Basically in 2 and a half years:

Got posted to Townsville
Sent to East Timor for 7 months
Got a brand new Subaru Liberty :)

That's pretty much it... I mean I had a couple of girlfriends, travelled Australia a little...
Essentially that's about it.

Got a week leave at the moment, using it to cut back on drinking and the like...

Can't wait to move back to one of the big cities, whenever that happens... (probably within the next 2 years)

And I'm saving up for a trip to the UK at the end of next year.

Music: Rise Against - Life Less Frightening

In an entry a while back I said I was changing... Well that might have happened but it didn't... Lauren happened.

Lauren is quite litteraly the best thing that has ever happened to me... I was just hitting a very down, flat period. Then she happened... Didn't take more than a few days to raise me above heaven (sorry God, you'll have to sit this one out - rofl)

Lauren is devilishly fun, yet childishly cute. Passionately cares about me and always tells me...

I love Lauren so much. So much I can't express it.

She feels the same!

I'm above heaven and rising higher.

Well you all know me... I was worried about meeting up. Cause although I know my feelings won't change - I couldn't be sure hers wouldn't. She quickly convinced me otherwise.

I CAN'T WAIT!

I love you Lauren.

Someone I was talking to said that I could use that too much... I think that could only be true if the feeling behind it weakens... But mine gets stronger, so that won't happen!

Love you Lauren...


So in conclusion, I haven't changed. I don't know how I would have changed. But whatever it was it isn't happening now...


Chris

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You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

Chris

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Music: System Of A Down - B.Y.O.B.

Yesterday was awesome!

Went to the RTA and got my licence back!

Then cartman and Curly came around... We played some Soul Calibour 3. Then at around 6:30pm we left and went driving up the mountains...
Was great to be driving again... We went out to the three sisters... We had my mum n dad's dig cam... Cause I wanted to take pictures for Lauren...

We did that with some measure of success... Also visited Mt Blackheath - right at sunset, it was really beautiful... We also made two video's while there... The second one was quite odd...

Overall we had a great time... Rob also proved again that he is the man to take photos... He seems to have a really good eye for scenes... and how they'll turn out in a camera. Maybe you should be a photographer Rob?

Overall I had a great time... But I confess I missed chatting to Lauren...

Anyways... Good to be back in the drivers seat...

Laters...


Chris

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Music: Scooter - Friends

Not a lot has happened over the last few days...

Notables include:

Getting an sms from Lauren...
Playing Soul Calibour 3 with Curly...
Not getting to reserve tonight...
Oh and blocking Katya (that Russian chick I told a couple of you about)...

Apart from that life has been kind enough to leave me to my own devices...

Anyways...

Chris

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Well that was sure fun. I had one beer and many cigars. That meant I was sober to make sure things went well but a little out of it to have a good time.

Highlight of the night... My brother. For those of you that don't know him, he's 16. He had a 6 of Johnnie Walker Red, 2 Beers and maybe some other stuff. He was sick all over the downstairs bathroom (thankfully it has a nice drain so I just washed it away). He was a very drunk drunk.

Highlight # 2. A crowd of about 10 people looking up Nina Hagon-Rowe Winebottle porn on my computer. Rather funny. They didn't find it so it seems a group of about five of the guys will pan the internet looking for it from time to time.

Apart from that we had people pissing off the back varandah, slipping and falling on the stairs, throwing bottles to who knows where. (I'm fairly sure I ran into some bottles out on the council strip).

Anyways too much to tell... Hopefully someone else was taking photos apart from me... Cause I didn't get any for the majority of the party. :|

Actually I'm fairly sure no one else took some photos. Fuck.

Anyways,

Chris

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Music: Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine

It's one of those things really... Once in a while I change drastically... Most of the time I change gradually... You could barely notice it...

Something is starting to change faster though... No deciding moment... Just something odd.

I'll post again when I figure it out.

Apart from that I'm really looking forward to my party... Should be bloody good...


Chris

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Music: Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine

WARNING: The following may contain too much... Make sure any persons interested in parties read the bottom...

Been wanting to have this whole affair finished for a while... So I could write about it.

It all started sometime around November. My ex of many years ago (barely enough to call an ex) gave my email to a nice chick called Clare - who was interested in joining the army. Now obviously you all know I'm the person to talk to about the army (I mean I spent 12 weeks at Kapooka rather than the usual 6)

Things progressed on the net and we became fairly good friends. At some point on the afternoon of the 1st Jan I contracted a diseased emotion - one we all know fucks us up. I became attatched. Those of you that know me know that this is usually a multi-monthly affair. Thanks to the frequence of talking to Clare on MSN things seemed to be running roughly Five times as quick as normal, except I hadn't met her yet. So on a Thursday I trained all the way to Newcastle (Clare wanted to get a top from some store in Newcastle) took a nice 5 hours from Springwood.

Clare was very quiet at first... But after me blabbing for the morning and at lunch she eased up a bit more and started paying me a little back. Things were going well.

The day finished with a 'probably no' (when we got back to our respective homes and on MSN).

There was no way I could move on with a 'probably' (also I wanted to hope she would say yes). So I told her to hold her to give me an answer when it was no longer a 'probably, possibly or maybe'.

Along came Curly's BBQ... I made the mistake of having two straight shots of Bicardi 151 and no chase. Needless to say I was very drunk. Apparantly according to Curly I was also very agressive... (Sorry people - normally I'm one to remember anything that happened while I was conscious). Not this time...

Well things came to a nasty holt on the Sunday night. I got 'I'm not attracted to you' and 'I'm not romantically attatched to you'.

I was torn apart. I went somewhat insane. After 3 hours of talking to Robert, watching anime (live action actually) and complaining I became somewhat sane.

The first couple of days following I couldn't feel anything. I told Clare I didn't like her - and with a fair degree of hostility I continued to have MSN convos with her...

Somewhere around the 2 day mark - tuesday night I think... I started to like her again, actually it was more like old feelings resurfacing... Unbottling themselves.

By Thursday (Today) I was feeling better... Very sane (well as much as I can be) and very much in control.

From previous talks with Luke I had promised myself that I would ask her out... Probably in three weeks... To allow my party to blow over and to get my licence back...

But of course I can't keep something like that to myself... Specially when I know I want to tell her... And I'm not betraying anyone but me.

So with a fair degree of convincing me that 'lies were bad' Clare managed to pry it out of me... (What can I say I'm a sucker for chicks and my friends - being both is a bonus obviously)

She said no...

All over red rover.


Lesson: Don't be me...

Question: Why do most chicks dig arseholes?


Thanks to:

Luke - The only one who really believed in me and pushed me too ask her out towards the end... Thanks mate you are a legend (there I say it again)
Curly - Used every possible angle and ounce of common sense to try and get me to give up... What can I say you were right... It didn't work. But guess what, I'm stubborn - next time give up and dont bother me... LOL - thanks champ, I know you were only looking out for me.
Robert - The quiet, brutally honest person I could always turn to without thinking. He also knows its useless to argue with me... So we didn't tend to have any disputes about it. (learned my lesson didn't I - or did I...) Thanks mate.
Jenna - As always the best friend with the advantage of being a chick and knowing how chicks work... Hopefully I can learn something from her about the opposite sex.
All my other mates and friends... For listening to me, helping me out when I asked... Giving me that bit of convo that I wanted... You know who you are and are by no means not worth thanking (I just cant write something about everyone...)

Take care all...


PARTY MY PLACE 25th JAN - 8PM!
(Thats a Wednesday for the Einstiens out there) (Australia Day is the 26th... work it out)


Anyways...


Chris

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Music: Guns N' Roses - November Rain (DVD video)

Well this year promises to be good...

Coming up:

I get my Licence back February 6th...

Ski Trip 06 in July...

Full time transfer at some point (hopefully this doesn't prevent me going on the ski trip)

Depending on transfer, my purchase of a new Subaru Liberty...


So as you can probably see it is all set to happen... Of course shit happens and I might only get half of this stuff done, but at the very least I will be organising the ski trip and getting my licence back. With my transfer somewhere in there.

Well I have other things on my mind at the moment...

Anyways...


Chris

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Music: Guns N' Roses - Patience (DVD video)

WARNING: The following may be cryptic and contain hidden meanings...

I wish I hadn't had that Bicardi 151.

I lost control...

Now I don't loose control too often... Normally I let myself loose my temper...

Well mistakes have been made,

I've fucked myself in the arse - nothing I can do to change that.

She still doesn't believe me... Or trust me. I'm coming to think she never will...

Problem is I refuse to give up... That's just me...

So far I've been warned by both Robert and Jenna... Too late I'm afraid, and they both know it. I've made up my mind.

Alcohol + Emotions = VERY VERY BAD!

For all the kids at home, if you are feeling strongly about anything - don't drink, it fucks you up.

This is the beginning of the end...


Chris

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Music: Guns N' Roses - November Rain (DVD video)

WARNING: The following may be cryptic and contain hidden meanings...

Haven't posted for a while... Let's just say I'm a bit messed up... I don't know what to do...

I know what I feel and I know what I think... I know what I want to do but there are reasons that hold me back.

I say things over and over but it isn't enough... I make promises that I will keep, but that isn't enough. I can't give up, never will. But by the time that I am trusted and believed will it be too late?

Actions speak louder than words right. Well in all seriousness I always follow my words with actions...

I've always believed that providing the cost isn't too high then the end justifies the means. I'm wrong... There are many times where the end can't be justified by the way it was achieved.

Based on this I accept that my life will probably amount to little... But if that helps someone else it's the right thing to do... Well I will stick to my ethics until I die, I will not fear the consequences or the pains suffered to me because of the path I choose.

I condemn myself... But it is worth it...

I live in pain but it is worth it...

No one can change my mind, not family, friends or even army...

I will be myself to the end...
My every action justifies itself.


Chris

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Music: Aerosmith - One Way Street [Live Version]

Well there's not much to tell, cept that we got trashed and had a great time...

Still feeling a little out of it...

Anyways...


Chris

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Music: Guns 'N' Roses - November Rain

You know I had always thought the army had trained me well... No matter what time I went to sleep I would always sleep 8 or 9 hours. Thus when I decided to go to sleep at 11:30pm last night cause I was tired I expected that I would be getting up at around 8 am. How wrong I was... I WOKE UP AT 0330! :|

After much attempting to go back to sleep I gave up... it was about 0440 by now...

Of course knowing this you immediately ask WHY?

Well there are a few reasons... some of which I will choose not to explain. (The wrong people know the wrong things they might get a. worried or b. offended)
So for now we will go with an overactive mind. When trying to go back to sleep I could not stop thinking... I kept thinking about everything that will happen this year. And the people I will affect because of it...

12 March I run off to complete my CE* mods, this finishes 29 April. Mid May I will hopefully be going away to do a drivers course. Theoretically this will finish sometime late June or early July. Mid to late July is the annual ski trip I organise to Falls Creek. And this year is promising... with the chances of up to 20 individuals coming... I CAN'T WAIT!

Yes I know I'm always like this with skiing...

But anyways... Theoretically at somepoint early this year my transfer will come through and I will finally be an ARA** Sapper***. I've had a great time at my reserve unit... But I really need to get on with my career, if only the army could process paperwork.

Anyway... Time of transfer + 6 months will be around the time I get a loan out for my brands spanking new Subaru Liberty... It'll have ski racks, and the works. (Of course it will be a manual too) >:]

* CE - Combat Engineer
** ARA - Australian Regular Army (Full time Army)
*** Sapper - The rank of a private in the Engineers.

I think I might watch the sun rise this morning... Haven't watched it since picket duty back on AFX... (At the time it was about 2 degrees and at the end of a double picket... So I was a little out of it)

Anyways morning all... And I expect I'll be online when you all join me later...


Chris

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Music: Aerosmith - Don't Want To Miss A Thing

Well that was the awesomest time I've had in a very long time... (excluding ski trip of course) Everyone was off their faces and we were all having an awesome time. Woke up this morning to the sound of shuter snoring... I'm serious it was as loud as a fucking chainsaw! I took a look around... everyone was either asleep on the floor or in odd positions on the lounges...

Ahhhhhh what an awesome night. I remember leopard crawling across lukes lawn at uncanny speeds... Collapsing on lukes floor... Singing some song with shuter in high pitched voices... Drinking... Drinking and more drinking.


What a night...

Well HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!

Chris

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Ahhhhhh... It's sooooo yuk.

The heat isn't that bad... It's just that humid-suffocating sort thats bad. :|

As far as I knew I was going out with Curly and Hodge tonight... Just for the hell of it. Cept 1. I'm really not that hyped about it and 2. I havent heard anything else about it. So looks like it isn't happening.

Doesn't matter, I feel like going for a run anyways... especially if this heat disappears nicely tonight... speaking of which - **checks weather**

Oh shit... sunday is going to be a scorcher... 40+ :(

Oh and I noticed something a little cool... 24th Dec was a Sat. 25th was a Sun. Christmas Eve/Day as you all know. As that is the case it also means 31st Dec is a Sat. 1st Jan is a Sun. Well I think it's sorta cool thats all.

Yes I'm bored.


Chris

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I live for me. I live my life for me.

When I think about it I do everything for me. There are very few people I actually help because I actually want to help them.
I am a selfish person... You may scorn me so... I do not care... At least I am honest to who I am.

I intend to live for me until I meet my 'partner'. I don't really believe in the whole 'soul mate' idea, I just believe we all have people we connect with... And at some point we attatch ourselves to one.

Why am I philosophical? Because it is late at night and my mind is active...

Why do I post this for everyone to read? So that you all know me. If you don't like it, that's your problem.

Why should you care? I don't know... I'm not expecting you to care. I'm expecting you to read, comprehend and act the way you do.

All I hope is that sometime some chick actually connects with me the way I do to others.

Anyways goodnight all...


Chris

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Here's a little something for those Dungeons and Dragons fans... A little something from my past you might say.

I Am A: Chaotic Good Human Fighter Ranger


Alignment:
Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.


Race:
Humans are the 'average' race. They have the shortest life spans, and because of this, they tend to avoid the racial prejudices that other races are known for. They are also very curious and tend to live 'for the moment'.


Primary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.


Secondary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.


Deity:
Tymora is the Chaotic Good goddess of luck and good fortune. She is also known as Lady Luck, and also Tyche's fair-tressed daughter. Followers of Tymora believe in the tenent that, 'Fortune Favors the Bold,' and will throw caution to the wind and trust to luck to work things out for the best. Tymora's symbol is an unmarked silver disk.


Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Music: Black Eyed Peas - Where Is The Love

Well today was kinda cool. Boring but good. I got up this morning to a pair of snazzy boxing gloves, some dual layer dvds and $270. As far as a Christmas goes it isn't to bad! :)

Then proceeded to play Need For Speed Most Wanted... love just pissing off the cops... >:]

Then beat my family at table tennis. :)

Not a bad day really.

Course there is always a catch. And the catch is tomorrow. We've got friends visiting and they have two young girls. Who seem to think I am the best person in the world... ARGH! The dad is also one of those people who lectures you if you say 'crap'. As you all know I hate being lectured, and really the only people I like taking orders from are those with more rank than me. (I really don't consider and civilian as having rank - sorry people)

So if you couple my bad language with his attitude its an accident waiting to happen. Well if things get out of hand I think I might evacuate to Roberts place. Ahhhh the advantages of having a friend living so close. :) (Just want to thank you ahead Rob for always putting up with me when I don't want to be at home)

Anyways I hope all of your Christmas's are different and interesting people. Feel free to post LJ entries about them or leave a comment here about them.

Anyways hope you've all had busy Christmas Day's.

Chris

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Music: Dire Straits - Brothers in Arms


Well the activity of LJ comments and such has gone down steadily for the last month... We all only post on average once a week and only comment when we feel like it. It's like no one cares for anyone but themselves now.

'And why is that?'

'Go figure'

Two things Robert always says to me to make me think, thing is I dont like thinking. I much prefer doing...

Oh and if you want to feel sad, yet calm I suggest you listen to Brothers in Arms by Dire Straits... has to be one of the best songs ever. Has very good lyrics so make sure you listen to them.

Well as this is technically a journal I think I might start adding some mushy, emotional stuff at some point. (As most of you know I'm a fairly strongly willed and emotional person). Who knows someone might comment.

Oh and Robert I am still writing for myself... I'm bored and need comments to keep me amused... So I'm writing to try and get people to talk to me. I love my 'reactions'! :)

Anyways

Chris

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