_redivivus

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 23:16:05 GMT

You are a
Social Liberal
(86% permissive)

and an...
Economic Liberal
(10% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Socialist

Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 05:52:27 GMT

naked Zorro

Sun, 29 May 2005 01:45:58 GMT

Some guy has been confronting women in my town wearing nothing but a Zorro mask. He came up to my 15-year-old sister and two of her friends last night. It's been all over the news and everyone's talking about it; he's done it at least 10 times in the last week. You can read my sister's story on my blog or read the latest <a href="http://www.phillyburbs.com/pb-dyn/news/113-05282005-495342.html>article</a> about it in the local paper. We contacted the reporter who's working on the story and he interviewed Julie. So she'll probably be in the paper, except that he's withholding her name in case Zorro would try to track her down.

can't think of a word again

Fri, 20 May 2005 20:24:20 GMT

I'm thinking of a word that means something like respectable. I think it begins with a P. I was trying to write the sentence, "Working in a video store doesn't sound like the most _____ profession." I don't want to tell my brother that his job is not respectable, just that it's not...really good. Not something to be proud of, though nothing to be ashamed of, either.

Perhaps reputed? Does that work?

new site

Wed, 04 May 2005 02:50:49 GMT

Check it: I have a new web site--lindsayred.com. It's a new blog--I felt the need to get away from the classlessness that is livejournal--but, never fear, I'm not getting rid of this one. I'll keep this for more private topics that I don't want to share with the general public.

If you have any ideas for a title for my blog, please, do tell. I'm starting to think that perhaps in order to come up with an original title, I'll need to first create an original layout.

I am listening to this song on repeat.

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 00:24:17 GMT

Download "I Just Don't Think I'll Ever Get Over You" by Colin Hay, from the Garden State soundtrack. It's just lovely.

I got a job!

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 14:39:37 GMT

I'll be working for a very small internet company called Utilities Safeguard, processing orders, entering new products into the database and fine-tuning the website. I will be making $10 an hour, working 8-5 with an hour break for lunch (who needs an hour to eat lunch?)

There was a huge ordeal yesterday trying to figure out how I would get to this job, as it is 30 minutes away and my dad now doesn't want to buy me a car. Tomorrow and Friday my neighbor is lending me her car, and for the month after that, my dad's border will be abroad, so he's lending us his car. My dad will use his car and I will use my dad's car, which is a stick shift, so I have a few days to learn how to drive an automatic. I am kind of worried about this. I'm afraid I won't be able to do it.

But anyway, at least I am now employed. The job offers no benefits, but I might be able to get away with staying on my mother's insurance plan for a little while longer.

nonsequiturs

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 02:26:40 GMT

I only smoked two cigarettes today!

If someone told me that I could eat nothing but kiwis for the rest of my life, I would be overjoyed.

pictures

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 17:00:30 GMT

looking blurryly angry

trying to see the picture

I smiled!

I know this is annoying, but...

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 13:06:04 GMT

The company that gave out free iPods is now giving out free PSPs. All you have to do is complete one free offer and refer five friends (choose the efax offer and cancel before the trial month ends). Plus, you'll be helping me get one while you're at it! Do it! click here

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 01:24:45 GMT

For some reason, I usually have to stop running before I'd like to because I get extremely thirsty. But when I finally quench that thirst with a big, cold glass of water, it is the most amazing pleasure in the world. The horrible thirst is worth it for that.

I don't like it when the weather is nice, because everyone else goes outside, too. I prefer it when it's so frigid that I'm the only person willing to be outdoors.

I've decided to make my second attempt at quitting smoking. I got bad cramps while running, and for the last three days I've felt like I can't get enough oxygen. It's a really uncomfortable feeling. I really want a cigarette right now, but instead I'll breathe. I also really want to go to sleep, but instead I'll do crunches and lift weights.

Yesterday my mother gave me money and made me go to the mall in an attempt to cheer me up. I bought Kite Runner, because the neighborhood book club is reading it this month. But I haven't had any time to read it; I have so many things backed up on my to-do list--and I don't even have a job. It wouldn't be so bad if I could just stop sleeping so goddamn much, but somehow I am always exhausted. I am frustrated.

I have two interviews tomorrow. They're both about a 30 minute drive away; I decided to just go ahead and apply for things as if I had a car, in the hopes that I will soon have one. I figure even if I have to spend half my wages on cab fare for the first week or two, at least I'll have a job.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 23:07:11 GMT

This morning I looked through the help wanted ads and, because I expected to have a car soon, circled all relevant ads, not just the ones in Doylestown--there were a lot of really good possibilities, and I was feeling really hopeful about it, finally. But then five minutes before we were supposed to go check out that car, the owner called to tell us that he had sold it. This absolutely killed me. I will never find a fucking job. I am in a very, very bad place.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 04:01:59 GMT

My dad is probably loaning me the money to buy a crappy old car. He looked through the ads in the paper and in Auto Trader magazine and apparently this '93 Toyota Tercel with 95G miles was the only decent car listed. I could argue that, since this is going to be my car (once paid), I should have some say in which one I get--at least I should be allowed to help look for cars. But I know that this will just start a huge argument, and we'll end up getting whatever he chooses anyway, no matter how much I argue. And, frankly, I really don't care what car I get. I just want a car, damnit! All that really matters is that it's in decent shape (good enough to last a couple years, that's all I ask) and a good value for the price, and I am totally clueless about those things; I'll let my dad handle that.

My first (and only) car was actually a Tercel. It was an '86, though; it looked a lot shittier than the above pictured car. It was named Screech because of the lovely sounds it made when you turned it on (and, later in life, whenever you pressed on the gas).

We're going to look at this car tomorrow. This means I'll have to spend 2.5 hours in a small, enclosed space with my dad (oh God), but there's a chance I'll come home as a new, no longer stranded, functional member of society.

If I get a car, I can stop limiting my job search to things within walking distance (which is almost nothing). This will make it much, much easier to find a job. I really, really hope I get a car tomorrow.

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 19:46:30 GMT

I've been trying to remember this word for a while, and I just thought that maybe, just maybe, there'd be a community on LiveJournal for helping people remember words. Turns out there is--isn't that crazy? There's a LiveJournal community for everything, I swear. Problem is, it's totally dead. Everyone should join loganamnosis and make it successful. Wouldn't it be nice to have a place to turn when you just can't remember a word?

Anyway, the word I've forgotten means feeling like you can't relate to the rest of the world, like you're alone and completely alien to humanity, like no one would understand you. I think it might start with "dis." It is also possible that there just isn't a word to describe what I'm talking about.

give me movie suggestions

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 01:41:59 GMT

I am updating my lj too much today, but I have the Blockbuster thing that is like Netflix, where you get DVDs through the mail, and I've finished all of The L Word and Curb Your Enthusiasm, so I need more movies for my queue.

According to Blockbuster, I currently have City Of God (I think I know where I probably put it) and I just got a disc of season three of Queer As Folk (my mother groaned and said, "Are all your TV shows about gay people now?"). On the way are Tanner On Tanner (featuring Miranda from Sex In The City), Spartan, The Bourne Supremacy, and Party Monster. Due to my extremely small attention span (on a side note, I've now been diagnosed ADD along with everything else and am taking adderall), I have a lot of trouble sitting through feature-length films and thus usually keep my renting to television shows, but now that I am unemployed, I have plenty of time, so I should get my money's worth out of this pay-per-month thing.

Seen anything good? I'm up for anything, but I particularly like indie flicks. I'm not much of a fan of most of the films that come to your major (read: constantly becoming more and more ridiculously overpriced) movie theaters, but they are usually tailored to short attention spans, plus sometimes they're fun and they can be a nice break from "thinking" films (hence The Bourne Supremacy making the list). So if you know of any that are worth viewing, I'll give it a shot.

I'm really pissed that Blockbuster (at least the online edition) doesn't carry The Trilogy, a series of French films by Lucas Belvaux, which sounds absolutely incredible. I've been wanting to see it for a while; I'll have to check my local Blockbuster and Hollywood Video--sadly the only video rental places around. In Baltimore, I lived right by this amazing little non-corporate video store called Video Americain which had huge quantities of foreign films and was great about stocking those hard-to-find yet really good titles.

I meant this to be a really brief entry, just a few sentences. Man, how I ramble. I noted in an email to a friend the other day that it is quite odd that I can never think of anything to say in person, but in writing I am just endless. Anyway, the point is:

Comment with suggestions of good movies. Telling me why you liked it would be cool, but if you don't feel like it, no worries.

pictures from my trip to Baltimore

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 21:56:17 GMT

left to right: Maha and Danielle (my old roommates) and Josh, looking really happy

Kirsten

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 21:44:57 GMT

The cat looked bored, so I made her a toy. I tied a spool of thread to a piece of elastic string and hung it from a nail above the doorway to the kitchen.

Okay, so maybe I was a little bored as well. I'd just got done faxing and emailing my resume to about 10-15 jobs, every clerical ad listed in the paper that either was in my town or didn't say where it was because I have no car so I need to find something I can walk to.

the most peculiar thing...

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 03:32:37 GMT

Tonight I rented the last two discs of The L Word from Blockbuster, and inside the case was a little slip of paper with an email address written on it. It could be that someone just happened to leave this in there by mistake, but how likely really is that? You missplace things by leaving them laying around somewhere--it seems like one would have to purposely place something in a DVD box.

Is this some closeted lesbian's way of meeting lesbians? After all, one would certainly have to be a dyke to watch a dyke TV show.

Don't video store clerks check the boxes to make sure the discs are in there? I have actually returned empty cases before, so I know it is a necessary job. I wish I could remember if the girl who checked me out opened the case or not. Is this some closeted video store dyke's cry for dyke camaraderie?

The address is a girl's full name. According to google, she could be the Administrative Assistant for the Commission for Florida Law Enforcement Accreditation, a "community member" (?) at Brandeis, a member of some lab at the University of Utah, a participant in the MHSAA Lower Peninsula Division 1 Girls Tennis Finals 2002, a member of the American University College Democrats, and various other non-Blockbusterly possibilities.

I'm going to write her. Here's what I'll say:

"Hi. I found your email address written on a slip of paper that I found in the box of a The L Word DVD from Blockbuster. I thought it was interesting--sort of like a phone number written on a bathroom stall for the new, high-technology age--so I figured I'd just check it out and see what happens."

Then what? Should I ask if she put it there on purpose? Or just write to say pretty much nothing? I suppose I'll ask.

In other news, you all should download "Here Comes Everybody" by Autolux. Or IM me (lindoggg) and I'll send it to you. It's positively marvelous.

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 19:18:08 GMT

You must post the FIRST picture you find on Google when you search for each item.

First car: a Toyota Tercel named Screech

First place I lived: Jenkintown, PA

Where I live now: Doylestown, PA

Your name: Lindsay

Your grandma's name: Margaret

Favourite food: chocolate

Favourite drink: diet sprite

Favourite smell: lilac

Favourite shoes: pumas

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 02:39:21 GMT

Dictionary.com doesn't recognize the word "unphased" or any alternate spelling thereof. But it's in my vocabulary, in fairly frequent rotation. Did I make this word up? Please respond and let me know if you've heard of it; I've spent forever looking for a good community to ask this question in and finally gave up.

edit: It is a word, but it is spelled unfazed, a possibility I neglected to check. I suppose I'm glad that my crisis (don't ask me why I was so worked up over this) is resolved and I didn't just make up the word, but in a way I'm kind of sad...wouldn't it be cool to find that this was actually a new word, just invented by the wonder of the human sense of language, too new to be included in any dictionaries?

In other news, I could never decide whether "therefor" or "therefore" was correct. Did you know:

Therefor is a relatively formal word meaning 'for it' or 'in exchange for it': "a refund therefor"; "parts and pieces therefor." The much more common word therefore means 'consequently; hence; as a result'. (from this really useful source)

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 17:18:32 GMT

Now, I'm not at all religious--I'm an atheist--but still I find myself quite troubled by this business with the Pope.

Look at the poor man. They were still trying to get him to address the people when he couldn't even speak. Let him rest in peace, for God's sake. Hasn't he done enough for you already?

What happens when he dies? How old will the new Pope be? It would be so cool if it were like the Dalai Lama and the new one was a child.

I haven't gotten my period for almost two months now. I suggested to my mother that perhaps it's the immaculate conception. "Wouldn't I be a fitting person to bear the next son of God?"

"I don't see why not," she said.

"Mom. Maybe there's the fact that I'm not a virgin? Or that I'm not even Christian?"

"I didn't know you weren't Christian."

"Mom, you've known for years that I don't even believe in God."

She sighed angrily. She's still waiting for me to change my mind.

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 16:55:46 GMT

I asked my mother why women sometimes get postpartum depressions. Is there some sort of chemical cause? Or are they sad about having had a baby?

She replied that it was both. There is some sort of mess-up of brain chemicals, one that is probably not fully understood yet, but also, once the labor is through, "You're exhausted. Exhausted and alone."

I thought this was a really interesting thing to say. While you're pregnant, you are not one person, but two. It's like you've got a companion in everything you do, even though this companion may not be able to talk to you or even understand anything that is going on. In one of my favorite books as a child, The Golden Compass, every person has what is called a daemon: an animal companion that is always by your side, who understands your thoughts and feelings perfectly, who is always there to talk to you and comfort you. Maybe being pregnant is something like this. Two lives are wrapped up in one body, and you are never truly alone.

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 14:36:45 GMT

I think I may actually begin to make some public entries and admit to friends that I do, in fact, have a LiveJournal. After all, there are worse things. Like how I rarely go more than an hour without speaking to my cat and frequently tell it that it is my best friend. Or how all I ever do on weekends is work. Or how I constantly respond to people looking for friends on Craig's List and then don't reply to their emails. Or how I'm right now naked because I was about to get in the shower and then started thinking up this post and had to run to the computer. Let's face it--no need to pretend--I'm a nerd now. (We can still pretend that at some point I wasn't a nerd.)

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 05:38:55 GMT

friends only.