i miss our midnight rides on highway 72

♥

2005-07-06T14:48:20Z

i learned a ~~valuable~~ lesson last night.
dont drink, dont smoke, dont do anything.
its honestly not worth what you could lose.
i may have lost the person that meant the world to me.
and last night wasnt even all that fun.
i dont see how you can keep two people that
love eachother that much from being with eachother...

no matter what, i will always love you.
i dont care if we cant talk, or see eachother.
but i am always there, and always will be.
i love you, chris.

♥

2005-05-21T04:11:11Z

list 20 friends randomly:
#1 catherine
#2 mana
#3 sue
#4 ash
#5 steph
#6 kels
#7 shelley
#8 chris
#9 scottie
#10 joey
#11 jay
#12 david kyle
#13 jess b
#14 eric
#15 mag
#16 embuck
#17 pat wills
#18 alex (lbi)
#19 don (lbi)
#20 bobby

Who is #8 going out with?: ME!
Is #9 a boy or a girl?: boy
Would #11 & #2 make a good couple?: funny you say that...they are
How about #18 & #4?: not at all
What grade is #17 in?: 11th
When was the last time you talked to #12?: 2 mins ago
What is #6's favorite band?: who knowsssss
Would you ever date #3?: um sue!? HECK YEAH
Would you ever date #7?: thatd be weird...twims dating
Is #16 single?: nopeeee
What's #15's last name?: devlin
What's #10's middle name?: joseph fdgdfkjgskdfj devine
What's #5's favorite thing to do?: surf, make out with boys
Is #13 hot?: damn right
What school does #20 go to?: phs
Random fact about #11: we totally went to preschool together, and he rocked the pink and purple swishy sweatsuits
And #1: catherine likes boats...a lot. and one day her family will rule the world.
And #3: sue has an obsession with matolly...its cute

♥

2005-05-20T02:23:19Z

~~for about four years ive hated this town~~
theres so much, i just want to get out
since graduation was long ago
please somebody get me out of this hole
cause i dont want to get stuck in here
when i am thirty-four just talking about high school years
no i dont want to be there and i feel so stuck right here
back and forth side to side oh my dear
my foot to the floor i will drive to the place
where i can kick it with friends through the night
a place well talk about now and the past what the future holds
hanging out with not much to do
just aimless with each other is what we do

cause this aint where its at
my friends will second that
and i gotta admit sometimes its pretty sad
but its like were our
own brat pack
were always kickin back nobody can take that
that is that its like its all we have

whooo whooo ya oh come on

say oh oh get on the floor
dance till you got no more
i know its there somewhere
dont worry ill be there to rock the party all night
to rock into this night our fists in the air
fightin a good fight
cause we were singing along to peter gabriel sledge hammer song
you know its clear that tonight we belong in this place
so i stand back to reflect in this town i hate
at least just for a second i think i might stay

♥

2005-05-09T02:21:58Z

prom 2005
made possible by the wonderful class of 2006<3

of course i had to update...
plus here are pictures from last weekend.
jb's "birthday party" in her garage.

now i must go back to my ~~ruptured ovarian cyst~~.
what a weekend! the flu, a cold, prom, emergency room.

♥

2005-04-16T13:57:27Z

so i never updated...i know.
i just dont have the ~~time~~ for this anymore.
so this journal is dead, until something happens.
i mean, ive got work, baseball, im moving, etc.
i dont have time to write down anything.
so when something noteworthy happens ill update.
this isnt goodbye...its a hiatus. ill be back soon<3

ps - dont delete me from your friends lists!

♥

2005-04-06T03:26:14Z

so ive been home since early sunday morning.
i had a lot of fun, but im glad to be home.
made sure i got to kiss chris at 2 am in the rain<3
and i ~~finally~~ got to see my daddy and sleep in my own bed!
things are incredibly hectic, so ill update later.
expect ~~lots~~ and lots and lots of pictures =)

♥

2005-03-25T06:34:02Z

okay, so im ~~not~~ updating tomorrow morning.
me, kels & my mom are in florida until april 2nd.
call and text me, it costs the same as usual.
and you can IM me on my cell --» coverthememories
bye guys, be good<3

♥

2005-03-25T06:31:39Z

"hands down this is the best day i can ever remember. ill always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers, and the time on the clock when we realized its so late...and this walk that we shared together. the streets were wet and the gate was locked so i jumped it, and i let you in. and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it and i knew that you meant it."

i am going to miss you so much.
i am so madly in love with you that...
it gives me the chills ~~everytime~~ i think about it.

♥

2005-03-24T05:20:46Z

and i never thought
id feel this safe again,
~~in a million years~~.
and lying next to you,
and hoping that its true,
and with you im truly in my element,
my element with you

god, this is incredible<3

♥

2005-03-22T04:44:19Z

ive shut down and given up.
i just cant do all of this anymore.
school, work, sat class...life.
its impossible, and im ~~breaking~~.

♥

2005-03-21T02:24:42Z

this weekend got me in some trouble.
i learned my lesson, ~~yes~~. but i did have fun
friday, as we all know, i had some people over.
the girls plus the boys just hung out most of the night!!!
since people are assholes...cops came, ~~etc~~.
i let down my dad, and im sorry, but everything is okay.
then we passed out and went to breakfast in the morning.

saturday i went shopping with my grandmom =)
i got lots and lots of new stuff, espeically for florida.
i cant wait to go, but i have to say...ill miss chris =(
after shopping i went out with kelsey & met up with scottie.
we came back here with clint, catherine & chris.
we got pizza & slept on the couch, then went to the game.
me, john & catherine slept more while the boys ~~lost~~ to rv.
then we went to hathaways and got milkshakes & toast.
we got in pretty late, had ~~sat~~ class today, now im dying.
i think im getting strep again...and ive got all homework.
plus ive gotta go to the ortho...my teeth are turning.
no school for becky tomorrow =)

♥

2005-03-16T11:49:57Z

no more braces babyyyy =D

♥

2005-03-14T01:33:46Z

"she greets the day with her hair wet. she asks them to vacate the building because shes got a plan they dont know yet. and if it goes wrong, therell be no one to see. do do do do... if she could just get the word out. god knows shes trying. theyre watching her with eyes closed. shes always stuck with the old route. does anyone knock when they barge in to beat her down? will you come back? its all she wants to know. she knows shes part of the problem too. could she let it go? itd take a miracle. so thats what im praying for. no one can know just how she feels. she wont use the phone, shes too tired to pick it up. shes going back to the old way. she sits in the classroom to learn with the others. do do do do... please dont give up when its easy. dont you know that me and jesus will cheer you on? hes the only one that will be constantly everything you need. will you come back? its all she wants to know. she knows shes part of the problem too. could she let it go? itd take a miracle. so thats what im praying for. yeah. she lives on ~~tisbury lane~~ thomas ave."

♥

2005-03-13T16:20:49Z

would anyone want to go to...
-allister, less than jake & ~~hidden in plain view~~
-tbs, jimmy eat world & the format
...with me?

or get me tickets to soco at st joes?!

♥

2005-03-13T05:34:13Z

lights camera action .mae

this weekend has left me with about 4 hours of sleep.
i worked all week, srimmage on friday was ~~cancelled~~.
me & steph went to the mae show on friday at the tla.
they had a really good set, plus i got to dance.
we left after mae and went shopping on south street =)
came home and took care of poor christopher...oh boy<3

today i woke up mad early & got jay and jess b.
we went to mcdonalds, then went to cross for the ~~sats~~.
that was the biggest waste of 5 hours of my life.
fuck college, my brain couldnt function after those.
we indulged in wendys afterwards, then chris came over.
me & scottie went to get dinner at brothers then got em.
me & em headed over the factory for the take action tour.
met up with kevin and a few of his friends =D
melee and hopefall were good. anberlin was awesome.
hawthorne heights was ~~orgasmic~~, and sugarcult was fun.

now its time to shower, and do 4 hours of sat homework.
this class is going to kill me if its the last thing it does. ~~ugh~~.

and ive been waiting
for so long to hold you
in my arms .hh

♥

2005-03-10T02:19:27Z

im falling...

~~im falling...~~

ive fallen...

for you.

♥

2005-03-07T20:19:51Z

it ~~just~~ hit me...spring is around the corner.
and i could not be any happier =D
baseball, warm weather, and the beach<3

♥

2005-03-06T16:41:59Z

ridden to shore: go surfing with me tomrrow
ridden to shore: 60 degrees baby

im highly ~~contemplating~~ it.
summer/spring...come quick!

♥

2005-03-06T03:42:47Z

go figure.
~~suprise~~, suprise.

♥

2005-03-05T23:35:03Z

okay, so im incredibly exhausted.
like ~~i cant keep my eyes open...~~
but of course im updating this. ha.

when it comes down to it, i had a lot of fun last night.
i went to easterns cotillion with kev. thanks babe =)
it was at some super nice place in berlin. ~~eff palmyra prom~~.
we met up at jareds for pictures & crammed into the limo.
even though the radio was broken, we made the best out of it.
i just went crazy and danced the entire night with the boys.
~~and and andddd~~...paul doesnt hate me & i said yes to kramer! haha.
i couldnt stay afterwards ar jordans house though...oh well.
and i only got a few pictures beforehand so

beforehand...me with my mommy AND daddy. thats a ~~rarity~~.

so what if i look fat & my boobs are popping out, lol.

at kevinsss

~~deal with it~~...im the shortest and they are all younger and 20x more gorgeous than me!

everyone looked so pretty =D

yeah...we still didnt fit into the navigator limo.

the place was mad nice and HUGE...beat that merion caterers. haha.

♥

2005-03-02T02:35:27Z

this town is full of liars and narcs.
including my so-called ~~wonderful~~ "friends."

edit: that does not mean my best friends.

♥

2005-03-01T02:08:55Z

jesse mccartney,
i love you.
~~AND~~ you surf (in tv land) =)

sincerely yours,
rebecca eve

♥

2005-02-28T00:42:35Z

so i wont give up. no, i wont break down.
sooner than it seems life turns around.
and i will be strong even if it all goes wrong.
when im standing in the dark ill still believe.
someones watching over me.

it doesnt matter what people say.
and it doesnt matter how long it takes
believe in yourself and youll find...
and it only matters how true you are.
~~be true to yourself~~ and follow your heart.

♥

2005-02-28T00:21:40Z

you know what...
i am so fucking sick and tired of people making me feel like shit for doing something that makes me happy. in my heart, i believe that there is a reason for everything that happens, and ~~there is a reason~~ im doing what im doing, and what i didnt do. people have done their fair share of hurting me, and i have done my share too of hurting others...but you know what...thats life. and thats high school. so get over it, im not marrying anyone, its all high school drama. ~~why cant~~ someone just be happy for me for once for following my heart and doing what i want to do? i cant fucking wait until college, so i can leave all of you hypocritical people, and meet a new chapter in my life where no one will judge me, and no one will create drama out of petty shit. you have no idea what my life is like...not a single one of you...not even my best friends. no one can understand me, except for me. so just fuck off.

♥

2005-02-27T01:34:33Z

this week seemed to go on ~~forever~~.
i found out i get my braces off march 15th!
but i also found out im getting sued by 3 people.
yupp, we got the letters a few days ago...
other than that, georgettis has been awesome.
michael was on a ski trip, so i was practically in charge =)

other than that, last night chris came over.
yeah, chris, like the ~~ex-boyfriend~~ chris.
i had a lot of fun, and i hope things work out.
i just hope that that hope isnt false hope...

oh well, today i got woken up at 12. ~~grr!~~
then i went shopping with my mommy & kels.
we got me a different dress for cotillion, i like.
now emily is coming over were doing who knows what.
some people just ~~dont~~ like to answer phones.
im going to the boys midnight game & staying at my moms.
so ill catch you guys on the flip side! haha.