man, it is late. my sleep clock is going to be fucked up when school starts.

i got paid today. that was pretty nice. my uncle is pretty awesome for letting me get paid so soon. i've been having troubles with my bank accounts so we're closing them at US bank. seriously they have been fuckers to us for way too long. hopefully bank of america will be better, since i do get thousands of dollars in loans from them every couple of months. i think with my money i'm going to nordstrom rack downtown and buying this jacket i wanted, but didn't have the funds to get. and something for kurtis tomorrow too.

i started working on his xmas present tonight. i hope he likes it. i don't know if i did a good job on it or not. i feel so bad because i got him a shit load of stuff before when i had money and didn't get my mom much. so tomorrow i'm going to get her this whisk she wanted. i got her somethings at the dollar tree with my last nine dollars and i found walmart over on 82nd in portland and stood in line for a half an hour to get her some food for xmas. because i eat all of hers.

tomorrow night will be the first time in like...18 years that i'm not going to haley's house for xmas eve. it's gonna be weird. and sad. i remember going to her house and getting online for most of the time and looking at lj and friendster and myspace and eating lots of food. next year i'm going though. i'm starting every other year. i'm a little nervous...well a lot nervous about going to kurtis' granny's. i love his granny and grandpa and all of the family members that i've met so far. but there's going to be so many people and i feel like i have to impress them all for some reason. considering we've been together for three christmases and i've never met them. last year his granny made us a quilt. that was so sweet and it had tulips on it! my favorite flower. but i never get to use it. only when we stay the night together. it'd be sweet if she made another one that i could use.

i'm pretty tired right now. kurtis is probably out somewhere cuz he hasn't gotten online in awhile and i haven't talked to him since like...9 and i should go to bed so i can get shit done tomorrow before everything closes.

i hope everyone has a great holiday!!!