wishful thinker

Its only you beautiful, I dont want any one. I cant choose its only you.

2004-02-27T02:59:15Z

Roses.
Lips.
Smiles.
Cigarettes.
Music.
Lust.
Uncertainty.
Beautiful.
Trust.
Betrayal.
Mixed messages.
Thinking of someone else.
Wishing this person would ignore you.
Wishing the other person would aknowledge you.
Wishing you were another person.

FREE HENRY!!

2004-02-16T04:09:51Z

what a week oi vei....one of my friends got kicked out of school and might be going to juvi...YAY!....grounded this weekend so i had ooo soo much fun...valentines day was just grand because theresa slept over and she is my lovey dovey lol trees....tomorrow is presidents day and it may very well be the best presidents day in all the history of presidents day...woot woot...ok time to go...bye!!

like BAM mother fucker!

2004-02-03T04:29:47Z

woah today i didnt' go to school and i loved it everyone go to skaters world on saturday february 7 at 8:30 to see a really good band called polonius. flinch and gimp will already be there and if you dont know who that is when you get there just scream out our names and we will be happy to talk.....if you dont want to scream out our names we will be the two hot mother fuckers who look like lesbians. thats all for now. go to the show.

I'M SINKING LIKE A STONE IN THE SEA.....I'M BURNING LIKE A BRING FOR YOU BODY!!!!

2004-01-31T04:47:54Z

WOAH havent updated in a while....so new things in my life? YES I'M IN LOVE WITH A PSYCHO!!!lol well i guess not love but when you cant stop looking at someone and they haunt your dreams but you hate them with a firey passion does that permit love? lol o well i'm happy today woot for happiness yay!!! and the beat goes on dah dah dah dah dah dah and the beat goes on! woah hyper ahhh ok i'll stop now....ok now brand new is in my head thanks to the flinchiest with the mostest!! thats right fellas her eyes will not stand still so there is no chance of ever getting cum in them....thats a plus in case you didnt know...ok i';m talking nonesense now time to go...fal la la for now!

becca stop moving your eyes! i cant they just do that!

2004-01-28T04:26:32Z

ahel corazon (11:11:31 PM): i remember being like ten or eleven. and there was a boy who lived down the street and we use to hang out all the time. and one day we were walking his house and the sun was setting in all these shades of purples and reds, and he took my hand. and asked me to be his girlfriend.

and i said no, and let go of his hand. and then he moved away few months later.

me and becca seem to have these similarities in life where things that happened to us long ago happen to parallel with things that have happened to the other one as well. its kinda weird if you compare our lives they are ironically and strangly alike in so many ways. i think we were twins that were seperated at birth. we even have twin pains considering at the same time we will both be having chest pains even though we are only 15 and 16. we also say things at the same time all the time. its kind of disgusting in a cute girl friend kinda way. hey but at least i can now say i have a little sister...i mean at least i beat the shit out of her sometimes as if she were one.

love ya flinch!

eeekkkkk!!

2004-01-21T03:38:37Z

i have nothing to write in this journal....i failed two exams today....go me...ok now im a little pissed...i hate when people with hold information...

_milkit @ 2004-01-15T15:43:00

2004-01-15T20:43:56Z

You are "Sabotage". You are very loud and
often blame others for your problems. You have
a short temper and distrust authority. You are
well-known for your actions. The skies the
limit with what you could accomplish in your
life.

Which Beastie Boys song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

WOAH...too true!

sun beams arent meant to be like me...

2004-01-15T20:36:31Z

"snow is a good reminder that no matter how hard i try
god will always write better songs than i do."
-Jesse-Brand New

i made a deal with the devil,
that first i'd slit his throat,
and then he'd slit mine,
so we could run hand in hand through hell,
like children on the sand.
but the deal feel through,
and now i'm gargling blood.
i should have never trusted him,
he's just a typical man.

whenever the door slams on my aol sounds i jump....i'm very jumpy

2004-01-15T04:14:48Z

I HATE BROTHER ROBERT!!!! a week of detention....YAY!...o god i have to go snowboarding with Dooza.....gonna bust my ass soo bad....lalalala....new therapist tomorrow yay!....ok bye

i think i have a tape worm

2004-01-14T02:43:38Z

fall in love as often as you can.
get you heart broken more often.
the more you break it the smaller the peices get.
once you find someone who can put those peices back together dont let go.
dont ever act your age.
weather it be more mature or more childish.
just dont.
make sure you walk in the rain and talk to strangers whenever you get the chance.
you'll find you accumulate some interesting stories.
try to offend someone at least once a day.
its a guarantee they will remember you the next.
make sure you make someone laugh at least once a day.
they wont necessarily remember you but you'll remember them.
do whatever you feel like at that moment.
fuck repracutions and consequences.
to hell with regret.
its a wasted emotion.
everyday you learn something is a day worth living.
everyday you dont is a day worth staying in bed.
always remember, bad things happen in life that you cant control but thats no reason to shut out the world. there are reasons for the good and the bad and no matter how fucked up things get, even if everything doesnt work out in the end, at least it will all make sense.

Susan: becca your forehead is bleeding Becca:yes i know but dont tell anyone

2004-01-14T02:24:42Z

strangers give the best advice. its true. i mean they dont know you so they dont care if they hurt your feelings so its always honest and truthful. so when a stranger tells you that you should get over the guy that your held up on because your a really nice cute girl and if he's not showing you the time of day it's his problem, chances are you should listen.....and in my case grab that stranger and bring him into a laundry room....i hate writing i have just come to that conclusion....if i never had to write anything longer than a single paragraph again in my life i would be the happiest person you would ever meet

_milkit @ 2004-01-12T18:42:00

2004-01-12T23:43:08Z

You're India!

A great thinker and leader, you have a great deal of power despite
being really poor. You like movies, cows, and you probably are a vegetarian and may
even be a pacifist. You've probably been moving away from pacifism lately, though,
as you get more and more defensive that everyone around you is trying to hurt you.
How about a nice game of chess?
Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

Dots Not Feathers Bitch!

home...this is a quiet place where you should be alone....

2004-01-12T04:24:48Z

omg! i finally find a guy thats hot and nice and thinks i'm mad cute and hot and have a good personality and something always fucks it up! jesus christ this sucks!!! oooo well....steph gets her lisence tuesday...yaaaaaay!.....school tomorrow....nooooooo! time for sleepy time...

and it's back to the therapist yay!

2004-01-10T05:31:33Z

its driving me crazy that i haven't talked to him....it really is. and everywhere i turn i hear his name or someone mentions him or there is some kind of connection to him with what i'm talking about....i hate it. it also pisses me off that to him it just doenst matter...he doesn't give a shit that he hasn't talked to me pretty much in a week...it probably wouldn't bother him if he didn't talk to me every again. why does this always happen? whatever it's time for bed

you think you know but you have no idea...this is the diary of susan....yes its fucking boring.

2004-01-09T04:33:57Z

just when you think your truly happy nothing happens and you get depressed. i think thats the thing that sucks the most. being depressed doesnt necessarily mean that something bad happened...it can also mean that nothing good happened. i have a yet another new years resolution: no more expectations...of anything. if you dont have any expectations than there is no way that you can be disappointed and if you dont get disappointed than you cant be unhappy...oi this chain things really piss me off....

_milkit @ 2004-01-07T00:42:00

2004-01-07T06:02:18Z

I am 55% Punk Rock

The intelligent punk. Tuff and Smart. I may be able to maintain a train of thought long enough... What the fuck was I talking about?

Take the Punk Rock Test at fuali.com

Woah! I'm fucking Henry Rollins bitch! Woot! So I guess that makes me crazy punk singer turned bad actor? OK by me!

I am 31% Geek

You probably work in computers, or a history deptartment at a college. You never really fit in with the "normal" crowd. But you have friends, and this is a good thing.

Take the Geek Test at fuali.com am 59% Goth

Oh My Goth! You Goth, Girl. There is a good chance I am bi. Freakiness pumps through my viens, but I can still laugh at myself.

Take the Goth Test at fuali.com
I am pretty dirty, all right and, I reek of teen spirit... I would sell my own children for a moldy hotpocket, man.

Take the Grunge Test at fuali.com

Alls I gotta say is...R.I.P. Kurt!

I am 53% Tortured Artist

Art is significant in my life, people are scum but I have the capicity to deal with it. Give it a few more years and I will either forget about art or hate the world.

Take the Tortured Artist Test at fuali.com

Ok so I suck at art, but that's not the point...I'm still tortured!

I am 63% Ska

Well, maybe I'm trying too hard, maybe I'm not trying hard enough. I shouldn't forget my roots, and remember that punk and reggae wouldn't exist without ska.

Take the Ska Test at fuali.com

Ok so I'm not so ska considering the only two ska bands I regularly listen to are Sublime and Less Than Jake....but they both kick ass so it's ok!

I am 68% Evil Genius

Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings.

Take the Evil Genius Test at fuali.com

I may be 68% evil but I'm also 68% genius!

never have i wanted to scream something so loud and never tell a single soul before in my whole life

2004-01-07T05:38:51Z

I am 65% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com

lol i'm sooo emo! the sad part is.....its true....but for all you other sappy assholes out there.....CHEER UP EMO KID!

and the beat is definatly going on.....

2004-01-04T22:33:11Z

alas....i was right....i hate it when that happens.
i should really lay off the alcohol. if i keep going at this rate, by the time i can actually legally drink, my liver will be deteriorating.
bad new years resoution....next year i'll just be like everyone else and loose weight, quite smoking, and get a better job. but i guess that i actually followed through with something for once is good...even if it does suck alot.ewwwww....school tomorrow...would someone like to shoot me? i'll provide the gun and bullet all you need to bring is your finger.

why does she have a blow up doll in the jacuzzi?

2004-01-02T03:59:01Z

wow last night was the craziest night.....just dont ask.....found out my new year's resolution....i'm going to take more chances. i mean you only live once and i'm only going to be 16 once. if you dont take big risks you dont get great things. im gonna get hurt but in the long run it will be worth it and if its not well then at least i'll have some good stories. i'm gonna live it up and fuck whoever gets in my way. if you dont like it then fuck you.happy new year. lets hope 2004 is better than 2003.

yuck....greek olives.

2003-12-31T05:03:46Z

dont you hate it when guys just stare at you?
i do.
it drives me up a wall.
greek food is good.
i miss my ducks.
dont you hate it when guys are prettier than you.
i do.
it drives me up a wall.

chinese movies are crazy....

2003-12-30T22:10:16Z

there was a 35 year old guy here with a baby before and aparently enough he's friends with my brother.....coinsidently he works at a diner i was at a couple of days ago and wanted to throw me out....go figure....i dream of the most random people and then i tend to see them....i hope i dont see this one....oi vei

i cant stand the sounds of video games anymore

2003-12-29T05:44:12Z

crazy weekend......drunk saturday....peed outside of some kids house....went to another kids house.....went to a diner....saw my brother there....almost got kicked out of diner...lost $100.....found $100.....passed out at friends house.....woke up and went to friendlys on sunday....came home.....becca called....went to city....got lost...ended up in harlem....then downtown.....got ice cream....cab took us back to jersey.....thats about it....still cant find my under-roos though.....still in love....

_milkit @ 2003-12-27T17:38:00

2003-12-27T22:41:32Z

woot! new icon thanks to lisa! and i now have a total of 4 friends!...wow life just gets better everyday.....christmas sucks!..... cleaned my room commpletely!....(becca dont go into shock but even my dresser is cleaned off i'll take a picture)......going to party tonight bye for now!

_milkit @ 2003-12-25T00:26:00

2003-12-25T05:26:55Z

What Classic Movie Are You?

give me space so i can breath

2003-12-24T06:49:47Z

fun fun fun!....me and joe did a little smokey smoke and then we went in to the city.....woop!....we might go back friday and that means i get my belly button peirced....i want my nose though....but whatever.....i think i'm in love.....bye