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All I want for Christmas is a little happiness. Hope this fucking mood passes before this weekend is over. I'm not in Xmas spirit at all, and I wish to be before it's over.

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*o*

want!!!!



I love Freshcotton. <33333

Stolen from blueplasticgun
[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[x] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ ] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are interesting
TOTAL SO FAR: 5

[ ] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[ ] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[x] You can mow the lawn
[x] You study even when you don't have to
[x] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 14

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know your usual
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is takeout
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quickly
TOTAL SO FAR: 17

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[x] You have been to a Tupperware party (when I was little xD)
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[x] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have been outside of the United States/Canada 3 or more times (I live in Europe)
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
TOTAL: 21



Seems right, I guess.

Yo.

Changed my profile layout.
Go check.


One thing, though... why won't the image of my poupee show up? You guys know the right code for me?????

OK, why am I not getting notifications of received comments anymore???
Not in my hotmail, not in my gmail (I have gmail send it to Hotmail) and not in my LJ inbox, either.

WTF LJ?

Whenever I`m going to/eat(ing) noodler, I always have the tendency to say "Ramen" like Yumehito in that comment.
xD

Jroxk has messed up my mind.
xDDDD

ROFL, seems like someone is jealous.
XDDDD

That people seriously reply to things like these is a miracle to me. Don't they know that we shouldn't feed the trolls?





Going to Ninja Assassin tomorrow night with my dad.
(^__^)


Yes, I am very aware of my current Korean-obsession. Don't worry, if I was able to go from Buffy to Jrock and not forget about the Buff, I certainly won't forget about Jrock now that I'm into Kpop as well. It's just that Kpop makes me happy. And CL is my newest crush.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I needs 2NE1 icons...
Guess I'll go make some soon, yeah?
Have to get dressed now and head off to work.

Tata.

You know that plastic bubble wrapper-stuff?

I can entertain myself with that for hours.




I'm such a kid.
xD

OK. I'm going to watch Angel now.

Been postponing it now cos I'm at the episode where Freddikens dies, and that's just heartbreaking.
But, I really want to watch Buffy again, so I have to finish this. You know I don't start with Buffy Season 1 when I'm still in another season of the Buffy-verse.

I'm weird that way.


Also, I really miss Dollhouse. Can't wait for the next ep that's airing dec 04

I wish words could explain how grateful I am.
I wish I could show you in any descent way how thankful I am for the fact that I have you in my life.

I honestly don't think I would have gotten to this point, with as few scratches and bruises as possible, without you guiding me on my path.
Like a light at the end of my tunnel.

I promise you, I will do my best to achieve my goals.
I promise that I will show you that you can make your own dream come true.

Sometimes I close my eyes, and I fear I am lost in the woods.
But I guess that that is okay every now and then. What matters is that eventually you have to wake up and smell the coffee.
You're my coffee.

*snort*
I know that sounds incredibly lame, but it's true. You give me energy, and strength to get through the day. Plus, I think you're Caramel Latte which is my fave kind of coffee EVER, so you're fucking delicious as well!

Thank you.
I love you.




Why public? Because I think everyone in the whole wide world should know that you're amazing. And that you're the purest good- and kindness I have ever run into in my life. ♥

OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!OMG!
I still have my 35 hours savegame of FF VII!!!!

I thought that I didn't make a backup at all, but apparently I did!
Not sure where I am in the game, but at least I don't have to completely restart! There's only a few things I have to replay I think, but I'm fine with that.
Did lose my savegame of LBP, though. But I wasn't that far with it anyway, so... whatevs.
And for the rest I only have Ratchet & Clank, but I never play those games.

I'm so pathetic. I have a PS3, but what I use it for most are DVD's, music, downloaded tv-shows and blu-rays. The only games I truly like are those of Square Enix.

Anyway, going to watch Gokusen 2 now and drool over Jin. I watched the first two eps on my laptop, but pausing at the exact right moment is harder than on a PS3. Also, PS3 has this awesome function where you can watch something frame by frame when the movie is paused. Great for drooling over hotties.
Mind though, you do not want to be with me then, cos watching a tv-show/movie/live performance is REALLY annoying. I pause at everything pretty, then rewind, watch again. Same thing with funny things. Even still do that with Buffy, even though I know every joke before it comes.
xDD

Come to think of it...

I don`t think there`s such a thing as a pointless event.
I think that some stupid things are meant to happen mainly to open up our eyes. So we can find out who we are, what we want and how to get there in a good honest way.
Sometimes people are meant to let you down so you can grow to be a better person yourself.

Thinking like that make`s every heartbreak and backstab a bit more bearable.
But only if you`re willing to see the point of trying. Otherwise all is lost.

I get that now.

I just wrote a really long entry about all the shit that's been going on with my friends.
Shit I don't undestand.
Shit that pisses me off, because they're being accused of things they never did.

There's so much drama, and one side expect you to chose a side, and when you decide not to you get called a bitch as well.

But I'm tired of writing so many entries about this, and ending up putting them on Private, just cos I fear losing a friend who's on the 'other side'. A very dear friend.



I think this shit has to be over and done already. For months it's been going on, and now other people are being pulled apart as well. Things have escalated. Gone out of hand.
Or a better term: "The shit has hit the fan".
And it's pissing me off more than anything.

There's already been done enough damage as there is. There's already someone hurting extremely much, that while I think she doesn't deserve in the least bit. And now someone else is hurting as well. Being called a bitch, when I, a person who has even less to do with this, is more the bitch in this situation. Because I at least said things. I said some pretty mean things.
And she's the one getting the blame.


It's beyond unfair.
Now two of my dearest friends are hurting, when they don't deserve it in the least bit.
And you can go ahead now thinking I picked a side.
I didn't until you forced us to.


I just want it to be over, you know..

One of these days I'm gonna snap, and I ain't gonna give a damn about the consequences.

You really think you haven't done enough damage the past few months? You really think that this is necessary?

I don't.




I think it's pretty fucking pointless.

I know, it's very short... but it's way too fucking adorable.
<3

Miyavi, Lovelie and Melody by *PinkFish on deviantART

IMAGE-HEAVY!!!!


OK, let me start with saying that no matter how bad Rome can be(too many cars that cause polution, they never reconstruct anything(all stations and the airport are disgusting and such), the stores con you, and it's extremely expensive), I have absolutely fallen in love with this place. Then again, I think I already was in love because well... duh. Italy is half my blood.

Note: these aren't all the pics I made. There's 300+ pictures in total, some blurry, some lame, and tons that are fucking awesome.

( Day 1: Flight, B&B, Vaticano, Castel Sant'Angelo, Piazza Navona, Pantheon, Vittoriano & Trevi )



( Day 2: Vaticano )



( Day 3: Colloseo, ruins, Termini, Piazza di Spagna, & Villa Borghese )



( Day 4: Piazza Navona, Circo Massimo, Piazza Venezia & drama )



( Day 5: Trip back home )


I had a lot of fun, but the pain in my knee became so unbearable I couldn't stand or walk for long periods. At a certain point it became such a killing pain I feared I'd cause permanent damage. My knees are still hurting even now. But I'm OK.
I'm glad I called mom and messaged Kim and Carmen the night of my breakdown, it gave me courage and strength to keep fighting, but it also gave me some perspective on what I want. I learned even more about myself this trip.
And about Italy. LOL.
I love Rome, but I'm not sure if it's the right place to live in. The air is really bad, think Midgar area in Final Fantasy VII, most nature is dead and the cars and everything isn't being taken care of. A lot of people drive cars with ruined engines, you can smell it. There's even buses with bad engines. Then there's also bad traffic, constantly, and you hear a siren at least once an hour. There's no pet-store or pet-ambulance. Nothing. And they take very bad care of the handicapped.
I've really learned to appreciate my own country more. It's all very well organized, clean. Just a good place to live in. So I won't mind paying my taxes, cos I know that a lot of it is going to good things.

Still... Italy is one of my most favorite countries in the world, and Rome definitely has a place in my heart now. Just be careful when you go there.



My computer's been a bitch since the start of me making this entry. That was 4pm yesterday. It is now 1pm. My laptop crashed several times, as did Firefox and Iexplorer. This entry has too much in it, and asks for too much memory. But once it's been posted it's really really done. I hope. Even editing makes my laptop crash, so I'm on my mom's computer now. In general it sucks more, but least it crashes less right now. God... it's really pissing me off that both computers keep crashing. Went to bed at 4 last night, posted the entry as Private so I wouldn't lose anything. Then copied and pasted the entire entry in a new one just now. I hope I don't have to edit anything after I save this entry...

Yes, occasionaly one of them falls out. xD

I love this man more than anything in the world.

Happy Birthday, Joss Whedon!!

OK, so, his bday in this country is already almost over, but I assume he's celebrating(*cough*working his ass off*cough*) right now.
Anyhow... may many more genius work happen in the future, as I'm sure there will, because Joss is the boss and he always delivers great stuff. The best, even.
I'm going to bed now because my head hurts like hell, but Joss: never forget, you're my one true hero. <3

Tifa: "Cloud... your hair looks like a Chocobo."
After I decided to ruin the nest of baby-birds to get the 10 Phoenix Downs.

XDDDD

Flowered Miyavi by ~PinkFish on deviantART




Not a Rookie by ~PinkFish on deviantART

Taking a break now... it`s a pretty bitchy drawing. Tougher than I thought it would be xD

I'm going to change things around here.

With my recent growing popularity among the people I know, and even some I do not know, I have decided to lock all my entries.

Never once in my life have people read all the things that I write, and even though the thought of people finding the things I write interesting is quite flattering, recent events have made me ponder about how much I want everyone to know about me. Some people know things they shouldn't, things that don't concern them, and that while I already lock a lot of my entries.
I am done having to explain to people why I write certain things. I do not know why I write, I am an artist and writing is my way to escape. It makes the things that happen in my life more real so I can face them and leave them behind me, because I hate stumbling upon the same issue all over again, several times in a row, I'd rather just deal with it straight away.

Of course my art entries will stay open, but it stays with that(that and some random lamer-entries). If you want a peek at my life and my thoughts; post a comment and I will add you. If you don't have a LiveJournal, create one.
Don't worry, I don't bite.

Painting for my moms bday. First time landscape ever. Sorry for crappy pic, the camera in my phone suxx xD

Miyavi, Ruki and Shou by ~PinkFish on deviantART

I drew this awhile ago, I just never posted it. I adore this drawing a lot. It's A5 size, specifically made as cover for my notebook. It took me about 3 hours in total. Included lunchbreak. xDD

I made this yesterday. I actually planned on giving it to Kagrra,, they were my motivation in making this. But because this is my first colored pencil drawing, and I succeeded well... I figured it would suit better in my portfolio. My portfolio mainly excists of portraits, and having something like this in there would be great for a change. So I'll keep it myself. XDDD

( More pictures )

Got back from Cologne last night.
It was so fucking awesome!!!

( This is all I can remember of it... )

The trip was great, the concerts were great, and even though my feet were frozen, lost my sleepingbag, lots of food and my dad's present which was, well, food(I had put it in Kelly's bag, but when she entered the venue they threw it out of her bag, no beverages allowed >_<), it was amazing. Everything was amazing, I got over my moodswings pretty quickly and never stopped doing what I was doing, it was a miracle I had no pain in my knees while standing for 12 hours, I got a little pain yesterday afternoon and this morning when I woke up, but I think that luck was on my side, good karma or whatever, 'cos no pain, no troubles 'cept for losing Kelly at the venue and the train being a bitch, but everything worked out well, and we had fun.
I am sorry for those who couldn't have been there, that especially is towards Carol, but; they'll come back, I know it. I wish it, for you. <3


Pics of things will be posted tomorrow or something, Kelly and I also filmed ourselves while being in the Don and then while on the train, the films will be posted on YouTube soon.

OK.
I just started eating but I still have a hard time putting something through my throat even though I'm hungry like whoa.

Anyhow.. here's my story about London:

( Read more... )

( picture time!!!!! )

( more incl the one I promised like a month ago? )

I love the first one, it was a real challange and the way it turned out... ? Makes me go like: "FUCK! Did I just draw that????? (O_o)"

Some more drawings I did overtime.
These suck and were done from the head(no ref. pic used I mean xD), here we have Hyuuga Neji(I gave him a different name cos I don't think he looks like Neji xDD), Gaara & Nara Shikamaru.


previews:



( Clicky for big ones <3 )

虎 drawing.

I finally continued with my set, here is the one of 将, and here is the one of ヒロト.
I still plan on drawing 沙我 and NAO too, but it's going to take a little while.
xD


( Bigger one under the cut )


For all my other art just check my memories or open entries, or my deviantART.

将 drawing.


My scanner sucks, so I had to edit some things with Photoshop to make it look like it actually does on paper xDDD

( Bigger one under the cut )


EDIT: better scan now!!

Couldn't wait till tomorrow to post it... so here it is...
been busy since 2pm till 0:30am... there was a break of 2 hours for dinner at my dad's, though. (so yeah... 8:30 hours it is)
*giggles*

I've been busy drawing this the entire day, and it was a great way to get my mind off things and just... draw.
It was great and I'm satisfied with how it turned out.

Note: the thumbnail is fugly, but the real size... that looks great.
^____^

What? I like my own drawings? ^____^


( large version )


to view my other drawings check out this entry.





EDIT: better scan now!!

ヒロト drawing.


( Bigger one under the cut )

I'll make a whole set with 将, 虎, 沙我 & NAO, just wait patiently for the rest
^_____^




EDIT: better scan now!!

i'd rather die than lose my hands...




original pic:

the GazettE concert, Germany
( clickie here for more!! )