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i am home from school... i feel like crap.
today is jessie's birthday, and i really want to call her, but shes mad at me right now, all over a dumb myspace, i mean come on! a myspace? please. just because i didnt list her as one of my best friends, how dumb is that. if she wants to know the reason that we arnt friends anymore, here it is, im not the one who went off and got pregnant and didnt want to hang out because i was tired. im not the 17 year old with a kid here. i still have my life, she doesnt have one anymore, shes got adult responsibilities now, and she has a kid to take care of. shes the one who messed up, not me, and i dont know why she feels the need to got off and say things like i didnt care about our friendship, well newsflash, i DID care, i was the practicly the only friend she had during her pregnancy, and i was there when she called. and if she wants me to say that her having a kid is right, im not. i think its the STUPIDEST thing she has ever done in her life. these are the years when we are supposed to be having fun, going out with friends, and boyfriends, NOT taking care of a baby all day. i hope soon she realizes that im not the one who messed things up. and now shes like i have aj(boyfriend) and elizabeth(baby), im sorry, but everyone needs friends, and i still want to be her friend, she doesnt know that its killing me that shes not in school anymore, we've been really good friends since 9th grade, and now shes not here. it crushed me when she told me that she really was pregnant, because I KNEW that, that would be the thing that gets in the way. i miss her, i wish she would realize that, its makes me sad that she would completely throw away our friendship, just because of a stupid myspace, thats the part that makes me laugh about the whole situation, a myspace! this is stupid, and i really do miss her.
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