I can't feel the way I did before

_monaghan_ @ 2003-09-03T20:44:00

2003-09-04T01:51:03Z

Just when you thought you'd gotten rid of me, I'm back....well, so much for including an analogy. My brain can't even process.

I've more or less been hiding in Manchester doing nothing. Everyone loses touch with themselves at some point, right? I suppose you could say I became disconnected from real life and everyone for a while.

I still owe you something that qualifies as a visit, and not just being in the same town. And no, I didn't forget. And I don't plan to.

But, I'm alive. Don't bother welcoming me back.

PS: In case you were wondering about my icon, I didn't happen to turn Texan during my absence.

[Yes, I've been dead for about 28937 days, which isn't fair to anyone -- the members of not_listening, the maintainer, Liv- and Orli-shaped, and anyone else Dom happened to talk to. Seeing as how I have absolutely no idea what's happening here anymore, it might take me a few days to get back in touch, so go easy with the details.

I had some personal issues and major stress problems to deal with in my real life and had to cut down on my RPing, but I am more or less alive, however bruised and scratched (just mentally, no fears.) But, that's no excuse for not posting about it, and neglecting this journal whenever I did have the time to be online.

But, I swear that I'm back this time. I'll make my best attempts to be active while juggling school, marching band, and three-hour cross country practices. I'm just asking for a little patience.

Thanks,
-Rachel, better known as Dom-shaped]

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-25T20:43:00

2003-07-26T01:44:50Z

So much for staying dead.

AIM - dude its dom

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-21T18:44:00

2003-07-21T23:45:04Z

All of my friends seemed to have died off to some mysterious place, so I think I'll be doing the same.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-13T23:59:00

2003-07-14T04:59:41Z

I've come to the wonderful conclusion that I have no life, and I'm extremely anti-social unless I'm around my friends.

Wasn't that a nice update to clutter up your friends' page with?

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-04T13:39:00

2003-07-04T18:34:14Z

Happy 4th of July, you bloody Americans. Everyone else (like me) -- have a nice Friday.

...this time around in New York, I'm actually going to visit you, instead of just saying that I am.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-03T17:22:00

2003-07-03T22:19:48Z

Hm, what to write about? I don't think I ever thanked _laetitia_casta properly for being the first one to make me laugh in a long, long time. :shakes head: Tig. I had forgotten all about it, how terrible.

I think I'm supposed to go back to London in a few days for some reshooting of scenes from Spivs, but I'm not even sure. It'd be nice if my agent would just give me a clear answer for a change. Chances are that I probably won't be in Los Angeles for too much longer.

I suppose I should tell all you Americans "Happy 4th of July" since I more than likely won't be posting tomorrow because of my sporadic posting habits. So...go light some fireworks, or something. Have a blast.

This update really has no point, just like all my others, except that I have a new icon if you didn't notice it before.

Edit: Forgot to mention that I changed my screen name. It's might be merry now, if you didn't catch that the first time around.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-07-01T23:30:00

2003-07-02T04:44:59Z

While I still have time -- Happy birthday, Liv. I didn't forget.

Flowers?
...Actual flowers
I don't know..

Hope your day was great. Enjoy.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-29T12:20:00

2003-06-29T21:12:37Z

If you're reading this, then I'm in Los Angeles. I got a little tired of sitting around New York, so I thought I'd head back to my place and....well, sit around there instead. I really, really need a life.

I remember telling a magazine a while ago that I was going to buy some property in New Zealand and probably end up living there...now, I'm not so sure. It's a lovely place, really, but I just can't see myself settling down there anytime soon. Plus, it's even farther away from Manchester than...Los Angeles, for example. Or at least, I think it is.

Anyways, this update had no real point to it other than to say that I'm still alive -- for now. And so, I leave you with lyrics.

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see a different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Intrepret those the way you want; I don't really care what you think of me. I wonder why I've been in this terrible mood the last two weeks. Oh wait, I remember.

...I was supposed to be leaving, wasn't I?

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-13T14:58:00

2003-06-13T19:57:11Z

So. I have absolutely nothing to update about.

Talked to Orli the other night for a while about girls. It was kinda interesting, and some good points were made.

Love, I still owe you the karaoke night. Let me know when a good time is for you, or even where you're at right now.

This concludes the update from the land of Dom Monaghan.

PS: elijah__wood, when did you get here?

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-09T21:54:00

2003-06-10T02:51:09Z

I've been around. I've been taking some long walks around downtown New York at night just to think everything over.

From all this thinking, I don't think I've learned much.

I'll be around.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-06T23:08:00

2003-06-07T04:45:23Z

What in God's name happened? I leave the AIM world for a couple days, come back, and see one hell of a confusing update on my friends' page.

Damn me and my bloody horrible timing at coming online. :sighs:

If you need to talk to me, about anything, you know where to find me.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-05T09:28:00

2003-06-05T14:34:35Z

Crimeny. Why is there so much hate on my friends' page? It seems like you all blew a gasket or two.

I'm in New York to visit Liv, and yet neither one of us has made an effort to visit the other. How pathetic.

Well, I'm not in one of the best moods right now, so I'll call this the end of my "update" and I'll consider updating again later. The only point of this was to ask why my friends' page is screaming bloody murder, anyway.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-03T00:11:00

2003-06-03T05:11:42Z

So. Your life is sad when you're talking to a person more in comments than you do on AIM, even when you're both signed on.

Why..can I not shake this guilty feeling, even when I was only telling the truth? I don't see her that way, and I told her, even after all she had told me. And she accepted it. So why do I still feel bad about it? I was honest, I didn't lead her on. I didn't do anything to make myself feel like this. Damnit, here comes that cursed headache back to bother me again.

This visit was meant for good reasons. Instead, it's starting to go down the drain.

..Maybe I'll be leaving for Los Angeles sooner than I thought.

Bloody hell. You confuse the shit out of me.

This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all face down
so the placing goes slowly.
The picture's of anything other than it's mean to be.
But the hours they creep,
the patterns repeat.
Don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own.
I never said "don't go."

I've written a note,
it's pressed between pages that you've marked to find your way back.
It says, "Does he ever get the girl?"
But what if the pages stay pressed,
the chapters unfinished,
the stories too dull to unfold?
Does he ever get the girl?

This basement's a coffin.
I'm buried alive.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
'Cause you're gone.
I get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh.
I never said, "Goodbye."

Does he ever get the girl?

_monaghan_ @ 2003-06-01T03:15:00

2003-06-01T08:28:51Z

So.

I leave for New York on my flight at 9 AM. It's 3 AM, and I definetely cannot sleep at all. Always good to know that you're awake 6 hours before you're supposed to leave for the States. To top it all off, I'm getting the same damn headache I've had off and on the past two or three days all over again.

Went out for a few beers with Orli tonight at one of the pubs. It was fun; we haven't been out to do that in a long while. Filming, I tell you. It ruins everything socially except for those things you do with your cast mates. Forget other relationships. They just don't work. You never have any time. Or, in my case, you have to break up with someone in order go to film a movie or three...but then again, I prefer not to think about having to go through that. Was a bloody tough choice, you know. I'm done talking about it. ~~The realization that I lost one of the greatest women I've ever known over the making of three movies still has a sting, even four years later.~~

I cannot believe that I am flying for 7 hellish hours on an airplane in less than 6 hours, to Liv's place, to turn off the damn Halloween marathon on her TV that will be over by the time I get there.

Where the hell are Sean, Billy and Elijah? Bloody wenches had better get their asses journals soon, and fast. Either that or they can expect many, many messages on their cell phones and answering machines.

I'm learning that at 3:20 in the morning, I am not in a very good mood. And also that I like to rant pointlessly for paragraphs on end.

I think I'll be off now to try and get at least a couple hours of sleep before I have to get up and do all my last minutes chores. Maybe this bitch of a migraine will decide to leave me alone, once and for all.

Hmph. The things I'd do for you.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-05-29T22:01:00

2003-05-30T03:01:01Z

So. I read my friends' page and apparently missed the time when both of ~~my two favorite~~ the two LOTR people here were online at the same time. My stupid mistake. I always have bad timing, as of late it's been seeming to be amplified.

I have nothing to update about, because as usual, I've been doing nothing other than being a lazy bum and walking around town pointlessly. I really lead a Godawful life when it comes to excitement.

Where's Domy? -- I'm here, Liv, really. ~~The question is, do I want to be?~~ I'll be around tomorrow, more than likely.

I suppose I'll go back to sitting here and staring at the screen, looking for music to download and property to buy in New Zealand, because no one talks to me anyway.

Why has today been such a shitty day? ~~Oh wait, I remember.~~

Blah. This update sucked.

Edit: Oops, forgot to mention that I hung out with Orlando. Hm.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-05-26T21:30:00

2003-05-27T01:27:51Z

Hm. This is a pointless update, I can tell already.

I have been up to exactly nothing. Well, I have been staring at the ceiling looking for shapes with Rachael, but I don't know if that counts as something or not.

Where's Orlando? Liv is a hater.

_monaghan_ @ 2003-05-24T16:01:00

2003-05-24T20:06:16Z

I'm Dom Monaghan. I'm 27, and I've relocated to Los Angeles from Manchester, England, though I still visit there to see my family.

You probably recognize me from the Lord of the Rings movies, or possibly even that TV show I was on in the 90s, "Hetty Wainthropp Investigates." Anywho, hi, it's nice to meet you too. Or, you recognize me as the guy that everyone seems to be quite convinced is gay with Elijah Wood. Well, I'm not, and he's not. I assure you I'm quite straight.

You can catch me on damned dom m pretty much anytime. See you soon.