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This journal is useable again as I've been able to make sure unwanted parties don't have access to this lj.

That said, I would like to ask those that have not done so already to add _agrippa_ to your Friends list as that is my new journal.

Thanks.

I have a smile
Stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road

We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
The world around us disappears

Just you and me
On this island of hope
A breath between us could be miles

Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek

Oh and every time I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell you
I love you
And the night's
Too long
And cold here
Without you
I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the strength to say I need you so

Oh and every time I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell you
I love you
And the night's
Too long
And cold here
Without you

[stolen from Sarah MacLachlan... thanks Sarah]

These lyrics and this song match us so perfectly hun. I love you and I hope to see you soon!

You Are Mulan!

Strong and spirited. You're no one's girly girl; actually you are a tomboy with a strong sense of self. Never let go of that! The only thing that equals your sense of self is your family, but the traditions of society can always be bent to protect something you love.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

My first effeminate post... I'm sure Cristina's thinking, "HAD to be the Asian princess..." hehe.

*shrug*

I fell in love under a square sky. I don't know how she feels about me anymore. I know it's best to be natural. My natural instinct is to worry though. There is too much space between us...

I don't want to fail.

Not again.

Not this time.

Made a new friend today. 10 minutes into talking to her I told her everything. Everything. Over a hot chocolate at some Vietnamese submarine and coffee shop.

I don't know why I did that, I guess everything had to come out. I don't regret it though. I smiled for the first time in a long time.

Part of me wants to just leave it all behind, part of me just wants to find a connection.

I can't believe how hard I slipped.

Secretly I'm glad I did.

• I might be single again very soon.
• My future is in jeopardy.
• My stress levels are beyond anything past experienced.
• Nothing is going to plan anymore.
• I'm too weak to improve my situation.
• There is one option that might make things good again, but to take that option involves a great sacrifice that I don't think I am willing to make.  To lose everything so that I _might_ gain something, and even if I do, there's no guarantee it's permanent (is there ever though?)
• I seem cryptic, because this is really personal stuff, like the very _CORE_.
• I walk around downtown after work when it's dark sometimes 4 - 5 hours at a time, trying to collect myself, to find a way to make everything okay.  Secretly hoping that I'll be crossing a street so lost in thought that I'll get smacked by a bus or something.
• I'm too young to be thinking the way I am.
• Everyday this past week I have gotten insanely drunk and have therefore wasted way too much money.
• I had a couple compliments, but they weren't enough.  Not the way I'm feeling.
• I don't know what I should do, I don't know which choice is going to make me feel better.
• I want to take better care of myself, but I can't being myself to...
• I just want to sleep.

I just found out that I was wrong about pretty much everything since pretty much forever.

Seriously. It's not a good feeling.

http://blennus.com/index.php?option=content&task=view&id=29&Itemid

I'm
Silently
Turning
Introverted
Lost
Love
Makes
It
Seem
So
Yesterday
Opinions
Unnecessary
And
Living
Life
All
Nothingness
And
Hurt

http://agency.curiouspictures.com/general/kyle/castin.mov

http://www.expression.philips.com.br/artes/venc2003/obrasflash/rmello/o_incomodo.swf

Wave your cursor in front of his face for a while. Keep doing it and see what happens.

Hehe.

I hope you guys are alright, I miss you all and I'm worried about you. I don't know if I should call or not.. Keeping lines free for emergencies.. I'm thinking of you and if you can read this and if I can do anything, please contact me if you can.

Take the quiz: "What kinda import car is for u???"

confused..... Mitsubishi
If ur all about the EVO VIII then things are good...... other wise rethink whatchu want...

Well, the results are in and to respect the honesty and privacy of my friends that did fill out the survey, I will keep that entry screened. But here are my favourite answers from each of you guys (MUCH MUCH love):

(My comments are in square brackets)

01. Who are you, what's our relationship: I am Cristina. The girl, of "the boys" haha [You'll always be a gabber for us =P]
02. How and where did we meet: We met when.. I moved out of my house briefly. Justin & Cody came to rescue me for a while. [I thought you were flame grilled super hot (still do)]
03. What's my middle name? "the bestest" [much luuurve to you hun <3]
04. How long have you known me? Urmm.. it has to be about 4 years now. [and I've become a better person because of those years]
05. Tell me one good thing about myself? you are one of the most honest and considerate people I've ever met. I think you're the best friend a person could ever ask for.. because through the thick and the thin - no matter what - you're always there FOR your friends. [That really means a lot, because I know how sincere you are. Thank you!]
06. When you first saw me what was your impression? I thought you looked like a lot of fun. [Wish I could have shown ya just how much fun *wink*]
07. My age: 9999 [HAHAHA you rule!]
08. Birthday: April 15? [ahhh.. sooo close!]
09. My favorite band at the moment: You probably don't have a favorite, but a number of favorites! [true dat!]
10. Colour eyes: I think there brown. I can't tell becuz the pic has a dot in the middle of your eyes. probably from a light behind the camera. [I don't even know, how's that?]
11. Do I have any siblings? Only child [Yeah... shame really =\]
12. Have you ever had a crush on me? Oh yes. Couldn't you tell. ~_^ [=P]
13. What's one of my favorite things to do? duh-rift-oh! [kekekekekeke]
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you? uh..how'd you get my s/n? [ROFL! I almost peed when I read that]
15. Describe me in 3 words: mitsubishi lancer EVO-fucking-luTION [hehe that's all you think of me =P]
16. Name 5 things i love: 1) piss 2) on turds 3) named ***** 4) flush them 5) cackle about it [I cried laughing haha man we're going to have so much fun when I see you!]
17. Do you think i'm good looking? Yes! [awwwww]
18. How would you describe me to someone? One of the most energetic, unique and contageous people. Contageous, in that everyone likes you.. I truely think it's impossible not to like you. And your laughter, it's oh so contageous. [*speechless*]
19. Would you ever date me? If either we were gay or you or I was a girl, yes. [wow thanks!]
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did: I luuurve you! haha [^_____^ x infinity]
21: What do you like most about me? I really like that.. you're such a giving person. sometimes I feel so bad cause you're so giving - but.. it's a wonderful quality to have [gets me in shit sometimes but the pros (having you in my life) FAR FAR FAR outweigh the cons anyday]
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do? find an empty parking lot [hehe you're on!]
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight? Hell's no [^__^]
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years? We better be. >_< [Damn straight!]
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it? Glomp! Because that's what I'd do to you, all the time if I saw you all the time. haha [Right back atcha babe]
26. What do you think my weakness is? you don't have a stage 2 turbo kit [LOLZ!]
27. Do you think I'll get married? Of course dear [~__O]
28. What makes me happy? Friends. The simple things in life. [mhmm! <3]
29. What makes me sad? getting deported that one time (which suxxored) [Yeah man!]
30. What reminds you of me? *whistles* women? -- oh wait wrong answer..igloo's, ryan (another canadia friend of mine), snow, long walks on the beach..and penguins/polarbears/lana/meese (yes meese motherfucker) [WTF MEESE HAHA]
31. If you could give me anything what would it be? more hours in the day, and a million dollars so you could not have to worry about money when moving back to Japan. [PLEASE!]
32. When's the last time you saw me? Gosh, on your birthday I think [I'm so glad you came <3]
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same? it's pretty constant, but if it's changing it's only getting stronger [true true]
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen? Heck yes. [I feel the same way too]
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you? (damn how'd you know?) [=P bah!]
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why? Green tea! (NOTE: That's cool because I made Green Tea Ice Cream for her on her birthday <3)
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me? *****
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be? *****
39. Would you make a move on me? if we were both wasted, there's a very slim possibility [naughty!]
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day? Everyday [^_^!]

At 9:45 AM, August 25, 2004, After beating it once before, and after enduring painful treatments, Brian Graham finally succumbed to his battle with cancer and passed away...

the more that i struggle
the further i get in trouble
the more i erase you
the more you appear
any other time
any other time
please
not now
never ever never
ever never ever
pick up the phone

calm down
take three of these
with a glass of water
shut up

oh no it doesn't
oh yes it does
you should be with me
we should be together
no we shouldn't
no
we shouldn't

My life is like the person you fall madly in love with, then stay with after the relationship turns sour because you can't bear to give up the perfect vision you once believed in.