CHANCE IT ALL

_semantics @ 2005-11-04T19:02:00

2005-11-05T00:02:52Z

new journal

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HALLOWEEEEEEEEEEENi

2005-11-01T23:19:04Z

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i was supposed to be bill clinton. it didnt work all that well so whatev. i was a guy then...

"i loooove me some johnsons baby powder!!"

2005-10-30T19:11:51Z

http://www.faqfarm.com/Q/Why_do_people_eat_talcum_powder_raw_rice_blackboard_chalk_and_uncooked_flour

people eat dust?

"I have eaten talcm powder ever since i was very young. It stated of that i liked the smell of chalk in the classroom. When i got a little older i got a blackboard and i started to bang the duster to get the smell. Soon that was not enough. I started to eat the chalk dust by banging it into a bow. I loved the dust feeling but sometimes you got bits. I started to eat all dust around the house. Then i realised talcum powder was the same but cleaner. I started to eat it. I love the taste and i always like to eat some. I feel weird but i cant help it. Please let me know if anyone else is the same!"

lolololol

"I have been eating talcum powder since I was a child. It has always been more intense during my two pregnancies. I only eat it occasionally, say 2 to 3 times every 3-4 months. Highly perfumed talc doesn't appeal so much but Johnsons is absolutely great. I've never considered it anything like an eating disorder but I have always disliked milk and often wondered if this had created a vitamin deficiency in me. When I eat the talcum powder it is because I have actually been craving it, as if my body is saying to me "your body is deficient in this mineral and you need to eat this now to overcome it" and it works!! i know that there is magnesium in talc maybe i have a deficiency in that?"

BAHAHAHHAHAHAH

"am 15 years old and me and my sista who is 19 have been eating talcum powder since i can rememba. i jus love da feelin of it in my mouth. my sista likes 2 sniff it or put it in her mouth and blow it. i simply like 2 eat it. sometimes i have it on someting dry. e.g. some biscuits or crisps. da taste is wondaful. i love Johnsons. but am scared cos i no its not normal and i dunno if its harmin me. but am addicted... i actuali get craving. sometimes o buy one bottle and within a week av eaten it all! am onli 15 tho... is this harmin me? "

_semantics @ 2005-10-27T20:14:00

2005-10-28T00:15:11Z

my house is so cold. the heat in my side of the house wont go on so ive been drinking tea NONSTOP. today i had 3 cups. green tea is so yummy.

today.. for my AP class... we colored maps... with colored pencils... for 42 minutes..

I WANT A HUG FROM A GUY TALLER THAN I AM AND SQUISHY LIKE ME. I LOVE SQUISHY GUYS THAT ARE WARM AND CUDDLY.

today maria said that she wants to take the bus into the city. I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO DO THAT FOREVAHHH. i hope we do it... no one seems to follow through though. =/

i want a boyfriend.

_semantics @ 2005-10-27T16:25:00

2005-10-27T20:25:36Z

PICK THE FACE OF THE PRESIDENT..

http://uk.download.yahoo.com/ne/fu/attachments/buildabetterbush.htm

I MISS YOU FUNNY FACE<33

2005-10-26T21:44:31Z

EVERYONE LEAVE ME THEIR NUMBERS MY CONTACTS GOT DELETED.!!

ive been listening to the best music lately! for me at least. you all probably think it sucks. but i loooooove it.

i keep getting yelled at in study for listening to poddy. WELL EXCUSE ME IF I DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT WHO FUCKED WHO AND WHO HAS CONTRACTED RABIES!

tommy and i are insane in latin. i stabbed him in the heart the other day by accident with a pencil. and today i kept clapping like a sped. loool hes so funny

in history i decided to lay down for like 5 minutes and chris laughed at me.
stephanie and i made faces across the room and mr.watson kept looking and me and then her.

mr. im is cool. and he listens to incubus when we arent there. hah
we had a quiz today. i didnt finish and my calculator hates me

sub in chorus three days in a row now! woooooooooo

i went to sleep last night at 8:30.
and monday night at 8.
i plan on going to sleep at 8 tonight.

IM GOING TO LISAS FOR HELP ON MY MOLE. AND IM COLD BYE

hhhhhhhhhhahahahhaa

2005-10-25T22:12:42Z

EVERYBODY WENT KUNG FOO FIGHTING HUH!
THOSE KICKS WERE FAST AS LIGHTNINNN.

:)

feelin good. doing good.
everything is gooooooood finally.

christmas = 2 months.

birthday is less than 60 days. its really weird because i do kind of feel like my birthday just passed...

HAHAHA okay i just read my entry from my birthday last year.. here it is

BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!! [20 Dec 2004|09:53pm]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | atreyu-right side of the bed ]

kay, so i dont remember updating yesterday, so here i am now.

yesterday- did homework all day. great fun.

today- mY FUCKING 15TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! hell yeah. it was a good day. as i predicted- no one decorated my locker. =/. alex gave me a balloon. lol, we were crazy in journalism, they sang in bio, picardo wouldnt let them sing, but he said happy birthday to me, english- me chrissy and lisa were nuts, lol the faces..latin- nothing too exciting, i got an answer right for once. lunch- pretty good. nothing wonderful. geo- sub, collected our homework, little bitch, and gave us a whole bunch of other hw. gym- omg, words cant describe- we did the harness thing with the rope- i do not want to see the guys do that again. EVAH! haha. lol

brother came and picked me up and brought me home, mother gave me flowers, and proceeeded to yell for making her have to buy all these presents for my friends. muhaha. she gave in and i got 5 cds in samgoody. muhaha. im gonna have my dad get me like 3 or 4 more. =]

then we went to applebees. the waiter was so fucking bangable. omg, i wanted to take him home! he was so nice!! ah, <33.

came home- pretended to read some oddessy. nah uh. and my uncle sent me flowers. they smell like apple which is odd. but they look nice.

were getting optimun online this week. YAY!! cant wait. then ill update like every 5 mins. ha.

okay, tired. must sleep.

//. allison

p.s. im 15 in 1 hour and 39 minutes (as of 10:01)

.... HAHAH i told you. what a fucking asshole i was/am
AND I SAID BANGABLE. BANGABLE.

BIG SHOT SCREAMING "PUT YOUR HANDS TO THE SKY"

2005-10-24T23:01:37Z

fuck fuck fuck a duck, screw a kangarooooooooo.

:) today kinda sucked. jk it was good actually
i got a 109/110 on a chemistry test that i didnt study for. :)
i beat amberly. i think, i dont even know but i am going to say that i did because it makes me feel smart.

lunch is becoming more and more bareable... i want to talk to her but i dont think she would even respond.
=/

im in the most violent mood ever. anything someone says to me i am like, "shut the fuck up." "im going to punch you if you..." im always kidding with the punching thing because i really wouldnt be able to punch someone without crying about it after from feeling so bad.
god i am a sissy.

i got soulseek back. ive downloaded 300 songs in the past 2 days. :)

its 7:00 and im going to bed.

_semantics @ 2005-10-22T21:15:00

2005-10-23T01:17:09Z

looooool

EMO SPARKNOTES GUY!!

_semantics @ 2005-10-22T14:31:00

2005-10-22T18:42:39Z

hahahahhaa tommy glasshauser came into my english class and sang celion dion with joe s. it was so funny and mrs. gainer is adorable

after school i went to brittanies house and just chilled until her friends brad and kristen came. they snuck into the house and scared the shit out of us. lool. then later ursula, dave, shannon and andy came.

later we went to jackies party for an hour. stonersstonersstoners.

andy had car trouble so he and shannon didnt go to jackies. so when we left 6 people had to fit in daves car. hahaaha. baaack to brittanies included watching movies(haahhaha late night cinemax) and being crazy. it got to like 12 and none of us had a ride home except dave. he went and brad ursula and i were going to walk each other home, but we just slept over instead.

brad kicked me in the butt when he was sleeping and someone said, "jackie roll" in their sleep. baaahahah funnayy

it was a really fun night.

i got my hair cut/colored......

2005-10-19T00:37:16Z

i dont know though.
what do you guys think?

p.s. please ignore my dumb smile and fucked up eye brow.
LOL if you didnt notice it until i pointed it out.
LOL @ me for not shutting up..

_semantics @ 2005-10-17T14:49:00

2005-10-17T18:57:58Z

looooool. our house is having some construction done and they listen to some radio station as they are doing it. one of the guys just sang along with the song that goes, "you can ring mah bell-ell-ell, ring mah bell" lmao

silence is so much more relaxing then the, "whatever. OKAY. FINE."

english was fine- there wasnt enough time for our group to present anyway so we didnt have to go. tonight i have to either buy a cd for making DVDs or buy the cable. i think ill buy the DVDs because i dont know if ill find the cable in stores.

chemistry test was soooooo easy. i definitely got an A.

new history teacher is annoying to watch when he is talking. he keeps moving his mouth around into these contortions and it makes me uncomfortable.
but he teaches well, so im happy.
test monday... =/
mr. picardo came in during the beginning of class and he noticed that i dyed my hair a shade darker. he is so funny to talk to.

hahhaahhaha in chorus i discussed greys anatomy with becky and almost started crying. i cant help it, i have a big mushy heart.

i have to make a lightning bolt for latin tonight... lol school

hurr cut tomorrow!

_semantics @ 2005-10-16T23:58:00

2005-10-17T03:41:12Z

i searched for this cable thing for like 2 hours tonight. it connects my camera to a tv so that i can present a video tomorrow for english.
when i remembered that i fucking lost the cable last june when i forgot it in speech class..... :(

so now im fucked over on the project, along with my group.
i hope she doesnt fail us all because it would be my fault and i would feel terrible. maybe ill be able to buy another cord tomorrow and present on tuesday... hopefully.

as for chemistry, i didnt prepare for the test.
that will be interesting.
at least i understand absolute zero..
ASK ME ABOUT IT. ITS SO FUCKING COOL.
haha pun

i wasnt going to go to school tomorrow, but i guess ill go.
whats the point of staying home. i wont be able to study and its not like ill just miraculously find the cable cord thing.

greys anatomy was good tonight.

_semantics @ 2005-10-16T11:46:00

2005-10-16T16:01:08Z

friday = mall with alex. i spent like 70 dollars but i got everything ive been wanting INCLUDING THE NEW STRAYLIGHT RUN CD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) very happy about that. we had fun even though we were really only hanging out for about an hour. when we were leaving, allie called alex's cell phone. WTF. alex said allie knew i was with alex, so why would allie call and ask to meet up. BITCHHHHH.

saturday= psats. i did terrible, whatever im not going to college.
went home after and then mom drove me to public image because we thought i could get in without an appointment, but nope. i have a tuesday appointment for color & cut. :) first time getting my hair perfessionally dyed. excited.
then we went to shop rite to get food or something. there are alot of weird people in there. i like a&p better.
on the way back my mom was talking to me about my brother and i think hes turning into an alcoholic. then that led to talking about colleges because she mentioned a family friend who is going to yale and i told her that i want to go to a nice college and she said i cant because we cant afford it. i starting crying. because seriously, whats the point working my ass off in school if i could just be in all regular classes doing mediocre work if the college i would be going to would be some nearby run of the mill boring college.
i was so upset that she told me that. i kept crying later when i kept thinking about it.
ugh.

so since im a fatty i baked cookies and felt a little better becuase i tried to keep my mind off it.
i have to talk to my dad. i hope he doesnt feel the same way about college as my mom

then my day got better. andrew asked me if i wanted to hang out and obviously i said yes.
diner & video games = :) :)

byeeeeee im doing homework.

_semantics @ 2005-10-15T11:56:00

2005-10-15T16:00:03Z

when i thought we were getting closer and getting better and MAYBE just MAYBE we wouldnt be fighting and i wouldnt be acting dumb.. i prove myself wrong and start right back over again.

greeeeeeeeat.

"LOL I DONT CARE". i hope that wasnt to me.

_semantics @ 2005-10-14T16:55:00

2005-10-14T21:09:23Z

today i got really upset

so thank you for making me feel like a complete loser when i was really, really excited to be doing something nice for a friend.
honestly, what was the point of that? its AMAZING that when i first told you, you seemed excited. whats with the sudden change.
CANT YOU PLEASE BE SUPPORTIVE.

ugh

anyway.

tonight i might be going to the mall with alex. i hope plans dont get messed up, i actually want to hang out with her. its a nice change of pace and she actually makes me feel good about myself which is why she does make a good friend.

i only got one point off on my algebra test. :)

my grade dropped 6 points in history. SWEEEEEEEET
it was also mr. rewicks last day. i will miss him

i hope the new teacher is nice and i hope i actually learn and i wont be so pissed off and annoyed for his class.

i need a haircut.

_semantics @ 2005-10-11T00:32:00

2005-10-11T04:35:59Z

i have a test tomorrow and my mind is racing.
please let me fall asleep after i get my ass off of this god damn fucking computer.

ive lost pretty much ALL of my pictures from the summer.
thank god i put some on photobucket.
but ive lost the majority of them. =/

i want to go back to this.

well i couldnt sleep.......

2005-10-11T04:26:37Z

ive decided that i will still update.
but instead ill update a picture or a few pictures every so often instead of writing.

i need to stop looking for attention through sympathy.

new bangs? lol i shook my head and whamo.

OMG PONY TAIL!

_semantics @ 2005-10-09T21:59:00

2005-10-10T02:04:34Z

my mom knows EXACTLY how to take my dreams and toss them into a fire.

so, thank you mom for making me feel like an idiot AND AT THE SAME TIME limiting my freedom AS WELL AS making me feel like shit when i told her that i would be okay with not coming home often in college.

FUCKING YES GREAT DAY...
not

_semantics @ 2005-10-09T15:52:00

2005-10-09T20:01:25Z

i need to stop watching really cheezy-BUT AMAZING- love movies.

uhm, im really fucking happy right now.
yaaaaaaaay.

im finally back on my computer.
THANK YOU NINOOOOOOO!

my brothers home this weekend, and he told me he wanted me to check out his music because he downloaded a bunch of new stuff.
okay, lol hes now got music that he made fun of me for listening to.
-bedlight for blue eyes, scary kids scarying kids, emanuel.
LOL!!#@ the only one i actually listened to was emanuel, but i played the other stuff and he made fun of it. now hes asking me to send him stuff. haha life.

_semantics @ 2005-10-07T16:11:00

2005-10-07T20:23:54Z

im finally getting better in my classes.
i figured it was time to ACTUALLY do the homework and not just BSing as much as i could.
my grade in alg2 is near 100. GAH!
i have and 87!!!!!!!!!! in my AP history
HOLY CRAP IM AMAZING.

uuuuuuuuhm.. thats about all
mikey comes home today!!@!%$&$
saaaaaaaaaweetness

the new myspace thing where you can put your favorite 8 people on there is pretty nifty
i would actually like it if i used myspace more than once every two weeks.

i havent talked to some people in like a month.
:(

LOL IM LONELY

_semantics @ 2005-10-05T08:55:00

2005-10-05T13:20:04Z

so monday lisa came over and we read magazines and went for a walk to the dam. we ate reeses puffs, listened to death cab and stared at the stars for a little while. it was really relaxing. we were cold there and somehow getting wet, so we didnt stay there too long. we called joan to tell her we solved the cracker mystery. haaaaahaha

yesterday babysat. nothing interesting. the kid i babysat, matthew, invited a friend over and they dumped buckets of water on me. nothing out of the usual.......

then i went to charlie browns with lisa and andrew.
ANDREW DROVE ON THE WAY BACK! "all up in my grillllllle"
we looked at all his pictures and made him tell us who everyone is.
listened to some music and andrew played piano as lisa and i pretended we were at a dinner party and balanced crackers, grapes, cheese, and wine. lol

last night i had a horrible dream. i woke up and then i didnt want to go back to sleep.
=/ so here i am

i have to go do homework today. ew

lololololl.k

2005-10-03T20:24:56Z

hahaaaaaaa. i have like no homework. i fucking love it
today was an awesome day until 9th period.
fucking quiz i didnt know about/forgot about and i got a 60 on it.
:/ but alot of other people did too, so it wasnt too terrible.

lol school was amazing, really.
in my study hall this guy joey like ripped his sweater off. haaahahhaa it was so funny. he was like, *FAAAAAOOM* "check out my boobies"

im going to preakness tonight with lisa, chrissy, hemali and molly tonight.
were seeing flight plan. hopefully it will be good.

saturday i went to the mall with lisa and bought so much shit.
then back to her house for dinner and we watched dodgeball. lol ben stiller.
we, of course, had ice cream which was pretty much excellent.

sunday i did some homework, talked to andrew on the phone for like 2 hours and he was hyper and amazing, as usual. HANGING OUT WITH HIM TOMORROW WHAT WHAT!!

then i went to stephanies. nino fixed my computer, stephanie and i made an apple pie, we sang along to celion dion and i helped her do stats for volleyball. it was a good afternoon

tomorrow im babysitting during the day. i cant wait to play video games, watch tv, eat food AND then get paid. LOL WTF I LOVE THAT.

<3333 no homework <3333

i said i needed you. but im doing okay without you.
INDEPENDENT WOMAN. WHAT WHATTTTTTT/

:)

EDIT:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

does that picture have like red on the bottom of the sky?
im on my moms computer and it looks red on here.

_semantics @ 2005-10-01T09:45:00

2005-10-01T13:49:45Z

THE HONORARY TITLE: SATURDAY NOVEMBER 19TH- THE KNITTING FACTORY 6:30PM.
i waaaaaaanna go!

this upset me:

hiiii its KRiS10: im about to leave.
hiiii its KRiS10: ij ust wanted to say bye.
omg AlliSON said: be safe<33 ill miss talking to you till you get back
hiiii its KRiS10: no you wont.
hiiii its KRiS10: i wont be misesd.
hiiii its KRiS10: you have a good time.

and then that was the end of the conversation
i couldnt believe she said that. after she did i was glad she was leaving if that is what she was going to say to me

_semantics @ 2005-09-30T20:32:00

2005-10-01T00:32:25Z

so. im actually doing really well in my classes.
it feels like i might have straight A's. except i have an 83 in history, but it counts as a 93. so thats an A.

well im updating because i have NOTHING TO DO.
i was supposed to go to the hills game
but that got all fucked up
and my parents left somewhere
so im actually going to go do my english homework later.

my brother is coming home next weekend!! :)
yaaaaaaaaay.

my spray wax stopped working!
if i cant get it to work this weekend im going to throw rocks at it and see if those cans actually do like explode. if this is really fucking dangerous please inform me.

tomorrow im going to ghettobrooke with lisa. im hoping my mom will give me some money because that would be awesome. i need to buy gloves.

Hi.

i miss everything i used to have.

ive been listening to some really amazing music lately and it makes me so happy.
the best part is that its all varied.
[if youve asked me what im listening to during school its probably something catchy and something i know well. so stfu if you think i listen to shit. i dont care what you think of the music i listen to.]