Q)Are both your feet in heaven or do you still have one in the world?


counterfeit spirituality is that of not being able to lay down the world to Jesus.

you know, i grew up with a huuuuge-mongous generation gap in my entire family. my dad is abt 71 and mom is 67, eldest bro is 43 and 2nd bro is 38. naturally, my aunts and uncles would be my parent's age and my cousins would be my elder bro's age. and that makes my niece and nephews my age, or slightly older than me.

so for me, it was pretty hard to relate to anybody. i'm treated as a kid at every phase of my life by my aunts, uncles and cousins. (i guess the childhood name sticks too.). so  i didn't really like to go for those family gatherings. it was more of an obligation rather than a joy, etc. its like show-your-face there for one gathering and skip the next 2 for me (yay!). and i hoped my younger bro would be there keep me company else i would jus be a statue there.. naturally, there were some politics and stuff too. however, after my grandma's passing last year, i saw how my whole family got much close together. my parents would now go mahjong with them nearly every week. well, it went well for them except for me. *generation gap.*   i still couldn't really see it more than an obligation and a "hey, i'm still around and part of the family" thingy. but lately, God spoke to me that family is priviledge. aunts and uncles are priviledge. many times we dun realise it until we lose them. i used to think that them smiling all the time in those gatherings are fake, but now it  really seems genuine enough (and maybe cos i'm an innocent kid uninvolved in any politics). i realised how little i know abt them. even getting info abt my own parents from my own parents is tough. *generation gap*. but no. that shouldn't be an excuse. i'm responsible for bringing God's love to my generation and to my family. and after that lesson from God, i must have been so dumb to realise this so late: they need Jesus in their lives too.

i know God is goin to do  somethin in my family. and it starts with me.

the present state of affairs Do Not determine how things will turn out.
do things have to end like this?
no.
we can change things.
we can end differently.
we can.

Hope.

http://www.onemanga.com/White_Clouds/0/01/


i think this is rather a short but sweet manga.
learnt quite some stuff abt life from there.
take a look.

the arrow shows in retrospect the loooong list.
you guys know who you are and i really appreciate it. =]
not forgetting those who sent sms-es and stuff.
thanx guys.
Thank God too. =]

Thanx everyone for the wishes and affirmations!
am really touched at the amt of ppl God has used to touch my life and used me to impact theirs in various ways.


a funny but impt lesson i learnt for me
was that its sometimes tempting to compare birthdays with ppl.
especially since i have a twin.
carnal nature sometimes would wanna compare in the hopes of feeling even better.
but wads important is nvr in the way ppl celebrate, or the amt of cards  and gifts
but really the hearts and thoughts of the ppl expressing the place the birthday one has in theirs.

with all the advance wishes comin up. i should do an advance thank you too

anywayz. had a really looooong day today. but am really blessed by God these 2 days.

see, i had to attempt my ai pee pee tee by my birthday
but i had sick for so looong that i didn't get to train at all
so i booked one on the 8th sept. and lo and behold,
i had a fever on monday...
so by tuesday i was still not too goood but still i made that bookin
so i headed down to khatib camp
and guess wad. they started at 5 and i reached at 6. (i assumed they would start at 6 from previous years experience)
so i had to postpone and the only day left would be the 9th, that being today.
BUT
i had already missed the time slot to book which is by 12pm the previous day.
so the only chance i had was with a walk-in registration. and there's a chance
that they will reject you from taking the test.
so at that point, was kinda worried that if i can't do it, i would have to pay a fine.
but God continued to assure me
and praise God! i managed to get thru to the camp by phone(after lots of tries)
and they registered for me on the spot!
then i had another thought:
"O no.. i have a class gathering and singing for meta on that day..."
but on hindsight, i thank God for postponing the test date for me to allow myself to fully recover.

so moving on to wed. (today)
went for sushi buffet at suki sushi at cineleisure for lunch
and man, i was thinkin there and then. how to run after that.....
haha. thank God i wasn't so full
and then God cleared my bowels when i reached camp too
so went on with the test. and man, have my physical standard dropped! (some stuff maintained though =])
was really really tired after the run...
o well, then off i went to meta
and thank God for a cab! haha. abit pricey but i got to rest my legs comfortably.
went to meta pract and stuff
then meta started.
wow. i was really tired. but i really believe God was moving during the whole pnw!
God gave me the strength and endurance. am really grateful for that.
and thank God for the love and care from the ppl around me. =]
(Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww)

so off i went home with shirls and eeyou.
and then. i got hungry and realised i completely skipped dinner.
haha!
so there i was thinkin abt makin noodles or milo at home when my dad told me that
there was leftover fried rice at home with vegs and luncheon meat!
haha
when i went to the kitchen to get the utensils, i really jus smiled there
and felt so loved and cared from God.

God rocks. seriously.
and another thing i was thinkin abt:
our God is a daring God who declares and describes Himself so much.
e.g. He says He is faithful
from that it goes to show that He is faithful because He says He is and because He simply is. He carries it out.
He says He is great and awesome.
woah... seriously. God is our praise.
He makes Himself known so much thru His word
and He is faithful to keep them. cos He says so and He is so.

cover done by my frenz. twin-power ftw!

surrender to the known will of God leads to discovery of what we do not yet know of God

(its a soundtrack from a video game. figured it kinda suited the mood.)

2 days ago. my fren's dad jus passed away. he was jus 55.
i really think it was a heartwrenching moment for him and his family.
it was so sudden. and havin jus 3 days to deal with the lost, man life is tough.

was jus thinkin of it: this year, two of my frenz lost their dads. it was all so sudden.
no one saw that comin. havin been to these 2 funerals, its really heart tuggin for me.

then theres 1 fren who jus recently passed away.

to top it off, my classmate jus told me the docs gave him till he's 30 to live. he's got some medical condition and has to be under observation.

life is fragile man.
i guess thats wad God is telling me..
it goes w/o saying that we really have to treasure one another man.
and i really think its understated.

i didn't know you were gone.
i was pretty much shocked.
but as i looked through the things you left behind,
i was assured that you're now at a better place with God.
though its been ages since i last saw you,
i really did enjoy the time we had together.
i think that started my crappiness and my sanguine side.
well, i'll be seeing you.

Rest in peace bro.

Dedicated to
Edwin Lim.
(1984 - 2009)

school has been rather hectic and draining.
sometimes it makes me feel like jus not doin anythin
and jus be a consumer

but through all these, i've experienced God in countless ways
and jus as God has been giving me strength
i wanna give to those around me too.

jiayou for those involved the upcoming ESS.
jiayou for those havin exams
jiayou for those who sheperd sheep
jiayou for those who evax
jiayou for those walkin steadily with God
jiayou for those goin thru hardships
jiayou for those who lead
jiayou for those who follow
jiayou for those who have to work
jiayou for those who rest
jiayou for those who are sick
jiayou for those who are healthy
jiayou for the church
jiayou for the world

i realised, i can't really express myself well.

the hive cluster


 fenrir mk1


 fenrir mk2


 old chunky



vermilion alpha

vermilion beta

God doesn't call the qualified.
He qualifies the called.

mmm
maybe i should start climbing.

twas a sleeeepy day today

twas a day that i finally finished all my assignments.

twas a day a fren jus went overseas for 6 months.

twas a day that someone tried a suicide prank on me

twas a day that i opened up the obituaries
and was reminded of someone i knew 
from ministry who
left this world
a couple of years ago.

all these. 
on one april day.

Q) What is a project?
- the singular of projects.

Q) what are 2 projects or more called?
- projects.

Q) How do you signal the close of an interview with the technical expert?
- take your pen and paper and play the drum solo for Wipeout. 

Q) Who is responsible for managing the project?
- the person responsible for managing the project.