just shoot me.

ahhh today i had such a bad head ache...thank god it is finally starting to go away now...i had it all day...sometimes it was worse the others...it was un bearable either way tho...I'm so happy that it's finally going away tho...lol. I had one just like this on monday i think it was...it felt like i had a really bad hang over, and i didnt even have the pleasure of drinking, so that really sucks alot...

okay, yesterday and today I've been feeling really pissed off...and for a very strange reason...lol. I want to say what it is, but I also don't want chris to get mad at me for saying what it is, so i think i might just leave it at that...because it surely isn't worth having my baby upset over, when it's such a stupid thing anyway.

well, my best friend laura, finally got her license! i feel happy for her. it's good for her...maybe she'll start to grow up a little bit, maybe she'll mature more...which would be really good for her, because she needs it...not that I don't love her the way that she is, because i really do...

OH, i'm proud of myself this week...I actually went to the gym THREE TIMES, and I counted calories really good and everything...and i have to do this for three weeks to get into a habit of doing, so it's going to be hard, but i really think that I can do it...it's for something that I really want...and it's also for myself...I've noticed that when i try to do this for someone, not myself, it never really works the way I want it to, i'm never able to do it, but when I'm doing it for myself it works, and I actually do it...so i need to to do it for me, and only me...and i have a goal and a reward for myself in mind for doing it, so it's tottally worth it...actually i just thought of a great idea...i'm gonna hang up a picture of my reward next to my calorie counting thing so that when i go to write something down on it, i'll be able to see what i'm going for...anyway thats all for now...adios!

P.S 14 days left til i'm twenty...WHAT ARE YOU ALL BUYING ME?????????

...chris...all i have to say...is that it better be good.