Eva and Cristoff had their wedding this week in a place called Venice. Its a place where the streets are waterways that you use small boats to get around. Its quite fascinating to see everyone get around. Though once again they gave us a hotel room that is bigger than any of our apartments. I'm not quite sure I understand why they keep giving us this much room.

The wedding itself was great, I have never seen Eva look so beauitful before, or Cristoff look so happy before. In fact everyone seemed happy, yet so many of them were crying. I guess its just a human thing I would never understand, how you shed tears when you are happy. I don't get how you can be so happy, you are sad and cry.

There were also customs in the ceremony that I did not understand, nothing like any of the weddings back home. But I don't think I needed to understand them, or the exact details, they had the same meanings as the important ones back home. Two people devoting one another for eternity, promising to be loyal to each other and not to curse or harm each other. Except, there was talk of them devoting themselves out of love, not for political reasons. No word about how this will strenghthn the family, or it will bring peace. It was only talk of love, which is rarely mentioned back home. They promised each other that they would love one another in harmony, no matter what happened, which I don't remember hearing in the weddings back home.

I think its a nice change.

The reception was a bit weird, India kept joking about how it was like a twins convention. Though I didn't really find the humor and pointed out that Yuffie was not my twin and I would either kill him or myself if it turned out like it did for all the Covaults. Which of course Yuffie magically heard about this and would not leave me alone about it, which I was not in the mood for. Though other than that, it was pretty enjoyable.

Everyone has mentioned that I seem quieter than usual. And I know I have been. Izzy is the only one who hasn't asked why because she knows the reasons, and she's simply waiting for me to think everything through. Personally I wish I could just shrug off seeing Kaley again. I never loved her, and I still don't. Seeing her after all these years doesn't spark any emotions like that. I love Izzy, I'm well aware that i do and thats not going to change just because of Kaley. But hearing her tell me what happened to her after she left, how I messed up her life, that isn't so easy to let go of. And for all I know, she is lying and just made that up so I would feel bad. But I know that something happened, because that was not the same Kaley I left. She looked so much older and sadder, nothing like the young, spoiled, carefree girl that I remembered.

And even if I don't love her, even if I would prefer to go the rest of my life without seeing her, I wish I could make it better for her. I wish I could find a way to the last four years go away for her, because she didn't deserve it. I mean, thats what I do in my life right? Make things better for people, slay the demons that are preying on people, help stop the bad guys, try to improve the world. Even my job with Izzy, I help locate things that people have lost. Yet, the one time I don't know anything that i can do to make it better, is the one time where I'm the one to blame. Ironic how it works that way.

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