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[29 Apr 2005|01:19am] |
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was going to have a great weekend...but I didn't. I was sick..slept, did chores and errands, studied for a final for a class I flunking...so it was pointless.....school sucks. I'm so sick of it. I have three more finals. They should go ok. I know i will do well on those. BUt i can't wait til its over. then i have jury duty next week!!! Argh. I hate being a citizen. My boyfriend laughs at me because he never has to do jury duty....little foreigner. But I got 150 bucks back for my books...and that means money for the kitties and their shots and medicene. We're going to try out the kitties in my dad's house for a week and if my dad and sisters don't like having them...I have to sell them. So if anyone wants the cutest kitties in the world...pay attention if I post I"m selling them...bceause they are seriously the cutest kitties I've ever seen. And everyone agrees. So...yah.
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[28 Apr 2005|01:25pm] |
I just went back and read every livejournal entry I've ever written. It was really trippy. Yeah. It was really trippy. And now I'm sad because I miss my friends that I wrote about and I had so much fun with them. I miss you Matty. I miss you a lot. I have this friend at work named Nathan...and I always think to myself....he's my Matchew. He's your replacement. But not the same at all. I miss our fun we had with Mandy. and Mexican Egg Rolls. I miss highschool and drama with you guys. I wish we would've kept in touch through college. I blame myself. But I now I guess life is too different to ever go back. I'm sad now.
I never thought I'd say this...but I wish I could go back to highschool.
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[27 Apr 2005|10:15pm] |
I HATE CHAPEL! ARGH! It sucks my ass! I hate chapel more than life. Just wanted to let you know.
There is an old dude singing some stupid hymn. It sounds like poopsex. Yes yes in deed.
Anyway....my kitties are awesome. We got their first set of shots a week ago. We have 2 weeks left for their next shot. We took them to the vet and they took their temperature and they had a fever of 104 degrees. So we had to feed them amoxicilyn. They also had ear mites so we had to give them ear drops. And they are now better. They are 10 weeks old. And they are the cutest freakin kitties ever. Zak and Zoe. Zak is named after Zak spelled without a c from Ben Folds' song Zak and Sara. And i love them. I love them so much. They make me supper happy. Zoe is Ally's birthday gift. So Zoe is Ally's cat and Zak is mine. Zak and Sara. Yeah for us. I want to marry him. I'm gonna marry my kitty. Heee
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[11 Apr 2005|07:08pm] |
I'm just a little girl crying out for your hand.
You can't touch me when you don't want to feel me.
You can't grab my hand if you don't want to reach out.
Can you feel my pain when you touch my heart?
Can you hear my cries.....do you even listen?
Why do I feel this empty?
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[08 Apr 2005|10:27am] |
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Last night I watched South Park with John and that is a fuckin hilarious movie. THe part that I got most offended by....(but probably the funniest line in the whole movie) was "I can't trust anything that bleeds for five days and doesn't die." (women) My jaw just dropped. That was genious. But the movie is just hilarious. I mean...these little kids swearing up a storm just cracked me up. I loved it. Everyone should see it....except the christian people who would have a heart attack. I mean...the fact that Satan is gay? How dare those people be so blasphomous! =)
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[26 Mar 2005|09:51pm] |
I hate Christian holidays. I hate Christians standards of celebrating holidays. I'm sure God and Jesus said....On the anniversary of Jesus' death, go be with your boring family. I'm sure in the bible somewhere it says....you only have to be miserable with your family on Christmas, THanksgiving and Easter. Becasue on Jesus' death and birth, we are supposed to be with our families, because that is what the holidays are all about. So Christmas and Easter are not about eggs, candy, gifts, christmas trees, etc. But it definatley is about being forced to see your family. HOw about....I don't care. the only person I want to see is John....like on any regular day. But because its a stupid holiday...I gotta be miserable with my lame family so they can all remind me why I don't want to be a christian. I hate holidays that force us with our family. Blah.
I didn't even get to go to the beach once this spring break. ANd now the weather is starting to clear. That sucks. And the last day of my spring break I have to spend it at church, with my stupid family, and working. Yeah for my crazy fuckin spring break. ALl i did was work, see a friend I haven't seen in 3 weeks, (when I called her to hang out, she decided to bring along 5 other people I didn't know, so inconsiderate) get pissed off at my bitchy roomate whom I thought was a close friend but turned out to be a selfish bitch, got insulted everytime I came to my own home, and hung out with my boyfriend. What a spring break, huh?
If anyone is looking for a roomate for the summer, I need to find somewhere to live in La Crescenta, Glendale area in an apartment...but need someone else. Let me know.
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[17 Mar 2005|07:29pm] |
Me and Kaylie and Ray just watched "the Notebook." Me and Kay were bawling our eyes out. That movie...wow....I don't cry in movies...but this one...really got to me on many levels. Now I'm sad and I don't want to go out and celebrate St. Patty's Day. But I will just to have fun.
I really love my sister and kay kay. Ray is my sister, and kay is like my other sister. They are both godsends in my life.
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[15 Mar 2005|10:23am] |
The best smell in the world,by far, is the smell of my boyfriend. I have never smelled anything or anyone so amazingly incredible. His smell makes me feel safe, it could make me go to sleep, it makes me smile, it gives me butterflies.....
I think I'm really fuckin in love!
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[14 Mar 2005|06:51pm] |
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Do a million good things and no one will remember. Do one bad thing and no one can forget.
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[08 Mar 2005|11:45pm] |
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Its official people. I will graduate in Dec. '06. I will have finished school in three 1/2 years. Yeah for me. So basicall)
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[03 Mar 2005|01:46pm] |
Abortion....I'm making my mind up on where I stand. And many of you will have a heart attack...but hear me out. Here are some reasons why I think it sounds logical to make abortion legal:
1. If the government offers birth control, they are saying that we have a right to decide when we want to be pregnant and when we don't want to be. Thats what birth control is. A womans right to decide when she can and wants to get pregnant, she gets off birth control. So if you are on birth control and get pregnant, you did not want that baby. So why can it not be your right to decide to keep it? And the fact that christians think its ok to have birth control but no abortions kind of boggles my mind. Because both of them stop a baby from being born. I know abortion is taking away the pregnancy, but both are the right to decide. Abortion is another form of birth-control. Birth control = Pro-choice.
2. It really pisses me off when people use God in the arguments of abortion...but I will rebute their arguments using God. People say...God put that baby there for a reason. Ok....so using God: God put that cancer in your body for a reason. He obviously wanted you to have cancer so why are you going to try to get rid of it with kemo therepy? Hmm? God wants you to have cancer. You can't get rid of it.
Whats the difference? Oh well, come people say...it wasn't your choice to have the cancer. If you didn't have sex, you wouldn't be pregnant. OK....So...a man who smokes for 40 years and ends up with ephesema is not allowed to treat it because he chose to smoke for 40 years and that is just his consequence? Hmmm. A difference? I don't see one.
3. And when Christians are like...its ok to use birth control..because if God wants you to get pregnant, he will. YEAH! So...if you're getting an abortion, and he doesn't want the baby to die, don't you think he would stop the baby from dying? NO. he doesn't. Because God doesn't play a role in life anymore. People get pregnant because theres a 90% chance of birth control (the pill) no working. You can't live your life thinking that way....well, I'll do it because if God wants this to happen or not to happen, He will. That's so stupid. Why does God, if there is one, only step in for the things Christians want him to step in for? Because it helps their argument. Hmmmm. Its stupid to think that way. And Christians must not have enough faith in God to not use birth control, because they don't trust God to not make them pregnant if its not in his will. Right? Hmmm. Birth control is a womans right to choose. So Christians supporting birth control should support abortion. But no...since every Christian is supposed to think that aboriton is wrong and birth control is ok...thats the way it is.
4. My teacher argued that the fetus is life and you shouldn't take that away. Because...the sperm is alive and the egg is alive so from the moment the sperm and the egg come together....its life. Ok....so sperm ejaculating from a mans penis from masturbation is abortion. Because its life that is going out into a sock or whatever and then dying. Or skin cells on your body are alive...but then they fall off and are dead. Abortion. Everything in and on you body is alive...so that is such a poor example.
Ok....maybe some of my arguments are far fecthed...but I think Christians and their arguments dealing with God are far fecthed. Can anyone argue it without using God?
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[28 Feb 2005|11:40am] |
I tried to find myself in many ugly places
I only lost myself from you
You cleaned from the dirt
You saw my beauty
I never thought love would find me
And I am in love
And it feels like heaven
I knew I could love feeling safe in your arms
IN searching for myself I found it in you
And you promised me no lies
And I saw the light shinning in your eyes
I don't need to search anymore
I have found the one I've been looking for
Now I feel complete
I am not alone
I am in love
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| And the Academy Award goes to.... |
[28 Feb 2005|10:57am] |
Yesterday I watched the oscars with John and I was quite excited about the results. Best Supporting Actor - MORGAN FREEMAN. I was very adamant about him winning. We all knew he would win. Best Supporting Actress - KATE BLANCHETT! I was also very adamant about her winning. Her performance in the Aviator was the best thing about that movie. She rocked the role of Katherine Hephburn. She deserved that to the max. And Best Actress - HILLARY SWANK. I jumped up and down for this one. John said that Virgina Madsen had a really good chance of beating her. But i knew she couldn't beat Hillary Swank. Her performance in Million Dollar Baby was unbelievable. She totally deserved it. Good job Hillary. And Best Actor - Jaime Foxx. We all figuered it. I didn't care that he got it. I didn't even see Ray. Best Original Screen play - Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind! YEAH! Me and John were extremely excited about this one. I'm glad that Aviator didn't get it. Sunshine was amazing and creative and needed an oscar. Best Director - Clint Eastwood! YES. Best Movie of the Year - MILLION DOLLAR BABY! Of course. I would've cried if Aviator got it. Million Dollar was the best movie I saw all year...and I saw a lot of movies. I was so happy and so excited for Clint Eastwood. What an amazing sexy man. Yeah for the Oscars.
During Best Original Score...I though Passion should've won...it was amazing music. But whatever. But during the award....I told John...one day, you'll see me getting an oscar for that. And I decided I'm going to stay a musci major because I need to be successful in composition and I need to do movie scores and I WILL win an oscar one day. I will get up on stage with a beautiful dress and John will be my date (a free ticket to the Oscars for you John!!) and I will cry and thank my mom, Ann Euson my first violin teacher, my sisters, and John. And then movie makers will be calling me from all over the world so that I can score their movies and I will win oscars for the rest of my life and be rich and famous. And everyone will listen to my music and find it inspiring and moving and emotional. And little musicians all over the world will be saying...when I grow up, I want to be Sara Short.
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[20 Feb 2005|10:24am] |
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I got my wisdom teeth taken out. I'm Puff Daddy fo sho! I'm not in that much pain. Its just sore. But John and my mommy have been taking care of me. I love them. I stayed at my mom's house and we watched movies and tv and slept and were lazy. John came over and visited. THe next day he took me to my house and played games with me all afternoon. ANd then he took me bowling with his friends and I had a blast because I finally got to meet gay friend Alan. Yeah. He was super sweet. I wanted to make dinner for the guys, but JOhn wouldn't let me. He said I shouldn't be cooking for anyone when I won't be able to eat the food myself. And He said I need to rest. Oh my little dentist boyfriend looking out for me. Heheh. But I had so much fun with him and his friends. They're all so great and JOhn is such a good friend to all of them. He really cares about them. And it shows and he's loyal to them. That is such a good quality in a man. It just shows that caliber of his character. The taping on Thursday was ok. The make-up was ugly. It took so long and it felt like a waste of time. Going to hollywood and back took forever with the rain. Rachel and I sat in traffic for almost 2 hours. I fucking hated it. So we better get paid for doing the taping. Because...it really was work and annoying at that. I never want to do tv or movies. Ugh. So obnoxious. DOing everything over and over again. ANd pluys....we didn't even look good. IT was kind of a waste. OK I'm going to church today....I know that really weird. I'm only doing it to see my mommy and plus I'm in too much pain to sleep...so why not do something productive? Bye.
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[15 Feb 2005|10:14am] |
Valentines Day was great....definatly better than last years. First...me and Rachel went to Hollywood to meet with the Producers for a tv show of the Discovery Channel! They want me and rachel on this show for a episode about make-up and stuff. They thought we were sooo cute and funny. I'm gonna be on tv with my hotty twinny sista Rayray. I'm so excited! So that was deliciously fun. Then John, my extremely hot boyfriend, came over and I made him dinner. He thinks i'm a good cooK! yeah. It was great. I gave him a book that he wanted. He liked it. He gave me an extremely nice card and he wrote the nicest words in it. I like almost cried. Then he took me to see Hitch (it was....eh...funny...cute...good...but not as funny as I thought it would be.) and then we went to TGI Fridays in West Co and I tried to get a Cosmo..but they asked for my id and I was like "Um, no I didn't bring it cause I never get carded!" and they were like...well sorry. I was like...thats ok. I understand. Hehehe. And We had so much fun talking and laughing. THat boy is so smart and hes so funny and I have never been this happy before in my LIFE! My mom said that whenever I talk about him my face lights up. I love him. Seriously folks...I'm in love. Ah. And then we went back to my apartment and laid down in my bed. I love cuddling with him. ARgh. He smells so good and feels so good. And I jsut want to squeeze him and kiss him all the time. Yeah. I woke up this mornign and spent 2 hours working on my logic projet=ct...its a piece of shit. I suck at Theory....why am I a theory major? I can't be performance...I don't want to be commericial....I definatly don't want church music..gag...I guess I could change to Music ed. But how boring. We'll see.
I can't wait til next year to live with Elizabeth. Hopefully we'll get along better than my roomates now.
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| my beautiful sister |
[14 Feb 2005|11:16am] |
hello everybody, this is RAYRAY, sara's twin sista! i just felt like updating for sara since she never does. i think that everybody in the entire world needs to know what an amazing person this girl is!! everytime i see her she always is smiling and in such a good mood!! i love her!!!!!!!!!!!
she is also so beautiful, i mean, i am jealous of her.
and i know what you are thinking, "how can you be jealous of her when you look exactly like her?!" well, my answer is...well....WE DON'T LOOK EXACTLY ALIKE!!! so there.
alright people, when you talk to sara or if you see her, tell her how amazing she is. ok
love ya'll
rayray
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[31 Jan 2005|01:42pm] |
Ok. This bible class I'm in...Romans and Galatians....isn't it supposed to justify and make my faith in the bible stronger? Well...all its doing is turning me away and making me justify why I believe that living ones life by the bible is bull shit.
How can people sit in this class, and see all these contradictions, and hear the teacher say, "well, we don't really know who wrote this book, and these are just opnions, and we don't really know if Paul knows what hes talking about, and no one at the time believed what he was saying, this book is just advice...blah blah blah.." and fully believe that living our lives completley by this book is ok? How can they believe that its sacred when we can obviously see that there is quite a chance that its all bull, or some of it, or most of it. Whatever. I just don't understand how everyone can blindly believe its all "god-breathed." How do we know its godbreathed? who said it was? the writers? how do we know they weren't dillusional and making up words and making up this "god" who told them what to write. yeah yeah. god breathed? there is nothing that tells me that I shouldn't rule this out as bull. How can christians sit there and say Mormons are crazy! Budhists are crazy? Whos to say that Christians arent crazy! Why are they dillusional, and not Christians? It doesn't make sense. I don't want to be a part of religion..because everyone could have it wrong, everyone could have it right. I'm not going to waste my time. Someone once said to me...I'd rather live my life beliving in god and then finding out I'm right, than living my life not beliving in him and then finding out I'm wrong. Well...I think thats a pretty shitty reason to belive in god, all for the fear of hell?? I cant do that. I won't follow a religion for fear of dying and going to hell, just like I won't date just anyone for the sake of not being alone. I don't want to waste my time.
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| A birthday present for me.... |
[26 Jan 2005|11:15am] |
"Dear Sara,
I remember the day you were born ... I guess I don't remember the pain of
child birth, because I was so excited that you were going to be in my life.
There are so many times that you have made me so proud, even beginning with
your first minute of life. You came out full birth weight, and without any
assistance from the doctor with the exception of him catching you! YAY! I
couldn't wait to begin my life with you, going home as soon as they would
let me out, ready to take on the world with my daughters. I took you
everywhere ... not to draw attention, but to show you the world. You enjoyed
everything. You were so wide-eyed, positive, and found delight in all the
every day activities of life. Even though you were a little shy, you were
always friendly to your peers. At a young age, you learned to express
yourself quite effectively through words ... so very heart felt. In spite of
fears you may have had, you were always willing to get past them from roller
coaster rides to singing solos, and mature enough to know that fear can be
temporary if you try to overcome it (you'll have to work on the throwing up
thing, though! hehe) You are loyal and forgiving to your sisters, even when
you feel you hate them. As you grow into an adult young woman, I see the
effort you take to appreciate people for their beauty inside and learn from
them as you passionately love them. Your open spirit is a gift to not only
others, but to yourself as well. I'm glad that John appreciates that in you.
I call you a romantic ... you want life to be a celebration of the little
things as well as the big things for others as well as yourself. You're
emotional, whether it be in a positive way or a negative way ... but it's
you, and you are so very endearing. I DO love you for who you are ... you're
a kindred spirit in my life, and I learn from you as I try to teach you ...
you're a good person ... and I look forward to the next 20 years as you
realize your dreams. Happy birthday to my girl ... I love you.
Mom"
One of the best birthday presents I've ever recieved...
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[18 Jan 2005|11:59pm] |
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I'm happy now. A big weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can't express how much it means to me. I'm sorry to the people that I hurt with my harsh words. I'm sorry Tyler that I took my anger out on you. It wasn't fair. You didn't deserve that. I just want to be cared for. I want people to know that I'm not screwing up my life. I'm a good kid. Ive got a good head on my shoulders...I'm not a crazy party girl. I'm nowhere near that. So it hurts when I feel associated with that. I feel great about my life right now. I've got a plan to save money, get straight a's, I've got a boyfriend that I can't see an end with, I hardly ever drink...when I do I don't get fucked up because I'm tired of that. I quit smoking. I hang out with quality people. My heart is in a good place because I'm understanding my own spirituality. I'm awesome. I want people to see that.
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[17 Jan 2005|10:40pm] |
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I just wanted to let everyone know that I've found him...the perfect guy. The most amazing man I've ever met. This is the man I dreamed of as a little girl. Everything about him I am absolutley amazingly in love and I never question it. This is the best boyfriend and the best love I've ever had. I just want everyone to know how happy I am to finally be truely in love.
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