Bordering on sanity

our life; in transit

Thu, 31 Jul 2008 19:29:00 GMT

can you take me away
before the nightmares get me
before everything becomes reality

drunk love, what could we ask for
when the end of the chain breaks
is it too late?

it never goes away
late at night they all come alive
some kind of ghost you are

has it been so long?

i'm happy

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 20:10:39 GMT

because gossip girl returns in a couple of months.

i need a computer

Sun, 10 Feb 2008 10:25:26 GMT

before reunion dinner at his house, us looking so retarded.

the chinatowning after movie. red red red.. it was so crowded

we were stuck in the car for awhile and i was boored

fat fat cat..prolly the only one so far i wanted to hug.

chanbebe on the swing that i grew up on.. :D

the crazy one and the little beige underwear.

my new year was boring and sinful. what's with all the prawn rolls being so yummy!
i cldn't edit the pictures. my com is being selfish..and i need a new one soon.
buy me a computer, anyONNEEEE.

wishful thinking.

Sun, 13 Jan 2008 16:03:45 GMT

i hate feeling like i'm so inadequate
i feel like ripping it all apart.

im gonna move to a new journal

i need to breathe so bad.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 12:29:59 GMT

i've decided..
that i'm gonna trust you
cause i've always trusted you
and this way, i know i'll find peace.
it was so long ago, so so long ago.

fisheyed as always

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 01:26:28 GMT

the fisheye pictures from yesterday

the crazy fours

it's the 15th of december yett again. so many thoughts but i'll leave it till tomorrow..
happy birthday to me. :)

the birthday song has never been this good.

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 00:26:35 GMT

some things i don't say
some things i do
of all the things that unifies,
you and i stand.
i won't let go
so hold on tight
and like you say,
we'll be all right.

gone, shifted.

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 18:18:01 GMT

it's been a good run..
but this prolly is it..
so thanks for being here and even reading whatever i wrote.
byeee. :)

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 14:23:52 GMT

im in love. :)

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 12:08:06 GMT

one thing i love love loveee about sydney is the super yummy korean food that's found everywhere..
what i wouldn't give now for a nice pipping hot bowl of spicy tofu soup..

p/s: sorry jo! u know i loveeee you and pls dun disown me! ;)

chasing rainbows.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 07:03:47 GMT

the rainbows after the rain.

it's not about what's at the end of the rainbow that's interesting..
but the arc of colored light that is.

i'm like a bird

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 09:30:04 GMT

i'm writing this entry at 5.13 pm.
in about 17 mins, i'm gonna bid this place goodbye.
and that's right, goodbloodybye!
i'm so happy beyond words...

even though i really did hate working here
i'm still gonna say that there are a few people i'm glad i've met.
like my supervisor,
who has been really nice to me..
the one colleague in HR that came in for less than a month,
but talked to me more than any others for the past 3ish months.
my other colleague, yl, the one that's in charge of all interns..
he's been nothing but nice and understanding to the eeky working environment here..
so thank you. :)

and definately last but not least,
i'm really grateful for gayle.
i can't say this whole internship is bad cause i made a friend that i know i wanna keep for life.
she is just as silly as me, we play games that prolly no one will ever get.
for this last week of working here, she actually hid little notes here and there..
revealing one each day..
believe or not, it made my miserable day heaps better. :D
so gayleeee wayleee, i wuv you tooooooo! xoxo!

time check, 5.29.
goodbye amd, goodbye to ur strict security, goodbye to the super unfriendly people here,
goodbye to engineers that doesnt care bout anyone else, goodbye to my eeky desktop.
yay!!!!!!!!

only time will tell.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 12:52:52 GMT

when you love someone so deeply
they become your life..
it's easy to succumb to overwhelming feelings inside
blindly i imagined i could keep under glass
now i understand to hold you
i must open up my hands and watch you rise

so spread your wings and fly, butterfly.

on my boring life.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 07:33:04 GMT

i wish i could really say i'll miss working here,
miss the people here and that this whole internship
experience was mind-blowing..
but sadly,
it's not.

i know i've said this too many times
but to go through this each and every single day,
i think i'm gonna go crazy anytime from now.

when i'm at work, i'm invisible..
no seriously..invisible..
no one talks to me, no one asks me out for lunch..
no one even knows when im there or when i'm not..
and trust me this feeling of being like some spirit..sucks so damn much.

sure i've worked before but theres no place like this..
stupid politics, unfriendly people, annoying bitches.

this week seems so fucking long..
just because the only person that kept me sane left..
i missssss you gayle!
I HATE WORKING HERE
pleaseeee let me out.

this sucks.

Sun, 06 Aug 2006 15:34:23 GMT

ive so much in my head but so little to say..
ever get that?

i've been troubled with so much lately
crazy people, freak accidents, dead animals and certain people..
and now my period is here..
double whoop seriously..

bah ive nothing great to say
i miss my boyfriend and the moth in my room that refuses to go?
my mum is convinced its my great grandma.
GRRREAT. >.

perfect weekend.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 08:48:55 GMT

beautiful saturday.
i love weekends, i loved weekends.
teary eyed saturday.

i'm better off alone i know.

my shortie, gayle.

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 02:28:04 GMT

for weeks now, i've been ranting so much about my internship.
i've been too bored, too tired, too angry at the mornings
but everything became so much better because i made a new friend
about 3 months ago..

while the people at work wasn't too friendly,
she was.
while the people at work were a little bitchy,
she wasn't..
we whack each other, we laugh at each other,
we 'you then ar!' each other..
and without me knowing, this little shortie has creep into my life

to end the whole work experience off, we had a great week
on thursday, we delievered a document in town
had lunch at carl's jr, window shopped..
made it back at work just to have tea break with a colleague
to "talk" about the work environment...
and that, was prolly the best day of my internship..

so while yesterday was shortie's last day at work..
mine's gonna be next friday..
4 more days alone and i'll be freeeeeee
wish me luck..

gayleeee whaleeee,
u've been nothing but great and short. =x
i wuvvvvvv you.

just to let you know,

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 13:51:25 GMT

i miss you.

the updates.

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 01:22:23 GMT

this is the second last week of my long tortorous attachment
and i'm less than thrilled.

my shortie, gayle is leaving tomorrow which leaves me
alone for the whole of next week
i can already see it in my head..
bored, lonely and sleepy.
gggaahhh!

apart from this whole 'i-hate-attachment' affair,
my life has been less than wonderful..
from what i thought was over was prolly just the beginning..
or maybe the sequel.
i'm starting to accept that a leopard really never changes it's spots
and that it's really possible to lose faith/trust in someone completely.

oh wells, 5 more days and i'm freeeeeeeeeeeee~

trouble

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 03:09:07 GMT

[mood| disappointed]
[music| Coldplay - Trouble]

sudden betrayal, maybe not
treading on wafer thin ice, our friendship
the one thing i thought i had a grip on,
the judas in the group..

fuck it, it's a sunday..
i'm going back to his arms, my bed.

i just wanna be your little girl.

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 13:18:01 GMT

i think all of us has a little something we hide
be it memories, habits, love or feelings.
sometimes, we hide them so much that we forget
we move on, we think everything's alright until something comes along to remind us..

i was watching the sisterhood of the traveling pants
and i was touched, really touched.
it just felt so familiar, the feelings carmen had..
the way she screamed at her dad for finally admitting she was angry.
the anger turned into hurt and tears just couldn't stop.

i felt so much for her.
i thought back on all anger, hurt and confusion
i wish i had that little courage to..
ask, to try and finally to come to terms with it.

i hate you. i miss you. i loved you. i love you.
i want you. i really need you.

random moments

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 05:53:58 GMT

a really loud woman in the office was talking to her daughter's friend..

"why are you always in my house?!"

oh.my.god.
my jaw just fell open upon hearing that.

people...geez!

i thought of you...

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 07:38:02 GMT

1 yr 2 mths ago,

"cause i'm not here to be around
be that girl that you forget about
cause all i want is just to be a song
that you can feel longer then just right now
come on baby let me be the girl
that you can count on to rock your world
then you'll that there's so much more then curves
and then u'll see that you and me belong."

1 yr ago,

"what a feeling in my soul
love burns brighter than sunshine
let the rain fall i don't care
i'm yours and suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine..."

now,

"thank god i found you
i was so lost without you
my every wish and every dream
somehow became reality
when you bought the sunlight
completed my whole life
i'm overwhelmed with gratitude
my baby, i'm so thankful i found you."

you brought meaning into these songs.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 04:07:52 GMT

my brain isn't functioning well with the usual tiredness
so i'm gonna keep this entry real short..

i'm really glad things are all sorted out..
it was a big bbbiiigg relieve and i fell alseep that night with a smile on my face.
sappy but sincere, i really did love our group hug..despite neh laughin her ass off

the weekend was great..
yummzeroos food, bimbotic car ride, kisses from the one. ;)

because of you.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 09:23:49 GMT

it's our one yr anni, i should be happy
but instead here i am feeling troubled and annoyed.
the boyfriend's been an absolute darling
but my mind is jus neither here nor there..

i can't stop thinking about the lies and i can't stop thinking about
the girl i used to know.
when i saw you back when we were still kids,
i thought to myself, we're gonna be good friends..
am i wrong about that? what happened to the girl
i thought i knew, the one that was so innocent, so shy..
so simple.

perhaps, you were never simple,
never innocent, never what i thought u were.
once you told me, i betrayed your trust..
now i'm just gonna tell you straight,
i don't trust you and i prolly won't anymore.
i hate how things have turned this way
and i hate the way you are now.
we used to be so close.

disappointment aside,
happy anniversary baby.
i love you. :)
*happier entry soon*