one of the best best things in the world, has to be sitting outside on your lap, with a nice cool breeze, and your kitty sitting on the foot rest, just chillin with you...that has to be one of the best things there is lately, and let me tell you, as of lately, there is not much that is really good...I just want to get out of my house...I can;t stand the stress of how every one is feeling lately, and whether or not to put my grandma into a nursing home, and all of this other crap, its been going on, for what feels like months now, but its only been about 2-3weeks...


I kinda hate coming home to an empty house every day, since my dad is always at the hospital now, he's never home, its spring time, and its almost my birthday, I should be feeling hapy this month, and I should be feeling good about the up coming summer, and everything like that...But i DON'T, because there is so much shit going on around me...its like, every day i wake up, and I feel good about the day, and I have fun where I am, and I just come home to more bad news, and to more people being stressed out, my life, as of right now sucks...all thaty I am hoping for is that I really do have a good birthday next friday, and that nothing gets messed up way too badly...because I have had some pretty sucky birthdays before...and I don't want my twentith birthday to tottally suck ass, that would like, so not be cool...cuz I'll be TWENTY...and I've been looking foward to it ever since I turned 19, lol.

I just want all of this madness to stop, I just want school to be over with too, because I have like, no desire to go to school right now, because everything just sucks, mind you i still get my work done, and I still try to do it all as well as i can...I have to write a paper tonight, but I'm not so worried about that...because I know that Chris has written a...I think 5 page paper, the night before too...so I don't feel like I should have been doing stuff, and then never actually did it...lol. so yeah, whatever, i dont really have much more to say...adios