So, I'm posting through my phone. This is pretty thereputic. I feel kind of down. I have no idea why. Maybe, I need a nap. I miss someone. I won't mention who, but I do. And I hate that I do. I want to stop obessesing. I'm having the typical female agnst. I don't know who to talk to about it. I've mentioned it to a couple of my friends. But, I don't think they care. Or really understand how deep the situation is to me. I don't think I would want to tell anyone really if I had the oppurtinity too. All I know is that it feels crappy. I feel used. I feel like a statistic. And I feel like that specific person wasn't what I thought he would be. All in all I feel heartbroken. I guess that's what it is in lamest terms. I suppose its good that this happened. It wouldve been awkward to have it continue, that's one. The other thing is that it grounded me. It made me realize that I'm not as hot and etheral as I thought. That the next girl could, can and is better looking, smarter and could hold someone elses attention better than I can.