true
For did my dreams
Come true when I looked at you
And maybe too, if you would believe
You too might be
Overjoyed, over loved, over me
And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed, over loved, over you
...over you
- headphone masterpiece
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- February 26th, 2003
Lady, morning's just a moment away
And I'm without you once again
You laughed at me
You said you didn't needed me
I wonder if you need me now
So many dreams that flew away
So many words we didn't say
Two people lost in a storm
Where did we go?
Where'd we go?
We lost what we both had found
You know we let each other down
But then most of all
I do love you
Still...
We played the games that people play
We made our mistakes along the way
Somehow I know deep in my heart
You needed me
'Cause I needed you so desperately
We were too blind to see
But then most of all
I do love you
Still...
- kick
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- _seven
- February 5th, 2003
As promised, the old-school love song kick continues. Sucka.
Would you mind
if I touch, if I kiss,
if I held you tight
in the morning light
Would you mind
if I said how I felt tenderly tonight
again cause
I never ever
felt this way
in my heart before
Love has found a way
in my heart tonight
Would you mind
if I looked in your eyes and got hypnotized
and I lose my mind
Would you mind
if I made love to you till I'm satisfied
once again cause
I never ever
felt this way
in my heart before
Love has found a way
in my heart tonight
- girly-man
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- February 2nd, 2003
I'm going to start working out. A giant combination of bulking up and gaining weight, changing in diet, and (money permitting) lifting weights. I lost the energy I once had when I was in high school. Becoming a working/academic stiff has torn my energy apart. Oh yeah, the internet did it too. Hehe.
It's going to be crazy hard to dedicate myself to doing this. But I have my motives. =)
- love song kick
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- _seven
- January 8th, 2003
I'm on this spree of downloading older love songs. Man. I'm going to make it a point to post the lyrics to a dope gem every once in a while. Good stuff.
I have never been so much
In love
Before
What a difference
A true love made in my life
So nice
So right
Lovin' you gave me something new
That I never felt
Never dreamed of
Something's changed
Though it's not the
Feeling I had before
Oh, it's much much more
Love
I never knew that a touch
Could mean
So much
What a difference
And when we walk hand in hand
I feel
So real
Lovers come
And then lovers go
That's what folks would say
Don't they know
They're not there
When you love me
Hold me and say you care
And what we have is much more than they could see