oh my god i'm awake and blinking all of the time

Sat, 31 May 2008 05:29:48 GMT

this year of travel in south asia and central america has come to an end.

temporarily.

i don't think i can ever go back to my life before

back from 5 months in nepal..

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 20:05:35 GMT

ma lugbug ek mahiinaa aghi nepal baata pharke. america maa ekdam unaautho laagyo. ra mero pariwaar ekdam crazy chha. malaai araam garna manlaagyo tara ma araam garna sakdina. ma dui hapta pacchi ma costa rica janchhu. malaai khushi laagyo kinabhane malaai bhagyamani laagyo - tara malaai martinko yaad aauchha. mero sabaai arco saathiharu arco desh haru janchhan - ra uhaaharu ko laagi malaai khusi laagyo. mero bichaarmaa sabaai manche haru yaatra garnu parchha. malaai nepalmaa yaad aauchha. aajaa, maile nepalko baarema patrika maa lekhe - ra malaai pir laagyo (nepal ko laagi). hijo arco bomb dakshimtira nepalmaa thiyo. ekdam na raamro chha. saat manche haru mornubhayo (mero bichaarmaa).

malaai nepali birsna manlaagdaina.

ma arco manche sanga nepalimaa gaaph garna manlaagyo. kasto dukha.

p.s. the color white is the color of death and mourning in hindu country (and many other places in south asia).

i miss monsoon season.

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 09:18:10 GMT

i'm so sick of these fucking home appliance commercials that, despite decades of progress, STILL depict women as domestic house cats cleaning their fucking kitchens and living rooms while their toddlers and pets run a muck.

ridiculous.

also, in my last entry i bitched about how stupid i thought livejournal is. i still think it's stupid, but i've decided not to cut myself off from a long time habit of getting extremely emotional and or high and ranting so selfishly about my life in long winded sentences. because this. is. the only place. that i can type improper and run-on sentences with bad speling and nut b graded donw.

and in other news: as of yesterday, i leave to nepal in exactly a month.

so, dearest livejournal, and my dearest livejournal community, all 5 of you that still read my journal, i apologize for neglecting you and for a failure to appreciate all of your thoughtful comments.

sincerely sincerest sincere,
roxy marie cruz

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 08:28:16 GMT

how can anyone have a real journal that's public? this thing is incorrectly named... this is not a journal, by any means. this is a message board. or a public forum in which to discuss ones feelings.

i've been posting in this thing since i was 14 years old and i don't know why i ever thought this place was a journal. i feel more alone than i've ever felt in my life, and not even this place seems like a good place to reach out.

goodbye.

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 17:57:44 GMT

i want to die right now

Friends only.

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 01:50:33 GMT

Comment and I'll add.