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[03 Feb 2004|09:19pm] |
this journal is only used for private entries now, but i wanted to make one more public post to say that today is this journals 1 year birthdayyy :D. well actually it was yesterday but my first post was made the day after i got it. so. everyone say happy birthday to my journal.
you can still add the new one if you want: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) gocontemporary
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| my last entry heeere :[ |
[31 Dec 2003|01:30am] |
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i think this is probably my last entry in this journal. i'll be using gocontemporary starting tomorrow...apparently the majority of you guys hate me cause only 17 people have added me out of 70-something, but that's okay. don't take me off your lists if you don't want to though, i'm still going to check my friends page from this journal, and i'll still comment. orrr you can add the new one.
hmm. this is sad.
oh well, bye everyone who doesn't add the new journal, i'll miss you!
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| *ahem* MAY I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION PLEASE! |
[28 Dec 2003|07:37pm] |
asdjhjsfhdgf.
starting..whenever i feel like it, i will be using this journal (add it, right now. i'm not adding anyone first.), for these reasons:
1) i can't stand having a good charlotte song for a username anymore.
2) i want to make this one private, because everything in here is really retarded, and all of the entries i make in here once i start using the other journal will be private, but i don't want to stop using this one yet because i'm like 2 entries away from my 1300th entry and it would be sad if i couldn't share that entry with all of you. yes, even the ones who don't read.
3) i don't really know.
so add ittttt. or else i will be really, really sad!
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[26 Dec 2003|08:51pm] |
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i felt productive today.
so i decided i was going to redo my entire bedroom and bathroom, and clean out my desks and throw everything into the closet.
but then i got lazy & didn't do it.
oh well, there's always tomorrow.
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[06 Dec 2003|03:58pm] |
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sdkf who invented swimming anyway?!
actually,
The English are considered the first modern society to develop swimming as a sport. By 1837, regular swimming competitions were being held in London's six artificial pools, organized by the National Swimming Society in England. As the sport grew in popularity many more pools were built, and when a new governing body, the Amateur Swimming Association of Great Britain, was organized in 1880, it numbered more than 300 member clubs.
(http://www.penangswimming.com)
my uncle is mean :[
he's a doctor and he won't write me a note to get out of swimming!
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.
hmph.
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[26 Nov 2003|04:07pm] |
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yeah nothing happened today except for two things which don't matter at all.
i'm leaving tomorrow.
i'll be gone for four days.
i probably won't be updating or commenting or anything.
since i won't have a computer.
so don't be mad :[
i love you guys to the max & i will miss you all.
have a lovely thanksgiving and don't eat turkey cause it's mean to eat animals. not to mention turkey is gross.
<3!
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[08 Nov 2003|09:53pm] |
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well i'm not really excited but i just wanted to say that this mood icon makes me really dizzy.
umm today i went to some weird store to get soda and there were all these old bald people there. nothing against old bald people or anything [or young bald people either for that matter] but there were so many of them, it was kind of scary..but at least i got my soda, right?
then i played cards with my dad for like 5 minutes but i was losing so i threw the cards at him and went downstairs.
wow i haven't made popsicles in forever. and you know that may quite possibly be because it's 33 degrees outside.
i'm so bored. can you all like name some good songs for me to download? cause i just got limewire instead of kazaa and it's all awesomeful and stuff even though it's like exactly the same. but i don't know what to download so yeah suggestions?
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[01 Nov 2003|08:17pm] |
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okay, first of all. i was trying to do something & i ended up ruining my journal..that's one reason not to use it anymore...and no one reads it, that's another reason...and nothing i say is important, that's another reason...
do any of you have a blurty? besides kim and monica<33?
cause i might not use this that much anymore. but don't take me off your list or anything cause i'll still comment & stuff.
my thing on blurty is xxscreamer, on greatest journal it's heyihateyou and on caleida it's neversayforever ...so yeah.
i'll probably end up using this just as much as always. i'm just in a bad mood, sorry.
okay could somebody help me fix this though? my comment thingies disappeared & i don't remember how to change them & ugh.
i'm so sick of the things i have to say.
edit: um, sorry. i'm still going to use this. but i really want my comment thingies back :[
edit again: nevermind, i fixed it. yay! thanks molly <3
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[22 Oct 2003|08:55pm] |
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i'm so sick of apologizing.
my friends are the worst friends you could ever have.
(meaning school friends. you lovely journal friends are...well, lovely.)
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[19 Oct 2003|12:50am] |
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i changed my journal colors. they're even more plain than before but...eh
okay anyway.
...bye.
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[12 Oct 2003|12:18pm] |
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mmm i had texas toast for breakfast. that stuff is so yummy.
i'm going to the movies later with kelly and a bunch of her friends who i don't know. we're going to see school of rock.
psshhh i have to use my saved up lunch money which is supposed to be for cds.. for movie tickets.. not fair..
yesterday i bought a coat.
& soda & chips & italian ice..& texas toast..and potatoes. i <3 food shopping & i <3 pathmark.
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[10 Oct 2003|04:45pm] |
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you know what?
i don't want to have his kids and i wouldn't give him butterscotch candy & have him suck on it and then spit it out into a plastic bag so i could suck on it afterwards.
i don't consider myself obsessed.
(ps: this is my 1200th entry =])
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[08 Oct 2003|03:48pm] |
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it's dangerous to be aware of what's going on.
it's dangerous to have good taste.
just like how, for me, the littlest things mean the most...
they also hurt the most...
i've seen him with so many girls all over him that i have no idea which one he's going out with.
but i guess it doesn't really matter.
today wasn't that bad, but i'm overly sensitive.
so today sucked.
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[06 Oct 2003|06:18pm] |
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i just painted my nails dark brown. how hot is that?
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[04 Oct 2003|11:28pm] |
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ehh i ended up going to the mall today even though i didn't feel like it.
& i saw kelly & juli there, which was kind of awkward since they had been calling me all morning and i didn't know it, trying to contact me about going to the mall.
i should have just told them i was there looking for them, but i'm honest so haha =x anyway, i didn't stay with them for long because i just wanted to shop and they were about to leave. so i got some clothes & a cd & then i got soda & italian ice & pizza, and then i came home to my mom obsessing over clay aiken. my god haha =\
um, that's it?
i just wanted to make a public entry, because i haven't in a long time.
wow i'm boring.
am i the only one who hates weekends?
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[28 Sep 2003|11:29am] |
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so things happen when you least expect them to.
and when you're hoping for something to happen, but you don't really realize what you're thinking or what you're hoping for,
it happens.
& sometimes you forget to think, and you forget that you're forgetting to think, and you just aren't thinking at all...
that's when something happens that will keep your mind occupied for hours...
and you know what, i'm always either expecting something or hoping for something and knowing that i'm hoping for it and i'm way too aware of what's going on around me and nobody ever takes me by surprise because i always know what everyone's going to say and what they aren't going to say and what they're going to do and what they aren't going to do and it's motherfucking annoying.
and so nothing's going to be happening to me for a long time.
because subconsciously, by saying that, i'm hoping that something will.
life is so boring.
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[24 Sep 2003|10:41pm] |
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i'm sick of dreaming.
i don't dream when i sleep.
...most of the time.
i think i should start sleeping more.
maybe i'd feel better if i didn't have the time to think about what i'm missing out on by being so retarded.
& i'm sick of wishing for things i'll never have.
wishes don't come true and there's no point.
but that's what i spend most of my time doing.
i wish i could give up.
but yeah.
that's just another stupid wish.
i want to delete this journal.
there's so much stupidness in here.
you know i'm not going to.
i just want to.
but i could never do that.
i hope tomorrow is better than today.
but it won't be...i know it won't.
thanks so much for ruining everything.
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[22 Sep 2003|10:02pm] |
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um, i just fucked my journal up. it looks really ugly. i changed the colors around and stuff. i hate girls. bye.
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[20 Sep 2003|09:49pm] |
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i got a new screen name...
neverxsayforever.
IM me or something.
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[18 Sep 2003|03:57pm] |
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i remember last thanksgiving i was like deliriously sick and i was obsessed with nfg cause i was retardeddd and jordan's screechy annoying SEXY voice kept giving me a headache, but i wouldn't stop listening to it & i threw up turkey and stuffing while my mom shouted at me for my room being so messy and then i got mad at her and i was like talking calmly to her and i put up this awesome argument and i was delirious and i cant remember what i said but it made a lot of sense.
that was the best thanksgiving ever.
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[15 Sep 2003|07:53pm] |
toofarG0NEx: UPDATE YOUR JOURNAL
neverxsayforever: WHY
toofarG0NEx: CUZ
neverxsayforever: CUZ WHY
toofarG0NEx: I ASKED YOU TO
neverxsayforever: I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY
toofarG0NEx: TALK ABOUT ME
toofarG0NEx: AND MY LOVLINESS
neverxsayforever: OKAYYY
liz,
YOUR VOICE IS SO HOT. YOU DON'T SOUND LIKE YOU'RE 5, I DO. YOU ARE...UM, LOVELY. AND I WANT YOU TO HAVE MY CHILDREN. AND THIS TIME, DON'T GET AN ABORTION PLEASE.
you know like after every 20 entries i write one about you?
haha..
I <3 YOU BEATRICEEEEEE
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[14 Sep 2003|07:28pm] |
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today i went to the movies with nikki & this guy and his friends..we saw pirates of the caribbean...it was good...i'm probably like the only person in the world who waited this long to see it..
then i went food shopping. i got soda. mmyes.
& that's it really. i worked on my essay for english a little...im eating spaghetti...
um....
i'll write more later...or not...
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[02 Sep 2003|08:16pm] |
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my computer is broken. yeeeah. i'm at the library. their keyboards suck and i can't type so this isn't gonna be very long. i start school tomorrow. i won't be online for like...a week or two or three. and i'll miss you. yep bye.<3
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[30 Aug 2003|06:52pm] |
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i went to lavon's hotel today & we hung out for a couple hours...it was great. lol she gave me a shirt of hers, i'm going to wear it like every day. she is so awesome & prettyyy <3333
i'm getting my hair straightened tomorrow & probably going shopping & going to the movies. like by myself. lol. unless someone wants to go but i dont feel like asking anyone cause i hate everyone. except you. unless you're someone i hate.
i don't want to go back to school...i mean who does? but really i feel so horrible about it. i didn't do the summer reading thing we were supposed to do. i don't even know what we were supposed to do. this is going to be such a horrible year..every year is.
i dont know what im doing monday. but im probably doing something. and i just want to stay home tuesday cause its the last day of summer & i want to sleep in and waste it. really.
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[24 Aug 2003|07:02pm] |
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yesterday: i went to the mall with nikki & got some clothes & shoes, and then we met up with nelson and we stalked an old guy and licked another tree.
today: i watched tv & we got pizza and i got cruiserweight's cd in the mail and it's fucking awesome. except i haven't listened to most of it yet. but it's still awesome.
ew. i don't like dominoes. or onions.
i finished three of the summer reading books. i'm not going to read the last one. i'll just read notes on it and stuff. actually i didn't read to kill a mockingbird, i just watched the movie, and i think it might be a lot different cause molly was talking about it last night and she mentioned a fire or something? and that wasn't in the movie...but oh well...
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[21 Aug 2003|07:57pm] |
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i can't think of anything to say.
not that i'm supposed to be saying anything.
i am so bored.
i want soda.
but if i open the fridge,
my mom's gonna start shouting
"YOU'RE NOT TAKING SODA, ARE YOU?!?!?!?!?!"
yeah.
she thinks if i drink too much soda i'm going to burn a hole in my stomach.
that bitch is fucking psycho.
i'm not going to complain for a while.
hopefully a long while.
no matter what.
unless it's really bad.
& then i'll use an lj cut.
cause i think i'm annoying some people.
er like
everyone.
so yeah. sorry.
<3i<3hate<3you<3all<3
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[16 Aug 2003|06:38pm] |
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oh no! we got chinese food.
ew ew ew.
i'm not hungry anyway, because i just woke up a couple hours ago and had grilled cheese and a kit kat bar for breakfast.
i got your letter  monica! i love it so much. i'll write you back tonight!
wooooo. i got so much sleep today (13 and a half hours) so i feel a lot better. and also if i beat my dad playing rummy today i get cruiserweight's cd! WOOOAH YAY! haha i've been writing a lot of entries about stuff...like, complaining and stuff...but i don't post them. i used to post every entry i wrote which resulted in 10-40 updates a day...so i just don't post them. it makes things a lot easier to just not think about whatever's bothering me. i don't think that's the reason i feel so much better though...i think i just don't..like him..as much..anymore...or i'm just used to whatever i had to get used to..but occasionally when there's no one to talk to i just start to feel lonely & like no one cares. but i'm expecting too much from everyone. i used to expect a lot more and ever since i stopped i haven't been so...angry at everyone. that's helping a lot too.
i barely even started the summer reading yet. i skimmed through the first book but yeah...i just started another one which is really confusing, and my mom bought the movie of to kill a mockingbird for me for some weird reason so i don't have to read it. she thinks i'll read it anyway...but uh yeah right? i know there will be differences and stuff but...i don't really care..wow there are only two weeks left of summer vacation...
okay, well i'm off to go get food poisoned...i hate chinese food =\
edit: i won! i get the cd! yay!!
mk.<3
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[14 Aug 2003|12:25am] |
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tomorrow i have to go to morris county to look at houses.
JFDSHLGKJFG
the only good thing about it is that my mom wants to go to all of the downtown parts of the towns we look at..
and like go inside the stores and stuff.
so i can buy things.
but she's saying we have to leave at like 12.
i don't wake up until 2.
so DJFHJG.
oh and..
i love you nones.
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[13 Aug 2003|12:58am] |
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would means nothing.
i probably wouldn't. not for long.
i don't know what i'm talking about.
well, yeah i do.
but whatever.
i don't think it even hurts anymore.
it doesn't.
not that much.
but something just makes me want to talk about it.
not talking about it makes me feel a lot better though.
because even though 'keep yourself occupied' and 'try not to think about it' are probably two of the most overused lines of advice...they really work.
...so why am i talking about it.
i dunno.
ps: MOLLY, GET YOUR COMPUTER FIXED. I MISS YOU BITCH.
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[10 Aug 2003|02:05am] |
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i just wrote an entry explaining why i delete every entry i write except for the ones that hardly say anything, but i deleted it. so whoa, you'll never know.
k that was extremely pointless
...but true.
so.
umm...i have one & a half bottles of root beer?
yeah, i can't really say much else about stuff right now
friends only entries make me angry. i can't really say anything in friends only ones either though.
okay.
i give up.
here.
my dad has off from work this week.
i really hate it when he's around.
& it feels like everyone i'm close with has someone else they're closer with.
i want to mean everything to someone.
and to be able to tell that someone absolutely everything.
and for the only things i would ever need to say to anyone about that person to be about how happy they make me.
but i really doubt that will ever happen. i watch too much tv.
& i also want to help everybody i care about.
i want everyone to IM me and tell me everything that's making them feel bad.
i really do.
please IM me and complain. cottoncandy4437, hotwalmartsex, starshineox, ilovesinks04...i use the first one most often.
really. do it. please.
yeah anyway...my mouse is really retarded and it wont move the way i want it to.
so that sucks.
ugh
bye.
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[08 Aug 2003|05:08pm] |
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i'm so thirstyyyyy
i gave my dad a pen. so he's going to go get root beer.
how wonderful of him.
mmm
i <3 you liz (not patterson), i hope you feel better sweetie
:-*
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[03 Aug 2003|10:40pm] |
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....i was kidding?
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[03 Aug 2003|06:47pm] |
k guess what
FUCK YOU
because you are
SO
FUCKING
WRONG.
...*blink*
really though you are so just shut up please thanks.
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[02 Aug 2003|09:09pm] |
LIZ (BEATRICE) IS HAVING MY BABIES. THEY'RE TWINS. WE'RE NAMING THEM LIZNAY AND CURTIZ.
too far G0NE x: i wish for your babies
too far G0NE x: PLEASE
cottoncandy4437: look at your tummy darling
too far G0NE x: did you just call me fat
too far G0NE x: i hate you go away :'(
cottoncandy4437: no
cottoncandy4437: i just called you pregnant
too far G0NE x: OMG YAY!!!
<333333333333333333333333
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[02 Aug 2003|04:24pm] |
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i got a blurty because i hate leaving anonymous comments & nikki got a blurty & i wanted to comment on her entries & stuff so yeah, i won't use it as much as i use this though because i love my live journal way too much. but uh, k.
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[01 Aug 2003|08:18pm] |
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oh my god
guess what i did today.
i licked a tree.
nikki and nelson licked it too.
it tasted nasty.
but i liked it anyway.
mmmhm.
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[01 Aug 2003|02:50pm] |
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hi
^ that was nikki. she's at my house. it's thundering. yup.
uhh we don't know what to say.
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[31 Jul 2003|11:20pm] |
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that's me right now.
a bunch of different emotions.
heh i was bored shut up.
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[30 Jul 2003|09:47pm] |
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this is my 1100th journal entry.
haha
yay.
today i ate noodles and played ink link and won every game so they kicked me out
=[ and i drank soda...and lucy got in the group which made me soo happy cause if i were a lesbian i'd wanna do her. yeahhh and that's it.
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[30 Jul 2003|03:21am] |
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Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
*becoming too attached to people & things
*complaining too much
*stalking people
*not talking enough
Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
*uh some soda
*i
*don't
*know...
Name Five Scents You Love:
*cherrryyyy...actually i hate it but ive had this cherry spritzie stuff since 1st grade so i'm in <3 with it
*vanilla i guess.
*i don't knowww...
*.....
*.......
Name Four People That Know You the Best:
*haha umm...i have no idea.
*why do i even do surveys when i don't answer anything =\
*...
*...
Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:
*uhh ties
*i really don't like dresses...
*umm
*yeahhh...
Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
*that i should go to bed
*that i'm really fucking stupid cause i have no idea what day it is even though i was just talking about what day it was with someone a couple hours ago...
*that i'm really hungry & thirsty
*how bad i wanna see days of our lives tomorrow cause soap operas are addictive like whoa
Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
*left xtina 1029 messages while she was away (<333)
*played ink link and won every game cause i'm so fucking smart...right...
*drank soda
*watched tv
Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
*cotton candy
*dr. pepper
*lucky 7's cd
*i don't remember...
Name Five Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like:
*uhh i dunno...
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Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink:
*dr. pepper
*iced tea
*cherry pepsi
*water
*cream soda
First Grade Teacher Name?
- mrs. stroman
Last Words You Said:
- 'okay'
Last Song You Sang?
- heh i dont know
Last Person You Hugged?
- i dunno probably my mom haha
Last Thing You Laughed At?
- the answers the last person who did this survey wrote
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?
- one month and 29 days ago at around 2:30 pm. (it was a sunday i think?)
Last Time You Cried?
- i don't really remember. sometime last week
What's In Your CD Player?
- lucky 7's cd
What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
- i'm not wearing socks
What's Under Your Bed?
- dust?
What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
- 1:01 pm
Current Taste?
- a hot pocket
Current Hair?
- down & messy & ugly as usual =x
Current Clothes?
- pajamas
Current Annoyance?
- urrm nothing really
Current Longing?
- to drink sodaaa
Current Desktop Picture?
- it's not blue bubbles anymore. but that's cause this is a different computer lol...anyway i don't have a desktop picture =\
Current Worry?
- mmm nothing
Current Hate?
- chantel (from american juniors)
Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
- haha everything dkfjsdf
Last CD You Bought?
- lucky 7
Favorite Place To Be?
- quickmart...cause that's where all the soda is.
Least Favorite Place?
- i have no idea.
Time You Wake Up In The Morning?
- i wake up in the afternoon.
If You Could Play An Instrument?
- bass guitar
Favorite Color?
- my journal colors cause they're just so sexy
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
- no
How Tall Are You?
- 5'1" or 5'2" or something
Current Favorite Word/Saying?
- i dunno
Favorite Book?
- anything by norma fox mazer..<33 and the center of things by some lady named jenny
Favorite Season?
- i don't know.
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To:
- aubrey...my best friend in like 1st-3rd grade. she moved to ohio =[ i still have a scrunchie of hers...
Favorite Day?
- i dunno...during the school year the weekend...but in summer any day during the week cause on the weekends my dad is home & i don't like him very much.
Where Would You Like To Go?
- boston on a train...
What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
- how would i know?
How Many Kids Do You Want?
- it doesn't matter as long as i can name one cherryanne
Favorite Car?
- dunno...red cars are sexay like whoa...doesnt matter what kind
Type A Line You Remember From Any Book:
- ummmmmmm?!?! i can't remember.
A Random Lyric:
- no i don't like typing lyrics =[
Identify Some Of The Things Surrounding Your Computer:
- paper...the printer...some plastic cups..the newest soap opera digest...& that's it
k i'm gonna go upstairs...
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[29 Jul 2003|09:35pm] |
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umm.......
oh!!
i got soda!!
wooohooo.
yeah.
i <3 soda.
more than anything in the world.
well okay not really.
but i love it a lot. <3.
ps: call this number so lucy gets in the group on american juniors & i'll love you forever & ever k?
1877-954-3707
call ittt
now.
anyway
i'm gonna go read the classic lines in my mom's soap opera digest and call for lucy 28937248374 times.
k.
bye.
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[29 Jul 2003|01:30am] |
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brodie -- the personal ads |
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i can't sleeeep
not like i ever go to bed this early anyway
but i won't be able to sleep later either...
& yesterday i was up until like 10 in the morning and i was reading one of our summer reading books the whole time...ugh i hate reading...well anyway
i don't get why i even bother going to sleep at 10 in the morning...
i should just get up & watch tv or something.
then maybe i would actually be tired at night
and i don't get why you have to sleep at night.
i mean you don't really have to...
i want to move to new york or something where there's still a bunch of people out at 3 in the morning
speaking of new york...they're like making a school for gays and lesbians there? lmao that's so stupid...
i wish i had something to do instead of just sitting here for 9 hours until i'm tired enough to fall asleep...
well there's 3 more summer reading books
bleh
no thanks.
and um
i'm about to finish my bottle of soda.
=[
so maybe tomorrow i'll go buy some more soda and some doritos and cotton candy.
and save it until like 2 am.
and then go upstairs...
and then eat until 10...
and then go downstairs.
and watch tv...
until 1...
and then watch soap operas until 3.
which is still tv but whatever.
and then
yeah
i have no idea what i'm talking about
oh oh
i know..
i'll finish monica's letter tonight. i wanna send her something special but i dunno what. cause she sent me jones soda labels which i am gonna put on my bedroom wall. haha i love you monica ... <333
but yeah whatever
today was really boring.
like i even updated my sum41 & cartoon dolls website...that's how bored i was. cause i hate sum41 & cartoon dolls. haha http://groups.msn.com/cartoondollzandsum41
so like it turned completely into a picture rating community.
i'm like what the fuck...?
britt simpson's pornstar picture is on there
everybody go rate her & tell her how sexxay she is
whoa..i have 339 members.
someone go join so i have 340.
uh this is kinda long.
so yeah
bye <3
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[28 Jul 2003|10:43pm] |
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...i can't talk anymore. i mean i get like this all the time but sometimes it's worse than other times...like for some reason i just get this feeling like i can't say anything to anyone unless they ask a question or something...
you know how like when you feel really really horrible and you need to talk about it but you don't want to talk about it to any of your friends because you know they're tired of your shit & they just don't want to hear it...i guess that's what this is...and when you're thinking about what's making you feel so bad you really don't feel like talking about anything else...yeah i guess that's it.
well i really don't care who reads this anymore. i mean i don't know and i don't really care. cause after a while anyone who reads is going to get bored & stop anyway...nobody cares about this. i don't even know why i have the link in my profile. really who wants to hear all of this?
i hate feeling sorry for myself, cause everyone else hates you when you feel sorry for yourself...
people who complain all the time but get what they want all the time...they annoy me...and i know i get what i want a lot too but that's just because i have no fucking clue what i really want. and it doesn't really matter cause whatever it is i'm never going to get it.
i hate this. i hate not being able to actually say what i'm trying to just because...i really don't even know why. i could make this friends only but i'm not.
when i was reading all of my old journal entries yesterday & the day before that i thought all of them were so stupid and pointless. and i know the next time i read this entry i'm going to think the same thing...
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[28 Jul 2003|02:46pm] |
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alkaline trio -- we've had enough |
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molly i just read your post from last night..lmao...i love you..you better come online soon..<3
you get so fake when you know people are actually reading what you're writing so i dunno what to say anymore o.O
umm? i really don't know.
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[28 Jul 2003|01:18am] |
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lucky 7 -- 2000 miles |
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it took me like two fucking days to do it but i made a lot of my journal entries friends-only...well most of them...so now i guess i can let people read the non-friends-only stuff? i don't know why anyone would want to but uh yeah
uhh i think nikki's gonna read it so...hi nikki? <3
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[27 Jul 2003|07:36pm] |
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lucky 7 -- where are you |
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back to friends-only-ing my journal entries...i'm done with like 2 and a half months of the almost 6 months i've had my journal. it took me like at least 4 hours to go through all of them and see which ones needed to be friends-only o.O haha yeah this is fun...
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[23 Jul 2003|04:29pm] |
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holy shit i'm in trouble...why is my mom doing this to me
edit: AHHH THERE ARE STRANGERS ALL OVER MY HOUSE SAVE ME SAVE ME OH MY HOLY GOD THE PLUMBER HAS GROWN UP AND IS NO LONGER CUTE THESE PEOPLE ARE OLD AND UGLY AND THEY HAVE WRINKLES SOMEONE SAVE ME THANKS.
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[23 Jul 2003|03:21am] |
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i'm in one of those moods where i am in love with everything and everyone.
this is rare.
=\ i love you...?
ps: yes i know i said i was getting offline before my dad killed me. jesus christ i am a lying whore. i want to be pretty. i am going to spend the entire night/morning making myself look semi-decent. i think i have some sort of sickness. i don't feel good. i've had a cough for almost 5 months straight all from screaming into a god damned pillow.
i still love you.
kbye.
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