Red Letter Year -

So, unless I can come up with more money, I can't go to grad school next year.

That's right kids. It's more expensive than I thought. I need about 200 dollars for the rest of the fees and the GRE and I don't have that. I can't even pay my loan payment this month, and I'm fucked.

So I'm trying to sell my Mitch Hedberg Tribute ticket---40$ is the value after ticket master fees. I'm not scalping the price by any means. I'd hate to do that to Jessie, but I have no real choice. I'm basically out there trying to sell anything of value that I own. My iPod is only worth 50$ at the pawn shop so I'm going to do that. I'm pawning my electric guitar and maybe my baritone guitar too tonight after class. I hate to, those are my babies, but I have too. My 27 inch TV is only gonna net me 20$ and they won't take my DVD player because it's a low selling brand. My banjo is a family heirloom, but it's been quoted as having a 300 dollar selling price, yet if i sell it my family wll KILL me.

I don't think I have anything else worth pawning, maybe my clarinet which I don't play anymore...I could sell that to the music shop for maybe 30$ which would help. I have very few DVD's and fewer CD's that I can sell, and my computer is so old that no place in town will take it. I can't even give away the reptile and reptile supplies and no one is interested in buying my airbed.

I might be going over to the day labor place downtown. Essentially you go, they give you a job for the day and you get cash when you're done. It would be worth skipping school for...I could do it on Thursday and Friday. It's too late to pick up shifts at work, they don't have any hours to give me, plus I'd have to wait two weeks to see the money.

My tax refund won't come for nearly two months, so if anyone loans me money, they'll be pissed that they don't get paid back right away. Plus, I'm getting like 400 back and I owe one credit card 300 and my parents 600, so that won't happen.

I've exhausted family members and abilty to apply for credit cards. I hate groveling, but if anyone can even give me a fuckin' dollar I'd appreciate it--seriously.