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[13 Nov 2005|07:49pm] |
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The Skatepark in the grove is officially my new home.
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[13 Nov 2005|07:48pm] |
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your a pussy bitch ****
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[10 Nov 2005|07:27pm] |
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I love skating
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[26 Oct 2005|12:51pm] |
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yet again i've fallen for someone way outta my league
Why do I fall in love with every woman I see that shows me the least bit of attention?
grear carlos, fukin great
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[24 Oct 2005|01:16am] |
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why bro?
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[18 Oct 2005|06:25pm] |
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me so horny me love you long time lol
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[15 Oct 2005|12:31pm] |
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i dont think ive ever been so drunk i had endless shots of whiskey, jamiacan rum, fire shots, i puked, it was sick i was so fucked up i couldnt walk i still feel fucked up evn though its 12 30 omg what a night
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[13 Sep 2005|03:26pm] |
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Tagged from Gladys
Write 20 facts about yourself. Then tag 6 people.
1. I'm a nice person really but I do alot of fucked up shit in the name of comedy.
2. I've drank an "Everything in the Fridge" (should be self-explanitory)
3. I skipped school today and went to the beach.
4. I skipped school last friday and chilled.
5. I skipped school last tuesday and chilled.
6. I'm considering stopping the skipping.
7. My middle name is humberto.
8. I hate religion
9. I was attacked by two black kids my freshman year at sunset place, AKA Black Friday!!
10. I really like someone a lot but I wont tell them.
11. I seem to do that a lot.
12. I masterbate and so do you.
13. My exgirlfriend bruised her leg once from falling off the washing machine while masterbating.
14. I hate school.
15. With a passion
16. I own at Tony Hawk games.
17. I prefer vodka over pretty much anything.
18. I hate bright eyes.
19. I really want a big band.
20. Im going to Ska is Dead III
i dont tag anyone w/e bitches
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[25 Aug 2005|08:24pm] |
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so today was ok, not all bad, just kinda slow wet and boring, like that slut i fucked in 9th grade, slow, wet and boring, anyway, fuck, i love how some people are so irrational sometimes, or maybe its me, u know if its me tell me, i mean im understanding i listen to everythinhg, yet some people decide to test the waters a little bit, all i want to do is be friends and talk, some people need to understand that
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[22 Aug 2005|05:29pm] |
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i'm sick of this shit
i hate what you do to me
i hate it
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[11 Aug 2005|09:19pm] |
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i havent skated like today in the longest time, busted my ass pretty bad too haha
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[01 Aug 2005|01:22am] |
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Fuck it
I've been really feeling like shit lately, maybe it's the ciggerettes and pot, i havent smoked a ciggerette in 8 days, i feel good about it, I'm really tryin to quit, it's hard but it's the best thing for me to do, Weed though is much more addicting, scratch that, I'm not addicted to weed, I'm addicted to being high, I'm gonna quit that too.
So school starts soon....Damn!
Well Lately all these fucking emotions or w/e have been flowin through me and it pisses me off, all these girls that i've liked/like, it's rediculous, sometimes I see myself to be way too much of a pussy when it comes to girls, I never make a move, I always seem to freeze, I mean it's like most guys or so I think like hooking up, and they do it often, me, Ha Right, I fall for girls, and boy do I fall hard, but in my experience, I make a move, i get nowhere, except a probability of ending the frienship altogether, becaue it gets akward or w/e, and I don't want that to happen anymore, I like my friends a lot, and when I like one more it scares me, cause fuck, It's akward, or the whole frienship over dating bullshit, girls, I'm not like that, i don't date a friend, then if we brake up ignore them, not If your my friend before we date, cause that's just rude, and gay.
So w/e I have nothing less to say except go see The Devil's Rejects.
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[31 Jul 2005|04:24pm] |
one week..left
i guess in miami, we call it, 32 ounces to freedom
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[20 Jul 2005|04:23pm] |
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IDENTIFICATION
*1. Full birth name: Carlos Humberto Perez
*2. Natural Hair Color: Black, but i wish it was pink
*3. Hair Color Currently: black
*4. Eye Color At Birth : Brown.
*5. Eye Color Currently : Brown.
*6. Height: 6'0
*7. Glasses/Contacts: contacts
*8. Birthdate: 7-29-88
*9. Sign: Leo
*10. Current Age: 16.
*11. Siblings' Names: amanda, christian
*12. Location: 305 till i die
*13. School Attending: Miami Sunset High,
*14. Current Grade: 12
*15. Sexuality: Straight
*16. College Plans: music
*17. Any Piercings: no
*18. Any Tattoos: soon
>SOCIAL LIFE:
*1. Best Girl Friend(s): that title goes to adrii, cause she's just too cool haha <3
*2. Best Guy Friend(s): Damien
*3. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: theres a few girls im lookin at
*4. If No, Current Dating Partner:none
*5. Current Crush: ehh lets not go there
*6. Hobbies: sk8, music, bands, and more shit
*7. Pager: na chill
*8. flower: how does a flower relate to a social life
9*. car: 97 lincoln continental blue, soon to be black
*10. What Type Automobile Do You Wish You Drove: Skyline
*11. Would You Rather Be With Friends Or On A Date: i dunno depends whos the date with
*12. Where Is The Best Hangout: nicks house hahaha
*13. Do You Have A Job: lookin
*14. How much do you get paid: shit
>PERSONAL:
*1. Who Is Your Role Model: no one, i live for myself not to look up to others
*2. What Are Your Pet Peeves: none really
*3. Have You Ever Been In Love: ehh yea
*5. Have You Ever Cried Over The Opposite Sex: unfortunatly but only once
*6. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: no, if your a girl and your fun to be with your my type
*7. Have You Ever Lied To Your Best Friend(s):who doesnt
*8. Ever Wanted To Get Revenge on Someone Because They Hurt You: revenge isnt the way to go
*9. Ever Been Cheated On: yea
*10. Ever Said I Love You To A Significant Other: yea
*11. Rather Be Dumper Or Dumped: dumped, cause im oh so used to it
*12. Rather Have A Relationship Or A "Hookup": Relationship
*13. Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: YES .times like 98734979010390
*14. Ever Liked Your Best Guy/Girl Friend: ehhh
*15. Do You Want To Get Married: someday
*16. Do You Want Kids: maybe 2
*17. Do You Believe In Psychics: maybe
*18. Do You Believe You Know The Person Who You Are Going To Marry At This Point In Life: na
*19. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Body: u dont want to see my body
*20. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Emotional Being: when im chillen
*21. Are You Happy With You: not really
*22. Are You Happy With Your Life:ehh kinda i guess
*23. Are You Scared Right Now?: na
*24. Depressed?: no
*25. If You Could Change Something In Your Life Right Now, What Would It Be?: this song i'm playin it reminds to much of someone
> FAVORITE:
*1. Sports Team: basketball- heat. CFB- oklahoma. NFL- Indy Colts,. Baseball- Marlins
*2. Room In house: mine
*3. Girl's Name: Kristina
*4. Guy's Name: i dont really care
*5. Person to talk to about your problems: adri and damien
*6. Song- Streetlight Manifesto - A better place, a better time
*7. Movie: Ummm way too hard
*8. Actor/Actress: Scarlett Johanson
*9. Beverage: Coke
*10. Candy: reeces
*11. Family Member: they all are cool
*12. Salad Dressing: ranch
*13. Blanket/Stuffed animal: not gay alert.. attention, i dont have any
*14. Favorite quote from a movie: "Finding Freedom In Hopelessness"
*15. Day of The Week: Friday
*16. Color: red
*17. Perfume And Cologne: uhh
*18. TV Shows: Cheers, simpsons, family guy
*19. Flower: uhh
*20. Fast Food Place: bk
*21. Game: GTA
*22. Teacher: Mrs. Ingram
*23. Love Song: ehh , i dont know
*24. Clothing: everything
*25. Possession: my guitars
*26. Vacation Spot: sanibel
*27. Person To Give Advice To: anyone
*28. Person To Get Advice From: i dont ask for advice
> THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE U:
*1. Cried: no
*2. Bought Something: yes
*3. Gotten Sick: no
*4. Sang: yes
*5. Eaten: Yes.
*6. Been Kissed: Yes
*7. Felt Stupid: Yes
*8. Said I Love You: no
*9. Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved Them, But Didn't: yes
*10. Met Someone New: yes
*11. Moved On: na
*12. Missed An Ex: na
last cigarette: like an hour ago
last car ride: like an hour ago to drop off my brother
last kiss: lord knows
last good cry: i unno
last library book checked out: 1984 9th grade and i still have it
last movie seen: SLC punk
last book read: Angels and Demons
last cuss word uttered: fuck
last beverage drank: Coke
last food consumed: pizza
last crush: ehh i dont like these questions
last phone call: damien
last tv show watched: show? Red Sox Game
last time showered: today
last cd played: Everything went numb
last item bought: iuno.
last downloaded: transplants
last disappointment: too many
last soda drank: coke
last thing written: coke
last key used: my car
last word spoken: Ok
last sleep: i hAD A NAP TODAY
last in: uh ?
last sexual fantasy: lol yea right i aint sharin that shit
last ice cream eaten: choco
last time wanting to die: never my time will come
last time in love: ehh fuck
last time hugged: mommy
last time scolded: i unno
last time resentful: resentful?! everyday cause i yet to speak my mind
last chair sat in: this one
last lipstick used: na chill
last underwear worn: boxers
last bra worn: ehh no bra here
last shirt worn: tanktop
last time dancing: i unno
last poster looked at: my poster of the finest girl in world
last show attended: June 4 the cohorts
last webpage visited: lj and my space
1 MINUTE AGO: thiss
1 HOUR AGO: on the other computer here.
1 DAY AGO: out
1 week ago: no
1 YEAR AGO: no
I HURT: my self to much
I LOVE: my friends
I HATE: not much
I FEAR: rejection and failure....*
I HOPE: too much
I FEEL: like shit
I HIDE: and seek?
I DRIVE: a blue car
I MISS: alot of ppl
I LEARNED: alot in school?
I NEED: a girl
I THINK: too much
-current clothes: tanktop, black dickies
-current mood: tired
-current music: Streetlight
-current taste: toothpaste yuk
-current hair: just cut it
-current annoyance: none
-current smell: none
-current thing I should be doing:drinking a 32
-current refreshment: soda
-current worry: my health
-current thoughts: too many
---Body---
-1. What do you most like about your body?: im tall
-2. And least?: ehh everything
-3. How many fillings do you have?: 2
-4. Do you think you're good looking?: no not at all
-5. Do other people often tell you that you're good looking? fuck if i know
6. Do you look like any celebrities?: no
Longest you've gone with out a shower? days
Color of most clothes you own: black,
Number of pillows you sleep with: 2
Have you ever been in love/Are you: yea/not in love but im constantly thinking of someone
What are you wearing: same shit i typed b4
What are you doing in 1 hour: senior pics ehh
What room are you in right now: the one with the computer
What where you doing: computer
Do you like riddles: yea
Do you like trampolines: yea
How old will you be in 10 years: 26
What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: i unno when im 26 i'll tell ya
Do you have braces: Nopeeee
Last thing you ate: lunch
What's your locker combination: fuck u
Are you paranoid: yea
Do you burn or tan: tan but it comes to a point i will burn
Pen or pencil: pens
Do you check your mail regularly: na
Describe your cd player: i pod nigga
Your wallet: black
Your alarm clock -loud
Your hair: short and black
Most worn shoes: adio's
Computer: compaq
Bed: i unno it good though
What color are your nails: no i dont do that
Last time you had sex: crossin the line are we?
Last time you where sick: 2 months ago
Last person you yelled at: i unno
What are you going to do when your off the computer: senior pics
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[20 Jul 2005|01:26pm] |
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ehh senior pictures today
fuck
"I dont understand but I like you anyway"
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so i talked to jocelyn today
signifigance of this statement
It was the first time in 3 years
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i liked you 3 years ago
you dissapeared for 3 years
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IDAIRSICUFKNGIMAAGINZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats right
i said it
i had to say it
i dont care for the reaction
just know you are :)
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The infinite question
Why?
No matter how hard you try to get past the idea of something you can always ask , Why?
Child instinct
When you were little all you said was why this, why that, and you were given an answer , so you lived by it, but you never really question it anymore, open your eyes, start questioning things, maybe there is more to waht we see and what were taught, BUT, maybe there isn't , will we ever know? Nope
Explain the stonehedge to me, SOMEBODY...
NOT EVEN TODAY with our technology, are SUPER ADVANCED INTERNET HAVING WAY BEFORE US GOVERNMENT cannot recreate stonehedge, so how was it done, why was it done?
So many questions to answer but answerless anyway
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Life isn't fair, get used to it.
Your not going to get what you want all the damn time, but is it just me or do we NEVER get what we want anymore, they say, if you have a goal keep shootin for it, but now-a-days shit is just impossible to get, it's hard to suceed, they say try, try, try, but what happends when you fail, fail ,fail. all that rejection, it starts to take a toll on your mind and body.
Reality isn't what it used to be, when we were young, we didn't care about getting older, when we were 8 or 9, being 17 and 18 was such a distance, so far away that you wouldn't even dare thinking about it, but now we are 17 and 18 and not much to look forward to except a high school diploma that says, "here get a job", were taught for 12-14 years that school will teach us everyting we need to know about life, how can 12-14 years teach us about life, when we have at least 40 or 50 years of it left, it can't, it can give you a foundation sure, but our mind is set on school, in the summer we feel free, relieved, like "This is the way it should be all the time".
Beinag a middled teen kid, not man, kid, I see myself falling for all these different girls, theyr'e all so beautiful, they are all so smart, but out of all these beautiful women only 2 in my whole life have stood out, they have just made me crazy, impossible, I think of them so much that I scare myself, and both of them have pretty much let me down pretty much for now atleast, but that feeling, is horrendous, it's terrible, but there is just not much I can do about it, I tried tried tried, But I failed failed failed.
Failure
at least for now
But I do know what is important in life nontheless
That's what keeps me alive
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