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[13 Jul 2004|09:01pm] Falling Girl im going back. so holla at me there. this is gone. 1 comment x CMNT

[13 Jul 2004|07:44pm] [ mood | crazy ] you are all lame. honestly. i found a cat today. HAHAHAHAHAHA. wouldnt you like to know. CMNT

[13 Jul 2004|04:46pm] |-----7------------7 |-----0------------0 |-----6------------6 |-----0--------0-0-0 |-0-0-0--------7-7-7 |-7-7-7------------0 begining to my song. someone play it. tell me if its okay. you gotta feel the rythem. CMNT

take that action man. [13 Jul 2004|11:41am] I am going to warped tour whether my mama likes it or not. the total fee is like 75.50 but you know what? I got the money if you gots the time! and i will not not go see Adam Lazzara be sexy and swerve around like a god. i must be there. for every waking moment of his one man glory. yes, you heard me. one man glory. i dont know who else good will be there. ( the list ) not too many im digging, but i suppose its cause the other ones are unheard of. most of them. 2 comments x CMNT

[12 Jul 2004|10:31pm] [ mood | crushed ] almost everything in the world was fine until tonight. i got split open again. i wonder, now, how long this wound will take to heal. counting that a majority of the other issues, are still wide open. goodnight. 1 comment x CMNT

dayuuum [12 Jul 2004|09:24pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | betsy talking ] so today was not as eventful as i thought it would be. brock came and got me round 3:30 with toast. i thought we were going swimming with MK. but I guess not. so we rented the butterfly effect. and i did brocks hurr. and then brock went to go get Beth. so me and toast chilled. then he napped for five minutes. and i sat there feeling retarded. oh, lame. and then brock and beth showed up, we attempted to watch the lion king when clint called saying breaking benjamin was in town at that very moment. they're not even a good band. so then brock took beth home, then me, and i told toast that the blinds in my room were bent cause of him. cause you could tell with the light up against the window from the outside. so they pulled off and here i am. here i am. oh, so alone. CMNT

if you wanna, you dont gotta [12 Jul 2004|11:56am] [ mood | crappy ] oh shit i just woke up and i feel like fucking shit and my fucking teeth hurt and someone fucking called and luis looked all distraught and i aksed him what it was and he was like "its about dad" so i thought my dad was dead so i flipped and was like "its about dads car" and i was like what the fuck then i went and laid down then i came up here and now im typing this shitty meaningless piece of crap and i really really wish that i had something to do today besides braid brocks hair and chill with toast but you know what, thats what i gotta do for the day and nothing more. hit that mothers, that was one sentence. 1 comment x CMNT

[12 Jul 2004|12:39am] [ mood | creative ] drive in movie im not living in a doubt that you can remember this air heres tense and filled with echoes you've got someone new and im still thinking of things to do laugh it off and it'll be fine laugh it off and it'll be fine skin collides and we entwine on the raining streets its like a movie, its how you do laughing and talking about how things couldnt be more perfect its like a movie, its how you do each and every time is a repeat of the last but better than before you're one of those boys who leave me asking what for and then you leave and dont come around its like a movie, its how you do you look up at the ceiling and its familiarity kills me this isnt our bed but its good enough to say hows your life where have you been i've been so lost its been so fake i could explain myself to you could you explain yourself to me? for a second there it felt like destiny. you're beautiful i swear up against the busy street lights im lost for words at how for a moment there things worked im almost sure this isnt really going to work but this six hours its good enough for me our eyes cross glances and i melt into thoughts that will never become reality and its a shame that such easy words reached such great fatality i'll watch as you fade and as these rain drops fall against our faces its the same place, the same time, is it good enough for you? curled up in the back seat lets look at the stars and think about how this night was perfect and how it will never happen again it'll be something we remember or something for me to say the least i dont think you know how it meant a little more that it should have how it meant a little more than it would have and i was falling so fast and reaching so far and all i got was you. CMNT

[11 Jul 2004|11:51pm] [ mood | distressed ] comin over but it never was enough. i thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you. anyone will do tonight, anyone will do tonight. he should stop leading me on. this is the third time. 1 comment x CMNT

sha bam bam i cant stand... [11 Jul 2004|10:49am] [ mood | exanimate ] [ music | Taking back sunday - a decade under the influence ] Don't you kids know that if you start a band, it will not succeed? especially if you are females? because, I mean, look at the god damned Donnas!!! they're not cool. they're not popular. they failed. and you will too. Highschool bands never work out. you play a couple of lame gigs and then are never heard of again. sadly, I kinda laugh at the thought of you people not being heard of again. so dont bother, its nothing good. so last night at around eight thirty Brock came to get me. nothing special, just went to get michaela. then out of no where michaela was all like "Lets go see Emmett!!!!" I was like, what the fuck michaela, you gotta man! and as wells he does. nothing went down, i was just laughing cause Emmett probably thought he was gonna be going but he wasn't. so I got home and mom snapped that I was at Emmetts. when I called mom from emmetts she snapped then too. and emmett just laughed. because he knows my moms all "you got her high!" at him, even though she never ever sees him. whutevur. so i came home and i played some guitar and thought about how FUCKING COOL MY BAND IS GONNA BE. too bad im not lame enough to form one. hahaha, wait. Betsy, do you remember that Jane Screaming Jack bullshit? that was fucking funny as hell. I'm glad we now play guitar for fun and not for serious. man, that shit was seriously gay as hell. so damnit the Incubus concerts are on tuesday and wednesday and I really want to go but im one POH muther. so I'm going to be doing Brocks hair this week for the concert. yes, it will be my contribution to incubus. his hair. i have also decided to never eat again as food is disgusting and makes you look like sally struthers. peace out kids. more lataz. 16 comments x CMNT

sha bam bam [10 Jul 2004|07:10pm] I would MARRY napoleon dynamite. 4 comments x CMNT

i dont believe in a thing called love. [10 Jul 2004|10:43am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | michaela eating ] i just woke up. and some make up lady whos wearing lots of make up is in michaela's living room or kitchen trying on MORE make up with michaela's mom and sister. kinda... kinda early for make up. really early. oh shame mr lame, i am so tired. mmmmmhmmmmm doughnuts. 4 comments x CMNT

he's a mexican! [09 Jul 2004|08:42pm] I have decided that michaela and pizza are all i need to survive this life. and maybe some boy. god damn michaela is so rad. CMNT

am i that obvious? [09 Jul 2004|02:02pm] [ mood | curious ] I wrote a poem, since Ally was talking about real experiences that thats what they mean. it doesnt matter if it sucks, its if you can feel it. so here. Before i am faced with some issues small things that i wish you could understand right now. its nothing, not a big deal, just reassurance it's real, cause it means more to me. of all the things that you should say its hard to believe it's any other way. this is hard to tell but i know now that you were just the one its nothing like we thought but i never really tried but now i know that its not the same but we can still say its the reasons, the reasons we go on. im a problem that your faced with all my complaints that you deal with but you never give up. you said that you loved me, its nothing, not a big deal, but you know it means more. theres a vacant feel here a misplacement of real fear entering our scene. its midnight and i see you pushing these walls through, you always tried much more. ---- i really thought about this one... i tried. meh. 3 comments x CMNT

it used to be the reasoni breathed but now its choking me up. [09 Jul 2004|12:02pm] [ mood | curious ] I officially feel really really lame. I should probably stop liking him. now that things are done. dayuuuuum. and if you're curious, yeah, he's from madison. bam. 3 comments x CMNT

if you need. [09 Jul 2004|11:43am] i just got back from babysitting and need someone to chill with. otherwise things are gonna get lame really fast. CMNT

how can i say what i need to say with out thinking about you everyday... [08 Jul 2004|08:16pm] [ mood | creative ] Casanova Lake breaking open strangest nights of stars meteors crashing into waves surrounded by moving trees along the shores of breaking dreams greys seem to make the sky scream. but her hairs on fire setting trees apart from skies the amber coloured energy emersing from the flames. it's too dark to tell her that her tears are the same as each of my daring fears. he's not here, like the times when she could have died. he's not here and it's no surprise, just more lies. trees towering like granite walls this is where all her lies fall puzzle pieces left out for far too long it comes into place with lack of respect for what really went wrong he's not here, like the times when my heart cries. he's not here and to no ones surprise,it was just more lies. i cant forget even if i tried im waiting for these memories to subside a virus of yours trailing my thoughts. the emerald greens and freshwater springs wont hold us together just like glue, and theres no life living with you. break the stars, burn the trees, i'd rather drown in all the seas, than stand here with you again, because you're not sorry that this is the end. ---- i was proud of that damned poem. now read it. kitchen fight scene you're saphire eyes look so memorable blinking tears away as if its so simple reality check every half an hour and these full fledged romances have gone sour. you put your cup on the table and smile so somber, this will be a while hesitation swarms our minds goosebumps across every inch of my skin, in hand a 12 inch knife and a bottle of gin. the night ahead is going to last forever. take me now and love me never. ---- i was proud of that one too. 2 comments x CMNT

oh my god im sexy! [08 Jul 2004|05:19pm] [ music | J kwon - Tipsy ] so today wasn't such a lame ass day at all. I am sorry but I guess michaela wasnt awake and Betsy called up. and we went to state street and I got me some new chucks and a cool black shirt. Then we ran into harrison and lewis and that creepy ass mother fucking metal head kid kyle. it was pretty lame and i didnt want to see him at all. meh so then like we just went home cause things were starting to get really lame and it was tiring. so man i am so tired. i just want some loving. maddie is holding her hands over my eyes and forcing me to listen to Tipsy. I might die. 1 comment x CMNT

[08 Jul 2004|12:01pm] [ mood | discontent ] well looks like nothing is really going on today. someone, anyone, please come down to state street with me. I NEED CLOTHING. and i amd dying cause i have realized I have only two friends to go with me. FUCKING SHOPPING. and thats Betsy or Michaela. and i dont know Laurens phone number!!! man. im fucking lame as hell. i wish i could go like, right now. 3 comments x CMNT

and im not so sure, if you're sure of anything anymore. [07 Jul 2004|11:04pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Taking Back Sunday - the blue channel ] she lays down in her bed and smothers her face with her pillow. things shouldn't turn out bad all that time. but lately, they have. her face is wet from crying and her knuckles pang as she presses her hands together. how did it turn out like this? Natalie lets out a scream. No one can really hear, her moms out of town and her brother is sleeping in the basement. Its not as if anyone really cares. Natalie gets up and hits the lights and looks into her mirror. the lights around her mirror leave a glow on her face. she's assuming that theres nothing she can do to herself to make this easy. ------- i dont know whats going on right now. I'm so tired and i just want to sleep but I can never sleep. meh, whatever. I'm just going to go lay down and write some shit poetry. and maybe have some coffee. mmmm coffeee. goodnight. 1 comment x CMNT

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