but you'll be there, to dry my eyes when i breathe you in

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 20:00:51 GMT

oh i have a new journal, i didn't feel like deleting everything from here or go back and make it all private

so add it if you want.

it's babaloubabs.

Wed, 23 May 2007 15:38:20 GMT

Life is good right now.
Not a lot to complain about.

BETHAPALOOZA 2007 this weekend!!that is going to be amazing.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 14:54:01 GMT

i am 22 years of age today.

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:57:04 GMT

Looks like i'm moving back to Baltiwhore Shitty!

i was looking on craigslist.com and found this AWESOME house in patterson park...
I emailed the guy and we've been talking all morning.
The house is all hardwood floors, 500 a month all utilities included.

anyone that was at my last apartment in the city knows that house was AWESOME and i got an amazing deal on it.
So i'm hoping this works out just like that.
and my room i hope is bigger than a closet...although i worked with what i had then.

It was nice living 5 minutes from work. But i got myself in too much bullshit here...and yeah the drives going to suck but i've been late more times since i've lived in Bethesda then i ever was in Baltimore. and well i need to get my shit back together.

i've lost everything so i can only go up from here.

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 16:37:01 GMT

I am in a much better mood today.
Just thought i'd share that.

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:48:02 GMT

sometimes i don't think a lot of my friends realize how badly they hurt my feelings...even when they just say something small.
I'm sure i take it the wrong way..but still...it makes me feel like shit.

Oh well i'll be over it in a few hours..back to watching VH1.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 16:51:48 GMT

This past week i've been really acting really weird.
I've been getting home and passing the fuck out by 8:30 (except for last night the oc was on and i NEEDED to watch it...it was top serious.)
I apparently sent text messages to my exboyfriend in va while i was asleep because i woke up with 5 messages from him asking what the hell i was talking about..i looked at my sent messages and it said "wat ti" and i sent that three times.

I've been really pissy at work. I don't feel like talking to anyone or going out to smoke with the girls. I would much rather just sit here and do my work.
Like today i really had the urge to throw a pen at someone walking by.

I'm not going to Matt Skiba tonight. THATS HOW YOU KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME anyone that knows me knows how much i love that man.
ugh.
My body is just..tired.
My head is about to explode.

I want to move to nashville.

OK NEVERMIND MY STAPLES SUPPLIES JUST CAME IN AS I WAS TYPING.
I NOW HAVE SHARPIE ULTRA THIN MARKERS
PURPLE/PINK/AND GREY LEGAL PADS
AND FINGER CONDOMS! (not really condoms, they are rubber fingers. everyone kept stealing them from me so now i have two boxes of them :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) )

FUCK YES.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 16:30:49 GMT

My hair is a dark red now.
Everyone in my office is in love with it and keeps asking why i never did this before.
It's nice to hear because this past week i've been feeling pretty shitty.
I'm still going to the gym almost every night minus this nights i have to work late or my mother needs my help with something.

I don't think i want to go to see Heavens on Thursday. I love me some Matt Skiba but i can't get into the heavens album. I think i said i liked it because i love alkaline trio so much..but i just don't think i'd be happy standing at the ottobar for a few hours listening to songs i kind of like.
unless anyone wants to meet me there and sit at the bar with me for a little while, that would be nice.

blah blah blah ok bye.

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 20:58:09 GMT

HAHA
ok i just got over my last post REAL fast when my 5 year old cousin just started dancing to Biggie.
It was the cutest/funniest thing i've EVER seen.

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 14:08:59 GMT

Last night was seriously amazing
I didn't want it to end.

He was so fucking good.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 19:21:41 GMT

setlist from philly.
i swear to god if they keep it like this will be the best concert i'll ever go to.
i don't care how gay that just sounded either.
Chris Conley's acoustic Setlist :
Jessie & My Whetstone
Three Miles Down
A Drag in D Flat
Nightengale
I'm Sorry I'm Leaving
Holly Hox Forget Me Nots
Hold
Third Engine
In My Waking Life
My Sweet Fracture
Handsome Boy
Always Ten Feet Tall
Dying Day
Freakish
You Vandal
Sound the Alarm
Cars & Calories
The Choke
The Last Lie I Told
Tomorrow Too Late
Certain Tragedy
When It Isn't Like It Should Be
Take Our Cars Now
This Is Not An Exit

Encore:
Jodie

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Tue, 31 Oct 2006 23:15:18 GMT

god.
fucking.
damn.
my.
car.
I really wish it would just explode.

But seriously good job emily for bring in the best fucking cookies ever today. That made my day a LITTLE better.

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 19:12:56 GMT

I sure did throw up all over sheilas balcony last night.
and when i say all over i mean ALL over. This was after i passed out on her bathroom floor for a good 40 minutes.

dear god.
I felt like shit this morning and i didn't go to work.
But i did get stuff taken care of on my car.

ugggh

No more shots for heather. Just beer from now on.

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 17:46:50 GMT

oh and i'm already getting excited for next weekend.
the mother fucking redbull flugtag!!!!!!!!!

Is anyone else other than Casey and i going?

Sun, 15 Oct 2006 16:54:10 GMT

oh god.
my stomach still hurts from the amount of beer i consumed last night.

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 12:45:39 GMT

i wish it was ok to take a nap under my desk.
Just for 30 minutes.

ugh and its not even 9 am yet :(

bummer.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 10:44:17 GMT

Dear Maryland,

I will be home in 1.5 days.
i need a new liver...top serious.
Please be ready for the most AMAZING pictures EVER vegas+ca=amazing.

we are drunk now.
tattoos tomorrow in some wine place i don't know something with that starts with T.
Goodnight.

love,
Heather

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 21:01:40 GMT

AND I'M DONE WITH WORK FOR A WEEK!

Orange County & Vegas here i come!!!

yet, my boss who reminds me a lot of like the boss from office space just walked past my desk and goes

"hey darlin', are you really, really excited? you're going to have SO much fucking fun. You have to call me and let me know how it is....

oh by the way, you are going to come in tomorrow morning, right? I mean, your flights not until 4"

i laughed at him for a good minute. Then he left and took his son to get ice cream.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 16:21:39 GMT

fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.

I am so fucking frustrated right now.
We have a girl that comes in and is supposed to help me with the filing, organization, phone calls, etc. because i am only one person and i can't do all of that.
THIS IS WHAT SHE WAS HIRED TO DO.
HELP ME
and yes, i spend a lot more time on the internet then i probably should at work, but i also get my shit done by the end of the day. I take about 5 million policy calls, and i get AT LEAST two boxes of them out a day, and review the recordings.
and when i bring this up to my boss or other people in the office its always "well..shes only 19" WELL SORRY DOUCHE BAG Sheila was fucking processing at 19, i was doing post closing at 19... thats not an excuse.
She basically gets paid to go sit over with the spanish girls on the floor and talk.
She will come over to me and say "do you have anything for me to do" and i just point at the THREE huge boxes of papers that need to be filed..and she goes "i'm not doing that" i said, "you have to" and she replied with " i don't have to do anything" and walked around the office and then decided she needed candy and went to the gas station.
This is so gay!
Just do your job!
No one gives a shit about your new puppy, or your boyfriend, or how you get your hair so straight in the morning..no one. Stop it.
fuck.

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 14:34:02 GMT

It is almost 10 am and i JUST got to work.
Any kind of traffic i could hit.. i did.
Lots of accidents, lots of break downs, EVEN an old lady getting CPR on the side of Battery Lane in Bethesda..which is about 5 seconds from my work and i still sat there for a good 20 minutes while people tried to help her.

Anyway, last night was a lot of fun.
Drinking with Casey and Ryan. Ryan and i annoying the shit out of casey.
Singing Green Jelly Songs while dancing around like assholes.
I told casey i was only going to have one drink (whoops.) and then go home, but how can you only spend like 10 minutes with casey graff? It just doesn't happen.
I'm glad i was able to help him out with getting crutches and stuff. He's been there for me a lot when i needed him, i'm just glad i could do the same. Even if some people are taking it the wrong way...

Tonight i will pack, finish my laundry and go hang out with Tony and Johnny for a bit.
God i can't wait to be out of here.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 22:35:30 GMT

my plan was to come home and go to bed.
But now i can't sleep. I'm so fucking hyper now it sucks.
i was so tired that i'm not tired anymore.

so i will do all my laundry and start getting excited to leave in four days!!!
I'm sure you're all really sick of me talking about that.
But eeeeeeeeeeep!
I'm just proud of myself for actually saving money to go to vegas TWICE in less than six months.

ok i need to go do something with all this energy.

sleepiest alou ever.

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 14:02:49 GMT

My entire body hurts.
Virgin fest was fun but not 220.00 worth of fun. People are rude
The killers were fucking awesome though.
And that jack white..mmph. Man do i love him.

I probably got 3 hours of sleep on friday, four on saturday, and about four last night.
i'm going to die.

I also think i'm going to have to take a cab to BWI on friday. Its the end of the month and i don't want to be late because my mom has stuff going on at the office.
She over books herself.
My flight is at 4pm.

i need to just like crawl under my desk and sleep for 30 minutes

fuck the focus....it doesn't even have 4 door handles!

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 13:52:43 GMT

I am so scared to drive my car right now.
I can't afford to put it in the shop right this second. Its going to have to wait until i get back from Vegas.
My car is shaking REALLY really bad, the engine light is on and now its blinking. it has a hard time getting to 30 but once it gets there its fine until i get to 60 and then it slows down.

My mom said i could drive the Suburban if i was too scared to drive my car. But i don't know whats worse, driving a big ass truck or breaking down on 495 during rush hour.
I guess the only way i would feel comfortable driving the suburban is if i left at like 5 am so i didn't hit any traffic and didn't have to worry about switching lanes.

I'm also scared because Rob who has been driving a lot longer than i have got into an accident with my moms truck when we were moving into the Baltimore house.
Nothing serious...but if someone that is obviously a better driver than i am can drive it
oh fuck i'm going to die.

Do any of you know anything about cars and maybe want to take a look at it for me? DO IT!

sdfhskjlfhsjkfhslkjfhslkfjs ldf

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 03:04:23 GMT

oh and by the way that "update Captains log" thing really confused me me for a fucking second.

this is seriously not a drunk post.

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 03:03:53 GMT

i fucking hate that my mother favors her children.
I fucking hate that she sits there and tells people oh heather's just this, heathers just that..allies my real favorite and then everyone thinks its a big fucking joke.

then i come upstairs and shes talking about how wonderful she is and how much she just wants to buy all this shit for her.
Its not so much that i want my mom to buy me things its more the fact that i've probably heard my mother tell me she loves me 10 times in my entire life and i heard her say it to Allie everyday.
She calls marissa weird ,she pretty much makes me feel like i'm this failure asshole..and the boys..ugh don't even get me started.

i hate feeling like this. I hate that she pretends i don't exsist around most of her friends.
Maybe i'm just imagining this. Maybe i'm just tired. I don't know.

i'm probably just being a childish or selfish but i guess no one would really understand unless they grew up with her or saw how she is 85% of the time.
Shes fine when everyone else is around. But really she makes me feel fucking worthless the majority of the time and thats the fucking truth.