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wow- these past few days have been so good to me!! I've been enjoying summer and the rain/ thunder (no matter how little it was)!
And last night just proved to be ultimate between hot tob and sleepover (two!!)
Lesley thank you for being soooooooooo much fun to be with : )
and Brian thank you for wearing sharks- you know what I'm talking about
and as for everything else... "like you meant it..."
And tonight should be awesome double date style!! I'm so excited!!
and running before was incredible- it was more like walking but nonetheless...It was just so quiet and sunny and really nice. And it's a bit more productive then a nap, eh? sooo tired but it's all good!!!
and I keep looking at my new prom shoes- the ones I nearly cried over when I first saw them. My mom is WAYYYY too good to me. <333 I'm going to love these shoes like no other. It's making me that much more excited for prom! It's just going to be fun. I know it....and Ill actually SEE my jess whos been nonexistant aka away : / I LOVE YOU JESS
and then finally graduation will come and the preparing for Florida will begin : )
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(6 kissed me like they meant it | put your arms around me)
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[17 Jun 2004|01:06am] |
I guess this is how you want it. This is probably your idea of perfection, given the circumstances. I guess it's the least I could do for you.
if only you knew
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| as if it were the last time... |
[09 Jun 2004|03:16pm] |
Oh man how much I love this feeling- it's so weird and hard to explain...
BUT there's something about losing all your energy trying to breathe under water for so long, then throwing your hair up, putting on dry clothes and sitting in bed with the ac blasting and the music you love filling the room
uhhhh I am so in love.
with Jonathan of course, but with life as well.
School's almost over and I am so ready for it to end but I'm also psyched about these last few days and ready to make them the best days yet. With tonight being my last concert, the emotions are kicking in. But I think those emotions only provbe how much all the friendships and memories are worth to a person and how amazing the journey has been. Too much of a good thing can be real bad and I think ending it now, it just is right. Everything feels right. And I love it.
I just wish I was a better writer and I could sign peoples' yearbooks in a way that would let them know how much they meant to me. Even those who have no idea that just a hello in the halls from them would make my day, and those who I did nothing more than ask the time when we were both in front of the bathroom mirror- then saying hi to her ever since and nothing more. Its moments like that, those faces Im so comfortable seeing every day that Ill miss. Everyone else, I'll still hopefully see, if even just for the summer. But regret lies in those people I should've stopped and introduced myself to...then again, this is NOT the time to focus on regret. It's time to seize these last few moments and try to fulfill all under the title of "high school." That phase is over soon enough. Time to move on.
It's scary and sad and pretty much every emotion but It's time.
It's finally time.
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[03 Jun 2004|04:04pm] |
So sorry about yesterday. My mood was out of control.
what can I say? I don't know how to deal with certain things : / something I should work on
and I just can't wait for school to be over and to graduate!!! This isn't feeling like I always pictured it but I guess its good Im not like lamenting over it either. whooooo knoooowsss
But I am just so lucky with my friends and especially my Jonathan and uhhhh I can't wait to make this the best summer ever!!
going outside !! love outside
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[31 May 2004|02:10pm] |
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after a very stressful early part of the day, last night turned out to be awesome. I'm tired so highlights instead of story...
+ all of us packed into the xIanmobile
+ the 40 minute trip around smithtown, dans house and the slowest people ever on river road where road rage almost ensued
+ eating frozen pizza and me rnning like an ass to my seat when I heard Jordan Knight come on....uhhhhhhh "he knows Joey McIntyre!!!!!"
+ Hanson and Zac "Forgetting how to play drums"
+ Kim Locke being REALLY REALLY good
+ leaving!! : p
+ millenium dinner....meeting up with Eric and JJ
+ back to Mikes for Kings
+ dan being the funnest ever when trying to catch all the cards bri was throwing at him
+ and soooooooo much more
but naptime....thanks to everyone for such a great time last night!! esp Ian for the invite!
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[24 May 2004|04:32pm] |
what an amazing time! I seriously had such a blast and I have Pete to thank for that : ) Thanks Pete so much for inviting me....!! I love you!!
and Christian, Ari, and us were rocking with our dance moves...not to say the same about Christian who owned the dance floor!!! and the decorations/theme came out so nice. I loved it inside (minus the sweltering heat)
then onto the after party- which brought us to the most horrendous, cliche party ever... and then sleep time for me. I was exhausted which brought me to no six flags : /
but nonetheless it was simply the best.
and then today was fundaymonday with Liza....yet another amazing one : )
love that girl so much with our friendlys and our last three funday mondays will be sad but the best time EVEREVEREVER!
can you believe its all almost over? It's not hitting me- which I think is a good thing?!?! who knowsssssssss
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[20 May 2004|08:35pm] |
awesome acoustic cafe!!! smithtones were awesome and so was tripping billies even if it was cut times 10000000
and fun at the diner after
phi theta psi leaving our mark all over!!!!!!!! I love you girls way too much. but I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEE being cold. I really do ; )
so maybe Ill stop being sick now....and at least I waited til ninth period to make life suck just a little bit more
BUT this weekend should be awesome. So as soon as I get through my paper and tomorrow at school...Itll be a good time!
and this was pointless and boring
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
_moonriver_
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| an awesome weekend but nonetheless |
[16 May 2004|11:39pm] |
I'm sorry to everyone for my mood this weekend/past few days.
Not going to explain but I am truly sorry to everyone.
lady peaceful, lady happy, thats who I long to be...
well all the odds are, they're in my favor, somethings bound to begin....
maybe this time I'll win
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[12 May 2004|10:31pm] |
It's not real. It can't be. Something this beautiful, something this perfect...it just can't be mine to have. : )!! But it is and it's so far past reality that I don't feel like I've stopped dreaming since that hi in the mall. : )!!!!
I MISS DISNEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wont even get into Brian and I's amazing knowledge of disney world songs and our excitment for them all.....monorail!!!
and Junior Prom is coming up!!! I can't wait- its going to be a blast!! And it starts off the end of senior year and all the many events coming up within the next monthandsome.
yay for year goals being completed and even bigger of a yay for phi theta psi!! This summer is OUR summer and today was awesome for a first meeting...thanks my sisters<3!
: )!!!
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[09 May 2004|11:44pm] |
what an AWESOME AWESOME weekend....
Started Friday with dinner with my lovely Liza <33 I love that girl so much. We ate like pigs then off to starbucks/pit stop at my house which turned into diana getting/waiting at lizas forever until we got there. At Lizas, we watched parts of 10 Things and the junior prom video- then Jonathan picked me up for some frisbee in the energy parking lot then back to Mikes....thanks to Ian for being my drinking buddy : ) It's so much better when you're british and I LOVE how we have the SAME tolerance !!! too bad Jonathan wouldnt let me sleep next to him ; ) and WHAT a way to wake up !!! (wow)
Then it was off to see Mean Girls with my girls- now I finally know what Pete has been talking about all this time ...hehe Pete- PINK ON WED! The movie was so adorable and I loved reminiscing the day I met Jonathan Bennett (le sigh) After that- Jonathan proved just how incredible he is and saved me with his kiss. After an amazing time just talking at the park, we headed to Nicoles for Shelbi and Eric's surprise party!! I'm so happy they were so surprised -props to Nicole and John for putting such a great party together! Then some of us left and headed out to CI to check out some abandoned steam house. After much screaming and attempts of getting further and further and in, Kristin (with me holding onto her) took the lead and we got upstairs...well... at least stood at the top of the steps to run back down wafter hearing all the bats and rats. CANT WAIT to go back!!!
After getting back home, Pete, Jonathan and I had the scariest experiance EVER!! We started out on shep jones (we were in a letsbespookedmood) and then we headed to the psych ward in kings park. We were driving around looking at the buildings that arent scary much more considering I'm there once a week.....but we pulled into the parking lot of the building still in use- it was there that I died. Jonathan was doing a three point turn in the back corner and we all turn in time to see a guy INSTANTLY appear and dissapear...staring us down in the meanwhile. I swear Ive never jumped so high. It was such a fun night though- one that must be repeated!
Then today was mothers day. Jonathan came here while I had my family over for brunch then we headed to his house. GOT PETER PAN ON DVD!!!!!!!!! I am soooo psyched- Ive been waiting for that to come out!! So Mike eventually came over and we watched it and spending all day with Jonathan...well, it couldn't have been more amazing
and it was seriously the BEST goodbye I've ever had. For sitting on my stoop, and thanking you for being my valentine, then making our wish on a star....it makes me remember the day I loved you, not yet actually knowing you. And it makes me realize just how each day has gotten better and better since. I miss you every time I close my eyes. And you did the smile...you have the smile.
: )!!!
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I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!
okay first was shopping with Liza which was amazing- even if both our minds were everywhere: )! and I love her- my beddie!!! (even though Ar will always hold a special place in my heart)
and then I got home to a surprise visit : ) which was SO awesome- then everyone showed up! My Nay first, then everyone else being Pete whos my JUNIOR PROM DATE!!! and then Christian, My Ar, Kevin, Karin, Brian and mickey and my Jonathan. great times eating bread and squishing in my room. then diner and then bri mickey and Jonathan and my Ar came back for some finding nemo<3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not to mention my time with Mickey after everyone left- Mike, you have no idea how happy I am we're reliving elem school and being bests once again- youre so incredible! Mickey and Minnie <3!!
It was seriously just an awesome awesome day and a great way to end my week before leaving for FLORIDA tomorrow morning!!!!
I'm getting excited (finally) : p
Its going to be a blast!
speaking of Florida, I should Pack- I'll miss everyone!! feel free to call my cell!!!!!!!!!!
and keep in mind its exactly one month from ar and me's sleepover before our disney trip : / I miss that week </3> that</b> smile : )!!!
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[21 Apr 2004|10:46am] |
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: ) I'm in forensics with my girls and I love Jess soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much and I missed Jess sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much : )
and last night/yesterday but esp last night was absolutely incredible!!!!
With my Ar, we cut out of school early. Watched some friends at Jons with him and Mikey !! as I napped : p Then to my house where we rocked out and then bball with the boys. Ari, Jump for my love!!! then tanning waking up to Kenny walking cross the field! That stang is WAYY too hott. then there were house runs and 711 and jazz choir and then sbucks with everyone
where my Jonathan and I had an amazing conversation that made me love him THAT much more. !!! :)!!!! x 10000
I'm seriously so happy right now : )!! with everything
and lunch with Mike next period!!!
: )!!!!
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[18 Apr 2004|02:08pm] |
all I want to do is go to the beach.
that's it.
then I'll get past everything else and just feel the breeze.
It'll just help remind me of how amazing life is !!!
X 20000000000000000000000000000000000
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[16 Apr 2004|09:01am] |
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except not at all....
but I dont think I can handle being home much anymore. So you'd think I'd be excited about college? and Florida? and you'd be completely wrong. UTTERLY and completely wrong.
because I suck at school. Two fucking incompletes and an F in math- that'll help things at home....
***anybody want to let me move in for a little while? and Im more serious then not.
bleh bleh bleh
Im sorry I suck... at everything.
: / and Im sorry I let everyone down. Like I always do.
but Ps...ARI I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH! you know its true
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