so im on 4 hours of sleep... i received a call last night saying mom was having seizures...keith said she was screaming... didnt really wanna know that part..

she is in ICU... shes one a resperator... well the tube is still there, but she can breath on her own now. they found blood on her brain. they think the cancer has spread there.

scariest shit in the world.

i will write more later. but im going to be with my family. its funny... when things are the way they are.. i feel, im strong enough, i dont need God. i dont need to go to church... biggest bunch of bullshit i could have taught myself... maybe someday ill be strong enough to face the guilt... and grow... but untill then..

call if u want, text or whatever.. cant promise ill answer, but id appreciate the gesture.

God bless..
~Sarah