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lunch with sara, lane, and michael is my favorite.

so back to school...
i really dont like my classes
and i realy want B lunch
hopefully i will switch into drama
and then be in b lunch
not that i dont love all my a lunchers
mr tullys class is very scary
he is nice though
just his class
scary
i love my math teacher
he has surf posters up so tats a good sign
and gina is in my class
i love lane
and our lovely conversation yesterday
and our awesome new years pictures
i showed scott and ian
they loved them
so my hair
it is short light and reswooped
i think i like it
but not sure
this girl lisa tought me and carlee wee related today
hahah
cause we have the same eyes
(and hair
hairspray on saturday
yaaaaaaaay
my birthday all over again
lane will make ma pants
i miss jessika
i dont see her all day
thats sad
i miss first semester
i miss how things were
i miss you

but holding people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesnt make you a stronger person. if anything, it makes you weaker. because youre doing it out of fear of taking a chance. of letting go and giving into it, and thats what makes up what we are, risks. thats living. being to scared to even try it- thats just a waste. i can say i made alot of mistakes, but i dont regret things. because at least i didnt spend life standing on the outside, wondering what living would be like.
-This Lullaby

jon: wouldnt it be cool to have a mom thats a teahcer?
me: like your mom?
haha

1. Comment and I'll pick one of your LJ interests and draw you a picture, using the mighty MS Paint.

2. You have no say in what I draw you! Or in how much it will suck! (And believe me, it will!)

3. Put this in your journal. And the pic someone drew for you.


Nikki freaking owns



♥

k so i went to but the stupid thing in the box because were going to take it back today because ipods are crap and i decided to try and turn in on 1 more time and guess what people? yup...it worked. so it stopped working for like 4 days and now its back. awesome!
so now i might not be going to disney becase there are no rooms at the contemperary or grand floridian towers. so i will probably be here for new years. woo freaking whoo.

i HATE being sick
i threw up a gazillion times
but i got around 15 or so hours of sleep which hasnt happened in like..years
and i have listened to transatlanicism (the whole cd)about 5 times
deathcab love
i am supposed to go to boca mall and then the dentist today
but i dont think that is gonna happen
maybe i will have an oc marathon
maybe not
was it really my fault?

i broke another ipod
this one wont turn on either

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't
You touched her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me

I spent two weeks in Silverlake, the California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks,
And she was beautiful, but she didn't mean a thing to me
Yeah she was beautiful, but she didn't mean a thing to me

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking as we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling all the playful misspellings and every bite I gave that left a mark
Then tiny vessels oozed into your neck and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day

All I see are dark gray clouds in the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you'd ask, "Is something wrong?" (I'd think)
"You're damn right there is, but we can't talk about it now. No we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go and we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile and it was cheap and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

HAPPY ONE YEAR GUYS
inner circle for life...
kara jenna maddy carolyn danny torry eric collin kara brian lindsey courtney brandon shane smokey faliure sean evan jordan

remeber when i used to be fun?

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i dont know.
i dont really know anything.
the play isnt really going to be that bad
just untill 5 or 6
i can handle that
everyone seems to be in a bad mood lately
people arent talking to me and i dont know why
lane and i had a good convo last night
i relized how much i missed her and how much we were drifting
not anymore
were gonna have a lane and kara day just like way back when
fun stuff man
i just relized everytime i buy cosmo its $5
thats alot of money
i have hardly anymoney for chriskmukkah presents
my cousins birthday is tomorrow so we might go over theere
that means i might miss oc
never fear...i can tivo it now
but still
ITS ADAM JARED BRODYS BIRTHDAY TODAY
what did i do
if i did anything to piss you off tell me
cause being left in the dark like this sucks

most awesome weekend ever
jingle ball biznatch!
i met ryan cabrera
oh yea i did
and it was amzing
and he is beauutiful
and hilary duff waved to me
and i was like right near diana degarmo
gotta love third row :)
saturday i went out with andrew
we doubled with joey and farrah
it was fun even if 2 of the three things didnt happen
haha
it was still awesome
♥
officially 1 week untill the year of the cruise
its so weird
1 week ago i was getting ready for a cruise i didnt really want to go on not knowing it would be the best week ever
i love you inner circle!
and i got tivo and an ipod

"now you are so afraid
of going under
but now the weight of the world
feels like nothing
down down down
your all i wanted
your all i needed"

amazing. <3

auditions are going great
your all doing AMAZING
im so proud
:)
i love my 0784
Hanukkah has been interesting
it doesnt even feel like its a holiday
just coming home from rehersal and getting presents
ehh im not complaining
11 days untill the 1 year of thr cruise
guys...cal me i miss you
i feel like i havent talked to some of you in forever ::cough::DANNY!
i have so much homework but im just going to keep putting it off
OC starts VERY soon
who loves my hot icon?
i do!

Questions:
How do you feel about the four new cast members?
Does Lindsey annoy you as much as she annoys me?
What the hell is up with Alex's hair?
Zak is to perfect and HAS to be gay, right?
And the LAWN GUY? eww Marissa...just ewww

HAPPY HANUKKAH!!

i love you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON
i love you!

k so now i am in science
we have the wireless internet
yep
everyone should read "the devil wears prada"
its SO GOOD
you put the pra in prada
moving on is the best feeling ever

you make me smile.