Current Mood: 
numb
numb
![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
_ohdearme's Friends PageLog in Create a LiveJournal Account Learn more
| You are viewing _ohdearme's Friends Page Log in Create a LiveJournal Account Learn more | Explore LJ: Life Entertainment Music Culture News & Politics Technology |
Sat, Oct. 4th, 2008, 09:12 pm
Current Mood:
numbSat, Oct. 4th, 2008, 08:57 pm
I could get a job that pays 20 dollars an hour with full benefits if I do. I'm clearing my head from a million things. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know who I am anymore. I know I am not going to worry though. Not anymore. You called the shots and I begged you to stay. You wanted to stick to your guns and I'm sorry it ended up blowing up in your face. You did the damage. Fri, Oct. 3rd, 2008, 04:03 pm
Thu, Oct. 2nd, 2008, 05:15 pm
Thu, Oct. 2nd, 2008, 07:16 am
Skip the stone. Just between us. us. us. I mean it. us. shhh. Thu, Oct. 2nd, 2008, 02:43 am
Wed, Oct. 1st, 2008, 11:20 am
 My new life. Tue, Sep. 30th, 2008, 03:37 pm
I've found my people and nothing else matters. Wed, Oct. 1st, 2008, 02:41 am
I've talked it over with my friend who does hair and I'm doing it finally. I'm going to color my virgin hair. This is what I'm going for     Gym membership. New look. Tanner. Perfect for the situation. Tue, Sep. 30th, 2008, 11:19 am
So these lighter days can soon begin I'll be alone but maybe more carefree Like a kite that floats so effortlessly I was afraid to be alone Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be All these faces none the same How can there be so many personalities So many lifeless empty hands So many hearts in great demand And now my sorrow seems so far away Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain But I turn them off and tuck them away 'till these rainy days that make them stay And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs And the words still ring, once here now gone And they echo through my head everyday And I dont think they'll ever go away Just like thinking of your childhood home But we cant go back we're on our own Oh, But i'm about to give this one more shot And find it in myself I'll find it in myself So were speeding towards that time of year To the day that marks that you're not here And i think I'll want to be alone So please understand if I dont answer the phone I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls Until I can see nothing at all Only particles some fast some slow All my eyes can see is all I know Ohh.. But I'm about to give this one more shot And find it in myself I'll find it in myself Mon, Sep. 29th, 2008, 09:22 pm
Losing the reasons why You're losing the calling that you've been faking And i'm not kidding It's damned if you don't and it's damned if you do Be true 'cause they'll lock you up in a sad sad zoo By hidy hidy hiding you're not worth a thing Sew your fortunes on a string And hold them up to light Blue smoke will take A very violent flight And you will be changed And everything And you will be in a very sad sad zoo. I once was lost but now i'm found was blind But now I see you How selfish of you to believe in the meaning of all the bad dreaming Metal heart you're not hiding Metal heart you're not worth a thing Metal heart you're not hiding Metal heart you're not worth a thing Mon, Sep. 29th, 2008, 08:49 am
 what kind of skank should I be this year? Sun, Sep. 28th, 2008, 10:43 am
sometimes people seem to be worth it. sometimes people seem to only make you sad. I want happiness. all over again. whatever Wed, Sep. 24th, 2008, 04:31 am
A lot of space for this and that. Kyle is probably going to join a band in tenn which means we have yet again to face distance. Oh it's harsh wrath. I am finishing a scarf I'm knitting for Kyle's mom. I made her two bracelets and 4 pairs of ear rings. Kyle and I had our palms read. She told me I was going to be a doctor. She also could tell I had physic bursting out through my eyes. I burned a hole right through her. I burned one right through. Tue, Sep. 23rd, 2008, 04:47 pm
Rest in peace, you six month old piece of shit. I won't be on the internet much for a while. Tue, Sep. 23rd, 2008, 01:16 pm
In darkness a light shines on you. Our eyes small in size are made to see enormous things. A speckled bird humbly inspired ran across the road When it could have flown it made me smile Come quick, You Light that knows no evening... come, alone to the alone! There are a thousand half-smiles well worth leaving for to take your madness home, And You dance inside my chest where no one sees You, sometimes I see You. Put music to our troubles and we'll dance them away. I have my pictures of you, you don't look back at me A smile I'd almost forgotten, bruises I don't see Never forgive you for a sky turned from gray to black Come out and kiss me, darling I promise I'll kiss you back. A new head on my shoulder, A needle in my ear Every kind word brings new pain Instead of my eyes, Her reflection in the mirror. I have a sickness, but I'm not the only one Even in health ... In each other's arms, they're wasting away Sickened just as I am and crippled with disease A song comes from above I look up -- there's a tree and a small brown bird Even the sparrows have built a nest But we, poor fools, have built nothing What a shame not to know that you're dying Tell us we're dying, tell us again. I have a sickness The sparrows built a nest My crippled, twisted body is swallowed by the earth As my broken head finds rest. Like a thick fog... If there was no way into God, I would never have laid in this grave of a body for so long. However much you talk... however well you talk, You make a certain sense, but it's still only stupid talk. However much I strut around... however loud I sing, The shining One inside me won't say anything. in darkness a light shines on you and on me I do not exist only you exist. |
|