So last post I was bitching about my job....  just to update, I quit back in February! hahaha... been happier ever since!  I work for BC Housing now... its different every day to say the least! and no skank ass bitch to ride my coat tail! WOOOOOTY WOOOOT WOOOOOOOT

so I have a new art obsession with Munny... Im sposed to be going to a place RIGHT NOW to buy some new blanks for projects... but Deivn is no where to be found!  Working late? Who knows! BUT I WANT MAH TOYS...  we went Sunday, closed early... always closed Mondays, also closed Tuesday, sorry for the inconvenience....

its been a long while since i felt any urge, desire, need if you will, to post here.  Mainly I just haven't had the time, or nothing has really gotten under my skin so badly that I felt the need to pour it out for the world to see.

i guess things have changed a little...

So, busy is saying the least.  In august I got a promotion at work, Im a training supervisor now - meaning I run the training department of my project...  Its fun, keeps me out of trouble...  and for the most part its been a good job, great oppertunity to learn a lot about business and management, and all sorts of things I never would have thought I would get exposed to.  I don't regret taking the job in the least

Now, since my promotion I have had to work hand in hand with another member of the team... and this is where my patience is running dangerously thin

I have never known ANYONE so self absorbed before in my entire span of existence on this planet!  there is just so much I have kept about this person that I can't even formulate it all into words anymore!

its gotten to the point of "Nod and smile" because saying anything to them about anyone but themselves is pointless as they are the topic they will always return to...  and to top it all off... the grrrr... the... im so sick of the fucking bullshit i cant even get it out anymore! and the worst part is, after a day of putting up with their shit, its so agrivating that you cant get rid of the thought, so they stay the focus...

i need a new job, again....

so as it turns out, when i get upset i get really quiet, when i get angry, emotional in any way, i get really quiet.

i think I know why...  i like to thuroughly think about why it is I am upset before confronting it head on...  I dont want to go just shooting my mouth off without actually being aware of what it is I am feeling, and what about...

holly application binge batman!

Im getting a little... tired of waiting...  I like my job, i thuroughly enjoy the company of my co-workers, and i feel i have invested a lot into where I stand, and by no means do i want to just give that all up, however, there comes a time when waiting isnt cool

so i blanketed my resume in a fit of irritation all over teh intarweb!

so...

fido
ebay
sleep country
bc hydro...

thats just to start... i also have a res. posted on every job site known to me...

we'll see what happens...  maybe now that im on the lookout they'll finally give me what i deserve... :P

oh, on a completly different note, my head itches because i need to wash my hair... eeew lol

I was bored, nothing to do, so i decided to watch a movie.  Ive seen everything new, so I went for something old.  I decided to watch Pink Floyd's The Wall... very weird, but it got me thinking...

Its weird how there are things that have occurred in my lifetime, that I never really thought of as being within my lifetime...  there are places Ive been, sights I have seen, that I remember because I was told I saw them, but I never fully believed until I looked up to make sure that the things I have been told I saw were actually around in my lifetime.

I spent 3 months, including my 7th birthday in Germany...  1989... The Berlin wall was still up at that time, I saw it, i forgot i saw it.  I was told I saw it, but it seems like such a distant time/place that I never really believed it was true... but in 1989 i was there... (i was young and the grand scheme of things was lost on me...  i had to look up when the wall was fully dismantled to prove it to myself...

i dunno, i just think its weird...  so much of European history is portrayed as so long ago that its like we get disconnected from the idea it wasn't THAT long ago...

overall i was completely oblivious to the cold war... which lasted till the 1990's.....  once again, I was too young to really understand the situation..

i almost feel like i was living under a rock...

n e way... das all...

been a fuck of a long time!

Worked a fuck of a lot. 2.5 months of 12 hour days 5 days a week, with the off 6th day in there every second week...  yah training!

the christmas crunch os over now tho... time to relex.  I got killer ill for Christmas! ROCKIN IT!

Im better now, but wow... I went to work sick as a dog Christmas day with a 104 degree fever... lol, i called a sick day for boxing day, worked yesterday now i have 2 days off muahahaha!!

back to work saturday tho... blargh!  almost done with the 6am shifts me thinks... which is gunna be sweeeet...

I made killer $$ doing all the OT... 

I got a robot for christmas :)  and a new monitor and mother board (which i cant use till i get a video card and PSU but whoohooo i love it!)

yah, thats about all... ive not been around for anything, but i havent been doing anything but work...  glad its over, but glad i did it too...

:)  Happy Holidays peep holes, wishing ya'll the merriest!

 had a dream last night that i was in the emergency room of a hospital... (it was a dream though, so nothing was quite as acurate as it should have been.)  Anyway...  these people came in with a burnt charred but still living body curled up in the fetal position and then suddenly I was it... 

It was really weird though, because i could feel it...  Like, i felt hot like the feeling of pain you get on your tongue when you burn it along with feeling really hot... I was rather disturbing... because it didnt hurt but i could understand the pain, and i almost started to cry, but then my cell phone alarm went off and woke me up... now, the weird part here... i woke up with all the physical feelings i had in the dream... I didnt move at all... and within 10 seconds the heat pain etc faded away.. it was like i woke up but part of the dream was still there... 





i need to get more sleep... i think when i get home tonight its shit shower sleep... (hopefully in that order)

having a migrane sucks.  having a migrane so bad that nothing works to kill it sucks even more...

sleeping through an entire day and not realizing it because of the ammount of drugs ou took to make the migrane go away... priceless!


i was sposed to do stuff this weekend too! haha! so much for that...  Ive stayed up far too late now tonight to make up for what i can of the stuff i was spsoed to do... 

I havent posted an entry in a long time...  since before i started training i think.  Training has kept me VERY busy...  Lets just say, I am approved for 12 hours a day untill january...  wooot!

120 hour paychecks are exhausting, but nice in the bank account.  Hopefully I will get an oppertunity to go shopping and spend some of it mind you

Devin's b-day is fast approaching and i have NO FRACKING clue what to get him.  Maybe BsG2.5...  we watch it onine, but I love having it on DVD too...  i dunno what else I could get him..  I could get him a second to his video card... theyre SLI capable cards... so then his system would be dope...  i have no idea tho...  clothes?  i need some more clothes myself.  I want to get more pants from old navy... I could get him a little ultra cute preppy boy outfit... hehehe!

so, i need to come up with a product knowledge package for Xbox live.  how can you sell something you dont know inside and out...

i also need to emphasize the perks xbox live has that the competitors do not...

still dark out = should still be in bed!

Class starts today... class for how to teach a class for me...  yes... next monday, Ill get to be up even earlier in the morning (somewhere between 4:00-4:30am - YAY MOTHER FUCKING YAY!)

yah... why you may ask....  well! haha!  starting next monday... I HAVE AN ENTIRE CLASS OF MY OWN! hahahaha! 

little nervous? yes just a lottle... hahaha

yea... lack of sleep sux.  we watched silent hill last night. (and the benchwarmers, but that wasnt what woke me up...)  im not frightened by movied very often, but there was something about some of the creatures in that movie, and just the jerky movement and stuff...  and it was just weird! hehe... either way, every once in a while ill watch a scary movie and actually get a little scared...  I think it stayed in my head more because it was really weird than anything else.  either way, that combined with the fact I can never get to sleep the night before my wake up time has changed...  whenever my schedule changes so that I have to be up earlier than usual, I never get sleep the first night!!

So I get to leave for work really quickly here.  Gotta get in earl and get some things setup for the class.  Every day we need to have some xbox consoles out and setup.  Chistopher is training this class, but he is going to be late today so Im kinda taking the get him ready responsibility onto myself... because im cool like that!

So Im not the only one training to be a trainer though...  Shane Henry, who is a t02 for live, is also with me on this, im just the first to get my own class! they say im ready...  but im still freakin a little on the inside..

I'll live...  hopefully!

btw.  mmmm curry chicken on rice for breakfast is good...

in a moment of zen last night, i had a thought...  and pulled this out of the internet...  its an interactive tutorial on how to use the phones we use at work... I was just being lazy, didnt want to have to make one myself.  Turns out the opther trainers had been searching for months for something exactly like that...

i be majic ye see...

so...  the reason ive taken an interest in training material is...  it looks like Im going to be a trainer!  at least a temp trainer for the pre-christmas rush...  its exciting, there are 4 or 5 of us "tenured agents" who are going to get this oppertunity! I am really excited.  I knnow one other agent who has been asked... im SOOO curious who the other 2-3 are... but no one will tell me!!

exciting stuff...  so my fortune said..."oppertunities to shine in your career will materialize soon"is this that?  should i start entering contests and playing the lotto, because the second fortune I got was "you will win a contest"....  i also got one that told me "i will have all the assistance and luch this month to succeed..."    AND another one said there are good times ahead for me...  (i ate a few fortune cookies...  the first one had 3 fortunes... the 2nd had 2...

i just think its erie when the fortune cookie even remotely holds true...

monday morning, 730 am...  im really fucking tired...  abay is a little earlier this week...  9am-530pm, so I need to be up and ready to leave by 7:45 am because if i take the train in, thats when I need to get my ass out the door to give myself enough time to make it in for 830 - to give myself enough time to get them all setup and ready in the morning.

this group is mor difficult than any other.

1 is very aggressive and daminant.  she thinks she knows everything and that everyone else wants to hear about it.  She IS doing well, but she needs to STFU - she is no where near trainer, so she needs to step the fuck back and jab a sock in it. 

2 of them just fail to apply themselves.

1 pickuped up media center/connect like a mo fo and wishes we could take him off hardware completly and jsut let him do media calls all day haha

2 were really nervous, but one almost had a nervous breakdown and quit.  so i just have one who is very unsure and second guesses verything she tries

1 (who isnt going ot be there today) needs to get off her high horse and stop "waaa"ing about the fact that life isnt fair.  No one has gottten as much training as these guys, and she has been through two training classes.  she needs to suck it up and just do her job (she might quit tho so i hear because she most likely will not get the shift she wants)

2 are french/emglish they do hardware/live 1 of which acts as though he wasnt trained to do anything (i cant stand it when people act stupid after 2 weeks of being trained in shit) and the other is just...  shes good, but her candle is a little dim...

1 the last one is comming off medical leave, she can only do 1/2 days but she is putting forth an awesome effort.  she is the eldest and probably the most mature though.  shes made mistakes but she feels they are ok (and i agree) because thats how you learn (which is exactly what a-bay is for - make a mistake yes, but recognise it and learn from it) 

today is day 1 of the official abay plan - todays focus is "hold and transfer procedure"  joy... 

everything will be ok, if i can just get the hell out of there on time ( NO OT TODAY PLS )







so lets forget today.... last night we went to devins moms house for thanks giving dinner.. mm mmm mm  turkey in my tummy!  ate far too much!  Devin has the day off today, I'm a little jealous. but Im getting paid 2.5x for the day, so W00tinie!

devin mostly, but we painted the spare room chocolate brown... looks good enough to eat!

i moved my stuff in tonight (devin passed out already.  Its all starting to take shape! I love it!

training went well...  this is training where i was the trainer, not the student, so i was rather nervous... but like with anything like that, the nerves only last the first little while...  and besides, i was training  something i know and know well.  it was good fun!

also, at this point in time i qualify for silver BOE!!  (our bonuses)  so stoked!  also, i get hella overtime comming up so yay for good cheks!

ALSO... they pulled my schedule... so...  i come and go when i want at work! (i am rather reliable and quite professional though, so it was a good move on managements part) ALSO because it still gets better!  I got my days off switched...  i now have sat/sun off!  i got a fucking full weekend!  i still work stats, so i still get the extra $$ there, but i have a real weekend, I might actually get stuff done now!

ive had an awesome week im happy.  Right now though, my legs are killing me because for the last 5 hours ive been moving my shit from one side of the apartment to the other.  I would od devins stuff too, but he might get mad :P  besides his stuff is a mess, he needs to clean it and he can do it all tomorow

ill take pix eventually                 

im a little nervous about today...

im going to be kind of... well.. not really, but... under review? not really, thats a bad way to put it because they arent judging me per say...

some acronyms that I dont get mean that sumone i dont know is going to interview/record/monitor me as a representitve or who nco is and what xbox support is, so on and so forth...

yah... little pressure?  just a little

might get OT again tomorow.  worked 2 12 hour days in a row already...  Manila is going to get a typhoon so we might get heavy call flow on our end...  might have ot tonihgt too people keep calling in sick...  gah!

tired, still getting over a cold... 

so the painfull, golf ball like abcess on my  right tonsil has reduced and is no longer sore...  however the symptoms seem to have migrated to the other side... yay FUN!

bloody fucking hell.

i cant swallow, again...  i hate this... 

me feell poopy

ok, ive nevr hid the fact that I swallow for my bf.  He has no taste really, so it's like nothing, and he likes it, so its good shit right.
(ve taste bad cum tho, so i know im just lucky his isnt gross - the first guy to ever blow in my mouth 1. didnt warn me, 2 tasted like death - i vomited on his chest...)

last night we went to see jackass...  they drank horse cum...

i gagged... like for real, sitting in the theatre, that was the only time I have ever gagged over a video!

wtf!

it was soooo wrong!

awww... weekend is almost over.  I havent done quite enough to have felt productive either...  I bought hair dye, but I didnt do my hair... ahaaha...  bouhgt some cool halloween undies that almost fit! hehe...  well, they fit, but snugly, everything else i bought recently that fit snugly has since become loose baggy and too big though, so Im not too concerned...  with luck, my undies will do likewise...

went to my moms today, grabbed my grad dress...  tis pretty... fits so awkwardly though...  it was made for me, but the lady didnt fit it to my upper body very well..  I want to take the sleeves off because I think that is part of what is making it fit weird...  (its midieval style so it makes for a sweet halloween costume)

I want to get stuff for my costime for this year, but I cant help but feel it'll be a waste of time and nomey.  i have zero plans, and although I love dressing up.  The only thing I'll do all day is go to work so its kinda lame.

meh, its bed time, i get to work at 9am tomorow

so, Devin and I went to the HBC greatest show in the world, thingy... it was cool, got some swag, learnt about some kickass stuff...  I totally want a dyson vaccuum as soon as i have 700$ to blow...

at the end of the night, Devin filled his entry for the door prizes...  Now, I wasnt supposed to be there, so I told him to just use mine for himself, so he put his name on it, then was like, nah, and put mine on it and threw it into the bucket, I was all NOOOoooo  I will be enbarrassed because I dont actually work for HBC and im not sposed to be there nevermind be eligable for a door prize....

well, too late now...

The dew a bunch of shit, then got to a T-Fal deep fryer... Devin won it... lol Its a cool one, we will rarely use it, but Its cool to have, Click here for more info...  it retails for $$169.99

so It was getting to the bottom of the pile and i thought i was in the clear, up comes a  non stick, annodized cast alluminum pot/pan set that retails at home outfitters for $499... guess who won... me, yah, I never loose when it comes to door prizes...

i was SO embarrassed, i was like shit... uh oh, but i got my ass up, and took it, they looked all "who are you" at me, but let me have it anyhow lol!

so yah...  This after buying a 400$ set of jamie oliver stainless steel pot/pans.... lol... 

Ryan, you can have all our old ones (not the big ikea stock pot, but the rest that are now in the pot/pan box) if you want them.  its either that or theyre going to goodwill or something...  we definatly dont need them anymore

so im enjoying my PTO... cleaned the house a little...  gettin antsey about stuff, tiz all good tho.  w00t!  wooteenie!!

goin to som show with devin today.  i get to pretend im a HBC employee to get in lol!  good stuff.  did some laundry...

made a guide to media connect for work... with pictures...

its all who you know...  ive completly decided that the old saying is 100% true...

i do a lot of extra work at work that  I could have otherwise said no to...  I took the option of extra stuff as an oppertunity for growth.  Ive befriended some people in high places also, and these things combined, are definatly paying off...

"let me know if you need OT because I need the $$ for some goodies for my house"
--- work repailes "ok stay for ot, we love you"

"can i have a paid day off in two days (i know im sposed to give you guys 2 weeks notice but, c'mon, its me) please??? hehe "
---- work replies "well, you SHOULD give us 2 weeks, but we love you so sure! but dont let people know we can do that lol!"

so im taking monday off as a PTO (we get 3 paid time off shifts a year, i had 2 left, so i was like pleaseeeeeee  so they did it for me wooot!  still got one left) so im not there, but still paid.  AND Ive told them i want to stay for OT if they need t02 or media every day...  muahahah!

working a little over time each day can be the difference of making $1200/month and $1600/month  (and that wasnt even a noticable ammount of OT....  if i work more I could be looking at 2000....

now, why do i want $$???  welll....  Ryan is leaving, so we have a spare room - we will convert this to the work room (computer and craft room).  since we spend most the time in with computers or crafts, we will need a television for in that room...  I want a nice LCD flat screen tv...  400$ is like, the minimum Ive seen for a decent sized one.    me want... lol... 

actually, as we approach christmas I will be doing lots more OT...  because a nice chunk of $$ left over after christmas rush would be... nice... lol  not to mention im a consumer whore


but yah, we want a new couch for the livingroom too... we've wanted one for a long time.  the one we have it ok, its a sofa bed, which is nice to have in case people come over, but...  I'll put it this way, its a hand me down from my dad and step mom.  They hated it, but we needed a decent couch.  They flat out said well take it, so you have one till you can get yourself a good one!  (they moved to new zealand and were not taking an ugly couch they hated with them lol!)  so yah....  I want a NICE couch for the livingroom...  and since we will have an actual livingroom, I dont mind putting some actual effort and or funds into it... 


anyway, Ryan you are a cool dude, but you know I have an unnatural almost fettish for reorganizing shit, so Its not YAY HE'S leaving! but yay I get to play!