alluring

____you dont have a clue.

2004-06-24T00:59:57Z

anorexia nervosa, is what I'm told I am suffering from.

Funny, I still don't feel like I have a problem. I control what I eat, so does everyone. :sighs: I don't have a problem though. No one listens, all the therapists tell me it is denial. some help they are. If they'd listen to how I feel, How I think, they'd see- I'm ok.

I miss Ashley. I haven't talked to her since i was checked in this hell hole. She posted on here I see, I asked her to. So you all would know the truth, and not just believe rumors.

Some say I was checked into Promises, which is a drug rehab in Malibu. Not true, I do not, have any drug or alcohol, or eating disorder problems.

This is so stupid. i'm so angry. im so fusturated. i want to be home.

im done with this entry. ill update more later, if i can.

marykate

_________________

2004-06-22T21:06:25Z

This is Ashley.

I told MK i would write something in here for her, so you all know what is going on.

You may have already heard. Mary-Kate has entered a treatment facility. I will not say which one, or the exact reason why.

She will spend a month there. They do have computers, and phones, it is not a jail but, she most likely won't be on that much.

Try not to believe all of the rumors, I'm sure she will explain it all to everyone once she is home.

thanks-

Ashley x0

hate__it's a strong word. & i mean it all.

2004-06-22T14:24:41Z

life has this silly way of keeping you on the edge of your toes.

I have a couple rants I’d like to go on today. So here I go… No more fucking pretending, no more lies…I’m giving you the real Mary Kate.

Yes, I curse, I’m not miss perfect Mary Kate Olsen. I have problems, Ashley and I fight, I hate myself at times, just like every other God damn person. I drink, I go to parties, so does every other 18 year old. I hate my step-mom.

I hate that I can't even breathe without someone watching me. I can't even go to church without someone asking for my damn autograph. What's the point in having it? All it is, is my name signed on a piece of paper. If you ask me...it's stupid! I hate the damn media. Always exposing me, or what the believe is me. I honestly can't take it! I know it's part of the job, i've been doing this my whole life, just get your facts straight.

I hate Dave. I hate him. I hate what he does to me. I go crawling back and I don’t know why. I say I hate him, & I know he is an asshole for everything he has put me through. Then he calls, He begs me to forgive him, He tells me he loves me, he'd die for me, and all of that bullshit and I’m right back at his side. I hate myself for trusting him.

:sighs: What is wrong with me? There are millions of guys out there, why the hell would I allow someone to hurt me over and over and fucking over again. Someone to just use me. What the hell is wrong with me?

:pausing to wipe her tears she sighs.: Here I am going of on a tantrum. I apologize in advance. Don’t pity me. I don’t want it.

where is my best friend? I could really use her right now.

Not who you thought I was. :shrugs: Sorry?

you say it's your birthday________

2004-06-13T14:03:50Z

Nana na na na! It's my birthday toooo.:laughs: I'm sucha nerd!

It's ten o'clock and I just woke up. I'm legal boyssss! :winks:

Maryy-kateee

Graduate...Mk____

2004-06-12T19:20:14Z

Humming the graduation march.

Yes, I, Mary-Kate Olsen, along with my sister Ashley Fuller Olsen, am a high school graduate. As of Friday. It was so amazing & boring at the same time.

:Smiles small: Not only was my mom, dad, step-mom, and brothers and sisters their, but my full house family was their too! I saw bob, or daddy bob [what ash and I call him], it brought tears to my eyes. I'm one lucky girl no matter how much shit I deal with. I have so many people who love me, and a bunch of guys who hurt me. :rolls her eyes.:

Graduation was supposed to be on the seventh but, they postponed it because of some electrical problem. It was really nice though, long, because their were so many kids in my grade but, very nice. It was in the school gym and it was all decorated in blue and gold...those are our school colors.

So i had to of course wear a goofy graduation cap! :laughs: it actually looked cute. :winks:

Someone very unexpected showed up. Someone who I wished wasn't their but at the same time was more than happy, was. :sighs: Dave came. I don't know what to do with this kid. One minute we want to get married the next he's cheating on me! It is more than frustrating it's making me crazy! I didn’t talk to him at the ceremony.

Ashley and I went back home after the ceremony to celebrate with the famile[s]. There were a lot of stories about "I remember when you were this small...and you ran around in diapers." and the usual comment of, "Oh! Girls, you've gotten so big!" :laughs: it was cute.

My sister, Lizzie, made Ashley and i, World's best sisters! bracelets. Trent, got us Spa gift certificates! :grins: my favorite. My mom got us these necklaces, they are turquoise. :Smiles: i love turquoise. & Dad gave us money, which is great because my dad never knows what Ash and i want. We received a lot more but, I don't feel like typing it all.

Later on, we both got changed and went out with all of our friends from school. Their were a bunch of parties, it was great. We had so much fun, I honestly am going to miss these people. I hope we keep in touch.

Around maybe 12:30-1 in the morning, Ash and I were sitting at this kid, Mike’s house, everyone was upstairs and Dave called my cell. I answered it and he basically told me congratulations, that he was proud, that he loved me. I started bawling my eyes out. He constantly does this to me. Hurt me and apologies and say how incredibly sorry he is…Its killing me. It hurts me so much. & I don’t know what to do anymore. Ash flipped out hanging up the phone, and well…He has called few times this morning. I just- I didn’t answer.

:pauses: Tomorrow is my birthday, and for some reason, I’m no longer excited. I’m out though, I’ve got to go shopping with Ashley. I’ll talk to you all later.

MaryKate

PICTUREE TIME! ONCE AGAIN!

http://groups.msn.com/SweetOlsenTwins/mkenagraduation.msnw

PICTUREE TIME!____

2004-06-09T21:42:57Z

http://editorial.gettyimages.com/source/CFW/details.aspx?iid=50804978&print=true

http://www.olsen-twins-news.com/multimedia/pics/mk-accident/4bp30000_exposure.jpg

http://editorial.gettyimages.com/source/CFW/details.aspx?iid=50792707&print=true

xxxx- MK

4 days!____

2004-06-09T01:05:18Z

Just a few notes.

1- Four days til I'm legal. Woot woot! I know it's an exciting day for all those sick-ass 40 year old perves! ...is that even how you spell perve? ahh whatever.

2- I am thinking about getting a new layout, if anyone would like to make one...I'd be forever thankful. Don't get me wrong the one jen made is amazing just need a change, ya know?

3- I'm a lot crazier than you really know. :smirks:

4- How do you undercut? so i can put it my lovely accident pictures. :rolls my eyes.:

5- I'm still pissed at Ashley. She still hasn't gotten one of these! grr!

6- Mr.JT is a good guy. As you heard, we hung out yesterday night. Went to the beach it was nice, & that bike is amazingggg. :laughs: he's on his way over so ill talk to you soon.

Maryy-katee.

Just a bunch of ramblings!____

2004-06-08T01:45:25Z

I don't have too much time. Just wanted to let you all know what the hells going on with me.

As of June seventh, Dave & I said goodbye for good. He's a scumbag. Let's just leave it at that.

I can't wait for my birthday! :laughs: I'm too excited. I can't believe I'll be eighteen. I feel so much older & younger at the same time...if that's possible?

Rachel is the bestest friend everrr.

I'm going to go to the beach in a few with Justin. :laughs: On his harley. Nervous? of course! I've never been on one before! :nods:

Hm, so my parents asked what I wanted for my birthday. Honestly... nothing. Well, I don't need anything, of course I <33 gifts, I just feel bad when people give them to me. Does this make me weird?

I'm happy about Dave & I. Really. I need some new blood. :laughs:

Hm, I really wish my damn sister would get one of these. She needs too, it's kind of hard to keep in touch with her.

Oh, those rumors that I crashed my car...they're true. :bites buttom lip: I know. Bad...right? I was trying to keep it a secret...didn't work though. It's ok, I can get the car fixed & thank the lord no one was hurt! I'll put pictures up soon.

That's about it! Justin's here...is it ok to wear a miniskirt on a bike? :shrugs: ahh who cares!

x0. Mk

The countdown!______

2004-06-06T23:02:40Z

The countdown to every sick grown mans fantasy is now on! :laughing: yes, Ashley & my birthday a week from now. ;] woot woot!

Well i want a small kind of private little party...more of a gathering. Mostly just close friends and family...Ashley's leaning toward a huge Hollywood thing, but-whatever.

So my agent called me-You know how Ashley & I were on SNL...well The ratings, they were amazing. well, better than amazing. :grins: they were the highest that snl has had in the last four years. I personally think it's crazy! flattering-yes. But crazy.

So Dave brought me my birthday present early. :smiles: mainly because he said it was a gift to combine three things. Graduation, my birthday, & us. I haven't seen it yet but, supposedly its amazing.

Rachelle Jade!- We need to get together soon. I haven't like talked to you in forever. :laughs: withdrawel over herre!

Hm- I've been in a funk for the past couple weeks so I am sorry for not updating more. I have to run now, I still didn't buy Ashley's gift... any ideas?...

talk to you later. promise.

Mk

its crazy.

2004-06-02T01:00:00Z

my life is crazy. i'm beginning to think i'm crazy. Rachel i need to talk to ya. :sighs:

i wanna get _____married.

2004-05-20T00:15:42Z

dave and i wanna get married.

Dk + Mko____<3

2004-05-18T22:22:00Z

:smiling.: i'd just like to say how extremelyyyy happy i am. i mean really.

:laughs: dave and i had so much fun last night. we wen't on this cruise on the harbor. and had dinner and it was just, well :grins: perfect.

:sighs: i do have the worst blister on my heel from my neww jimmy choo's i brought. girls, they're to die for.

OH MY GOD! sorry, im in such a good mood though.

so dave like spilt his heart out to me last night. and i did as well. and i- well- i have a little secret :laughs: but, i can't tell anyone just yet. well- i can tell rachel of course.

i gotta run though. time for dinner. guysss- call my house line :sighs: my cell is broken. :grrrr: its oxinocentlovexo don't worry i'll pick up!

-Mk<33

i heart rachel bilson_______<3

2004-05-17T22:44:23Z

lol- sorry rach but, i do. you really rock.

ok ya'll i guess i owe you an explanation of why i didn't think i made the right decision about dave.

dave and i, well we we're dating for about a year. and i well, love/d him. dave is a great guy. really. he well- i dont know how to explain it but- he just knows what to do. :smiles small:

Jena. she was one of my best friends. :laughs: and one day. i walk into her room to see her and dave..well- you can guess what.so i broke up with him naturally. and for three weeks i was single. and pretty lonely. :sighs: aparently so was he.

last night i get a call around nine. it was him and he said he wanted to talk. so i said ok and we went out for a late dinner/snackyy kind of thing. :smiles small: he brought me to my favvvvvvvorite resturant. and he told me he was sorry. and how much he loved me. he gave me this whole long talk. and i believe him.

so we are officaly dating again. i mean- i dont trust him. id be crazy to trust him, its gonna take time. its gonna be hard but i honestly think hes sorry and we can work through this.

rachel was so sweet though she said it how it is and helped me out a lot. thanks again hon. partyy soon! :laughs: i promise.

:bites down on bottom lip: gotta go. dave's here.

<3 ya'll - MK

i believed every single lie you said.

2004-05-17T20:40:40Z

:bites down on bottom lip.:

dave and i are dating again. i- im not sure if this was the best idea. i mean, the guy did cheat on me.

:sighs: rachel call me later. i need your adviceeee.

everyone- i promise ill explain everything in detail later.

<3 MK

live from New York...!

2004-05-16T05:09:43Z

hey ya'll so ashley and i are home changing real quick before we're off to the after party for the prom.

We did SNL tonight. it was so much fun! i loved it. we even made fun of the lovely rumors still circulating. Eating disorders [ "Eat A Sandwhich!"].

:laughs: Rachel asked me today about the rumors. they were on the covers of tabloids again. ok one more time. no i am not bulimic or anorexic. and ash and i are crazy partiers!

im off though. gotta touch up my makeup!

kisses- Mk

_mk_olsen @ 2004-05-12T22:43:00

2004-05-13T02:49:54Z

So, what have i been up to?. well stressing a lot.

this summer, i'm moving to new york. im going to NYU in the fall. and yes so is ashley. i hate how people think thats so weird. i mean helloo. shes my twin. we have done everything together since the moment we were born.

NYU. its been my dream since i was like seven. i was so happy when i got the acceptance letter. i'm not too sure what i'm going to major in though.

Schools coming to an end. the movies out. its doing quite well actually. :smiles: i'm very happy.

hello to all the new people who have gotten a journal. ill make the effort to talk to yall soon.

so a lot of people lately have been asking me what happened to my boyfriend. to make it simple, and so that everyone stops asking. he cheated on me. :sighs: end of the subject. dont bring it up. thanks

im really tiered right now. id love to keep updating but. i promise ill update more later.

just another day...?

2004-05-10T20:56:39Z

i always get annoyed at mothers day. dont get me wrong. i loveee my mom with my heart. im so happy for my mom on mothers day. its my stepmom im not...eekk thats rough but, i just. i dont know how to explain it. maybe im selfish in the sense i feel left out. :bites on bottom lip: yall are gonna think ima bitch now.

well ashley, liz, trent, and i took mom out. we brought her to breakfast and her favorite resturant, its called...blue moon-blue st- oh jeeze i dont know! :laughs: some resturant for breakfast and then we took her over to the beach where we all hung out, for lunch lizzie made a picnic. we gave mom her gifts. she was crying. it was cute. trent made a tent and we all slept in it. it felt good to be with just our family. ive missed it.

ugh. this morning though, my dad made us all give our stepmom gifts. :i shake my head: i hate her!

i gotta run. ash and i have more promo. call me tonight.

-mk

So no one told you life was gonna be this way

2004-05-08T21:53:12Z

-singing-your jobs a joke your broke. your love lifes...DOA. its like your always stuck in second gear. and when it hasnt been your day your week or even your year...but ill be there for youuuu when the rain starts to pour. ill be there for youuu like ive been there before. ill be there for youu cause your there for me toooo..

-sighs- yeh ya'll friends ended. its sad. i was bawling my eyes out. i even went and rented The Best of Friends, volume three. :laughs: i cant get enough of it.

ive been really busy lately. i had the premire of nym last night. it went good. im very happy. then i went out with ashley after. met up with a couple friends from school.

ive been quite bored lately though. i was thinking i may have a party, that way i can get to know everyone better. what do ya'll think?

Jen-call me about the layout. and to get together girl!
Shakira- thanks for all the icons hon.

well i'm off. call me ya'll [alluringMk]

-mary kate

do this?

2004-05-06T20:10:27Z

hey guys do this. for me becauseeee you <3 me!

what Would You do if..
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I pissed you off:

What Do You Think Of My..?
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manerisms:
Family:
Body:
Friends:
Decisions:

Would You..?
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:
Beat me up:

And your final answer is??

pretty journal?

2004-05-06T03:44:32Z

i want a pretty journal anyone know how to? por favor???

quite a bumpy ride

2004-05-05T22:02:21Z

ya'll im in the limo right now. it's quite a bumpy ride. i like- just left TRL with ashley. it was so fun. i've never been on the show before so it was new and awesome. and you'd never believe who else was on! Rachel. i know funny right?. i didn't get to really talk to her too much but-we had a little thing to say together with ash for a commercial. she adorable. call me rach. we gotta get together!

ugh today was exhusting and its not donnnneee. :sighs: we have another interview for some magazine. isn't that horrible. i don't know what magazine its for! :eeep: its for overseas though.

i also have to vist my family tonight. that's not bad though. just makes me sad sometimes...ya know?. we're actually celebrating trent's [my brother] birthday. its in a few day. we wont be home though. :sighs: that's hard. i mean-i hate that. i hate that i miss things and well-trent of course is mad at ash and i-he hates us right now because he doesnt understand why we just dont take off for him and-ugh i dont know. i dont want to talk about it right now.

i had a lot of fun the other night/day. we went to tribeca film festival and also dave letterman. it was fun.

this morning we were at regis and kelly. i <3 them both. :hehe: there so great. really. and i cant wait til the next time we are on the show!

call me sometime guys? i'd love to go out soon. before i loose my mind. since, all i do is work.

haha-did you catch TRL? they had this game "know your olsens" it was stupid. oops did i say that? i mean they asked us really dumb questions. like when was the last time ashley lied to our parents. um- ashley honestly barely lies so i made it up. and then they asked her when the last time i cried was...it was today but, ask real questions like what my fav food is or something. i dont know that annoyed me.

ashley's asleep right now. on my sholder. shes exhusted. as am i. but-what can you do. i'm off though. nap time. interview. the famly. and :smile: the oc finale.

<3 - maryy-kate

the resume-yes i did it too

2004-05-05T02:51:48Z

The Resume
(June 13, 1986- )
Born in Sherman Oaks, California
Younger Olsen Twin
5'2
Portrayed Riley Carlson on 'So Little Time,' Mary Kate Burke on 'Two of a Kind' and Michelle Tanner on 'Full House'
Acted in 'New York Minute' (2004), 'Challenge' (2003), 'Charlie's Angels: Full Throttle' (2003), 'When In Rome' (2002), 'Getting There' (2002), 'Switching Goals' (1999), 'Passport to Paris' (1999), 'Billboard Dad' (1998), 'It Takes Two' (1995) and 'New York Minute' (2004)
Performs on the TV Series 'Mary-Kate and Ashley in Action!'

Why she might be annoying
Unfortunately, she attracts pedophiles.
There are many Olsen Twin clocks that countdown until the very second the Olsen Twins are legal.
In many Olsen Twin projects, she is typecasted as a girl with a guy who is obsessed with her.
She's always the first to be hit on in the movies, probably because she's insecure about being the single twin.
Tabloids report that she drinks.
She dyed her hair dark browns and blacks.
She is an inch shorter than her sister.
During the late 90's, she starred with her sister in a straight to video series of 'You're Invited to Mary-Kate & Ashley's __________.' They included 'Greatest Parties,' 'School Dance,' 'Fashion Party,' 'Camping Party,' 'Hawaiian Beach Party,' etc.
Also during that time, they put out another series that went straight to video entitled, 'Adventures of Mary-Kate & Ashley: The Case of ________.' Some of these cases were 'The Shark Encounter,' 'The Christmas Caper,' 'The Fun House' and 'Sea World Adventure'
Her nicknames are MK and Kay.
She is so thin, that there is speculation that she has an eating disorder (2004).

Why she might not be annoying
She is left handed.
She owns horses.
She suffers with ADD.
She often plays the smart girl who is embarrassed by her ditz sister.
When playing Michelle on 'Full House' along with her sister, the creators chose her for emotional scenes.

haha. yesss...my eating disorder rumor. these things are so funny. really.

-lovee-mkay

i have a drug problem; and i am anorexic...

2004-05-04T21:14:14Z

hey guys. So i have a lot going on this week. starting well-today. I had the today show this morning? any of ya'll catch it. it was fun. well as fun as an interview could be. and thankfully i had the rest of the day off.

Tomorrow i have the tribeca film festival and david letterman. sooo exciting!

On wed i have TRL and regis and kelly. E! success story is on wed too but, thats pre-taped.

On the seventh my movies out, New York Minute. I am so excited! Ashley and I are also Hosting MTV's Teen people 25 under 25. wow.

that's a lot. not too much but, still i'm kind of stressing out. Ugh, my head is killing me right now. I'm watching Oprah right now. She has stage parents on it. I'm so glad that my parents weren't stage parents. They were always so supportive. I couldn't have had a better childhood honestly. I was born into acting. I can't remember not doing it so...for me I never missed out on anything because this is all i've ever known. I've never wished I wasn't doing this. maybe that's why ashley and i are so successful.

I was online the other day and i came across a fan site for ashley and i. and well- it upset me a lot. because instead of supporting us they published all these horrible rumors on it. i know people talk. i know theirs rumors. pleaseee. its just they said ashley and i had a drug problem and we were also anorexic. people those aren't things to be joked about. Oprah even asked us about it when we went to her show last week. I was like so annoyed. but-whatever. i <3 oprah and i know its her job to ask. you know what though. at least i have ash. we're both always on the same page. we both have each others backs and thats honestly the best part about having a twin.

It was on that same site though that i found autographed pictures of Ashley and i. some of them i can honestly say were fake but, i dont know. there was this one from full house when ashley and i were 3 or 4 and it was that little kid handwriting and if we seriously signed its cute.

lord did ya'll see MTV's made? with the twin girls? First honestly they dont look like ashley and i. second i like the one girl with the blonde hair i honestly thought she had real talent. the other..i dont know she annoyed me for some reason.

thank you all who commented or have called me its really sweet of you to welcome me into the community.

i need a nap though. so i'm off to shower and take one. ill be on later. call me...and leave comments yall!

love-mk

i am the cute one...shes just my sister <3

2004-05-02T19:59:03Z

i honestly just hate introductions. i always feel strange, nervous. i don't know maybe it's the fear that you all want like me. maybe it's just that i always get nervous at times like these. for instance last week i did oprah with ashley and i was so damn nervous walking out on stage to meet her but, once the conversation started rolling i was fine. so i guess that's how this will work too.

so ya'll may know me from Full House, or some of the over 41 movies, and tv shows my faternal twin sister and i have been in. Please. do not call us the olsen twins. we have names.

I turn eighteen on the 17th of July. I graduate on the 10 of July. and well i'm missing my senior prom to go on SNL. hey it's all good.

I'm single. i honestly do not have time to date. so it doesnt upset me. of course i get lonely sometimes but- hey don't well all?

yes. ashley and i really are best friends. i'm trying to get her to get a journal too but-she's not so sure. i love her with all my heart. i dont know what i'd do with out her.

right now i'm pretty busy. ash and i are permoting our new movie, New York Minute, (check it out!) it's due out May 7. I can't wait for everyone to see it. I am quite proud of it.

i gotta get going though. time for another interview. call me sometime though. i'd love to talk and hang out. my numbers - alluringMk - oh if anyone would love to be a doll and maybe make a layout or icons for me. i'd be your God. :laughs: alrightt talk to yall later.

kisses - Mk