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SUP LIVEJOURNAL

2006-01-21T14:58:11Z

DANG, where have I been.

Oh yeah. MySpace, for real.
:|

I think things are the polar opposite as they were when I last posted, yay.

I am going to the humane society today to see what kind of puppies they have, wootz.

But more importantly:
Get a MySpace, guys >:|

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-11-08T22:43:00

2005-11-09T03:43:27Z

It's silly how you can be so in love...
And just not notice or even forget.

Silly me. <3

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-09-15T22:51:00

2005-09-16T03:57:14Z

"Choose your destiny."
*Mortal Kombat music*
"Flawless victory."

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-09-13T23:03:00

2005-09-14T04:03:48Z

What's happening to me?

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-08-31T20:59:00

2005-09-01T02:02:39Z

I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains

You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me pour your misery down
Pour your misery down

You can keep me company
As long as you don’t care

I’m only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me

I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me ...

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-08-31T00:06:00

2005-08-31T05:11:06Z

I'm about to pull a stunt.

...Okay. Not so much a stunt as something that will potentially make me a happier person. So here we go. It'll happen within the next week. Watch for it.

Meanwhile...

"Let love not weigh me down
Let the cursed air be clean
When you've lost faith in the human race
Let love not weigh you down

Let love not cause me pain
Let it all seem like a dream
And I won't regret what I can't forget
Let love not cause you pain

So let your beauty blind my vision
Let it move me 'til I die
And the seeds of despair won't be fruits that I bear
Let your beauty blind my vision

So shed all the tears that you want
Run from the places you haunt
If you think you're lost
Or just double-crossed
Don't try to make sense of it all
Let the music and words take you back
To the times when your heart wasn't cracked
We won't be suffering with drugs and bad medicine
We'll drink 'til the curtain calls

Let love not weigh me down
Let its weakness be my guide
And all this intesity makes perfect sense to me
Let love not weigh you down

So shed all the tears that you want
Run from the places you haunt
If you think you're lost
Or just double-crossed
Don't try to make sense of it all
Let the music and words take you back
To the times when your heart wasn't cracked
We won't be suffering with drugs and bad medicine
We'll drink 'til the curtain calls

We'll drink 'til the curtain calls"

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-08-26T19:04:00

2005-08-27T00:16:26Z

This is the first time I've been on my computer in a while, so I thought I'd update.

School is already wearing me out.
I come home. I eat. I sleep.
My classes are relatively easy, and my lunch is pretty awesome.

I'm supposed to go to Jessica's tonight for her birthday party, so I'll probably leave soon.
Scuderi's party is tomorrow.
This weekend is full.

I like being back in school, despite the part where it wears me out.

Sasha and I decided to take a trip to Toronto in February on one of our 4 day breaks.
I'm totally excited.
Although whenever I told Kyle about it, he said we'd probably be seeing eachother sooner.
He said he's coming over Christmas break or sooner.
Woot.

Things are going pretty well, but I'm still always about to bawl.
I realize things can't be perfect, I just really wish they were.
Joe was getting frustrated with a C++ project he has for uni last night.
And he was slightly mean to me.
And I was on the brink of bursting into tears, it hurt me so bad.
Things are just building up. And I know that's not good.
Because when things build up, I get stressed out and flip.
Whatever.

I've been listening to Beck a lot lately.

"Your sorry eyes, they cut through bone.
They make it hard to leave you alone.
Leave you here wearin your wounds
Waving your guns at somebody new.

Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost cause.

There's too many people you used to know
They see you coming they see you go.
They know your secrets and you know theirs
This town is crazy, but nobody cares.

Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost cause.
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause

There's a place where you are going
You ain't never been before
There's no one laughing at your back now
No one standing at your door
Is that what you thought love was for?

Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost
Baby you're a lost cause
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of fighting
Fighting for a lost cause."

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-07-31T07:17:00

2005-07-31T12:17:55Z

You are Weetzie Bat, the punk rock, Indian
head-dress wearing, genie wishing, motherly
figure of an extensive 'almost family.' Living
in her dream house with her secret agent lover
man, best friends, blonde haired love child,
and one purple eyed almost daughter, she makes
sure to take good care of all those around here
while filling her life with beauty and
understanding and the most important thing of
all... love.

'I dont know about happily ever after but I know
about happily.'

(credit www.carylibrary.org/ya/m8.html for the pic)

Which Francesca Lia Block character are you? (PICS/updated)
brought to you by Quizilla

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-07-25T23:05:00

2005-07-26T04:05:16Z

Hallelujah, lock and load.

<3

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-07-20T22:58:00

2005-07-21T04:04:48Z

I made up with Danny, finally.
We both admitted that we did our fair share of hating eachother.
And we talked on the phone for 3 and a half hours :)
It was fun remembering all the old people from spin and doing some walking on the old memory lane.

XfiniteJoEroxU: I AM IN LOVE WITH BROOKE BECAUSE SHE IS SO AWESOME AND COOL. I am going to marry her and give her my babies.

Lmfao, I put words in his mouth :((((((

SCHEDULE:

1 - Economics - Kellison
2 - English-12 - Schmoll
3 - Ceramics-1 - Smith
4 - Spanish-4 - Thoreson
5 - Discrete Math - Eckert
6 - Sociology - Scheib
7 - Anatomy and Physiology - Houser

I take back all the things that I said, I didn't realize I was talking to the living dead.

<3 Go die.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-07-19T04:39:00

2005-07-19T09:40:05Z

Stole this from TeeLa because I love her silly guts :-*

You scored as Luna Lovegood. You're an extreme introvert and because of this, are also a deep thinker. You ponder things others would never dream of pondering and stand with your beliefs without backing down. You find it more valuable to daydream than to socialize, because there's so much more going on in your head than others'. Most people don't understand it, but you seem to prefer it that way.

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Luna Lovegood

81%

Ron Weasley

81%

Sirius Black

78%

Harry Potter

75%

Bellatrix Lestrange

69%

Remus Lupin

66%

Hermione Granger

66%

Albus Dumbledore

59%

Severus Snape

59%

Percy Weasley

50%

Draco Malfoy

47%

Oliver Wood

47%

Neville Longbottom

44%

Lord Voldemort

41%

Harry Potter Character Combatibility Test
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_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-07-17T22:58:00

2005-07-18T04:00:29Z

Just a reminder that I am still alive.
I use MySpace more than this, I guess.
Nothing cool has happened.
I applied for a job, but I've not gotten a call back yet.

And I got the new Harry Potter book. Just finished it.
All I have to say is:
Woah.
Never saw it coming.

I got two mice.
People are showering me with names, so I'm not sure what I should do yet.
Both white, both female.

Notice: Fuck boys.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-05-27T12:08:00

2005-05-27T17:09:06Z

And just because it seems to fit how everyone is currently feeling...

The glove compartment isn't accurately named
And everybody knows it.
So i'm proposing a swift orderly change.

Cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
And all i find are souvenirs from better times
Before the gleam of your taillights fading east
To find yourself a better life.

I was searching for some legal document
As the rain beat down on the hood
When i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget
And that's how this idea was drilled into my head

Cause it's too important
To stay the way it's been

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
And here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
Lying awake at night (up all night)
When i'm lying awake at night.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-05-25T22:20:00

2005-05-26T03:21:57Z

I would like to remind everyone that I am completely perfect.

...Remember?

:D

Go suck on yourself and diiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeee 'cause school is almost out and I can hardly wait for the feeling.

This summer is going to rock. Despite falling outs that have occurred. And also falling...ins? Make sense? I don't know. ANYWAY.

To the entire population of EARTH and everything in the galaxy beyond:

IIIIIIIIIIIIII LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU :)))))))))))))))))))))))

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-05-05T22:20:00

2005-05-06T03:21:18Z

Guys, check out my new layout. Same colors, basically. But a new (and must I add, utterly hot) picture. Of Tidus at that :)

You can't keep away.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-05-04T21:34:00

2005-05-05T02:38:03Z

I love Lost to the effing max.
But they keep saying the season finale is going to be this week, next week, 283172398 weeks. And it never comes. I build all this up, ready to pout because it's over for a while (there will SO be another season, there just has to be)...and the blow never ever never comes :'( I should be happy about it.

Anyway.
The party is probably not going to happen unless I can come up with some funding. And fast. And as none of you have money and I am supposed to be our token "rich kid"...I seriously doubt this will happen. But you guys, I swear and promise and give you my word that I will have a party this summer. I am thinking July-ish. Because that's when Kyle or Chris will be here. And I want them to be able to meet my beautiful friends.

Which reminds me.
If I haven't told you lately...

I absolutely love all of you.

I realized today when I talked to Brandi...that people are saying things. I don't hate anyone, I dislike the way they live. But I still love every single one of you. Because you have all made an impact on my life in some way. And I can't ever thank you enough for making me the person I am today.

I love who you have made me.

And I love you.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-30T12:09:00

2005-04-30T17:14:07Z

Alright, ladies and gentlemen.

End of school is in roughly a month, correct?
And when was the last party we at grandma's?
Definitely a long time ago, it was for Andrew's birthday.

Jared brought up fluorescent paint drumming after school yesterday.
And it sparked my creativity.

Plan:
End of the year party.
Even bigger and better than Andrew's birthday.
Still no drugs, please, we're trying to keep people fun while completely free of outside chemicals/anything else (it's possible, let me tell you).
We'll need to start saving money and shit.
We'll need to start making plans soon, if anyone wants to help me with plans, jump on my wagon.

Comments/Ideas/Suggestions/Want to come?:
IM me, bitch: HakaiSuruIzueMo

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-28T21:23:00

2005-04-29T02:24:12Z

Plans change...

To form even more awesome ones.

CHA-CHING, BITCH.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-23T16:53:00

2005-04-23T21:55:13Z

It's snowing.

And I'm going to play Harvest Moon, goodbye.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-20T13:05:00

2005-04-20T18:11:59Z

I just saw the video for "First Day of My Life" by Bright Eyes.

Completely amazing. The video made me happy, the song is just perfect.

I'm in love.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-12T23:40:00

2005-04-13T04:44:44Z

I'm in a forgiving mood, weird.

I've been making plans since I woke up.
Chris isn't coming anymore, which is a little disappointing as I was looking totally forward to it, but I can get over it.
Kyle is coming to visit, if not also to come to Disney with me. Wewt. I really hope I can get the money for him to go...If not, he'll just come stay for a month or a few weeks or something.
Yay.

I'm a little confused as to why someone who complains about what I write in my journal is still reading it. I'm not complaining, I'm just curious. If you could leave me some insight, that would be cool.

So I need a shitload of money. In a record low of time. Haha. Let's see what I can do. (I will accept loving donations. *puppy eyes*)

The count is: $56.64.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-04-02T20:22:00

2005-04-03T01:27:03Z

So I'm free of one person who has become a burden over the past 7-8 years.
I still miss him.

I'm free of another whose become something that they had originally hated.

Wewt.

I made better friends with Joe <3

My spring break was full of me playing Sims, SimCity, and Age of Mythology.
I left the house once with Jenny to hang out with Jordan, Josh, Sean, and some people I didn't know.
Thanks <3

Well. I almost went to Vermont. But for $600, it would've been worth it. I just didn't have any money. SIGH. I need a jobba.

I need to go to bed early tonight. Staying up to 5-7 isn't going to cut it when school starts, unfortunately :'(

Adam got me the IAMX cd for my birthday, it's the fucking best. Chris Corner is so fucking hot.

OMFG. There was a new episode of Lost on over break. Omfgomfg. And another this wednesday. Omfgomfg. I'm so excited <3

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-02-18T00:15:00

2005-02-18T05:20:04Z

Hm.
My teeth hurt.

Chris is coming this summer for a little less than a month.
I can't tell if I'm so excited and I just haven't realized it's true yet...
Or I don't want him to come.

It's true I've been a little pissy because all he does is play his game.
But that's selfish of me and I get over it after reminding myself that..
I'm just jealous because I can't play WoW >:|
Blah, what am I saying. Ofcourse I want him to come. I'm just nervous :3
w00t.

Half-day tomorrows.
And then 4-day weekend.
Me and Adam haven't had time to have our Valentine's Day picnic, haha.
So that'll happen sometime this weekend. :)
Exciting.

Haha, suck it, fucker.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-02-12T17:33:00

2005-02-12T22:34:28Z

I met you on friendster,
your name was all weird,
I feared the worst
but the more I learned it all became clear,
you were a female peer,
just a few years younger than I,
and you wrote the longest letters,
the very best size.

You live in London, used slang like prat,
you were dating the gym one akin to tight abs,
I’d spend the days half, trying to make you laugh,
you would and write back give me some more of that,
well after week. i knew i was hooked,
you'd blush at each key stroke of 'xo',
without getting one look at the other side guy his pics might be fake,
this type of shit happens every day.

I’m no rock star, a clock watching drone,
who's breath stinks of liquor,
all stoned like lawn gnomes.
No girlfriend, no hook ups,
just lovelorn and fucked up,
no friend to just vent on,
one who'll, say all bets off.
concert was cancelled,
you answered my email.
Turns out your bummed out didn’t want to give details.
A mate had od'd, I could feel your heart beat.
i miss you, never met you, xomc.

Boys don't cry they prefer bawlin'
not shot callin' teardrops fallin,
I’m jonesin' harder than Gollum,
please god, say that's London callin'.

why ya gotta be so far away,
why do plane tickets gotta cost an arm and a leg,
maybe i should save a couple dollars a day,
so without delay, i can look at your face,
smell your hair, rest my hand on your neck,
never mind neckin, you know that comes next
I’ll buy you a dress at that place owned by dodi fayed.
give ya head every night before bed.

but you might d-i-g m-c,
might think me to brash or condescending, a sad finish.
Without taking a first step,
hard to avoid saying something that I will regret
but I bet that we would hit off great I could come to you,
or you could come to the states,
get you a job at mtv,
whatever you need, I’m a slave 4 u like
Britney was to JT.
romance is a cruel trick. playin me like school kids,
don't know if I should do this, if i'm stupid or just foolish,
can't hurt to persue this,
despite you being half a world from me,
what I wouldn't give to sit and sip a cup of tea,
while you nibbled on a crumpet,
I’d love it indeed,
sincerely yours, xo mc

Boys don't cry they prefer bawlin'
not shot callin' teardrops fallin,
I’m jonesin' harder than Gollum,
please god, say that's London callin'.

_nuclear_baby_ @ 2005-02-10T22:53:00

2005-02-11T03:55:00Z

I have just made a discovery.

THIS IS A LIVEJOURNAL.

IF YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT HOW I'M FEELING AT THE MOMENT I WRITE THINGS...

PLEASE GROW THE FUCK UP AND GO AWAY.

INSTEAD OF COMMENTING BECAUSE YOU THINK I'M A WHINY BITCH.

...<3 :3