black stars.

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 18:59:35 GMT

i've decided to leave all these behind and move on with a new journal
littlescapade

add me if you want to.
bye!

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 17:31:34 GMT

thank you, sweetheart.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 16:53:18 GMT

the L word

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 15:16:41 GMT

& i mean it.

your hair and face against the mirror.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 20:41:26 GMT

AHHHHHH.
i can't sleep. i can't sleep. i can't sleep.

it's good to see you
i missed you last night
that's such a lovely color
it goes with your eyes
before we fall asleep
i just wanted to say
this all seems so easy
but there're choices to make
can't decide, then look at the faces
we're burning the pages
and hurting ourselves with this false start
and we pretend
as if it gets easier
but does it get easier?
reading words with no replies.
when we have these mornings where we can say goodbye
i wanted to mean everything to you
but this isn't right
you keep coming back disassembled and i
keep losing this fight

unhappy.

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 16:15:57 GMT

unhappy.

this butterfly fluttered into my home, and landed on the ceiling light. it's pretty isn't it. :]

interesting conversations instead of the usual..boring..heys and byes.

- Kuanyi El Supremo says:
BOO!
Claresta says:
hey!
- Kuanyi El Supremo says:
see okay theres my problem
- Kuanyi El Supremo says:
i didnt think of what to say after "BOO!"

i don't like it.

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 17:09:24 GMT

craziest message for the telemarketers i ever seen at work:

CUSTOMER HAS PASSED AWAY PLEASE DO NOT CALL.

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 16:27:02 GMT

siwei: she looks like a transverstype.

hahaha i love you sweetie.

reminder.

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 17:14:57 GMT

-two steps behind says:

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.

-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 23:55:26 GMT

and then she looks up, and gently forces her tears back in.

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 07:36:18 GMT

wow, i've abandoned this journal for 3 months. i've been thinking of creating a new lj but i can't think of any friggin username. pinkshit is so =\, lol. i was 14 and naive and what else.

anyway. i'm hoping this Yuri guy calls me soon. he's so hotz. haha i'm kidding i've never seen him, he's a supervisor in M1 and he's supposed to post me to somewhere to work! god please give me that easypeasy job (like zach said, "you get paid to slack".) because i am bored to tears bumming around. no wait that's a contradiction, i'm bored bumming around but i want to work to slack. ha. beats having nothing to do at all though.

oh yeah, it's another year gone. i haven't made any resolutions but uh i've actually never done that. who really sticks to them?

and i'll savour every moment of this love.

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 07:00:43 GMT

happy 17th birthday manda you bumalicious thingie. hahah what the heck was that.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 09:07:28 GMT

i see huimin 7 times a week. i feel like her blood sister. heh, but it's really fun to have someone understand you and open up to you like she does. i hope i don't sound lesbian. anyway! we (siwei min and i) watched charlie and the chocolate factory yesterday at lido. we were even lucky enough to get third row seats (watching johnny depp up close is sssssizzling good time haha). the oompa loompas(?) were terribly lame though. go watch, go watch. so now i'm meeting min again for festival of praise at the indoor stadium. hope it's good!

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 13:32:26 GMT

i'm really good at having mood swings.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 09:00:51 GMT

Staring right back in the face
A memory can’t be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
and everything I’m gonna miss
I know, that I can’t hide

All this time is passing by
I think its time to just move on

[Chorus]
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I’ll be there for you
Don’t have to be alone
With what you’re going through

Start to breathe and fake a smile
Its all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside

I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong

[Chorus]

You’re coming back down
You say you feel lost, can i help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You’re coming back down
You don’t have to tell me what you’re feeling
I know what you’re going through
I wont be the one that lets go of you

I think its time to just move on

[Chorus] x 2

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 12:13:46 GMT

amagad. siwei sent me this in an email.

sorry they're not ghosts, that's just some arabic marriage.

=|

i hope i could go swim or something on saturday. no one wants to. today was simply wasted. siwei, my sis and i went to school at 11am, tried sneaking in without the security guards' attention but, heh. here comes 2 hours of dc. this week of school has been fast moving man - no staying back for extra lessons thanks to book & music week. but it wil be resumed tomorrow. boo hoo hoo.

did i mention i totally abhor people who just hang up on me.

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 12:33:53 GMT

help me think of names for the two baby jack russells please!
(they're males)

that hurt, dad.

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 09:23:04 GMT

today's the second day of school term 3. hard core lessons. ew. we had every period except chemistry in different air-conditioned rooms though, and that's one very rare occasion. minmin and i sit right at the back of the class, so we tend to start day-dreaming about what we'd do after the O levels. haha. i cannot wait. i woke up this morning with no voice. then it slowly came back to me during morning assembly and stupidfart huimin keeps laughing at my "zhao siah" voice (wtf is that? haha). retribution! she will get. anyhow, i should be studying. but i can't cos we're going for a family reunion dinner soon. this uncle of mine striked the lottery. and lately i've been dreaming about winning the first prize. =| OHH!H! a long lost friend from marymount convent primary found me on friendster and she claims she's been looking for me "all her life". hehehe so happy. she's a bung/butch/whatever.

edit 11:00pm: may i add that wayne is zee best. thank you for being there for me almost everytime.

caption.

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 10:50:23 GMT

vs

=(

88 for a moment.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 08:20:17 GMT

thank you lovelies, those who replied in my previous entry and sent me an sms..
i'm okay. and although i'm not really a devout, i know she's in God's good hands.

the whole house went silent after receiving yesterday's abrupt phone call and me breaking the news to my sisters. a really indescribable feeling i felt.. i didn't cry, nothing, but only after watching my sisters' reactions. then i picked up another call from my mom, she told us to change into any plain white tee.

i've never lost someone and i don't have the slightest idea about funerals. the wake was just a few blocks away so my sisters and i walked there in a hurry, found my relatives (of aunts who came back from all over UK) and mother kneeling on a mat facing an altar with a monk speaking in some unknown language in front of them. do people of all religions do this?

i began to feel a little queer and soon we rose to our feet to walk around the coffin - tears gushed out immediately. she was beautifully made-up lying in the coffin.. she looked her most peaceful and i thank God for that. i stood at the rear of the coffin and watched her, wiping my tears in case it fell in, and i could have sworn i saw a vague smile fixed on her face. then i cringed away from the polished brown coffin..

the only memories i have of her now are her faux pearl necklace and diamanté earrings she gave me. ha, it's like treasure to me. cremation of her body is taking place tomorrow. well enough of this, everything but the negative thinking is on my side.

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 06:57:59 GMT

"not so good news..
greatgranny passed away.
she's.. we're in..."
hangs up

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 09:44:00 GMT

andtheyrock
huimin and i have a new journal +userinfo. we made it when one day she decided that we sell stuff we don't want in sgselltrade, but apparently we haven't started using it for our sole purpose. add us anyway :)

and right now, i'm about to burst because my sister just got curly groomed, and she frigging scares me. she shouldn't be named CURLY anymore but BALDY plus she looks like a stick. i miss her curly fur and i miss squeezing her when she didn't use to look so fragile. appearances really do matter boy. haha. i will post pictures of her soon. she's fugly :(

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 05:05:26 GMT

You Are In a Good Mood

Today, you're feeling pretty together and happy.
While not everything is going your way, you're keeping things in perspective.
And it seems like things are looking up for you!

What Mood Are You In?

retarded. i'm so not.

her frail physique...

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 11:12:51 GMT

dear Jesus,
greatgrandmother will be just fine.
amen.

you bloody hell pulled the trigger.

Tue, 24 May 2005 15:05:21 GMT

MOOD SWINGS