This couldn't be more ghetto

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 07:48:23 GMT

so....

i'm graduating on saturday and i'm really scared and stressed out. there's just too much stuff going on!

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 06:30:01 GMT

flickr?

add me! hahaheather

one day i'll update this thing. i do read daily though!

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 15:33:44 GMT

exciting shiiit!

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 21:51:44 GMT

oh my god!!!

so my spring break is starting to look up! kurtis and i were going to go to san fran, but he had a job interview and got the job!!!

thennn i just check to see if my grades were up, but they were just on my transcripts. and i gottt...

Hula-A

Intro health careers-B

Human sexuality-A

PE for elementary school teachers-B-

Creative Drama for elementary school teachers-A

OH MY GOD, i'm so excited. i was sooo close to honor roll too. if it wasn't for that B-. i have a 3.46!

i seriously thought in like two of those classes i was going to get a C. and was pretty freaked out. but now my insurance is lowered and my gpa is higher! yes!!!

and we're going to seattle on friday and i got some money and i can't wait to spend it! and go to ikea!!!

i love my boyfriend!

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 01:06:36 GMT

yesterday kurtis and i went to the movies. and when we were leaving he said, do you want some candy? so, i looked in the bag and there was a ring in it!

finally. FINALLY! he gave me my claddagh! i'm so excited. it's the prettiest ring i've ever seen. EVERRR!!! i love it so much! and him of course! :)

so, i'm off to monmouth. yes! it's dead week thank god! and the flavor of love finale is on tonight, too.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 18:48:47 GMT

i just spent a hell of a lot of money. but i'm pretty sure it will be worth it. i just wish that may would come sooner so kurtis and i can go on an adventure!

stop being a psycho.

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 01:53:02 GMT

things are getting a little better.

i'm babysitting on saturday with kurtis, so it should be fun because it's during the day.

the sasquatch! schedule was posted, so i'm fucking excited. oh my god i almost peed my pants excitement. it's going to cost like 300 bucks for kurtis and i, but it will be worth it.

and i register for classes next tuesday and got my schedule all figured out. i only have classes on tuesdays and thursdays. and i only have 41 credits left to graduate!!! it's such an accomplishment. i can't wait! the other day i got to write the name that i wan't on my degree. insanity!!!

anddddd motion city soundtrack, the plain white t's, okgo, and the spill canvas are on sunday!!! i got our tickets the other day. it will be a lot of fun hopefully!

and i love kurtis so much, i couldn't ask for a better more loving boyfriend. he's amazing!

it's all for the best

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 07:30:44 GMT

heavy stuff has been going down lately.

stressful times with the roommate and his girlfriend, much tension.

my mom's boss died on monday, so that day kinda sucked, i was having a real bad case of the mondays. went to the funeral yesterday. tried to keep it together so my mom wouldn't cry more. dead bodies freak me out. i'm afraid they'll jump up or something, even though i know they're dead.

thennnnn, this really awesome lady, who i've known my whole life. her name is clara and she's one of the funniest, caring, people i've ever known, is dying. she probably would have died yesterday if my mom didn't go to her house. we went and saw her in the hospital and i started crying a little bit. they were taking her blood pressure and she was in pain and i just couldn't watch it. i tried to get her to eat, which she did a little. part of me thinks she was only doing it to make me happy. i think she's just ready to die. she's 91 years old. that's such a long time. and there's a bunch of shit going on with her neighbors and how they're messing up her estate and want to take everything and screw her over. i can't handle her dying right now. i told my mom to let me know what happens, because i know my grandma won't tell me till a week later because she wants me to concentrate on school, which is understandable. it's still stressful.

coming down here i got the pain in my stomach i used to get last year. i'm just too anxious and stressed out. i guess this midterm isn't helping out either. it's due tomorrow and i barely started. and another paper, i'm sure if i tell my teacher what's been happening she'll let me do it on wednesday.

tomorrow i have to go and get everything figured out. register for summer, get my holds off, apply for the interdiscipinary studies program, who knows what else. at least there is no work, which is good.

i'm excited for next term. last term of the year, and i get to teach crafts to the first and second graders. awesome stuff and...15 bucks an hour!!!
and in other good news, i thought motion city soundtrack was march 26th, but it's february 26th, meaning sunday! so kurtis and i are going to go to it! yess!

it's valentimes day!!!

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 07:54:23 GMT

my valentines day has been wonderful! my sweet boyfriend made me a heart shaped pizza with all my favorite toppings on it. and i made us some chocolate covered strawberries with sprinkles on them! he got me some really sweet things and wrote a wonderful letter to me!!! now i get to go study for my two midterms i have tomorrow and get some loving!!! yesssss!!!

hope everyone had a good valentines, like i did!!!

i'll try it too.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 08:06:40 GMT

http://kevan.org/johari?name=_paralleltosky

lkughuig

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 07:23:09 GMT

so, i'm alive. i never go to the library or get online except for like...once a week.

i haven't been sleeping alot and it really sucks. my stomach is hurting. and i've been feeling really anxious lately, for no reason. and i'm having issues with always being by myself. it's not good.

thursday i'm going to eugene for the first time ever for emily's birthday. i'm pretty excited. then i'm going home this weekend. and next wednesday is of montreal. so i'm excited for that too. maybe that's why i'm so anxious? i don't know, it's been like this even when i'm not looking forward to anything. i just feel like i'm going along and i'm in a daze all the time. i dunno.

i have lots of pe work to do and only 40 mins to do it in before the library closes, so i better get to it.

drugggggsss.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 06:25:56 GMT

myspace is beginning to be everywhere. it's annoying. it's on the news, newspaper, saturday night live, wife swap, the radio. it's crazy because i've been on it for two and a half years almost. and people are just now knowing about it.

i really like just staying at home and not going to monmouth. i love it there, but sometimes. like the night before i'm leaving, i want to just stay here. today just kept getting worse and worse. i think i just need to go to bed.

but school is already so stressful. i don't know what i'm going to do anymore. everyday it just comes closer and closer to me having to choose what to do. there are so many 'what if's that it's too much to handle. hopefully my new advisor, which i'm so excited about, will help me out. i know she has a lot of insight.

i went to rookies with em and al the other night, it was a lot of fun. i kareoked, never done it before, but it's so much fun. hopefully we'll go again on thursday too. emily's birthday is coming up, so we're all going out on the town, i can't wait. and of montreal is coming up too! i bought kurtis' and i's tickets yesterday. it's gonna be a blast. and maybe when i come home next, tim and i can go out. cuz i was just leaving monmouth when he called this week.

oh bird flu. and i miss my boyfriend. and now my mom can find out what i'm doing on myspace, or at least the news will tell her in a few minutes. haha.

cheaters is on!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 08:05:49 GMT

last night was fun. kurtis drank with me. it was weird, but fun at the same time. i'm glad he's lightening up about the drinking thing. we rang in the new year and then made out. that part was a lot of fun. we watched ren and stimpy too.

today we got lost a lot. i couldn't find my way somewhere and my mom wasn't helping much. before getting lost, we went to troutdale outlet mall and i got some sweet slip w/ no backs, aqua vans, they slip off too easily so i think tomorrow or the next day, i'm going to sew on some elastic at my grandmas. and i got some nice shirts for 4.99 at the gap.

i bought new stencil paper and some make up stuff. it's almost time to go back to school. i'm leaving on wednesday. sad. i don't want to go back. i don't want to face monmouth anymore. i'm tired of the town.

tomorrow i'm seeing some gay cowboys in brokeback mountain with tim. although i REALLY would want to see cheaper by the dozen 2 a little more than that. but it's okay. it'll be fun.

baby 81

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 12:27:41 GMT

ugh. i hate trying to go to sleep earlier than usual and then not being able to sleep.

i think i'm ready to go back to monmouth now. yeah. i am. hopefully i'll get to go down friday and see how things are at the old apartment on main street. it was nice living across the street from US bank. now i have to go to salem to do my banking. oh well. but yeah, friday is pay day.

i have to get up in three hours to go out with kurtis' mom, grandma and brother. i should probably go to sleep soon.

i made a tshirt today!

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 09:07:52 GMT

christmas is over :(

for xmas eve, i went to kurtis' granny's house. it was pretty fun. a lot different than my cousins house. there was still little kids running all around. but about two times more people.

i couldn't fall asleep last night. if i were five i would have thought santa was on the roof, the wind was so loud last night. scary shit. i woke up at like...10 i think and opened presents. i got little things in my stocking. like a 7-eleven gift card, shaving cream, lifesavers, gum, um...i don't remember what else. i also got a liscense plate cover with hearts and stars, which matches perfectly to the color of my car. and i got this candle thing i wanted. and a chain for the necklace kurtis got me last valenversary. and a vanity, which i knew about. and a fricken nice flat panel monitor. yesss. i'm so excited. now i'll have room on my desk. and it'll be all new and shit. and i got three target gift cards totalling 60 bucks. so sweet. from my aunt and uncle, kurtis' mom and his grandma. and i gotttttt money. lots of it. and...kurtis got me these playmobil things i wanted. and he made me a t-shirt(awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww) and he found these flamingo earrings. he said he's gonna buy me more stuff when he gets money from prime time. it'll be nice to be the one being spoiled for a little while, not that i don't like showering him with gifts. i think he liked the stuff i got him.

now tomorrow comes my favorite part of xmas! after christmas shopping!!! and i get to spend the whole day with my baby and we're going to spend some money. ahhhh. i can't wait!!!

ohh and kurtis parents got this portable sirus radio thing for the both of us. so we can listen to it in my car. ahh. it's so awesome, but it's kinda hard to do when you're all alone. you can't tell what station it's on.

okay i'm going to go eat a little leftover and watch more blind date.

hope everyone had a wonderful day!!!

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 08:45:25 GMT

so over the summer. audrey, haley, and myself were at haleys house listening to some NOW cd and we made this pretty awesome video. and it's in night vision! and audrey found a way to put it online too.

http://www.youtube.com/v/G0fgjx5FCWY

check it out!

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 11:13:56 GMT

man, it is late. my sleep clock is going to be fucked up when school starts.

i got paid today. that was pretty nice. my uncle is pretty awesome for letting me get paid so soon. i've been having troubles with my bank accounts so we're closing them at US bank. seriously they have been fuckers to us for way too long. hopefully bank of america will be better, since i do get thousands of dollars in loans from them every couple of months. i think with my money i'm going to nordstrom rack downtown and buying this jacket i wanted, but didn't have the funds to get. and something for kurtis tomorrow too.

i started working on his xmas present tonight. i hope he likes it. i don't know if i did a good job on it or not. i feel so bad because i got him a shit load of stuff before when i had money and didn't get my mom much. so tomorrow i'm going to get her this whisk she wanted. i got her somethings at the dollar tree with my last nine dollars and i found walmart over on 82nd in portland and stood in line for a half an hour to get her some food for xmas. because i eat all of hers.

tomorrow night will be the first time in like...18 years that i'm not going to haley's house for xmas eve. it's gonna be weird. and sad. i remember going to her house and getting online for most of the time and looking at lj and friendster and myspace and eating lots of food. next year i'm going though. i'm starting every other year. i'm a little nervous...well a lot nervous about going to kurtis' granny's. i love his granny and grandpa and all of the family members that i've met so far. but there's going to be so many people and i feel like i have to impress them all for some reason. considering we've been together for three christmases and i've never met them. last year his granny made us a quilt. that was so sweet and it had tulips on it! my favorite flower. but i never get to use it. only when we stay the night together. it'd be sweet if she made another one that i could use.

i'm pretty tired right now. kurtis is probably out somewhere cuz he hasn't gotten online in awhile and i haven't talked to him since like...9 and i should go to bed so i can get shit done tomorrow before everything closes.

i hope everyone has a great holiday!!!

you smell like robots!

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 08:13:48 GMT

so yeah...

i've been home for a little while now. and here's what i remember...

saturday: worked at my grandparents to earn money and by work, i mean, make wagon wheel cookies. had an amazing day of getting lost with kurtis. we went up to council crest park, soo beautiful. then drove around for fucking an hour trying to find a place to park near the pita pit. just when i give up and decided to actually go to a parking garage, the closest one is full. so we park by pioneer place and go eat there. we saw deigo, but he didn't give us any free juice from booyah juice or whatever it's called. we did eat the best wraps in the whole world at wrapture, i think it was it's called. so delicious. we went to borders, i really don't like that one. and nordstrom rack, which would have been awesome if i had some money. then we got lost again. i was having a bad sense of direction day. but we went to zoolights. amazing. i loved it. even though it was freezing, i wrote a shirt, sweatshirt, wool coat, and down coat and was still cold. and i didn't wear socks with my slip on vans that are wearing thin. when we got on the zootrain, i put on my golves that were in my purse, and put them on my feet. they were a little warmer, at least i could feel my feet. i also got kurtis some cutie things at the gift shop and we got awesome glasses to look at xmas lights with. except mine kinda suck compared to his. i think we should go to the hospital and see if they have them again. they had them last year, but by the time xmas came, kurtis couldn't find them anywhere. hmm..we went to coldstone and visited my haley. and we had some ice cream, that kurtis ate most of :( and i think we went to target somewhere in there. and i saw my aunt and uncle at toys'r'us.

sunday: we woke up really late, we were going to visit kurtis' granny. but that didn't happen. i got on some clothes and eric picked me up to take me to my first day of hard labor. we dropped off kurtis and that's when it started snowing. ahh.. i love the snow! so we went to paul's resturant and re-carpeted the whole thing. i got a chance to work with all of my uncles at the same time, which was pretty cool. we didn't get done until 3 in the morning. 12 in a half hours of working. ugh. i was so tired.

monday: slept allllllllllllllllllllllllllll day long. soo nice for my sore body.

tuesday: eric got me and we went to the warehouse and got some glue shit. and went to the airport to work on some rooms. we had to re-carpet the whole first floor. that was pretty tiring. but i learned a lot of stuff and i got to wear this pouch with a knife in it. and use a screwdriver. and a nail gun. i was feeling pretty strong. until my uncle told me to go pick up scrap. worked for 10.5 hours.

today: worked alittle. there wasn't much for me to do condsidering we're almost done. so i don't have to work tomorrow. which will be pretty nice. we worked for 9.5 hours today.

the moral of this story is: people that complain about having to work until midnight or having to work more than 5 hours at a single time at a chain store or some place like that, where you sell things or make things. can kiss my ass. seriously. no one specificaly that i'm talking to here. but i've worked more in three days than i do in two months at the elementary school. and now i know why i'm going to be a teacher and not a carpet layer. just wait until you have to get a real job. i knew this job would be a wake up call. i just didnt know the days were going to be so long. people that work for a long time in one job in a single day, feel free to complain. i now know where you're coming from.

so...tomorrow. i think i'm spending time with my love. hopefully. we're going to make our gingerbread house!!! and...i think make gingerbread cookies. and i found an awesome place for us to go. but i have to wait until i have some money. and it's almost xmas!!! yay!!!

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 09:37:31 GMT

yes...fall term is over! i hate waiting for grades. it's the worst couple of days, not knowing if you passed or not.

i had a fun day with my mom today. we've been spending way too much time together. she made me really upset and i almost cried, but she was just confused. i love her though. she bought me stuff today too. like some fabric and some pictures. and a spudtrooper, but don't tell kurtis. it's for us for xmas.

jason bought emily a 800 dollar video camera for xmas. fucking insane, but he said it was for both of them. i wish i had that much money to spend on a camera, but i guess i don't really need one. my digital is good for me!

my mom dyed my hair the other night. it was supposed to be dark brown and it is. REALLY dark brown. it's going to take some getting use to. i haven't had dark hair since early in the summer.

i'm so excited because kurtis and i's two year is on wednesday!!! i've been working on his present all night. i hope i get it done in time and i hope he likes it. there's so much i want to do for him but i don't have the supplies or money or time. i don't know what we're doing that night. we have to work in the afternoon. so yeah...hopefully just stay at my apartment or something. ahhh i can't wait!!! i love him so much and these past TWO years have been amazing. i never thought i would ever ever be with someone for that long. even though we did break up for two months, it was like we were together. we talked every night before i went to bed and saw each other a lot still. but who cares it's nothing compared to two years! i looooooooooooooooooove him!!!!!!!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 08:57:19 GMT

blah blah blah

coldieeeeeee!

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 07:55:17 GMT

well. lot's and lot's of stuff has been going on. kurtis came down and stayed for a week. it was pretty damn fun. i love him.

thanksgiving was nice seeing haley, eric and hannah, but my mom freaking out wasn't so nice.

i'm excited for this term to be over, 3 more days of classes. i don't really have much going on the rest of the week. just a huge ass art project. and the tree lighting tomorrow. hell yes! and...my baby is coming down. i can't wait!!! and i'm getting sick, that's no good. and a surprise party this weekend for someone, let's hope it can be pulled off. i'm bad...REALLY REALLY bad at surprises.

but on a really sad note, i found out my roommate from freshman year died this summer. it sucks that it took so long to get the news and even more so that she died. it's just really strange. not like, i'm crying all the time upset, because we were never close or anything. i can remember some memorable talks, but nothing special. we just didn't connect. but it's still really sad. the song i've been obsessed with is kind of fitting with this too.

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today
As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds
But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?..

um yeah.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 19:23:01 GMT

it's snowing down here!

it's not really snow perhaps because it's mixed with rain and not sticking, but still!!!

haha.

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 06:45:23 GMT

a boyfriend survey

His name?: kurtis micheal trimbo
His age?: 19
How many years between you?: 1 year 10 months. haha.
How long have you been together?: 23 months 2 weeks and 3 days
Eye color?: brown
Hair color?: black
Hair style?: smooshy in the front and kinda down in the back
How did you meet?: on friendster, then myspace again.
How serious is it?: pretty serious
Do you love him?: Yes, with all my heart
Does he love you?: Yes, i'm pretty sure at least
Do your parents like him?: yes
Do you trust him?: i've had some issues with him and still do, but i'm working on it. i do for the most part though.
Trust him enough to drive your car?: if he had his liscense i would
Would you share a toothbrush with him?: yeah
Does he let you wear his pants?: i don't need to wear his, but he would
Do you have a shirt of his to sleep in that smells like him?: no, he use to have one of my socks that smelt like so pink and he would sleep with it. but i don't know if he still has it.
Do you like the way he smells?: most of the time :)
Can you picture having kids with him?: of course i can
What do you like the most about him?: everything about him pretty much, that he loves me and i love him.
What bothers you the most about him?: he has a short fuse and always says, "goddamnit heather"
Does he have a temper?: most definately
What did you give him for the last gift giving occasion?: i bought him a watch from burger king last weekend, but for our 23rd month i got him a boba fett book, a russian action figure, and a little thing that says 'i flip for you'
Does he have a cute nickname for you?: headher and princess
Do you have a nickname for him?: kortus, prince, sunshine
Do you think he’s cute?: of course
Who’s more sensitive to the touch?: he is
Does he understand you?: most of the time
Does he give good hugs?: yes! really good ones that crack my back.
Is he romantic?: when he tries to be, he succeedes
What part of his personality attracted you to him first?: he was really funny and cute
What’s his best physical trait?: smile and eyes
Is there anything you wish he’d change about himself?: i don't know, maybe more motivation. which i think he's working on. and if he wasn't so tired all the time when he's around me
Do you find him controlling?: no
What's the cutest thing about him?: when he smiles really cute and give me a hug right afterwards
Do you think you could do better?: i don't know to do any better, he's the best as it gets.
What does he do that makes you feel REALLY good? comforts me and talks to me
Does he make you happy?: yes
Do you remember the EXACT moment you fell for him?: yes, during xmas break when we got in a car accident, we had been together for like a week, but it was then that i knew i could trust him and that he was for me! :)

Sat, 26 Nov 2005 09:45:20 GMT

i love my boyfriend kurtis!!! i had the best 24 hours with him. i love love love love love him!!!

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 08:35:51 GMT

ohhh! and i found out today i get a fricken month off of school! we don't go back until january 9th! buttt i'm still down here the week after finals. that's okay though, i'll manage. the suckiest thing is not having any money. hopefully we can have the lady wait for the rent check or something. i hate money. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it!