one more day in paradise...

yeah im soo sad
i broke my tail bone last night
it really freakin hurts
i cant even work.......

im sooooooooo soooooooo soooooooo sad.


):

for having such a great fucking weekend...i feel like shit today.
maybe its the lack of sleep. i was almost asleep then devyn and ashley came in my room...but i wasnt mad...just tired.. then i got up 2 hours later and went to work. and im not even going to start there...i ate really healthy today and that was making me feel real good but then i came home and had the whole box of mac and cheese...oops. so much for a diet. and now im soo exhausted. i had a physical therapy appointment after work but i didnt go. i think my back is actually getting better. i am ready to be done with this... so i can get some money and shop.
well i now i live everyday wishing it would hurry the damn up...just so i can get to the weekend. i hate wasting days like that but shit it is the only thing that gets me through the day. i just hope this weekend goes a little bit (a lil' bit....stuuupid) more smooth compared to last weekend. dont get me wrong i had soo much fun...but everyone seemed a little bit edgy...sides dev and i...all we wanted to do was have fun...
and shit son i think we did.

♥

oh and devyn and i have a myspace...check it out....

 

i dont really know where i left off so here i go.........
i think i said devyn lost her phone and our only pack of cigs.
so we got devyn's phone, some nice guy called my cell phone and tracked us down. so we decided to sit at some random picinic table. and this ugly ass guy comes walking up to us. and devyn asks him for a cig. and he goes yeah here...hands devyn one and then hands me one....and i just take the whole pack, devyn then steals his perscription gucci glasses and is wearing them, then everything is kinda a blurrrr....these hot guys walk up to us and we start walking away with them...(oh but devyn and i took a picture with this guy who was like 7ft tall!)
so this is going to have to wait yet another day....haha im going to make a cd...
later

i think this is the first time in my life where i can actually smile and say "wow...i had a good fucking weekend"
i decided that my new year's goal would be to not give a fuck anymore. i dont fucking care if i dont go out every saturday night or if the guy i love only calls me at 3 in the morning completely wasted and not remember the next morning, or that my sister is way fucking hotter then me and every time we go out she gets hit on and i dont. i just need to let loose and say who gives a fuck. but so far my goal is making my life....better. so my new "way" started out on friday night. Jessica Devyn Lisa and I made plans to go to mill ave and then party hopping the rest of the night. we went to the store with a few of jessica's friends, miranda being one...and i cant remember the other two guys names. we got vodka and mcdonalds cups of dr. pepper. we parked at gammage theatre and poured some dr. pepper out and poured vodka in our cups. lets just say that of course devyn and i get the strongest drinks out of everyone. so we walked to the block party...taking sips on the way...and right before we entered we threw our cups out, well frankly because we cant bring drinks in and second we were already a bit tipsy. we then ran into a few of my friends who decided to be rude...to everyone but me. it made me mad that they had no respect. i love them to death and all but that was just rude. so we went the opposite direction and went into a bar. i was honestly freaking nervous as hell, but someone just kept ordering beers and heck we just kept chugging them. i can honestly say we were feeling it by then. then...i think we walked through a mosh pit...haha. it was crazy. then devyn realized that she lost her cell phone...but the ball was about to drop so we all went running (dont ask me where exactly everyone was going) but jessica and i were in the back and we pretty much lost everyone. yay the ball dropped and we partied with some other random people on the road. and then we found everyone else at monti's so we walked right in past security. drank a few more beers. we met some guys from germany who were freaking awesome. met some more people and met some more. it was awesome.
but shit right now im fucking so tired. i think i got 8 hours of sleep for the past 3 days...and my throat is sore.
i have a shit load more to right but i will do that tomorrow because I HAVE OFF!
i will finish off my new years night and write about saturday night because that night WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME.

cheers to CARPET MOUTH. :)

to be continued.........................

i actually loved christmas this year!

i got...............

• $100 from my dad and stepmom
• $50 from my grandma
• $25 to the mall from an aunt and uncle
• $50 from another grandma
• $25 to the movies
• $25 to starbucks from my boss
• $60 to Ikea
• MadTV season 1
• 15 movies from my mommy.......CrAzY
• a new cell phone
• a new purse
• sunglasses

i think that is it....mostly money...i am "at that age now" hahaha but it was a good long weekend. no work for 3 days, i was in heaven!!!! devyn ashley and i went to the mall and then we went and saw "darkness"...dont go see that movie...it was barely scary and so stupid. we were bumed....and then we "had fun" haha i think i got a total of 3 hours of sleep then i worked 12 hours...damn. well i have some pictures!

 

 

( turnmeon )

i was just looking through some old pictures. and then i decided to post them to give everyone a little giggle.

 

( ilovethe90s )

good things
1. My Christmas Party Saturday
2. I won 100 dollars yesterday
3. I bought new running shoes
4. Running at night helps me relieve stress
6. I am getting more sleep at night (thanks to my little blue pills)
7. I am getting tan
8. My new car (i love it)
9. Christmas, i am actually excited this year
10. Eva won on Americas Nex Top Model (im a geek i know)
11. My horoscop said i am going to meet my love on the 18th (wish me luck)
12. I get to go to bed soon

not so good
1. My diet failed already
2. Something happend to me that hasnt happend in 2 years
3. My tummy hurts
4. I am finally get reconized for all my hard work at work.
5. I need to do laundry




i am such a nerd....i cried when eva won, then i was watching the news about the helicoper crash in AJ and i cried and then i read a story in Cosmo about a friend drinking and driving and killing her friends, and i cried. i am so emotional.

WHATS GOING ON?!?

ohhhhhhhhhh.

man.

 

i am home already

and its 10:25 and im already a bit

drunk.

tomorrow i am hanging out with family

and then a loooooover boy

yay.

wow
i will just smile for awhile.

yeah saturday night at im at home

waiting for my date...... :)

last night i stayed home, my back hurt soo bad (and its not much better today). If i have to have surgery i am going to punch someone...well not really...but i will be mad. oh and i found some bleach when i was cleaning my room last night, so i randomly dyed pieces of my hair blonde....i havent decided if i like it or not...i think i want to go back to being all blonde....i can never make up my mind.

and now something because i am completely bored.

 

( ..............blah )

you know when you get that hot sweaty feeling and you know something just isnt right...
i hate when things come up and i get that feeling in my stomach...
its like shit.
damn....
does anyone know what im talking about?


but im excited
hopefully i can go out this weekend. i am so glad i am hanging out with some of my old friends back from school again. its sad but i dont really miss high school. life is so much better afterwards. i love having my own place and doing what ever i freaking want!
but what should i do this weekend? so much is going on...parties....concerts....eeckk....
what should i do?!

but i know what i am going to do right now.
something that is bad for me and i know i shouldnt do it....
but heck i dont care.

<3

"why go hike the himalayas when you can take LSD and do it in the comfort of your own home"
-Psychology Teacher

i love weekends.
i got a new car!
no more purple bomb! haha
then i partied like a gangsta
i love seeing my old friends.
patrick and dj and brett lindsay
brianna nick elysia and chayce
being completely wasted
i drank some jungle juice.
yeah and that had pineapple in it
guess who is allergic to pineapple
um......that would be me.
oh well i lived.
talked to my hot new friend
I AM IN LOVE
i kissed a boy
flirted with some more
.............................yes
then today i went to my mommy's
devyn is back from colorado.
ashley devyn and i did nothing
but...yeah.........
for about 4 hours.
now i am home. freaking back hurts soo bad
something is definetly wrong
is it bad to cry over your back hurting?
cause i thinkg i just might......
:(
overall.....FUN TIMES.

this is for melissa....

im excited about thanksgiving
only because i can eat whatever
i want and that will be my excuse
for being chubby haha.
i have my little 7 year old sister
at mi casa all weekend
so if anyone wants to chill with us
and watch 13 going on 30 and bake
cookies call me! (602-628-9128)
everything is the same
i still work my little butt off
i still hate guys.
blahdiy blahhhh....
haha



so yeahhhhhhhhh

.............................................
i need something right now.
and if you know me
you would know what it is.
any ideas?

:)

"its wierd how it still effects me....!"

i love this.
i think im going to crawl in a hole and die.
old love dies fast.
but comes back even faster.
seriously
dont
know
what
the
fuck.




this couldnt even be towards me
and im doing this for nothing.

so yeah.

you know how it goes

friday sucked.

saturday i went shopping and got drunk...easy way to mend your pain

and i got some fun pictures for all my hommies.

haha kayla and i got this done this weekend. damn i look hot. too bad i really dont look like that.

 

( you know you want to )

how crappy.
today.................
uh....................
someone rearended me.....second car accident on the past 5 months.
and then my grandpa died this morning.

i love you GOG

so now im just sitting here drunk playing with tarot cards.
and from the looks of it
im going to be lonely for a long time.

great just fucking great.

drOppedstaR033: im so in love with you and you never paid any attention to me.

yOurgetAway03: um......im sorry...who is this

drOppedstaR033: you know deep down inside you know we have both played the game and im done now im just waiiting for you

Previous message was not received by drOppedstaR033 because of error: User drOppedstaR033 is not available.

 

 

 so if anyone know whos this is...let me know

im a heartless bitch.

i guess

im so nervous. kerry is behind......if bush wins we are moving to canada.....

blah.......

 

( halloween pictures located here )