Beautiful alone.......

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 16:58:44 GMT

moving blog to..... http://d-mesticfuck.blogspot.com/

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 11:29:16 GMT

arrr.... tired...~ tml going out n enjoy~ whoohhooo... seems i now got new target or should sae goal of my life. my sky not black n white~! im crazy. but don give a damn. muahahaha

Tired...

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 02:10:22 GMT

whoohoo, juz back from my job's interview, will be starting to work tml onwards. past 2 days i was at malaysia. wif james n yuan. juz eat, watch movie, play lan all day long. we watch the incredibles n the forgotten. i like the forgotten very, those hu haben watch muz watch~!! damn nice man, u will sure like it. the incredibles not my type, haha, but the graphics is nice, compared to lion king yrs ago. saw batman returns preview, will be screening at 2005, will be looking forward to it, hehe. i had not slp since ytd, we go the 24hr lan shop play until 5am today n i n james come back sg liao. hahaa, the lan damn cheap so we can afford to ton there. im tired, i go slp liao~

Seven Deadly Sins....

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 06:21:09 GMT

You scored as Pride.

</td>

Pride

81%

Wrath

81%

Envy

69%

Sloth

44%

Lust

31%

Greed

31%

Gluttony

25%

Seven deadly sins
created with QuizFarm.com

yea, i agree tt i takes pride in everything. i don like to lose, well hu likes. i also don dare to take on new things tt im not gd at, afraid to lose maybe. i also envy ppl very much n tend to be like them, so call poser?

jamming jamming jamming~

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 15:29:02 GMT

woot today had a jamming session, whooohooo so damn song. after so long nv jam liao. today jamming was fun, i got my stuffs set corectly, everything was quite alright. tml still got another jamming quite looking forward to it. wish everything will be alright.

today after jamming go town slack. juz joke n cock around. hahahaa damn funny, i love the life now. freedom.

what is waiting for me

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 02:27:26 GMT

ytd didnt got time to update, n i also forgotten abt updating. ytd i slp till late afternoon, then i started to practise bass. when u r doing things u like n enjoy, time really pass by damn fast, i played 5hrs. this seems a gd start for mi. whole night was thinking abt improving on my betrayal bass part. still cant thinking of any suitable solo for myself. nvm i need more time n experience. maybe its time for mi to compose a song liao, now full of time. but maybe not when i start to work, but also donno got work for mi anot.

my life now is all not cfm, this makes mi very unsafe. hope i can find the answer soon. no more sch rules or stuffs now, damn freedom, but i didnt feel anything different.

A new chapter begins

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 06:26:59 GMT

finally, its the end of Os level. actually alos got nth much different of my life ba, i always been like this, only tt we haf more freedom. ytd after exam i went to sweelee n bought bass stuffs, ODB-3. now still testing the different sounds of it, still cant really find the sound i want. i will try to explore it when i got mroe time. ytd night da gang ton at james hse, as usual, haha. now i also quite tired ar, ltr still gonna go town again, cos my tuner spoiled! haf to go change another one, zzz.

hope i can find a job n really work very hard on my bass. wat to do, juz practise n practise everyday, i believe one day we can make it.

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 14:06:12 GMT

today wake up early in the morning rest awhile then study bio topic by topic. only studied 3 topics, im damn lazy, haha. tml then meet up wif frens n study together, should be easier. practised bass, only some songs cos i donno those scales practise or wat. donno wanna go learn bass from teachers anot, got time then sae ba.

now watching channel 8 9pm de show. hmm, tt ying ying is my type of gal, whahahaa. now dreaming abt wat my dream gal muz haf. she only need 3pts tt i wan then i very happy liao, haha. now can only wait lo, wait till im all geared up, look steady then can go steady ma. hahaha. better don think so much liao, still got 2 more papers to go. gambatte my frens...

Plastic Tree - Melancholic. this song nice~ i like its vocal in this song very much. haha, donno wat kind of feeling is tt. continue to look for it ba.

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 14:02:14 GMT

today juz finished geo paper, its hard. everything seems so hard to mi now. im lost. well, recently bought alot of toy figure, mostly eva. i think i should stop buying those stuffs first. i still need to buy myself a efx n clothes all those. today bought my shoes liao, not bad quite like it.

still got abt 6 days to the end of O, but my time seems slowed down. maybe cos everything doesnt look fine. something is juz wrong with mi. theres something i also don wish to mention here. can i continue my life without it?

really need to buck up alot on my bass, i long time didnt really go touch it. very looking forward to the coming gig.

Wed, 10 Nov 2004 02:29:18 GMT

ytd nite talked alot wif paullyn. guess she is very right n making senses there. hahaha, donno she can do tt =x. thanks paullyn~ i now know wat i will do n wat im doing. life will still goes on n time slip by. juz stay by her side n let her be happy....

n today my 2nd eva will be coming to mi~! whoohhooo, n alvin also buy the silver eva, which is damn nice man. i like tt silver one very much too, but too bad its the last one there. but i wont forget hu intro mi eva, so i will let it to him. "wat r frens for?" hahahaha

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 14:27:29 GMT

ok, im both sad n happy. after so many exam papers, i got no hope on ss, eng, maths. i failed tt 3 subjects. well, blame no one but myself. im sad becos of tt, nvm, im toking rubbish out of here. blah. tml i buying Evangelion-02-, weet for $40 cos keldy help mi buy at metro so got offer $10. tt make mi super excited today. then now deciding whether to buy the 13th Angel online for $35 anot. but mostly yes, haha.

well, wat can i do.. i ruin everything myself. there is chance, but i give it up. i also dono wat im doing.

bored

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 10:38:03 GMT

Listed below are some warning signs to indicate if your child may have gone astray from the Lord.

Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child:

-Frequently wears black clothing.

-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.

-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick or nailpolish.

-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles, ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols.

-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.

-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music. (Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)

-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically.

-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.

-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves Satan.

-Takes drugs.

-Drinks alcohol.

-Is suicidal and/or depressed.

-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation. (This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.)

-Complains of boredom.

-Sleeps too excessively or too little.

-Is excessively awake during the night.

-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to vampires promoting the idea that His light is of no use.)

-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.

-Spends large amounts of time alone.

-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)

-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.

-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this.

-Misbehaves at school.

-Misbehaves at home.

-Eats excessively or too little.

-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this.

-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)

-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs that your child may watch.)

-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.

-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.

-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.

-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.

-Expresses an interest in sex.

-Masturbates.

-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.

-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism and Buddhism.

-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases.

-Claims to be a goth.

If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.

~St. Mary's Catholic Church

-------------------------------------------------

omg, i got 18 points out of 39 above -.-". nvm, i like it. got this from one my fren's entries, find it funny. long time soon i writing my journal. cos ar, Os coming (i should stop saying Os Os Os, so damn nagging), partly also i was busy playing games. lol, donno lei exam more near i more wan to play game, jialat liao la. now got new aims after Os again. well, at least my life got goals now. there is also something i don wish to think abt it la, becos its not going to turn out gd i guess. i wont do anything to it too, im tired.

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 17:28:08 GMT

i guess everything is still alright. life goes on. exam ard the corner. need to study hard for this, i always told myself. i always remind myself of her. it gives mi a power to do watever things. strange isnt it? how much i wanted u to be mine.

btw, today i dled some Code of Vulgar[ism] Tour04 of Deg mp3. very nice, they rocks. still searching for the videos though. toshiya forever~

Thu, 21 Oct 2004 13:37:27 GMT

i think i hurt her again n again, shes disappointed at mi? im tt useless. maybe all this is juz thoughts of mi only, not true, but im just tt useless. y i cant be more gentlemen n daring? always so lazy n petty, always so hum also. donno whether im real man anot. maybe this is not the so call love i know ba, love can make one do anything, but y i cant. is the conclusion tt i don love her? tts means i nv love anyone b4... im cold blooded.

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 13:13:02 GMT

sian, today no much mood to do anything. very fan ar. been think of alot of it recently. today's study program i wasnt studying at all, mind is outside thinking of her, guess here guess there. -.- i think i juz lost the game, maybe she didnt even know i started the game. nvm, partly is myself useless ba, i didnt do anything to it, then got chance also screwed it. nvm ba, let nature takes its way....

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 13:58:04 GMT

hmm, gd morning i got today. again, sweet memories. juz special, don ask mi y. then go sch for o lvl practical exam today. waited so long at the canteen, say wat 9:15 start, drag until 10 then start. the practical exam was quite easy, but still got some qns tt i donno la. then after the exam muz go up to the AVA room n get locked up till 2pm. watched Troy n 2 Fast 2 Furious there. hmm, both were very nice but still prefer Troy.

today kept on listening to this song titled "Hallowed be Thy Name" covered by Cadle of Filth. crazy drum beats, crazy guitars, crazy vocals, overall the whole band is damn crazy, like it alot.

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 17:17:25 GMT

hmm, i think our studies in mos burger is getting more useful. everyday i learn something. yea~ cheers for myself~ i nv study so hard b4 in my life. lol.

ur mind is the most powerful thing in the world, control n use it well. bought all 3 Deathnote already. although i watched it damn lots of time, i still find it interesting. i like the writer alot, able to think out "L" this character, fantastic. L is so damn clever, admire him alot, then the writer hu write L should be more clever ba.. i suppose

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 14:13:24 GMT

this few days was busying study wif my frens. no time to update. now juz draw abit of time to write, need to relax for awhile la, damn tiring. hmm, actually also got nth much to write abt. i found Kimage advertisement, introducing ppl to join them. i wanna join~ but there got a NitecITE thingy, donno need to be a ITE student to go anot. ltr gonna check out their website. im very interested in hairdressing, i love beautiful hair. i don really wish to go poly lo, i think its more stress than secondary sch. ITE should be better, more freedom n less stress ba, somemore got my interest in it. but donno y so many ppl look down on ITE. ~_~ anyway, juz hope tt everyone can get into watever goal ba. gd luck

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 07:06:25 GMT

phew, now then reach home. ytd nite was at james house. our whole gang went for jamming at the afternoon. the jamming is quite ok, can be better. then wanted to watch exorcist but, was all full, no time slot-.- walk ard at bugis at first, james bought a special bag, i like it too. yuan bought some accessory, cross necklace. wanted to buy back my yoshiki shirt one, but don haf liao~ zzz. sebas bought hide shirt. then we head to orchard liao. walk ard the standard routine. this time i nv buy anything, poor liao. but the coffee club in kino axe ppl ar~ damn exp ~_~. then we all head to james house liao lo, play majong, play com. miss her...

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 13:33:54 GMT

hmmm, today is fine. usual in sch, no life in sch man, lol. except somethings, always so beautiful. after sch went sebas hse learn maths, cos his maths is gd n mine sux. learned qutie alot today. took many maths exam papers back home do. hope i can really improve my maths to a B3 by O's... im starting to get afraid now.....

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 12:45:14 GMT

damn sway, today come back home then my dad tell mi my yoshiki shirt kena stolen. wtf, think tts the last one in M? don let mi know hu is it, if not his skull will be ripped open *censored*. today sch damn sian man, after sch still kena conselling. damn bo liao one, but some words of his is true. its time to wake up, O is damn near...

tml will hand yuan the money n ask him help mi buy boss bass overdrive at malaysia. cos overall there is cheaper. donno can make myself to study ltr anot, sian...

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 15:56:24 GMT

today nv go fo sch. need some rest, im broken down. mentally cant take it anymore. but the rest of the day is worst. wats happening to mi. damn boring, listen songs to kill my time. sleep eat sleep eat.

recently i went crazy for a manga, 'Death note'. its abt a guy get a death note which he can kill any human wif it, as long u know his real name. cool isnt it? i feeling like killing ppl after i read it, lol. the characters n story is great, i like it alot. not too late to buy it, its only book 3 now.

i did some Death note wallpaper, cos nth to do.. haha, can use it as my LJ wall. look nice?

"Only death is true."

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 14:13:23 GMT

today sian sia. very lazy to do anything. morning wake up, listen music, practise some songs, research abt other ppl songs lyrics. found some nice eng song today, hmm very emotional. 'Alter Bridge' this band is very gd, i like their songs alot.

ar... this few days alot of ppl sick. even myself. blah tml maybe not going sch le ba. hope she will be alright too...

"What's right is wrong
what's come has gone
what's clear and pure is not so sure
It came to me
All promises become a lie
all that's benign corrupts in time
The fallacy
of Epiphany "

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 14:42:13 GMT

today juz had a jamming session, played mainly on Roiser n Riyuu. not bad though, my bass sux today, i mean always. gotta improve it after O. hope to get 1 more fender USA jazz too. after jamming go town walk walk. bought some jrock stuffs at misc again. toshiya poster n hide keychain. love toshiya's saku img, wanna try tt hairstyle next time, look damn nice on him. *still dreaming to be like him* lol.

haiz, really cant wait for O to be over. i don hope for much. learn quite a few things today. interesting day...

Thu, 30 Sep 2004 09:11:34 GMT

quite interesting day for mi today. had lots of fun in sch, all we did is chating n playing ard haha. got back our class photo, i bought 2 bigest size, cos last yr liao, very memorable. doing stupid things in lesson like using bluetag to do the "x" logo. after sch went watch movie wif my frens. we watched the "Dogdeball" hahaha, damn funny, those hu haben watch muz go watch ar. ok, i done part of my song's lyrics n here it is... 孤单爱。

爱像烟火一样，
一时光芒产烂，
爱不是永远的。。。
爱像一部电影，
高潮也有低潮，
开始也有结尾。
我们的爱结束，
主演的戏停止，
最后留下的是。。。
我孤单与寂寞。。。

this is only my first attempt it might not turn out gd. for those hu cant read chinese in their com, here is the then english version.

Love is just like fireworks,
just a flash of time,
its not forever...
Love is like a movie,
when there is high, never miss out the low,
it will come to a end,
only left with something...
My loneliness...