A letter...

This is just something that i want you to know...maybe I should do this is private, but i don't want to for some reason. It's like, with what I'm going to say, I'm not looking for a reaction, but I'm trying to give myself some faith, and trying to give you...i don't know what I'm trying to give you actually...all i know is that maybe this will mean something to you, maybe it won't, I'm not sure, but either way...these are just a few things that I've figured out...

the 1st thing that I have figured out, is that me and you, we are great when we're together, like physically together, we are an awesome team then...and I know that we are not able to be together all of the time, as in the same room...but when we are, I love it so much....an I don't think i want to give that up at all...because one day, we WILL be together all the time...or hope we will be...and soon enough...and i think need to stop looking for the word love in everything, and being told that I'm special...what i need to look for is the small things...like how when we were in friendlys, you remembered that I have to cut my sandwhich into fours...and how when I would lay my head on your chest(during be nice to melissa time, lol) you WOULD rub my back, and i DID feel loved...and then there is what I told you...you were the one to initiate the 1st kiss...and just how I feel like I can be who i am around you and we can talk about ANYTHING (even farting and pooping...lol) and I love that about you...and I just want you to know, that I am partially sorry for what has been going on lately...I have been wanting to try to change to, to be what I want, while, you are just you...and that is the person that I fell in love with. I need to try harder too...I need to try to become use to how you are as a person...because I really do love you...and i think if i did not love you, I would just be able to be like "it's over" and not feel sad about it...so please...just know that I think, if we really want this to be a good relationship, it lies on neither one of us seperately, but it lies on both of us as a couple, we both need to try harder for the other, because we both love each other so much...and i don't want to lose you, just because we didnt try...so please...I want to try....and I love you...