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I am the log lady. [24 May 2008|10:50pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | Yelle ] Cordell and I went to the Cascade Raptor Center today http://www.eraptors.org/ where they rescue, rehabilitate and release birds. So I, being obsessed with owls, have been wanting to go for quite some time. I had the hopes of being able to hold or touch one, but that didn't happen. I did, however, see a wild one just hanging out and mocking them. They have owls, hawks, eagles, vultures and white-tailed kites (which are really very loud). Caution: This is image heavy, and they are rather big because I didn't feel like going through them and making them smaller. ( The owls are not what they seem ) Clutter. // Crash clack.

Yeah.. [15 Apr 2008|10:18pm] My boyfriend is pretty much the greatest. He bought me an accordion for my birthday! Clutter. // Crash clack.

[27 Nov 2007|10:39pm] Am I the only one who thinks the middle of "I Miss You" by Bjork sounds like the opening of The Cosby Show? Crash clack.

[31 Dec 2005|12:31pm] Thank god it's the end of the year, not that anything will have changed by tomorrow. I never understood why people wait til the new year to make resolutions. I guess it's an easy start place, but I've not met a single person who actually follows through with them. Crash clack.

[28 Jul 2005|09:58pm] ( FRIENDS ONLY ) Clutter. // Crash clack.

[23 Jul 2005|11:20pm] Location: Coffee Time on NW 23rd Time: 11:21:05 Drinking: 3/4 coffee, 1/4 half and half Eating: Raw sugar since Derek won't buy me a pastry, ha. With: Derek, Shaun, Brittany, Jessica Mood: Cranky as I have been for the past week, but concealing it, and tired. Plans: None that I know of. I'm sick from coffee. Current frustrations: Eugene and figuring out how do get a place down there, and feeling as if I have a lack of time. A certain person who is incapable of taking hints. Actually, not even hints because I've been very straight-forward. Crash clack.

and sometimes when you're on, you are really fucking on. [13 Jul 2005|04:44pm] somtimes I'm really excited to move away. I'll have free room and board. I'll have four days off so I can always come home and visit, and get about $700 a month or whatever they don't spend on daycare. I'll get to go to school nights and my days off. I'll get the chance to start over and make all new friends...but I know that's not easy for me. I mean, it is because I'm friendly and sweet, but it's hard because I'm so shy. then, most of the time, I know I would just miss home -- my friends and my family. although it's full of drama, it's fun. it's life. I feel like I'm living. I just want something more... Clutter. // Crash clack.

[11 Jul 2005|12:50am] Genius to fall asleep to your tape last night [so warm]. Sounds go through the muscles. These abstract worthless movements. Last night sucked [REGRET]. My headphones, they saved my life. Your tape, it lulled me to sleep, to sleep, to sleep. Nothing will be the same. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[08 Jul 2005|12:43pm] So, apparently I'm moving in about two months to San Diego?? More details to come because I'm too tired. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[06 Jul 2005|10:16am] Fuck company will remain anonymous. I went in for the interview, and they said I got the job, then they told me I had to take a drug test. "COOL, I don't do drugs. I'll pass that!" I thought. The place they sent me to was kind of trashy. I wait and wait and wait...and wait. Finally, I take it and anyway, to make a long story short, apparently my urine wasn't warm enough? I don't even know what that even means, and they didn't seem to know what it meant either because they didn't answer me, and they called company will remain anonymous and told them my test wasn't exemplary. So, I called later to ask about orientation and they said I couldn't have the job anymore. I don't do drugs, and that's what a drug test is for. Idiots. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[05 Jul 2005|10:37am] [ music | Frou Frou | Breate In ] The fourth of July was pretty mediocre. A bunch of my friends and I went to Seaside beach at around noon and found our spot amongst the hundreds of people that were already on the beach. Everyone was building these little trenches to perhaps shade themselves or keep themselves warm once the sun went down. So, we decided to do the same eventually, except ours just looked like a huge grave that we ended up to laying in to watch the fireworks explode over our heads. We were in the sun for eleven+ hours and we went swimming so as you can imagine, I have a lovely sunburn on my shoulders, arms and back. And basically, it was eleven hours of sitting in the sun talking with all of my friends and one hour of fireworks and complete madness. The ex came with all of his friends, and I spent a lot of my time over there as I have not seen in them in a long time. It was nice. There was some tension between his group of friends and my group of friends, but what can you do? I want to do this again next year. Unfortunately, I had to cancel my chiropractor appointment for today because my sunburns hurt so bad, so hopefully they won't charge me a fee for cancelling? And they better check their answering machine, because I know my work never did? Ugh, speaking of work, I have to go back tomorrow but not until two. It's even too early for me to be up right now but I have to go home and dress all nicely and go in for an interview. And then after that, I will sleep more and hang out with my friends more? Clutter. // Crash clack.

[01 Jul 2005|10:54am] [ music | Rilo Kiley | A Better Son/Daughter ] I went and saw my chiropractor today. He adjusted my back and wanted to adjust my neck, but I wouldn't let him because I was scared. He told me that cracking my back isn't bad for me. So HA to all of you who wouldn't crack my back because you thought it would be bad for me. He told me I have to stand up straight and stop slouching though. Today, I have orientation or something of that sort, and then I'm hanging out with Bob, Dylan and Delaina? I will definitely have to throw a nap in there somewhere because I didn't get enough sleep last night. I don't know why I'm updating because I obviously don't have anything exciting to say. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[26 Jun 2005|07:48pm] ( Tighty Brownies Club! ) Clutter. // Crash clack.

[26 Jun 2005|07:36pm] There's nothing like taking a nap in the middle of a sunny day. What's better is sleeping next to five other people all in their underwear in the middle of a sunny day. I love my new friends <3. Crash clack.

[25 Jun 2005|07:17pm] Last night was fucking fun! I will have to post pictures when people start sending them to me. I pretty much got drunk too quickly and missed the height of the party, but I did have fun. Basically, I slept sideways in a bed with four guys and maybe one girl. We were pretty much all in our underwear. I missed like fifteen boys in brown army surplus tighty whities though. I called in sick to work this morning. Then, we all went to denny's and then to Dylan and Delaina's house and slept in their huge ass bed. And, basically right now, there was just a huge spider in my bed. I have an intense fear of spiders, especially after one bit my belly button recently. I'm hungover. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[23 Jun 2005|09:50pm] Time really does help. The last two times I've talked to him have been really great -- lots of laughter and connecting. It's sad that we don't talk very much anymore and won't even hang out...that's part of the reason I really want to see him on the 4th. I bought clothes today, and felt bad because I spent $100.00, but I think it's slightly okay because I have a savings account and put half of my check in there every month and I don't even think about touching that money... My dad and I went car searching today. He really wants to buy me a lancer ralliart. I think that would be rad, and that he should do it. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[21 Jun 2005|10:31am] So, I like my job, and I told myself I was going to work there for a minimum for six months, but... -the commute has gotten too much for me considering I have school and a limited amount of money -I'm starting to dislike some of my co-workers and my bosses as well I do like my hours and my pay and the fact that it is downtown though. My friend Chantel told me her work is hiring and I would be making more than I make now, and it's so much closer..so it would be easier when I do start going to school. So I'm going to go fill out an application on thursday and talk to her manager, and if I get the job, I'll put in my two week notice and tell them just that the commute is too much with me and will be worse with school, and I might be moving soon anyway. Comments? Opinions? I would go from barista/cashier to pizza maker/cashier. haha. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[19 Jun 2005|02:25pm] I went to the beach this weekend for a big family reunion. At first, it was stressful because I drove my younger cousins down and they were being annoying and cranky because they didn't like my music and wanted to listen to rap. Then, no one brought me any vegetarian food and they weren't being supportive of my decision to be a vegetarian. So I went to the beach alone, and it was wonderful. It was supposed to be rainy all weekend, but it was so nice. I went into the water, and watched the sunsets every night and saw whales. It was so good to see everyone. I might nanny for my cousins now. Clutter. // Crash clack.

[14 Jun 2005|12:45pm] I can't believe MJ was found not guilty. He is probably poor now for paying people off. Five songs that mean something to me right now 1 Ben Gibbard & Andrew Kenny - Carolina 2 The Decemberists - Grace Cathedral Hill 3 Belle & Sebastian - Dirty Dream Number Two 4 Bjork - Headphones 5 Sigur Ros - Agaetis Bryjun I tag everyone to do the same Clutter. // Crash clack.

[13 Jun 2005|09:50am] [ music | Belle & Sebastian | Simple Things ] I went out to dinner with Ben last night. He gave me a rose that was supposed to be for our date on friday, which we didn't go on because I'm lame. It was still cute though. We went out for mexican food and then went to my old elementary school and played for a while and then sat and talked. I was incredibly tired, so we left...even though I really didn't want to. Clutter. // Crash clack.

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