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Future fatherhood [11 Jun 2008|09:09am]
[ mood | enthralled ]

Far too much has happened in the past several months for me to even dream of succinctly summarizing it all so I'll start with the present situation and go from there.
First and foremost: I'm going to be a father!  It's a grand new adventure, to be sure, and most of my daydreams these days are consumed with things to come.  For most of you this is old news but for those friends of mine who are only now hearing of this, let me catch you up.
The woman I am deeply in love with- my girlfriend of the past two years- came to me one evening* several weeks ago with a copy of McElligot's Pool by Dr. Seuss.  As she handed me the book, she looked me in the eyes and said, "I think we're going to need a few more of these."  I was shocked, elated, confused- a whole symphony of emotions in a single moment.  The one thing I was sure of ,though, was that this was something I needed to embrace.  I was committed from the very first moment.
In all honesty, it was the kind of thing we sort of assumed would happen eventually but which wasn't in our immediate plan.  Regardless of that, we've embraced it as a new direction to travel together and we're just excited about the road ahead.  We decided that night that we were fully committed to one another and that neither of us really wanted to just go out and hastily get married because of this new development.  So, no shotgun wedding this summer but we're both hoping the little one can maybe be our little flower girl or ring-bearer when we do get married some day.  :)
Yesterday, we went in to do a blood screening and got our first ultrasound which I think I was looking forward to more than her.  You see, I've had this sort of nagging anxiety for the past several weeks that something is horribly deformed and we just don't know it yet- an anxiety I've comically and perhaps morbidly characterized as the head being "inside-out".  It's become sort of a macabre joke between us that I hope the head isn't inside out.  Well, yesterday I finally got to confirm that the head is indeed properly situated and that all systems are nominal.  We have a full complement of arms, legs, and a right-side-out head at one end!  Yay!  You can't imagine how giddy and relieved I was.  We often find humor in the odd role reversals we sometimes notice in our relationship.  I was a total sap at the ultrasound yesterday and she was fairly objective about the whole experience.  It's really rather cute.
Well, there are a million more things I could share but I'm trying not to write a short novel for my first time back in a while.  Suffice it to say, I'm excited to become a father and all my friends and family have been so supportive and wonderful, it's been nothing but positive all the way around.  Chantelle (that's my love's name, BTW) has been great and our relationship has taken on a new dimension, more deeply bonded than before and every bit as great.
I hope you all are doing well and thriving wherever you're at.  Love,

_Phaedrus_

*  For posterity's sake, I'm pretty sure it was April 28th, a Monday night after I had come back from playing poker with my dad and his friends.

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YES YES YES FUCK YES! [21 Dec 2007|08:38am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

This must be love...
Something very good happened for the lady in my life, something she's been struggling towards for the better part of this year...and *I* couldn't be more thrilled and excited.  Literally.  Bursting at the seems with happiness...for her.
I apologize for being mysterious, but I don't want to break the actual news before her on LJ.  Keep an eye on Blueangelrock.  ;)

_Phaedrus_

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A very merry unbirthday to the rest of you... [02 Nov 2007|12:05pm]
[ mood | old ]

As for me, I'm officially "old" today.  Thirty doesn't feel much different so far and I'm still young at heart, so you can send happy birthday wishes or sincerest condolences.  It's all the same to me.  ;)

Pierce

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Two posts in one day?!?! [03 Jul 2007|04:59pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Just as a quick update, I totally kicked ass today.  Not so much at work, but I wrote a letter to the editor defending a friend of mine and explaining some of the latest public access (Channel 2) drama.  Sent that to New Times and Tribune.  Also, my lovely and I were finally able to secure a two bedroom place downtown and it rocks! 
FINALLY!!  SO FUCKING RELIEVED!  YES!!!   :D

_Phaedrus_

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Drive-in tonight, fireworks tomorrow! [03 Jul 2007|01:30pm]
[ mood | content ]

For those who would like to join us, Chantelle and I will be watching Ratatouille at Sunset drive-in tonight, July 3rd at 8:30.  My parents might be there too and they are wonderful!  :)

Also, a few of us are going to Cayucos for the fireworks tomorrow in case anyone would like to carpool or meet up with us there.  Please call me or send me a message if you're interested.  Have a wonderful week everyone and hopefully I'll see you very soon!

_Phaedrus_

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Movie Night on Friday! [26 Jun 2007|11:58am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

This Friday, June 29th, I'll be hosting what will likely be the last movie night at my place (looking to moving into a new place very soon).  Anyway, if you're interested we're doing an odd double feature this time around with other funny 'net videos in between.  Here are the details:
Where:  My place.  (write to me if you need directions)
When:  Friday, June 29th starting at 7:30-8PM
What:  Spike and Mike's Twisted Animation, Batteries Not Included, and maybe a little "It Came From The Net" in between.
Who:  You

As usual, you're encouraged to bring drinks, snacks, friends, and a sense of humor.  :)
See you Friday!

_Phaedrus_

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Disconnect... [16 Jun 2007|09:30am]
[ mood | relaxed ]

Helllloooooo? Anyone still reading this?
So there are a lot of reasons I personally have stopped blogging for months and months at a time:
I had been doing it for at least six years already and was/am suffering a little burnout; the place I'm most used to posting and replying from (work) has been prohibitively busy this year; more personal satisfaction and less loneliness, which sort of cuts the percentage of whiney woe-is-me type posts. :)
Ultimately, I've fallen out of the habit but not a week goes by that I don't feel a bit guilty for not paying closer attention to what my friends are up to, or for not sharing the things that are fun and exciting in my life. I'm really hoping to get a bit more involved in the coming months, not only on LJ but in social stuff in general. I've seen all the Flickr sets I'm not in and I wonder why I never planned on going. Why I didn't want to exert the energy, I guess. I think I just go through less social phases but I'm never really unhappy like that. I don't feel depressed, I just seek more solitude. It just feels more comfy not setting myself up for several rounds of small-talk sometimes. Whatever the reason, I'm wanting to overcome this mild social aversion I occasionally retreat into.
I know I've given similar speeches in sporadic posts over the past couple years but I always feel the need to explain that "it's not you, it's me". Hehe..I love the friends I've made here in San Luis and on LJ. That said, here's a quick summary of my latest excitement. If there's something going on with you that you would really like to share with me, please tell me in the comments. I do miss trading text with so many of you:

Work - I'm steadily gaining more responsibilities and more titles at my job. The most recent development is Information Assurance. I will likely be trying to qualify for my CISSP certification in the coming year. No easy test to be sure, but I'm on track to become the Information Assurance officer at my lab in addition to heading up Systems Engineering as I have been doing for the past several years. My job is getting more administrative and less technical as the years and months progress, but I'm finding myself alright with that. I'm not quite as jazzed as I used to be about solving that obscure problem with the automated systems or setting up new servers, etc.

Personal - My relationship with C. is still going strong. Neither of us are perfect human beings but damn do we know how to communicate. She doesn't flip out on me when I tell her the hard truths and she likewise feels encouraged to share things with me. I'm not sure I ever knew a love relationship could feel so comfortable and stress-free. We are starting to look for a two-bedroom place to move into together. We both want lots of space so we can each have a personal space to retreat into and work on our projects if necessary. Still haven't found a place we both love yet but we're trying not to hurry or settle.
Also, I'm not going to Burning Man this year.  No, it has nothing to do with being p-whipped or any of that other nasty stuff.  I really need a year off if not from the planning fuss, I need to not spend so much money this summer.  My dream is to save enough to go visit Japan next year for the Cherry Blossom Festival (with C., of course).  Burning Man, unfortunately, does not fit into that plan very well.  Plus, I'm feeling lazy.  So there!  :P

Alright, I suppose I could write a small novel and it's taking something of an effort to cut things off there, but I'm hoping some of you will actually read this instead of saying "Shit, that's too long!  *skip*"
Have a beautiful weekend everyone! 
I'm going to see Monster Trucks for the first time tonight!  What a hoot!

_Phaedrus_

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Snowpunks trip and catching up... [23 Jan 2007|10:05am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Less than a month to go and I'm excited to be going on (and organizing) the second annual Snowpunks trip to Tahoe. Like last year we have two huge cabins- one with an indoor hot tub, one with a sauna- and each with an amazing view of North Lake Tahoe. We're not big skiers so we'll be sledding, partying, sipping hot coco, making lewd snowmen (and women) with enormous genitals. You know, the usual things people do in the snow. :)
Speaking of which, there are still a few vacancies in the cabin with the hot tub if anyone is interested. Please contact me ASAP if you are. We're going on Feb. 16-19, President's Day weekend, and it's the usual crowd of local hooligans you've come to know and love- think Fandango, Rocky Horror, slopunks and the like.

I know, my journal has been a bit...uh...sparse this year. To read it, you would swear I did nothing but go on cool vacations and then disappear into some kind of void where nothing ever happens in between. Nothing could be further from the truth, of course. I'm having trouble finding a good place to start, so I suppose I'll start with the conclusion of my last trip- the one mentioned in the post previous to this one.
C. and I had a pretty amazing time on the cruise, all things considered. The first five days or so were great. We drank, we gambled, laid out by the pool, took in some art, saw the sights at the ports of call...oh, and we got all dressed up for dinners and such. I must say, we made a striking pair. Believe me, I'll be the first to tell you I'm no adonis but damned if I don't look fucking sharp in a brand new suit with a woman like C. on my arm.
The last few days of that cruise sucked, however, because I got the strep throat of Cthulu or something. I mean I've had strep throat many times in my life, but this was something special. Anyway, C. took amazingly good care of me all through the agaonizing few days of getting off the boat and flying back to SLO. I'll say this, though: going through tough times brings people together. Even though we both saw each other in our worst, least attractive state on that trip, C. and I grew all the closer for it.
More recently, she has been going through some very difficult times with her family. Out of respect for her, I won't go into the details but suffice it to say, I've been there for her as she was there for me when I needed her and, again, it seems to have strengthened that bond between us- that bond you can only achieve through facing adversity together.
That, I suppose, partially explains my absence from LJ. I've been a little too busy dealing with life itself and the complexities of life in a relationship- one that has proved to be both highly rewarding and meaningful to me. I think a lot of my posting in the past may have come from an inner sense of loneliness and a need to connect that has been sated, somewhat, by this new and beautiful "nation of two", as Kurt Vonnegut would put it. We try not use the word "love" around each other too much for fear of diluting it's meaning, but that's exactly what it is. Love. :)
Lots more to share, but maybe another time. I have things to do. Hope all is well with the rest of you out there in LJ land. I must admit, I've missed some of you quite a bit. Ciao, darlings!

_Phaedrus_

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Life of Luxury... [13 Oct 2006|05:26pm]
[ mood | excited ]

First it was Burning Man; now, I'm going on a Caribbean cruise for 7 days. I've been using crazy amounts of vacation time this year but so far it's all been worth it. Anyway, I'm going to be gone for a while. I'm sorry to be missing out on the breast cancer fundraiser, the zombie party, etc. but...well...it's a damn CRUISE, ya know?! :D
So, [info]blueangelrock and I will both be out of the loop until the 24th or so. Can't wait to get on that massive ship! Woohoo!
We'll see you all when we get back. Ciao!

_Phaedrus_

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Meme...I got tagged! [10 Oct 2006|09:19pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.

Tagged by Jedipussytricks

1) I have a numb spot and atrophied muscle in my left shoulder. It's the result of a fateful snowboarding trip in high school where I dislocated my shoulder and severed the nerve to my deltoid muscle.

2) My dad is more of a musician than I am. He plays guitar, bass, piano, accordian, banjo, and he sings. I play bass and some guitar and piano, but I'm not much of a singer.

3) I almost killed myself with my bass recently. Note to self: ensure all plugs in the house are grounded and don't play barefoot.

4) In jr. high, I read Clavell's "Shogun" and Michener's "Hawaii". They mostly bored me at the time but it made me feel grown up to read my parents' books.

5) I am downright fascinated by the concept of the space elevator and Bigelow Aerospace's inflatable space modules. It seems far-fatched and even crackpot to some but, then again, the idea of the airplane was greeted with great skepticism 150 years ago. I'm fed up with miopic attitude of every generation's so-called academic community.
In the words of Arther C. Clark, one of the originators of the space elevator concept, "The space elevator will be built about 50 years after everyone stops laughing."

6) I have been a resident of Second Life since 2003. I own a small plot of virtual land there and have even built a small virtual home. Though I am really only an occasional visitor, I'm hooked on the idea. I read every scrap of news about SL that I can find. I am an avid futurist.

And the lucky winners are: gjunell, ubiquity2k, slownewsday, isis_page, rustymaggot, mayhem_chaos

_Phaedrus_

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Playa bound! [25 Aug 2006|03:36pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Yay! I'm finally packed and ready to hit the road. All financial worries have been allayed for the time being and I'm ready for a heaping helping of otherworldly weirdness in the desert. :)
*sigh* I'm going to miss my girl though. She's been very supportive and helpful in my preparations despite the fact that I'm leaving her here for the next week and a half. Matter of fact, she's been totally amazing, all things considered. I'll be thinking of her fondly while I'm away. Oh, how I savor the bittersweetness of life...
Good bye, all. I'll look forward to catching up with you on my return to civilization (Sept. 5th). Mwah!

_Phaedrus_

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Things work out... [24 Aug 2006|12:10am]
[ mood | grateful ]

Words cannot express the gratitude I feel right now. Thank you to all of you who have offered advice or monetary help. As it turns out, [info]gjunell, a kind spirit whom many of you know (and a close neighbor of mine) has stepped up and helped me out. I am now at least certain that all the time, money, and emotional energy I've invested in my preparations will not be in vain...and that is a HUGE relief. Thank you, Greg. You really saved my ass and I can't tell you how much this gesture means to me.
As for all the other financial foo, well I'll just take it as it comes. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. Ideally, I'll be able to get my rent money back and write a new check and go to the Burn on my own funds. Then I'll go to the bank where their excellent customer service will sympathize with my plight and wipe the overdrafts off my record. Yes, that is what would happen in a perfect world- but I'm far from counting on it. Honestly the biggest thing I'm bummed about now is the black mark this has put on an otherwise sterling banking history. Drat!
'Nuff with the negatives though. This little episode, painful as it was, forced some overdue introspection and THAT was all very positive. In a nutshell, I realized I must have done a few things right in my life to be surrounded by such an amazing "family" of friends who would all eagerly step up to help me out in my time of crisis. I really could never have expected such an outpouring of help and sympathy.
There's also one person I've neglected to mention until now who also came to my rescue tonight. My special lady, my girlfriend, my SO- whatever the kids are calling it these days. She gave me the understanding and care I needed tonight and there, too, I felt I must have done something right to have someone caring for me so well. It's all been rather positive and brings a happy tear to my eye in the telling.
Love to you all.
I'm (still) going to BURNING MAN!

_Phaedrus_

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FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!1111 [23 Aug 2006|06:12pm]
[ mood | enraged ]

So, that thing in the desert I do every year. Burning Man. Yeah, I hope I can still go to that. You see, as a consciencious renter, I dropped off my rent check early and clearly wrote "Post until 9-1-06" on it to ensure they wouldn't try to cash it before my next direct deposit.
What did they do? They cashed it immediately, draining my checking account, overdrafting straight through all my savings and dipping into my credit card by about $150.00...
Yes, my account balance actually read like this on the website:
Checking: 0.00
Savings: 0.00

Just in case it hasn't totally sunk in, I'm totally FUCKING DESTITUTE right now because of someone's clerical error and I'm supposed to leave for Burning Man on Friday. How in the FUCK am I going to do that when I have negative moneys in my checking and savings?!
GOD DAMMIT I'M FUCKING PISSED!

*deep breaths*

Of course, I can't reach anyone who can help me on the phone now so I have to just wait until tomorrow to straighten this out. As soon as they're open tomorrow morning, I will calmly and politely explain the situation and request they refund my rent money to me. Then I'll write them another check and try to be a little clearer about what "Post until" means. If, however, they do not see reason I may have to spray the entire office with an uzi while cackling maniacally.

_Phaedrus_

UPDATE: I'm an idiot and forgot to write "Do Not Post Until". Surely my property managers rightfully concluded that I meant them to take my money right away and give it back to me at the first of the month.

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Hello from busyland! (And the year in review) [20 Jul 2006|10:17am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Hello, darlings. I've fallen off the face of LiveJournal for the past three weeks or so. Work's been very busy and I just don't feel like it when I'm at home so I really haven't been keeping up on your lives lately. I hope everyone is doing well. Please update me if you like. Give me the highlights. Tell me the stuff I definitely shouldn't have missed...

...or just say hi. :)

As for myself, life is good. I'm dating again and this time it's been unusually stress-free and fun. So, I'm happy about that. Also got a killer party I'm going to in San Francisco this weekend (Fandango fundraiser). If all goes as planned, I should have two lovely dates on my arm for that- a close friend and the girl I'm currently dating. Very much looking forward to that.
Also, I just realized it's been a year since I quit smoking cigarettes and it's been one hell of a good year, all things considered. When I reflect on it, I've been a very lucky boy:
I've had the opportunity to date and/or befriend some amazing women in that time. My job has gone from terribly dull to busy and rewarding. My eating habits have improved overall (although I've fallen a bit off the regular exercise wagon). Mostly, though, my self-image has improved as I've already stated here a few times before, and that has made all the difference.
So raise a pint with me. Here's to happiness and personal growth. Cheers to you all! Love,

_Phaedrus_

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Viva Las Vegas! [02 Jun 2006|04:16pm]
[ mood | good ]

Tomorrow night, I fly out to Las Vegas. Originally the trip was for a wedding but that's been pushed back. Now I have four days of care-free fun to look forward to. That means I won't be seeing any of you until Thursday, most likely.
At any rate, I'm definitely ready for this week to be over. If anyone has been waiting to hear back from me, I apologize. I usually handle most of my correspondence from work but the first part of this week was crazy busy. I got called out of bed Tuesday morning because the mailserver took a dive. Then, I ended up screwing up my own workstation pretty badly. Now I'm the only one in the lab working in a full Linux environment. Figured it was the right time so I made the switch to Ubuntu (Breezy) for my desktop. So far so good, but I have to admit there are a lot of annoyances- stuff that I could have done so easily in Windows that is requiring a lot of research for this environment. I'm sure it will just take time and familiarity but *sigh* it took me the last few days just to have a truly usable (and useful) system.
So, that's why I haven't read any of your lovely LJ's lately and probably won't be reading them for another week. I hope you're all doing well. I am. :)
Mwah! Ciao, darlings.

_Phaedrus_

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Cheer me up... [04 May 2006|03:59pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Today has been a stressfull, undeniably shitty workday.  Please cheer me up.

_Phaedrus_

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Eloquence... [01 May 2006|10:24am]
[ mood | impressed ]

I know a lot of really smart people who do interesting things and write interesting stuff.  Just wanted to say that I thank my lucky stars every day for knowing people like [info]mayhem_chaos, [info]gorillashaman, [info]giantlaser, [info]elsparquito, [info]themselves and others.  I realise I've left out several of you who write interesting stuff on a regular basis but I wanted to post compliments to these folks because they all posted stuff in the last couple days that really impressed me.  So thanks for your eloquence, your candor, your intelligence.  You make my life a little more bountiful with your thoughts, your observations and your willingness to share.  I love it.  Keep it up!

_Phaedrus_

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Tidbits... [24 Apr 2006|02:45pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

I just got one of those Nigerian scam emails you always hear about (only it's from Dubai this time).  Just to waste their time, I wrote back pretending to be very excited at the great opportunity they offered and asking why they chose me as the benificiary of $17 million in unclaimed funds.  I really hope they write me back.  This ought to be good.  :)

Last night I thought about that old belief that your life flashes before your eyes when you're about to die.  I wondered about porn stars and if their final moments are like watching one long porno with slightly more plot and dialogue.

[geek]
My student admin told me about a novel programming language called Piet today:
http://www.dangermouse.net/esoteric/piet.html
The code itself is written in visual representation.  I must say, human creativity and ingenuity never cease to amaze me.  Check out the sample programs at this link:
http://www.dangermouse.net/esoteric/piet/samples.html
I want to see what the DeCSS algorithm looks like in Piet.  I think I would print it, frame it, and hang it in my study...
[/geek]

Life's good.  That's all for now.

_Phaedrus_
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It's finally happened... [19 Apr 2006|12:58pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I remember last year when LJ was bought by Six Apart, all the oldbies who had been designing and running LJ from the beginning swore up and down that this would not introduce some new commercial element to the mix.  A lot of us were worried about this exact thing happening.  As a matter of fact, in the early days (2001) when I first started my journal I was preaching the gospel of LJ to anyone who was interested and the biggest point I always made was: "It's a free, high-quality service, and you're never confronted with banner ads or the other commercial annoyances you normally encounter on other free services."  I very specifically recommended it based on the fact that there were no banner ads.  They made all their money by offering more features to paid accounts and that seemed to work rather well.  But today...
*sigh*
Today, on the main page, they're finally announcing a new kind of account- a "sponsored" account.  It means you get the features of a paid account without paying as long as you are willing to display ads in your journal.  Yeah yeah, I know...capitalism...TNSTAAFL...market pressures...etc.   I really don't care.  This is a sad day for LiveJournal. 
I'm biased though.  I only rode the freebie wagon for the first year I was here and I have been a paying customer ever since.  My only hope is that this sponsored account feature won't be as popular as I fear it will be.

_Phaedrus_

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I just got back from my lunch break... [13 Apr 2006|01:21pm]
[ mood | Disgruntled? ]

...and it's pretty much the most beautiful day of the year outside.  Light breeze, sun, perfectly mild temperature, fresh growth everywhere...I think I'd rather be anywhere but this windowless office right now.

_Phaedrus_

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